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Yeah, I think everybody has some quirks that are especially noticeable when we first start talking to the person. In my native language, I sometimes use advanced words (especially if they have an origin in English) or even use an English word, if I cannot recall it or if the explanation in my own language would be too long, but I have to know the person is decent in English as well. Despite that, I like to throw in the occasional profanity. Nobody tells us these things when we grow older though. Good job on talking to them 🙂

Do you want your own website? I write on Blogger. If anything, you can always use notepad to back your text up. It's just that money is a shitty value to pose with and attract others, yet at the same time money means power to do anything in a democracy. No wonder Plato put it on 4th place out of 5. There was a Simpsons episode where Burns wanted to make Bart his heir by using all his influence, money and power too 🙂

It was a nice article. I agree with the fact that a problem never really goes away and that you can have only an "upgraded" version of the problem. Warren Buffett also has financial problems. I think 99% of people wishing they had his wealth would either freeze up and let the money get eaten up by inflation or had an aneurysm in the next 5 minutes. I hope you get that blog up soon 😄

Hello! If there was a "featured" category for posts here on the forums, the two @BooksandTrees wrote would be there. Feel free to check out and post on a few other diaries or to even send a PM 🙂

Welcome to the forum! 🙂 Forex is about trading currency pairs online, either buying or selling. My goal with it is to find another means of making money, so that if everything goes south, I am not stuck in a low-paying job I hate. I'm still on my demo account and observing how all of it works. I actually got into it because of the quarantine, as I found myself with more time I needed to spend on something potentially useful. I would think the reason Forex (or trading for that matter) works is because the markets are unstable and the prices of currencies fluctuate.

No problem. You know I am already doing that on my own regardless, but I think anyone should be able to depict at least a few things. It's a good way to spend a part of the day and realize we're not stuck. Good job on the porn front. You'll be a famous You-tuber yet! 😄

Day 382: I worked on Forex, did Duolingo, went through the old messages, worked out, pondered about compassion, took a walk and read and had a webinar about psychology. --- I came up with a definition of compassion as "thinking and sensing that someone has gone through a similar experience as you have and wanting to support them". I think this was what I felt towards the girl for a few days after that last walk two weeks ago. Shook me up a bit, but I didn't do anything stupid. Now I watch actions again. I'm vigilant.

I agree with guys above. I think 4 months is a long time to be skulking around your house. You can think of this as training for your profession. Some people you'll like and some you won't. It is going to be your job to try and help them out regardless. Is there anything specific that bugs you about the girl? Is she too chatty? Is it her physique? Is there anything at risk by talking to her? Is there anything to gain by talking to her? Is it just you projecting your disapproval of your mom's choice to rent onto her? You have to be more specific than "I'm just going to continue feeling bad." Getting good things done doesn't necessarily have to feel good.

I managed to complete my GIS project for university, pound the drums after 4 years, get back to the gym on the dormitory, finish two books, invest some of my money and I found an interesting girl to talk to sometimes.

Welcome to the next thread where we share the good (or perhaps even neutral and bad?) things that we made happen the last month. Given the current situation, everybody had to go through a rude shakeup in the past several weeks, but humans are good at being adaptable just like cockroaches, so we are bound to come out of this on top. Write a brief paragraph or two (or fourteen), or just a statement about something you're proud of yourself doing last month or a milestone you reached!

Don't worry. Life has a way of bringing people you need and you'll know once they'll arrive. You are important 🙂

Day 381: I worked on Forex, went through the old messages, visited my grandma, ran round with basketball and had a light workout. What I liked abut reading Nietzsche yesterday was him taking some serious shots on Christianity, the society it produced and how that affects us today. I feel my horizons broadened a little bit again. I also found an interesting English word: abut - verb - (of an area of land or a building) be next to or have a common boundary with.

Yes, I definitely feel my life is more colorful, since I quit numbing myself with gaming. I can now own all of it. The bitten nails, the anxiety, the calluses, the feeling of work well done, the good habits or the bad ones.

