AlexTheGrape

Here is my post for yesterday: 90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 89 Today was a superb day, because I got lots of work done and was rather relaxed. I managed to knock off quite a bit of my homework and at the same time got lots of programming practice done. 90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 88 Today has been wonderful, mostly because I made an important decision to kick out my uncertainties and thoughts about gaming in the next holidays in favor of doing something much better with my time. I had a great talk with my accountability partner, and it's really helped iron out many things for both of us. I got a bit of work done, and helped out around the house, that's not too much to celebrate though. I got all my exercise done today though, so that's a plus. Meditation Done. Visualisation Done. Morning run I woke up very late so I ran in the afternoon. Work out I've done my chin-ups, but didn't make time to do the other workouts. Cold shower I must admit I did it just hot today, and as a result took me about 3 times as long to finish showering. I'll make sure to do it properly tomorrow! Gratefulness letter Nope Python programming I programmed a GUI for flash-card memorisation from scratch, and it was actually engaging and somewhat fun! Programming is surely one of the activities I should do more of, it is very beneficial to me and I find it fun. Penpal letter/email Done. Reading Done Reflection Today has been a great day, and I got a heap of work done despite not having organised it terribly well. I wish to do even better tomorrow! 3 Things I'm grateful for: I am grateful for the amazing dinner I had. I am grateful for living in a safe community. I am grateful for having a room to myself to sleep in. One amazing thing that happened today: Programming today was rather fun as I was solving one puzzle after the next, all the while learning new features and functions that I can use. I was able to keep going at it with little breaks as it was a good challenge that kept me engaged. After completing the program, I can celebrate the work I've done; comparing this to playing video games where I might spend even more time, there wouldn't be anything to celebrate at the end of a gaming session other than regretting the time spent. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have gotten out earlier in the day to get my run done, as during the middle of the day it was too hot to put in too much effort. What I will do differently tomorrow: I will make sure to do a proper run in the morning, it'll help me stay alert for most of the day.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 88 Today has been wonderful, mostly because I made an important decision to kick out my uncertainties and thoughts about gaming in the next holidays in favor of doing something much better with my time. I had a great talk with my accountability partner, and it's really helped iron out many things for both of us. I got a bit of work done, and helped out around the house, that's not too much to celebrate though. I got all my exercise done today though, so that's a plus. Meditation Done. Visualisation Done. Morning run The 40 minutes today went well, and was funny as I passed by some groups of people several times as we were all doing different circuits. Work out Done! Cold shower I did a mid-way shower temperature, I think it might be the best way to keep me washing fast whilst not punishing myself in any way. Gratefulness letter Done through my last post. Python programming Nope. Grr. Penpal letter/email Done. Reading Done Reflection Time wise I could have managed my day better, but I still did pretty good to have some exercise breaks to keep myself active. I'm glad overall though as I've now saved myself three days I'd otherwise gaming! 3 Things I'm grateful for: I am grateful for all my Easter chocolate. I am grateful for my whiteboard which makes organisation all the easier. I am grateful for good places to do chin ups in the nearby school. One amazing thing that happened today: Talking with my accountability partner today opened my eyes to what my real values were, and how gaming was not part of it at all. The support I've had today has been really inspirational, I feel like I'll be making even better use of my holidays than last time (which was very good). What I could have done to make my day better: I'm not actually sure what I could do better, I tried pretty hard to use my time well, I suppose I need to keep even more energised before settling down to work. What I will do differently tomorrow: I should get in a little exercise before starting any homework I do tomorrow.

Hi Ben, thanks for sharing your story! You have a heavy weight to get rid of so to say, but it'll be all the more epic when you overcome your addiction. We're here to help you all the way, just keep us posted so that we can help you out. Mario has the right idea though, if you go through the Respawn guide and keep a daily journal to keep yourself accountable, those will be immensely helpful on your journey to success. If you get an accountability partner you will have someone who is also quitting gaming that will be able to provide you with the support you need, having an accountability partner has been immensely helpful to me recently. I am saddened to hear your story but getting through your challenges will make you all the more stronger. I wish the best for your recovery and let us know any way we can help!

After a good talk with my accountability partner, I've gotten back on track after realising a few things. I need to make my own choices according to my values, not according to or influenced by other people's wants for a better time gaming. If I played those three days of binge gaming, I'd likely be not very social and would be very likely to play more video games for the rest of the holiday period. Doing so is certainly not in line with my values of personal development and wanting to be the best I can be. I would certainly regret my decision to play the games, as I do almost every time. I'm not going to compromise my new lifestyle and development, however slow it may be, to waste it getting addicted to staring at a screen and spending time with people that will encourage me to do so even more. I've decided to continue not playing video games, and to take the three days as a way to prove to myself that I am making the right choice. I'm going to brainstorm what I could do in that time I would have been playing Terraria in a moment, anything that develops my skills will be great. Hi Torleif, thank you so much for the support! You're right about how it'll likely turn out, I'm almost guaranteed to have a fully fledged relapse after all that binge gaming. It would certainly undermine my current values and make me more dependent on gaming to fulfill many needs. I love the idea of taking it like an exam, it's inspired me to go out and do something ambitious and out of my comfort zone, I'm really going to make those three days count. I've certainly had cravings about Terraria recently, and could be as you said because my brain knows it will release a ton of dopamine. My recent 'research' on the Terraria wiki has alerted me to my addictive behaviours kicking in, so now is the best time to stop. Thank you again for the support, I really appreciate your time to give me a wake-up call. My choice is now to move forward in the real world, so thank you for that

