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Day 2 The second day of my animated detox and I feeling great about but I m more concerned about how this weekend will play out. Few changes I have made to my original routine 1.Focus on mother day gift 2.Movie project 3.Japanese food cookbook 4.Learn Japanese AS of right, my movie projects are what taking priority and so that what I will focus on from here on out. Today I went to gym listen to faith-based stuff and that was fun and have dropped out of bible study I was going to new one that closer to me and has people more my age and lessons I learned from my previous one plus a new event in meetup and Eventbrite showed up so I will be trying to go to that event as well. So doors are opening and all I had to do was close another, plus I feel more energized to work on my own projects now more than ever rather a random browsing and will be coming off keto to do those recipes in the book. Another reason for the detox is now I will see people as they are rather than having animated version of what the person should be. So that it for today Grateful: God Church New social group family Life

Day 1 This day of one of my animated detox which is no animated movies, cartoons, comics, anime, manga, magazines, etc. for 90 days. So Why am I doing this you may ask? Well, its because after doing some reviewing over the last few months and freeing myself from gaming addiction I noticed that I was consuming and not creating and not really going anywhere in my life. So let's start from the beginning it was not till pokemon that came out on TV in the 90s that I became so deeply engrossed with buying the very product and when I got Gameboy color it was downhill from there and I had everything, plus I use to watch a lot of cartoons on TV as well. So as I grew older the more obsessed became having anything related to Pokemon or Digimon and I did not like my parents watching these shows with me either. So I kept doing into one day my parents hid the stuff away from me to focus on school. I was miserable and to do this I use to have hullanations of seeing actual pokemon and doing some crazy things. Then in 2003 I got saved under production called The Messiah at one my church and baptized that year and decided, none my parents made this decision for me but I made it myself so I decided to burn everything related to Pokemon and Digimon to crips because I did not want anyone to go through what I went through. So I watched many cartoons and movies on tv and theaters at times mostly because they are about clean as you get without getting foul lang. So I cont, this till about 2005 where I discovered youtube and watch cartoons online where I could revisit my old shows and watch new ones. So I started watching old shows back when high-speed internet was not a thing yet. It was not until 2005 that I reintroduced anime in my life, the first one I saw D.N. Angel for some more mature anime but never going beyond a pg 13 limit. So I started a routine on sat, from 2:00-4: 00 pm where I watch 4 animes at times for quite awhile and eventually moved to night hoping to recapture my childhood a little bit. In 2015 I discovered visual novels in which I could interact with these anime characters I had fallen for and most everything around me was not real, I thought those character more real than a real person. Then in 2017 during the gaming detox, I started to keep this up bumping 4 shows to 9 shows almost and that about as much as I can handle then bumped to 7 shows. And keep doing it until I realized I was not accomplishing anything and I was relapsing in internet browsing and as at the time I was looking to get a VR headset so I could engage in this anime characters even further. So, in conclusion, I decided to do a 90-day detox all things animated and did not realize how addicted I was until I started deleting all my cartoon subscriptions which were either anime based or cartoon based and never really focused on real life. So what are my plans for this detox 1.The Bible TV show 2..Work on mother day gift 3.Get web series going 4.Release My movie project in July So Basically making an exception to the rule to have the Bible TV show and this something I had planned from the begging of this year because faith-based stuff encourages me so that why and originally it was going to be till July but I moved it forward. So what can I watch well any live action movie, tv show, or youtube video but outside that I cant watch anything else and this very restive of me so it not like I m trading one for another, and another reason for it is because it change my focus on what real people are rather than cartoons and anime are. So I decided social connection without realizing it and so that Why I have started this detox today to get rid of this layer, These will be an exception to the rule but 1.Manga cookbook (for making recipes) 2.animation software (my own creations) 3.facbook group 4.sctrach (learn to code) Grateful: Family Life God Church pc our dog That it has a wonderful day