Day 379: I worked on my monthly report, had a Zoom call with my friend in Forex, went to visit my parents and then I had the two guys I met in March who play on guitars to come over to jam a bit with. I managed to get to the gym in the evening too. It was great to pound the drums again! They have a couple of their own songs they are working on and they wanted to find a drummer, so they'd know how'd they sound with drums. I think I have a knack of knowing how songs progress overall. There are no immense expectations either, so if someone makes a mistake, we just laugh it off 🙂 Day 380: I got my monthly report up, did a bit of Forex, worked out at the gym, went for a walk in the park, read, went through the old messages, did Duolingo and chatted with people on FB. I also finished watching "Yes, Prime Minister". What bugged me about it a bit was the fact they seemed confused whether each episode was a standalone or whether it was a series, but I had a ton of light British fun regardless.

Haha, me and my brother used to play a lot of NBA2k games back when I was around 15. I even got a basketball that I have with me now and the shoes, as I went for basketball trainings for a while, but it was too competitive and try-hard environment for me back then. Hopped around with the basketball in the past week a bit too 😄 I find that the enjoyable ritual to do with eating is... watching something 😄 I tried doing this, but I felt like I was rushing the food if I "did nothing" during it. Food + an episode of series anywhere from 20-40 minutes is not only a way to get myself fed, enjoy the flavor (if it's not oats 😄 ), but also a way to relax. If I downed the food in 15 minutes, I felt as if I was working all the time. Is there a specific goal for you to achieve or is it just "time efficiency"? Could just stare the hell out of them. That'll teach them!

Hope all is well with you @seriousjay 🙂

I remember having these all-too-real dreams at times too. The intensity when I'm in them is great and in the moment I believe everything that happens, but minutes after waking up count as years.

I'm using the template I used the last time. 6/4/20 - 4/5/20 "L" will stand for the (last) plan for this term. "T" will stand for done this term. "N" will stand for the plan next term. Books: L: Finish "Tactic and Strategy in Love" and start reading "Rich Dad Poor Dad" by Kiyosaki. T: I finished "Tactic and Strategy in Love" by Plzák, "Love's Hidden Symmetry" by Hellinger and started reading "Beyond Good and Evil" by Nietzsche. The first book was mainly about a possible approach about how to conduct in a relationship, the second one was about important partnerships overall and the last one is packed full with ideas that sometimes flow over my head. N: Finish "Beyond Good and Evil" start reading "Rich Dad Poor Dad" by Kiyosaki. Got swayed by the psychology of love rather than the psychology of money. English - Personal + Business: L: - T: Just me and the computer for the most part. N: I have an interview coming up and a plan to cooperate with one of my friends in the business during the summer. I should have some classes beginning mid-May. Hard to say, given the current circumstances. Family: L: I think it's true to say that I find my family members more dear when I am more detached from them by living on the dorms. I get to see them just enough to be caught up on what are they up to. I think it works that way for most relationships, except for when people live together. T: Business as usual. I don't think anyone is freaking out. N: Maintain the relationships as they are, I'm happy with them as they are. University: L: So far there is just one big assignment due in a month. I'll try not to be stupid and get it done in a week or two, so I won't have to worry about it. T: I got it done almost completely, but I couldn't wrap my head around some technicalities, so I requested support. I sometimes attend the webinars, but it's nearly not as engaging as if we had the real classes. N: Hard to say, given the current circumstances. Being social: L: - T: I meet people at the dorms in smaller groups and play desktops about once a week. N: Hard to say, given the current circumstances. Exercise/movement: L: I exercise in my room now, though for lesser periods of time than before, but I also take walks into the nature more. I try to get both in during the day. T: The past month was fairly irregular; sometimes I took a walk, sometimes I exercised and I played football about once a week. N: Go to the dorm gym daily, since it opened up. Getting back after it. There's still enough time during the day to take the walk after too. Russian: I am still on track on Duolingo (231 days streak). Forex: L: I wrote my friend that I am willing to put some 10 hours a week into educating myself on the topic and I'm confident I can manage that. T: It's been going rough. I'm on where I started on the demo account and I wasn't putting in the time I wanted to either. N: I was able to catch a second wind in the past few days and I'm gonna try a different approach. I wanted to give this three months and right now I am half-way through these. If I won't have the results I wanted, I'll quit. No regrets. I don't desperately need this to work for me. It's like with gaming. It might work for others, but it doesn't work for me and it doesn't even need to. Women/dating: L: I am on the dating apps, but I'd prefer just normally going out to meet women. I will probably keep them around after the quarantine is over as passive scanners. I think I have this game and trends figured out. T: I quit the apps two weeks ago, because I wasn't getting the results I wanted for the time I invested. I also met the girl and I wrote about that above. N: Be cool with whatever the outcome is and take it easy. Life's enigmatic. Sleep: I started getting up earlier, so I get up at 600-700 instead of 700-900. I tend to go to bed super early though; sometimes I spend in bed as much as 9 hours, instead of 7-8 before.I think I might be sleeping too much and I paradoxically get more tired and lethargic because of that. I'll see how having gym back influences that. Projects/misc finished last month: GIS - university (90%) money investment Projects/misc upcoming this month: gun license - on hold, quarantine Thoughts, ideas and additional comments/gratitude:

