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Day 368: I worked on my GIS project, helped my mom getting the hoover back to the shop, washed the dishes, did Duolingo, took a walk, read outside in a park, read back at the dorm, watched a webinar about C.G. Jung and played board games in the evening. Day 369: I finished the book I was reading, did Duolingo, sent my GIS project for some troubleshooting, wrote down some blog thoughts, worked out, took a walk, cleaned my room and sorted out the laundry.

My social life picked up after I quit gaming, but I think there's a certain lag between how successful am I at what I do and how well I can present that to others. I think I set up a lot of things well than the majority of people my age, but at the same time I get to discover more people who are doing even better than me who won't let me slack and become too arrogant. I've been wondering whether I masturbate without ejaculating too much. I eventually came to think that sex is a creative endeavor after all. Perhaps it is a "tax" for getting everything else done, because the drive that gets me to do all the blogging, reading, uni work and all the other things is at least partly sexual too. In a way, I am a bit scared that having sex again will make me more lazy, though it could make me even more driven too.

I also think it has something to do with the complexity of the thing you do. Just about everybody can appreciate or at least understand that a player in football scored a great goal or made a great pass. I can compliment you on that Voltorb, because I used to play a lot of Pokémon, played the TCG and watched the series, so it struck a chord with me. But if you design a structure in less than a half the normal time, I can't really appreciate the beauty of it, because I know nothing about it and my compliment would look untrustworthy. All I know is that you are efficient/good at what you do, but there's no emotional attachment to that. Humans are assholes and we like that emotional attachment 😄 Is there anyone at work you'd like to get the compliment from? Someone you'd like to start a compliment ping-pong here and there? It obviously can't happen if you hold no respect for the sender.

What I find odd is that people generally hardly ever get praised for doing well at their employment where they work, for example, 40 hours a week. It's mostly assumed that you do it for money, therefore it requires hardly any additional recognition. I think that hobbies are much more effective at getting recognition, because we don't need to do any specific one of them. Therefore they are 100% us. I got complimented on my blog a few times, even though I do not think I put in more than 50 hours into it yet. So far I spent about 4500 hours "making money" in official employments, but I can't imagine having someone come to me every week and genuinely say they appreciate what I do.

Day 366: I had an extremely productive day. I worked on my uni project (I think it is half-way there), read, went for an exploratory walk, published an article on my blog, worked out, did the groceries, played football and relaxed in the evening. Day 367: I read, visited my grandma, helped my mom transport a water-based hoover and did the laundry. --- I started this diary a year ago. No speeches, but at least here's a funny story: In the evening, I noticed a tick-like bug is attached to me on my butt. I got rid of it, however I wasn't 100% sure if I got it out right (to avoid infection) and I heeded my friend's advice to get it checked at the ambulance. I felt a bit like Forrest Gump during all that, but I am happy my curious case made a few people chuckle, including myself 😄

I think as long as you do everything well enough and you enjoy doing those things, I'd advertise for all of them or at least throw them in as hobbies. Myself, I'd throw all "acting, public speaking, improvisation, stand-up" all in the same box for a creative artist such as yourself and it wouldn't strike me as odd. You don't work a 9-5 job, so I think it overall makes sense your portfolio is more diverse. I think after gaming I lost the ability to cling to a single/a few activities too much. Yesterday, I worked on my university project, went for a walk somewhere I never went before, watched an old British comedy show, studied Russian, published an article on my blog, worked out, played football and read a book. All that is who I am, even though I can't do everything I want to every day. The great thing about all this is that I do not crumble and die if any of those things gets somehow "taken out".

What if she's as good at being a psychopath as you are to not make it known? 😄

Welcome back.

Day 364: I worked on my GIS project in the morning, read and visited my parents. I also went for a walk and played board games in the evening. Day 365: I worked on my GIS project, read, took a walk and had a nap outside. --- The days are both long and short at the same time. The good thing this week was that I got started on the GIS project and I find it easy and even enjoyable to be working on it so far. I make an effort to either go out or work out every day and I'm successful in that since the New Year. I want to do both the next week though - walk around for an hour, sit around/meditate outside for (half) an hour and work out for at least half an hour too. After I am done with the GIS project, I also want to start writing on a more regular basis, be it either my blog, my biography, plans for the future or whatever else. I feel that I can't get away with random bursts of inspiration at this point. The book I am reading currently keeps me thinking and even writing a bit already.

I guess it's been a month, how are you holding up? @DaBest

Damn, do you still have data limits regarding the total amount of data? I could understand that in 2005, but not nowadays 😄

Day 362: I began lurking on the NMMNG forums again for inspiration. I worked on my GIS project, watched Jocko Willink, did a survey on yourpersonality.com, took a walk and watched a webinar about property development. I also got into a new book the girl exchanged with me, called "Love's hidden symmetry" by Bert Hellinger, while I gave her the one I just finished before. Day 363: I read, worked on the GIS project, went for a walk, played football and watched Monty Python in the evening. I also worked out plans for both this new starting relationship and Forex, in case they won't go the way where I simply win and everything goes swimmingly. Vigilance.