Day 251 Found out something the other day I did not know you could do and explains why I went through what I went through. The thing is yesterday I did not know you could be eased facebook activity in the search bar, I had never done it before and never heard you could do it. This also explains why I was going getting advertisements for games and stuff as well. Though because I did back one game they want me to back another game on Kickstarter which, to be honest, would be nice but not worth it to have one little item though neat it expensive and I have moved on from it, (That and I don't have the windows to run it) So the reason I think I relapse like that has I still had hint video games on pc sort like you 've done cleaning and your 100% it clean only to find you missed a spot. So I cleaned out pc, facebook and everything on pc that reminded me of it I think we're in all clear I hope. I hope I have not missed anything. I have worked on a couple of projects today as well so that it for today and new fast tomorrow Grateful 1.Faith music 2.Church 3.God 4.Family 5.Life

I guess my advice would be rather than thinking of yourself as the other person about their life, their goals, and dreams and then maybe they will talk to you which you tell them what your dreams are. The second thing I found its an app called Eventbrite and it one the best apps for me to find events to do in my area, Just type in your city and location and you should be good to go. I hope this helps.

I like to think of this way, what did you enjoy the most before gaming? Is there something you did between gaming you liked to do? Think of this way what would you like to do and make plans to achieve your goals and dreams.

Hello GLawrence welcome to the forums, I have a question for you is developing a game gonna help you get to achieve your goals or is a trigger to keep gaming? ASk yourself is this worth it, not say video games are bad but look up cam videos on triggers and cravings.

Hey Cam Adair I m not sure why you choose to give up coffee but it must be for a good reason. I myself have gone off of coffee twice but went back on it, I can say this though withdrawals are the worse giving you a headache that almost unbearable, but once you get past that you seem to feel a lot better I know when I never had caffeine or coffee in my I felt more alert and awake a lot. Some advice I could give is trying hot shower in the morning to wake you up or cold shower either works (for me hot) in the morning to wake you up. 90 days is not easy and I only did 21 days the last two times I did it. Hope this helps.

Thanks, Dannigan I did watch the video and helps a lot. Days 234-250 I have relapsed a little more but I think I know what going on now. So I started rereading my journals again cause I wanted to find where I relapsed and where I went downhill, but what I found is a theme in all of the Journals that I did not see before. The two themes that kept coming up were Self-dought and growing up. I was shocked to learn that seemed to be the theme here. So basically I have created unconscious mentality not to grow up in mind even if I m growing older and still maintain that childlike mindset and, this one of the roots of the problem I found and that when I build momentum like this year I become self-doubt not believing in myself. So this the reason I relapse in looking at VR, anime VR, VR headsets, games, etc. I only played one which was a demo at star gazed on sam gear VR but that about it. So now I know the problem and I have the solution and over the last few days, I was asking myself why I am waiting? I should deal with this now. So without further ado, I will be doing my cartoon/movie detox starting may 1 instead of June and couple of reasons for that. 1.Why wait? I need to get this over with and done with otherwise I m gonna keep being stuck in the same position 2.The other reason is if I do return to anime I would like to do reviews and stuff before the anime convention so that why I would like to end August 3.The expectation to the rule will be my animation projects and manga cookbook. 4.I have a question about this cause I would rather go cold turkey than do this but do think by only accepting faith-based cartoons, comics, and graphic novels should be allowed? I have gone back on forth on the idea but not sure on it. So may 1 will be media detox to the extreme which means it will be no cartoons, no anime, no faith-based cartoons/comics/graphic novels, no manga, no comics, no animated movies this includes CGI movies. What will be allowed is any live action show tv, movie, etc. this something I did while back but made the mistake doing it no cartoons, anime, movies both live and animated so that why I m only doing live action I need some reward system confession time: Over the last few weeks I have not followed through on my original routine and I hoping this detox will put me back in place plus by narrowing my distractions down I can focus on my own projects, and dreams, Plus I try to return to my original routine as well making live action shows, tv shows, youtube, facebook on Fridays only to put even tighter straights on me, books are allowed during the week reading books, With News being the only other exception and email. so email and news that it I hope this helps explain some stuff. So I m shifting my focus sooner rather than later. I was going to do some reviews but looking at the situation and where I am at if I do something soon I will definitely relapse and I have taken the liberty of taking all expect few vr apps off though may go ahead and delete them as-as well. So to recap I m doing Media detox of animated movies, cartoons, comics, graphic novels, anime, VR, tech channels for 90 days. The only exception will be Manga cookbook, and my own animation projects, but all live action movies, tv shows, books, will be allowed during this fast and this applies to youtube to which I unsubscribed to anything related to animation both on phone and youtube and facebook, expect one group which uses the assets for their projects other than that it, it will be new beginning and maybe during this new fast I will grow out of childish ways and become the person I meant to be. Grateful 1.God 2.Church 3.Worship 4.commiuinities I m apart of 5.Life That it for today have a wonderful day

I would stick away from any gameification games during your detox. Like someone told me don't rely on an app to get where you want to go, rely on yourself what are some necessary steps you want to accomplish write them down and figure out a way to integrate them not saying apps are bad just don't be so reliant on it.