I find cardio to be boring nowadays as well. I was able to get 3000 meters in 12 minutes 3 years ago and I could likely do 2700 nowadays. If I absolutely had to run for an hour, I'd rather go outside into nature or a park, rather than to sit on the bike in a gym. I'll look into that. I do not really have any metrics or research yet, all I did was to just hit the gym every day for a few months. I think it's more about the notion that one DOES exercise than the definite results that might come over time. There are millions of ways how to exercise though.

Already on it 🙂

I think that's true; we don't start building a wall, we start by laying a brick and another one tomorrow. The last couple of big projects I had took me a few dozens of hours to complete, but I'd hate my being if I decided I want to finish them in a few days. I wouldn't be surprised if all those big ambitions and plans to be recognized were fully interchangeable with something more ordinary such as being around people you enjoy. That kind of personal recognition is difficult to come by.

I don't think those are six-pack activities anyway. From January to mid-March, I did a few thousand sit-ups and I can now see shades of it. There is a lot of other exercises though.

Day 377: I sorted out my emails, did Duolingo, went outside, read in the park, worked through some my old messages, watched an interview with Ray Dalio about the current economic situation, cleaned my room, went to the gym, cooked, listened to music to relax and went to bed early. Day 378: I did Duolingo, ran around with the basketball outside, went to the gym, wrote here, went for a walk, worked through some my old messages and watched Sapolsky's lecture on hereditary non-genetic traits. --- I'm happy and grateful that I can work out at the gym again, even if I have to spray the disinfection everywhere afterwards! I'm currently at about 70% of what I did at the gym before, as I tried to mitigate losses due to the no-gym period.

I am going to spill my proverbial beans here and try to sort out my thoughts regarding the girl I sometimes write about the past month. I've been in contact with my friend about this in more detail, but I'll try to state just the facts/actions here. The story is in fact pretty simple. I got talking to her about a month ago, she liked my blog and we went for a walk a few times. We share some of our past, hobbies, opinions etc. I became increasingly attracted to her thanks to that. We also share some general guidelines on how to behave in the future. The "issue" here is that she dates one Erasmus guy and it's something I've known since I met her. I have a lot of thoughts, speculations and hypotheses, but regardless I think the best idea for me is to detach and become comfortable with the situation I've never been in. Relax. Do everything I normally do. It is what brought my attention to her and her attention to mine after all. Experience is what counts. I'm in control and everything is fine 🙂

I agree. The idea is that we have to be independent to then take care of our parents later on. It's an irony, but our parents really should take care of us to make sure we won't need them in the future. It's a story from "No More Mr Nice Guy" as well that a man eventually has to "let go" a bit of his relationship with his mother to "make room" for a new woman who is going to enter his life. Otherwise something alike what happened in the movie Crumb will occur. Anyhow, moving or not moving is totally up to you. My story is that I left to another city to study and started living on the dorms when I turned 19 (with a roommate). I moved back home after 18 months, lived with my parents for another 14 months (quit gaming at month 11), lived in Iceland for 2 months, came back to my parents for 3 months and now I have my own room on the dorms for 5 months. The last 3 months I lived with my parents I felt very strongly that there was no space for me. I had nowhere to go and nothing to do in the area. I was getting mad at them for treating me like a child or an associate, depending on which one was more convenient for them. Even though my move caught them by surprise, I think today everyone benefits from the decision. I still see them weekly; we have family lunches, do favors for each other, they give me food or household goods etc. I think a good idea could be that if you find a comfortable place to live in on your own, she can use the money she gets from renting room(s) to support you or some other similar plan. It might cost her more now, but there is a greater chance you will be able to support her in her later years.