Be sure to share the Voltorb again, I love it! 😄

I like it too and I will probably use it for my bachelor thesis. I plan to continue the studies afterwards, but it's hard to tell what happens next 🙂

I actually backed up my diary here by downloading every page of it. I suppose you can do the same 🙂 I think the main thing is to find a girl who is interested in chatting with you at least a few times and to revisit and fact-check topics you care about from different angles. You don't need to explicitly ask her out for a date to recognize if she's interested or not.

Day 359: I worked on my GIS project for uni, watched a Peterson video, worked out, did a bit of Forex and went out for a walk the girl again to chat. Day 360: I read and then I visited my friend who works in the finance and we set up and appointment the next day regarding a long-term investment plan. I visited my grandma and my brother and I played card-games in the evening. Day 361: I visited my friend regarding my long-term financial plan, we finalized it and got it up and running. I cycled on my bike, had a quick workout outside and read. I had a webinar in the evening about psychology. I didn't manage to work on my GIS project though. --- I think these times are one of the more trying on my psyche ever since I quit gaming. I think it's a good test though, whether I can keep myself together and stay true to myself. If she's truly intrigued in me, that is all I got and it's the best way forward anyway.

I think it is, unless you plan to write daily/professionally. I might actually want to write daily, as I am writing my full biography and plans for the future. You can show the blog to friends as well later on too and perhaps they can identify with it too. I was being a bit cynical with not being original, but after all, we can't know something we haven't been told. Human = genetics + environment.

I'm happy I started my blog, even though it sometimes feels like I am writing something I identified with elsewhere rather than producing something extremely original. I generally only write when I feel motivated/inspired, but it's better than nothing. I feel like I either do something daily OR almost never 😄 Ironically, I was able to find a girl on the dorms that intrigues me I wouldn't have met otherwise thanks to the quarantine. Life's strange.

Day 358: I watched a thoughtful video, finished the book I was reading, did Duolingo, took a walk, shopped at the grocery, watched a bit of Jocko Willink, planned my next week, worked on my blog, did a bit of Forex, read an article about late X early specialization in life and had a good workout.

It is the same for me with Russian, but luckily I have some Russian-speaking people around me on the dormitory, so I sometimes listen and talk to them. Duolingo is good for getting the hard knowledge of the grammar/vocab, but it's still necessary to get out there and use the language actively.

Day 357: I did Duolingo, some paperwork, checked my mails, read, visited my parents, had a chat with my neighbors and had a light workout.

Day 355: I worked on my blog, did some Forex and watched a related webinar, watched a light-hearted theater play, went for a walk and played desktops until night. Day 356: I did Duolingo, cycled to a shop, relaxed outside, took a nap, went for a walk, read, cleaned my room. I went on a nice date in the evening, so I'll see what comes out of that. I'm vigilant.

Day 354: I worked on another article for my blog, played football, did a bit of Forex, set up Mozilla Thunderbird and sorted out my computer desktop. I also finished watching the fourth season of "The Expanse" and I think the third season was the best one 🙂

As for Prague itself, I dislike it. It is based on the fact I've only ever been there when it was related to one-day work trips and it's 3-4 hours travel from my native Silesia. Czech ethnicity is a tricky thing, because while Czech is a Slavic language, a lot of people in Bohemia have German ancestors and their facial features are different. I feel good about the fact I am a white Slavic Czech and I wouldn't trade it. I might need more context/more direct questions to answer you properly though.

@Erik2.0 Here's an interesting thought. Part of being honest is posting recent photos/bio of you and who you are now. I think if I watched anime for an hour a day, I'd include it in the description that I like anime. If I watched it for 3 hours a day, I think a photo showing some related activity (e.g. a drawing of anime characters) would be warranted. If you like to watch TV for 5 hours on weekends, put in that you love watching series X, Y and Z. If it scares/disgusts someone, so be it. But it's part of you and you have to be honest in a smart way about it, so you get the matches you deserve. I'm using it myself and I like it. I think if there's one disadvantage of it, it would be that you can enter only separate photos rather than your whole dating profile at one and it's up to you to figure out the chemistry between photos that shows the story you want to tell about yourself. In other words, you might be quite attractive on a gym photo, but I think it's almost always going to score less on trustworthy/smart. I also think if you want to be serious about getting a profile up, you need someone to help you snap a few photos of yourself. I agree here 100% on both. Yeah, every time I see a profile like that I think to myself: "Well fine, you are 20 and beautiful, but is there anything else to you than that? Every other girl looks as good as you do."