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Days 228-233 Okay, I gonna do another reflection time: Reflection Time: A few weeks back I relapse a little by downloading anime lap game where you just sit on anime girl lap then felt really bad and got rid of it. I have also started seeing my old habits come to light as well. So I started asking the question why am I relapsing, what am I want, why do I want to return to gaming and what does gaming have that I desire the most? As I started asking these questions I began to realize that social anxiety is one of the roots of the problem and this has to do with anime as well. Since I have never really been a big social person myself and finding it hard to talk to people as well, even if they talk to me I still felt empty and seemed to cling to a person without meeting new people even though I go to social groups all the time or the ones I know. The one I going to tonight I have a feeling will be better. The second thing is this had to do when I was younger when I was bullied as kid because a kid I was always loner and I still remember some people saying you never amount anything and I think that has scared me so bad that I cope with anime and video games all the time, I have never dealt with these emotions instead I would put bandage on it every single time. Even though I feel encouraged by others, I still feel empty. This brings me to my next point and what I found out about this relapse and that is I envy and Jealous of everyone on youtube who has successful youtube channels weather be gaming, cartoons, anime, even in church I always saw everyone moving forward and yet I can't seem to move forward myself. This seems to be the reason why I will start well at first then drop off later, it because unconsciously I believe this. It seems extremely hard to accept these emotions rather than masking them from anime, cartoons, tv, etc. I want to have planned for the future but all my plans seem to be stuck in my room and I hate that and would like to get out more. There a few things I have been considering is buying a laptop so I could take it public places rather sit home so I can get work done. Though I do not even trust myself with internet anymore. Sure it seems like I have a plan and I can do it to extend then all of sudden I stop. Though I glad I did relapse because this relapse brought out these emotions that I did not know I have heck I even envy Cam for his susscuss. Though a lot of times I will trade one thing for another and I need to accept that life is not that way and accept what has happened has happened and moved on. It seems hard to accept that fact. Mistakes watching gaming VR, VR headsets, and just having those things. going to church less and I think that was keeping in alignment as well so starting this week I gonna go more often. I still plan to do the anime/cartoon fast in June and I really do not want to do it which makes it perfect heck I even confused anime from real people sometimes, and envy everyone in anime. so this something I thought to share and lessons I learning don't be sad of relapse as cam said, try to figure out why? So I think may have the most underlining issue or root cause of it and it also explains why to Isolate myself from other people and pokemon was a coping mechanism for that. grateful 1.Gamequitters community 2.Stopgaming 3.God 4.Church 5.Life 6.grandparnets 7.New social group

changes to the plan I won't be doing the python book but instead learning scratch programming partly because it will be way easier to learn and hopefully build math skills.