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 87 Today ended up being unproductive, even though I got up to go for a run, I just couldn't muster the motivation to run properly. I think it had to do with my confusion in regards to playing Terraria with my old friends. I've been convinced to play just for the 2 or three days it has gone for, and if all goes well, I should be sick of it (like I normally would after a few days of binge gaming) and will be all the more motivated to pursue my ambitions. In the past I've had similar cycles of binge gaming for a week or so then doing well in school for the following 10 weeks, so perhaps what I need is a wake up call of sorts to see what it feels like to be fully wasting that time. I'll only decide on this fully closer to the time though, in the time being I need to focus on my school work as I've still got 3 weeks of schooling to go. Meditation Done I did a non-guided meditation this time, and it worked out pretty well as I was over-relaxed again. Visualisation My accountability partner couldn't call today so I didn't get to setting myself concrete goals. I guess I'll have to set these goals tomorrow, with or without him. Morning run Attempted, albeit half-heartedly as it was mostly a jog and walk. Work out I got my pull ups done, but didn't make time for the rest of it. Cold shower Forgot about that today. I gotta step it up tomorrow aye? Gratefulness letter Didn't make time for it today. Python programming After 50 minutes of attempted programming, I've realised I'm completely out of whack! I need to do some serious catching up to get back up to speed with my programming. All this time without doing much programming practice has led to me forgetting how to implement man features, so I'll need to practice. Penpal letter/email Done x2 Reading Didn't read last night, but I have some time for it tonight. Reflection Today I haven't done anywhere near as well as I expected myself to, but I now know that I need to keep clear headed, physically exercised, and have clear goals that motivate me. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I am grateful for having the opportunity to spend time with my Dad to go fishing. I am grateful for all the clean water I can have. I am grateful for my amazing penpals who are very supportive. One amazing thing that happened today: Seeing Auckland from the ocean and spending time with my Dad fishing was a good experience, we don't do it often so it was a nice way to relax. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have ran harder today, and in general just be more decisive about what I'm wanting to do with my time. What I will do differently tomorrow: I'll make sure to visualise some different goals I might like to pursue, and run hard in the morning. I'm needing to do 40 minutes so I'll make it an adventure!

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 86 Today I got done the exercise I needed to, but it ended up being another 'lazy day' because I just didn't feel the need to do any work. That'll change tomorrow for certain though, I've got quite a few things written down that I'll need to do. I've had some urges to play Terraria in the coming holidays because my twin brother is organising for bunch of our old school friends to play a few days of it together, in our own home. It'll be very tough for me to resist such pressure to play, as I'll be asked and bothered to play with them from all directions. It is a game that I've been good at in the past, and the argument for playing is that it'd only last about 3 days. On the other hand, playing for these 3 days will undermine much of what I've done here and I may end up turning to more gaming for the holidays. This'll be something I need to think on but I'd appreciate any advice I can get. Meditation Done. I felt overly relaxed afterwards, which is good I guess. Visualisation I struggled with this as I no longer have any non-career long term goals that I'm set on right now. I'll make sure to define these in my talk with my new accountability partner tomorrow. Morning run Done. It was a tiring and good one though, I ran 2.4km in 12 minutes just, which is where I need to be for my military training right now, if not doing a little better. Work out I got all my working out done. Cold shower Yep, and I realise that my showering time has naturally extended more recently so having a cold shower will reduce this to a more practical time. Gratefulness letter I've ran out of time to do this today. No, more honestly, I didn't make time for it, I've had all the time in the world today! Guitar practice It hardly crossed my mind today, but I won't be able to play for the next week as I'm at the wrong house for it. Python programming Nope. I'm going to need to set solid work for this tomorrow. Penpal letter/email I sent a few today. Reading Didn't read last night, I'm up to late posting! I'm going to bed now, it's 10pm and I need to get into proper sleeping habits again. Have a great day, reader!

Hang in there! If gaming is on your mind, identify what is triggering it and perhaps what else you could do to meet any needs or desires the games will fulfill. Great to hear you're finding ways to keep yourself working

Hi Fanzio, I'm reading your journal and it looks like you've shown great courage to get through quitting gaming so far. I've almost finished my 90 day detox, but it's actually my third attempt at it. The main thing holding me back was that I didn't replace gaming with other activities that fulfilled the needs that gaming did for me. I'd recommend you reflect on what needs gaming fulfilled for you, and outline some activities you can do to meet these needs. For me, these were things like being engaged, feeling a sense of accomplishment, being in control of something important, and a few others. I hope this helps and the best of luck on your journey to becoming a better person!

