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  1. karabas

    Ninety Days Worth the Pain

    Yep. Your flaws are not you, because flaws can come and go. They're not essential to you & you shouldn't identify with them. If you accept that, then it becomes very easy to get very "tactical" about it: focus on how to eliminate one at a time. Never heard that before, but that's awesome!
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    Karabas's Journal: Part 2

    Day 7/120 |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| Pomodorro Lvl 2 (56/100) Sleep before 12am: 3ish (longest streak: 17) No phone in washroom 39/120 Umra resolutions (50%): 10/30 30-minute study: 8/90 Work Hours: 6:00 (9:10 this week) Ok. Went to sleep slightly past midnight. This is a second night in a row I'm counting it as a win, so tonight I gotta get to sleep before midnight or I'm restarting that counter. Everything else going OK. I have a ton of work and super behind on all my clients' stuff, primarily because of the relapses.
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    Mohammad's Journal

    Not to worry! What was the trigger? How were you feeling before it happened? Nostalgic? Tired? Bored? You need to analyze what happened & make adjustments to your detox plan to prevent it from happening next time.
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    JustTom's Journal 3

    Actually, in retrospect, we're talking about the same thing here really, aren't we? Which is: don't identify with your flaws. Your flaws are not you, you are something bigger than that and you show love and want what's best for this "bigger" you. Sorry for the rant lol, I get carried away sometimes 🙂
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    JustTom's Journal 3

    There are two issues here. One is that unconditional love doesn't entail a lack of criticism. You can love yourself and admit that you have flaws. Otherwise, just go out and game until death do you part! Secondly, what is the "self"? This is a metaphysical question, obviously. In the spiritual tradition that I belong to (Islam), the "self" or the "soul" is one's potential for perfection & Divine communion. The flaws are not part of it and you shouldn't identify with your flaws. You should identify with that potential for perfection that you have. The flaws simply prevent that potential from becoming apparent. So, as I understand it, loving oneself would imply loving that perfection that one can uncover in oneself. But if you mean to say to not see the flaws as flaws... that's an entirely different thing and has some problematic implications...
  6. karabas

    Ninety Days Worth the Pain

    Don''t try to fix yourself all at once. It's an easy way to be overwhelmed with one's flaws. Focus on one or two things that you can slowly improve on and work on them every day (like this detox). You might be mindlessly browsing, but at least you're not gaming. Fix the gaming first, then focus on other problems. God rewards according to one's intentions, not one's results. You don't need to be perfect, just have to strive little by little towards perfection 🙂
  7. karabas

    JustTom's Journal 3

    That's the spirit 🙂 Glad to see you back bro. That's how my recent detox restarted as well. It just so happened that I stayed away from videos for a few days, but I'm more committed now. So hopefully it'll work the same for you 🙂 You've got this!
  8. karabas

    Mohammad's Journal

    It's really important to get down to the core of the problem. What triggered you to want to play that single game? Can you avoid it in the future? Also, you now definitely know that you can't just "play one game", so hopefully you won't get caught like that again. That's really interesting. Might try that next time I have a craving!
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    Karabas's Journal: Part 2

    Day 6/120 |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| Pomodorro Lvl 2 (56/100) Sleep before 12am: 2 (longest streak: 17) No phone in washroom 38/120 Umra resolutions (50%): 9/30 30-minute study: 7/90 Work Hours: 3:10 Well, yesterday was a crazy day where I ended up starting work at something like 8pm. Not at all my fault, so I'm not worrying about it. On the plus side, I've gone to bed early the past couple of days! Honestly, once I tasted what it's like to stay up after morning prayer and how much I can get done in one day, it's really hard for me to not want to do that every day. There's just no comparison with my late-night sessions. I have another non-work obligation today, but hopefully the rest of the week will be productive.
  10. karabas

    Karabas's Journal: Part 2

    Day 4/120 |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| Pomodorro Lvl 2 (56/100) Sleep before 12am: 0 (longest streak: 17) No phone in washroom 36/120 Umra resolutions (50%): 7/30 30-minute study: 5/90 Work Hours: 28:05 this week (5:15 behind schedule) It's been somewhat better last few days. I haven't relapsed mostly because I've been too busy. But that's good I guess? I'm also having some pretty strong gaming cravings, for the first time since August when I last gamed. That's worrying me more than my struggles with this video detox. I am NOT going back to gaming man. I just can't. To be fair, the thought of having to pay for games again (since I deleted my Steam account) does sound like a huge hassle & waste of money, so I'm hoping I'll just ride it out that way. Sleep has also been better. Last two nights I've slept at around 1am (instead of the usual 2-3am) and yesterday I was ready for bed before midnight, but my wife wanted to discuss something important so we ended up staying up a bit. Yesterday was also the first day I stayed up after morning prayer until I went to bed at night and it reminded me of just how much I can get done if I can just get my sleep straight... gotta work on that. The 50% goal for my spiritual routine has been working well also. It's not difficult to do and is not time consuming, so I have fewer excuses to put it off.
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    JustTom's Journal 3

    Earth to @JustTom 🙂
  12. karabas

    Ninety Days Worth the Pain

    Hey @Lea, it's been a few days. Everything OK?
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    Mohammad's Journal

    salaam bro! welcome back, glad to see you're back on the detox 🙂 if I could offer a word of advice: try to spend more time on the journal. it's not just about keeping track of the number of days. you need to be monitoring your feelings & cravings, what makes it worse, what makes it easier, etc. Keep it up even if you relapse: you can asses why it happened and plan on how you're going to do it better next-time. In the long-term, this really helps you make progress. I'd start with reflecting on why you relapsed the previous time and what you're going to do differently this time to address that problem. Also, as a fellow Muslim, I'd recommend doing the prayer of need (salatul hajjah) at the beginning of your day & ask for help to get over this problem. And obviously you need to have basic spiritual routines, like Qur'an, istighfar (asking for forgiveness), and salawat (sending blessings on the Prophet ﷺ), even if it's just a few minutes of each every day. Hope this helps!
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    Karabas's Journal: Part 2

    Day 0/120 |||||||||||||||||||||||||||||| Pomodorro Lvl 2 (56/100) Sleep before 12am: 0 (longest streak: 17) No phone in washroom 32/120 Umra resolutions (50%): 3/30 30-minute study: 1/90 Work Hours: 9:20 this week Meh. I keep falling into watching random stuff. I'm not even that into it, I think I'm just really tired. I definitely feel that way. It's not super bad right now. I'm managing to be mostly productive so I'm wasting maybe an hour or so a day on vids. It's not optimal, but I don't have the willpower to get myself to re-commit to the detox at the moment. I think it's down to my irregular sleep. Need to reign it in.
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    JustTom's Journal 3

    Oh hey! I was going to follow up with you and see where you're at. Glad that you're back (even if just to post). What is it about life that spikes your anxiety? What are you afraid of facing? Also, maybe this is a sign that your life goals aren't motivating enough? (Cue my normal pitch for figuring out your metaphysical beliefs since they're at the core of everything, but you know the drill :D) It can also just be fatigue. I've relapsed myself and I haven't had the energy or motivation to properly re-start my detox. I think I'm just tired of constantly pushing myself. I figure if I get proper sleep a few weeks straight, I should be back in it. So it's just a matter of getting some rest sometimes. Fighting yourself all the time is exhausting.
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