Thanks, Dannigan Days 225-227 Now I want you to realize something in my last post, I never mention live-action movies or series this because these types of tv shows and movies will be allowed during the summer fast and since I have very little live action movies this makes it even better. The second reason is sometimes we need to put ourselves (or at least me) where were forced to do something some else or a call back to reality and not fantasy. A few years ago I would do fast but unlike everyone else I would look over the year and see what I did the most wether be internet, video games, or anime/cartoons and that would be the thing I fast for that month but over time I stopped that and this why Summer fast is so important to me, I reviewed myself, what is keeping from going somewhere and said since this is a big distraction lets fast this, Also, I m going to be adding some new things in here. I will start to learn python which originally I wanted to design worlds for my online game was why bought it, but now I can learn it to have something new to learn as well build math skills in addition to this, Plus a math book I have that I will practice in. Now I do see a problem with VR and so what I want to do is when I start making a video in VR (someday) that we can offer way out when they're inside a VR headset. Because not everyone is willing and I know this might sound like my game addiction kicking in but there another software on steam I was using called TRynobuilder in which you build visual novels which I tried to learn a little bit of never got too far on that one. We could not say we should go do like a game quitters scenario of visual novels showing reality from fantasy to get people out of the immersive experience if they want to escape. Yes, there still 3 or experiences would like to experience myself but 2 of them are not out yet so I wait and focus on what I can do now. The other thing I did try to learn was a blender and still might because I got some basics down. So what this week look like well I need to step back and stop doing what I was doing before making expectations so starting today and every Sunday I will call it elimination Sunday what this basically means all social media expect facebook, game quitters, youtube will still be open for research purposes as well as class I m taking. The Monday through Thursday I will make no exceptions to any of it but game quitters and news will still be open but that about it and email. 1.Monday Japanese, plus python and math book 2.Tuesday: Orginal movies/projects 3.Wednesday: Reviews/edited reviews 4.Thursday: Grammer girl 5.Friday: social media and everything opens only 6.Saturday: everything open 7.Sunday: Limited research youtube/facebook/google no expectations to anything else. So I returning back to what I did in Jauarnury and I hope this help prioritize things too. So until next time have a wonderful day Grateful: 1.God 2.Bible 3.Family 4.Life 5.Opportunities 6.Job 7.ddirection

So at this time, I started realizing I was starting to waste my time with these visual novels because they took me to that place Japan without taking me there, and some fond memories of some of them. I realized I would never get anywhere doing these things and at time I think game utters had kept popping up and looking for way to move forward, So I decided to finish my last tour on my online game which finished on August 2017 and signed up for game quitters in September 2017 and starred the detox from gaming and boy was that struggle of emotions to go through though I did it. Heck I would have never found the job I m at if had kept the route I was on. So I started improving myself a lot over time and now brings me today which I have that same feeling in which the software I m using for youtube is sort obsolete not quite but not new or innovate anymore and a lot of software like that has died out so I try to figure how to use it without voice actors/actress. So what does have to do with anime or cartoons well over the last few weeks I have had this feeling again that cartoons and anime seem to be a waste of my time and that blocking me from moving forward in life.Though I do enjoy it I think I need a detox from it so that I put myself away from this escapism and back to reality. So summaries this I had 2 layers the video game layer and anime layer providing escapism and so in June I will start on this new detox with a new journel, Also I still plan to go to the anime convention in September but I would rather have quality relationship with cartoons and anime rather than obsessive one, but why June why not start now, well there a couple videos I want to complete and reviews before doing so, The only exception to the rule will be my manager cookbook but the rest will be 90-day detox and another reason I chose June is since it summer most people are out of school it might be a good way to improve my social skills rather than now. The I did this once before and I had a rocket of emotions I could not handle for one month and I did three this includes in animated movies, films, cartoons, or youtube videos I have this way I can focus a lot more on my own goals and return back to reality and society. Still learning. I should not I was looking at VR at them and wanted a VR headset right before the detox still do but was expensive and did not have the hardware well now I have the hard and there already better headsets for pc of course so I wait till I build new pc next year. Since I upgraded CPU and GPU last year. BE VERY CARE WITH VR as well because of that another trap. Just be aware of it. For those who do play visual novels, I have to say be VERY CAREFUL! because even it not considered game it still has the same effects of a game for escampism this why I have not played any for the last few months. Sorry about the long post but I wanted to show you where I cam from and how anime effected me and is still is, (I do have Crunchyroll account) though I will be absent from it for 90 days, That it for today and thanks for reading this long post. Grateful for 1.God 2.Family 3.Church 4.New social group (dont want ruin my chance by being addicted to anime or cartoons here trying not to miss the oppurtunity.) 5.Life 6.Bible 7.our dog.

Days 221-224 I think I gonna keep this page open from now on because it gives me the inspiration to do stuff and what I going through. Reflection time: I have been considering taking anime/cartoon detox in June just because I feel it still has the same effect as video gaming addiction which is that escapism. To help explain this, when I was young I use to watch pokemon was introduced the cards in 2nd and 3rd grade and was never social person this lead me to a bad obsession with it for 4 years by having games, cards, and toys (remember this in the 90s) when video games and animation is still recently new. After that my family moved to Atlanta ga in 2000 and I became a Christian in 2003 and burned all the stuff some may look at that as extreme but it was my choice to do so, starting in 2005 I started using internet more often to watch old cartoons I liked as kid without realizing I was getting older. Then later I started watch anime that was not directly realted to pokemon but did not know it was anime at the time either and the first more mature anime I saw was D.N. Angel and started watching dubs and was loving it, As time went on I had wii in 2006 which bought alot games beat most plus in that year I bought game call the movies game where I could create my own movies since I use to love writing so much before then but in 2011 I felt this strange gut feeling that everything I was doing wrong but brushed it off instead said it probally just because new games arent as much fun then went played older games and that feeling. Then in 2011, I joined Myst Online Uru Live Again 2011 though did not play till 2012. I have a tendency not use a resource for a year not sure why. In 2014 I build a pc so I could play the MMO game on better hardware than the laptop I was using at the time broke down and the movie was working at that time. IN 2012 I signed up for TMU (Tmundergound) which is a place I could make movies and at first I uploaded my flims and recived harsh critisum then took them down and started working on those projects each year because each movie took a year to make and I would do the MMO game tours also avdtersing and marketing in addition to that and hardly went to to soicial events and stuff like that so at the end of 2014 I gave up console games for good, one they were just sitting there and I had lost the magic touch and to this day there under my house. Next thing is all I had was the MMO game and nothing else and was I happy for 3 months I was able to balance between the to fairly well This was at the beginning of January 2015 but what really hit me is steam in December of 2015 I decided to get steam account and play visual novels cause at the time I did not really consider them games and they had interactive feature I like. Visual novels are stories told through at pov experience it which you read your character dialogue but the spirit or character would interact with you making you feel apart of the Journey, So at first, it was fine but soon found myself buying more games and visual until about June 2016 when I realized I should limit to 2 hours playing these and I started playing them at 10:00 pm at night to midnight. It was not until 2016 I started to realize that everything I was doing was boring and thought I would faze out this part heck even the tours I did not feel sanifegent anymore. So in March 2017 I dropped out of work training program lets just they were giving me the treatment I needed and went to a new one plus for the first time I got phone which is something I resisted to do for the longest because I knew of the obsession I could do with it and how it affected other people at my previous job and I had resigned there in March 2016. So in remembering how I liked Wii fit, I choose to get an app called burn your fat with me which to help me exercise and I use this app consistently weather be at the game ore at home then went for another app called Moe Moe Chan which sort of interactive anime girl interaction and the purpose of this was if I had girlfriend I wanted to what I wanted and over time for the character to become cuter and cuter. Next thing I did get is smartphone VR headset with 360 videos of anime and VR ear waxing one, enjoyed them both and wanted to get another game but because none of them were in English I never did. Cointied in in next replay

Days 213-220 I have been feeling this for the last couple days. I have you ever felt like what you enjoyed and had ideas for is sort over like that season is over. This what I have been thinking of my movie production that I did it seems like I have ideas, concepts, and everything but at the same time, it feels like that season is up and I should move on to something else. Maybe not necessarily giving up movie production but use it new format than what I use to doing, I can't really give it personally because let's just said I have original material from the old website that I use and keep in contact with a new community that uses those materials for their movies. Maybe it time to move from one community to another since I seem to be more active over there than I do at the other one. It's not gaming but the movies I make just seem more and more waste of my time is this sign of growing up now? I m not sure how to deal with it but something I thought I share Good news I have my cookbooks but will not be making those recipes till my ideal weight is met once that done then I will try to make them. That it for today tell me your thoughts on this, it almost like I want a new experience but not sure what experience I want? Grateful 1.God 2.Bible 3.Church 4.Family 5.Life

Those emotions are what I call a tornado effect since I went through something similar and all it really is your body recalibrating itself from what was used to but it should subside once you say for good no to games and do not look back and keep pursing. Try to focus on goals what do you want to do or be in 5 years? Stuff like that and focus on baby steps on how to get there. hope that helps.

Days 212 Okay, I have decided against the apps but instead going to buy a book called Manga cookbook (the book not the Kindle version) to help me learn to cook. Plus since I m learning Japanese anyway what better way to do so for some recipes. I have looked at the reviews on Amazon some great some not so. The second thing I think I should discuss is how I learn. I learn through a story or visual or hands-on type of experience because when it did that I seemed to retain a lot more rather than someone repeat the same steps over 1000 times most of the time. This is why I m considering this book because I m anime fan and would really like to make Japanese recipes so put them in manga format and I will remember much better, this no app or anything it just how I learn and I m sure you learn differently too. So tell me your thoughts below. Grateful: 1.God 2.Church 3.Parents 4.Family 5.Life

Days 211-215 Okay, I gonna go into great detail on what happening and what I m realizing. First of I think it started back in January when I did my new beginning when I started parts about building new pc because the one I have will go obsolete by January 2020 so I wanted to prepare myself when that day comes and have everything set. This I think is the root and may have been a mistake then I started watching added TV which is more informative than gaming though it is gaming about the current state of pc then watch and read pc builds. Which lead my look on what going on the VR (Virtual reality) world headset and is the new one coming out do I get the current one or keep my smartphone headset, this became my second mistake. I started watching reviews and stuff of that nature of different headsets though I m more interested in panoramic Imax VR movie experience than gaming. Though I might have a trigger. Now this one is kind of confusing but bare with me, here the think my parenets were asking me to build some lifeskills so I started thinking what I could do to buidl this life skills and well I came across those apps and puarched both of them called burn your fat with me, and Goichi show because I m thinking if I gains some real world experince with that type visual novel style then maybe I could gain some basic skills at least but I also look as craving to so I have to be cafeful and maybe conderidict myslef by saying I will not download a game if it has no world benift for me. The second thing is true too when I did these exercise apps I would lose weight a lot and most the time I would do the exercise app in conjunction with the gym and maybe was hoping I could use in conjunction with my life as extra exercise material since I don't like to go to gym after work. Though I would only get them if they had real-world experience to maybe gain a new skill. The second is the cooking app gochi show which use the same idea of visual novel to help learn to cook. This one I did more out of my parent's sake to build some recipes through the game app whatever you call it. This mostly why I m considering it for my parent's sake rather than mine though I m so afraid of relapse and I keep asking myself is this something I want to return to? Is it beneficial to me? Does it help me get where I want to go? What are some positive and negatives to both? Is a relaspe? That I did look up VR game to called virtual novel though it not out yet but it basically takes all the visual novel style and makes an interactive experience which I would love to do one day. On the other side of things, I do see my parents on iPad playing games when I get on their ipads and stuff yet sometimes yet they say to me I should be off my phone most time and then eventually seem them the game. They even want me to buy an ipad because they see the benefits of it personally I do not want one because I m still paying my iPhone I don't need that on top of me. Plus I think they want me to play this pinano game because it would be benifical for me in some way, I have yet to see how, they are trying to teach me new skill but I think in the wrong way. I do need to develop some lifeskill, yes, and I m also trying to convince myself or what I m writing to not go down this path but I feel pressure from both sides on this issue and I can't necessarily leave and other things have been happening to that has got me overwhelmed. The other thing I did finish the movie project but it seems like time is flying faster than I can get projects out and it is nice to slow down once in awhile. Plus I have noticed that herbal green tea no sugar, no cream seems to relax me when I m stressed not sure why but it does. Plus the other day I started thinking of something and not it not the tornado effect like I did in the detox it more like my life is in transition like what I like before is getting boring and I m seeking some new. It like you like it but not as much. Plus I have been questioning myself did I even go through the detox or did I realize somewhen when I played with friends even though they were trivia game in the game console I seemed okay with it as long I did not play Mario kart of something that nature may be a relapse happened around the detox I remember it was back in oct. or nov. cant remember that I found a single group and played a smartphone Trivia and it did not affect me as much I had expected but maybe relapse happens in stages sort like a loading screen so I could say 20%, then I did again dec. loaded 40% then I did it again in feb. load 60% but to do this I have refused to play home alone. It's more fun in social experience. Though visual novels can be a craving for me they have the same effect as game addiction this why I m seeking help with this plus looking on both stop gaming and game quitters their not much info on gamification type apps and stuff of that nature. So also in my mind, I thought since their not a lot of info on this why not experiment with it, Can it work or will it get give me the same effect as before and I have read the release section as well as watch cam videos again. I know from one cam's video I might be in stage 3 of grief in which I m justify myself but I m not sure even for myself. I do have some good news I m learning how to get my youtube channel going so that good and hopefully be uploading weekly, second is I have been going outside just a little hard when it pretty yet windy. For some odd reason, I think the audiobooks and church kind kept me in check for a little bit but I took a break from it for a little bit but will be returning not this Sunday but the next because Sunday I will be spending time with my grandparents. I m reading now a book on my kindle so that should help some and return to learning my Japanese as well and did little of grammar girl, maybe April will be a better month. So before I end this I wanted to outline it this way and how I would do the apps. The apps would be little after I get off work around maybe 3:30-4:00 30m with the app for exercise then cooking would be whatever it will be. So Burn your fat with me would be Monday and Thursdays and Gochi show would be Tuesdays and Gym will be Thursdays and I would work on my projects in conjunction with these apps in others words do the app first since I will be more motivated than at night then HUman Japanese or whatever project I work on as long I don't lose control and keep my focus right. Now I did open youtube and facebook because what I m learning I kindly need those to work on the stuff I m learning to get my youtube channel going both a distraction but good at the same time though I have thought of-of it blocking during the week again and discipline myself for no app use. And maybe just doing that on Sundays instead so it does not get in the way of my other projects. So I think I expressed enough you can overview this tell me your thoughts cause what I m about to do will be implemented next week. That it for today thanks for reading. Grateful 1.God 2.Miracles 3.Family 4.Church 5.Life

Well, I m more saying after the detox cause I finished the detox. That and I m questioning myself this as well.

I would like to know what your thoughts are on visual novels? Visual novels are mainly you play as the main character that faceless as you read character interaction with you as if their speaking to you like some may have voice acting, some maybe just be reading and some may different routes. Gamification: Is where you to take game elements and try to apply them to real life and make your life more into a video game. I have two apps called Burn your fat with me and Gochi show. 1.Burn your fat with me falls is where I would do exercises with anime characters and the more I do the more I unlock and have been thinking of playing this again since it gains some real-world application to me. 2.Gochi show which is the same principle but instead of exercising I m given recipes to learn and reward with more story with the more recipes I learn. Both these fall in both the visual novel and gamification category so I m wondering is okay to play them if it has real-world benefits for me after your detox?

Day 209-210 So I wanted to tell you about how I m going to do this gamification, I use it in conjunction with the Gym. So what I mean by that is I go to the gym every wed. This app called burn your fat with me will be used on Mondays and Thursday since in one of the reviews it said it was 3 days apart. This how it would work but I must keep my orginal routine in tak as well when I do these because those days expect thurdady sometimes I m working but if it becames pretty I will normally take a while around the neirboorhood. Second I m gonna try to exploring more outside as well but on rainy or cloudy days its kind hard to do, so in no way am I gonna let it control me again, I m mostly doing it because I know from past it has very positive results. Now I have been watching Cams videos on relapse, about to relapse, and 5 stages of grief and if I m in one of those stages and it turns out I might be in stage 3 of that video because I m justifying what I m about to do, plus I noticed something it seems like when we quit gaming by relapse section that around 210-300 day mark we seem to relapse and me m kind of wondering why that is? I m not sure myself. Now I gonna have to hard discipline to do this and say no to any other urges to play anything else since this mostly to help improve myself not to play again, maybe I m contradicting myself. Like I said I won't start until April. This all stems down when my parents asked me that I should learn to cook and I thought what better way to take something I dislike and what I like anime and put them together. So basically there are two apps 1.Burn your fat with me which I have anime character motivation to do sit ups, push ups, etc. The idea here is I would do all the exercises and complete the story to say I did 50pushups I unlock an episode and it gets tougher and once I complete it them, I should be motivated to do exercise on my own. 2.The other is called Gochi Show which instead of exercising you learn to cook with sort of the same principle. So in this app, I would learn to cook simple dishes and what better way to have anime character and learning to cook some Japanese recipes along the way. This why I bought the app after my parents ask me to do cooking and personally I learn better doing it this way, not sure why but I do, I could do youtube and pause and do that way but I did not like that idea just because so many can be beginners but really it one two 82 to just meaning sometimes it never easy as one two three as a lot of people say it is.. This would work with the same scenario where after I complete the app gamification then I should be motivated to cook. I refuse to download any other app unless it has some real-world benefit, I want to avoid a habitica cause I see it as it triggers to keep coming back for more but these apps should not be designed this so after complete them I will delete them and that should the end of them. So I think that it for today I hope this helps understand what I m doing, oh I should mention I would not even play them all day it more of what the amounted time the story is which means it could be as 30min. So if anyone has thoughts on the matter please write below what you think? Grateful 1.God 2.Family 3.Church 4.life 5.Fresh air 6.friends 7.PC

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Days 204-208 Okay, I have been considering something whether it triggers or not I do not know but something that not discussed on the forums I see so I thought I write about it here, There a new term called gamification in where you get rewards for doing something in real life. So give you a more of my definition of what it should be is that the game element is to get you interested in same math by putting you in a RPG type style where a magic spell could be a hint but are limited to it. It meant to make the learner more interested in the subject but not to rely on the game itself to get those rewards. So I have two apps similar to this method called Burn your fat with me. This app tells me a story like visual novel but I have to exerise to get more of the story and another that will teach me cooking and each receipe could get further in the story. So what do I think of gamification on game quitters, I think it could be a good thing and bad thing at the same time. So I have been looking at the definition awhile and its something I might try it since most of the time in the past it has helped me but it could be bad too in which say habitcia. I had been looking at the app for awhile and I want to tell you my negatives on it and no has nothing do with gameplay it more like it adapts some game elements too. I think habicia would be a good app as long as you did not rely on it all the time and this where gamification falls short my book. Say I made a goal on habitica to make a new friend that, okay I make a new friend that day and check him or her off my list as a trophy but nothing seems really tangible. I would not use habitica for social experiences because of its sort of trading your MMO game to mobile game but with new habits, I would not say it a bad thing but if we end up treating life as a game then we miss life itself and everyone around us becomes one dimensional. So why do I am I going to do it, the simple reason it has not been explored yet for me and I don't see a lot relapse explore this so think of it as an experiment, I want to know do these gamification work and improve my life or do I fall short of it? That question I want to answer. Though I m not gonna start right way because if this phase then it will pass. I will take start around April though and if my theory is right I may not want to play them. I just thought this issue should be addressed here. My biggest mistakes right now is looking VR and now know VR is trigger same from interactive anime. So now that I know to say way from that though I did not watch the game trailer or gameplay just small clips, I did look up anime game called visual novel VR and the headset VR. This big no for me. So I m deleted most of youtube vr stuff I had and have completely abandoned my original goal plan and big mistake letting facebook and youtube in again and old habit returning. So I do recognize it right now but I have come very far in the way of things so I will be returning to the original plan again hopefully next week, it kind of hard at work when you have nothing do and do all the task your meant to do but cant leave the position. This all started when I started looking at building new pc in the upcoming year because mine not gonna last much longer and that where it stemmed from. So what are your thoughts on my experiment? Is it trigger? or maybe brain still lying to me. Let me know what you guys think. I just want to see if it works, it similar to cam brain games but a tad different. Though I think I was looking at all video games as evil monsters and maybe I should not look at that way because their good and bad to everything just like tv, video games are no different. I think that it for today hope you enjoy. Grateful 1.God 2.Family 3.Grandparents 4.Life 5.shelater/ 6.fresh air 7.work

Days 189-203 So I decided to update you all on what happening so far and few mistakes I have been doing. First mistake is looking vr matching gaming I started playing in it that I realized I relapse a little bit not by much but enough to notice that I was trying to beat my own high score. So I won't be playing that anytime soon. Another reason for Vr is because I want to create my videos around that 360 and VR now while in infancy before over explodes. Now some good news I wanted to share my youtube channel with you guys but I wanted another video out there but that not gonna be happing anytime soon so right now I m I m gonna share with you all the youtube channel I do have. here a link https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxmLTyD9PwXtbMfWbWApFpA?view_as=subscriber Their not a lot of videos up right now but there will be up in the near future. That it for today, have a wonderful day. Grateful 1.God 2.Family 3.Church 4.Life 5.Work