If you purchase the Respawn guide, Cam will send you a sticker for free (you may also be able to get one by buying other products from the GQ website). I have my sticker on my laptop, it is a good reminder of the type of person I want to become Great to see you're still going, congrats on 66 days so far! How did you evade your work? I find having a 'to-do' list and scheduling helps me to prioritise and get done everything on time. Keep on keeping on!

Thanks! I thought it was time for a change since my last one was taken about a year ago, and it's pretty unrealistic to see me in such formal clothing all the time

Hi Svet, great to have you back! I know it can be a little humiliating to have to go through a relapse post (assuming that's your case) but we're here for you!

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 85 Today has been a day off for me, and surprisingly has led me to want to do my daily activities and habits with much more discipline and vigor. Since I designated today to be for relaxing (it is a teacher only day at school), I didn't do any sort of meditation, running, or any other habit in the morning. I felt so out of whack and lazy during the day that I actually had a run in the afternoon despite it being a day off. I also found a wonderful personality test that is creepily accurate and helped me identify why I behaved in certain ways and identify my own traits. The advice it offered was also helpful, but I enjoyed learning more about my perceived characteristics (which were almost entirely correct). I got ISTJ-T, the "Logistician". I also found its artwork very nice. Here is the website for whoever is interested: https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test The good news is that I've jumped back onto the 100 day challenge! My previous attempt involved me trying to do python programming, guitar practice, and running daily. I have set out to do just a morning run and workout to do daily, but on second thoughts, I haven't been doing programming or playing the guitar very much so perhaps I should try to make those daily as well. I sent a thank you letter today and hopefully will be received well. I also received the second ever mailed letter from my penpals! It wasn't as exciting as I had hoped but I am still grateful to have friends on other parts of the planet. I'm pretty keen on getting back into doing more of my previous daily habits, as they provided me with stimulation, engagement, and other needs that gaming previously fulfilled. I'll add the headings so that I can fulfill them for my next journal post. I've also noticed that my integrity has dropped a little since I stopped having cold showers, so I'll be getting back into those. I think I'll aim to reply to one penpal per day, so that I'm not overwhelmed in the weekend; I'll add that as a new habit. It gives me a great sense of direction by setting myself all these tasks, so I'm glad to be back into serious self-development. I think I'll also add a shout-out if I have time to keep myself accountable for looking after people in the GQ community by giving a shout out to one of the users here (likely new ones) that might need a little extra support. I've gotta go to be now but I'm keeping these titles up for my next post for copying and pasting. I might answer the last ones in the morning for today. Meditation Visualisation Morning run Work out Cold shower Gratefulness letter Guitar practice Python programming Penpal letter/email Reading Reflection 3 Things I'm grateful for: One amazing thing that happened today: What I could have done to make my day better: What I will do differently tomorrow: My shout-out today goes to:

Hi Jay, welcome back! I'm really glad you've jumped on the wagon again, I've had my fair share of relapses so I know what it's like in your shoes. Despite my journal saying it is my third time trying to do the detox, it is actually about my 7th time quitting gaming; the difference is that I'm for real this time. Although I set myself a schedule for doing a lot of my work, it is largely to do with prioritization so that I get the most important things done in case I run out of time. You may also find the following quote useful (Parkinson's Law), which is a foundation of my scheduling logic: "Work expands to fill the time available for it's completion". I often find that if I don't set time limits on what work I'm doing, the time I spend on the work stretches on and I don't get all that much done. On the other hand, when I set say 20 minutes to do a piece of work I need to do, I will have more motivation to do it on time. I look forward to following your journey again!

Thank you! I think it will suit me well as I am a serious person who benefits from a disciplined approach to things. Thank you Cam for being here the whole way! I cannot express my gratitude for you founding and running Game Quitters, I doubt I'd have changed for the better otherwise.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 82 Today has been ok for back to school on a Monday, although I know I could have done better. I skipped my morning run because I didn't feel up for it, but that impacted the rest of my day negatively as I found it difficult to focus in class due to drowsiness. I'm running tomorrow no matter what! I must make my running into a daily habit or else I'll be prone to skipping some like I did today. I did a run and many strength building exercises I need to do before the NZDF experience but I need to ideally do this in the morning. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for the public playground where I can do pull ups. I'm grateful for having a whiteboard on my desk. I'm grateful for having less to carry in my bag today. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have gotten to sleep earlier (a repeating problem!) and ran in the morning to wake myself up. What went well today: My afternoon workout went smoothly, and I was glad I could almost meet the required number of pull ups in a row.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 80 Woohoo! I'm only 10 days away from finally completing my detox, and there's no chance of me relapsing in the next ten days since I'm still at school. My week has been very busy, but today I've been able to relax to an extent. I have been too hard on myself in terms of school studies today and haven't actually had proper relaxation time, I've been feeling guilty that I should be doing more. I felt a little sad and frustrated this afternoon for reasons I can't pinpoint, but after some meditation I found my afternoon much more enjoyable. It's about 4 weeks until the school holidays, so when they come around, I'm going to dive back into the 30 day challenge! I'm also keen on making at least one friend per day, my social development has gone in reverse as I've been sticking within my comfort zone for a while. Not too long ago I heard a very good speech from one of my peers about how starting something new or trying something different is hardest before starting, and used my favourite quote from Lao Tzu: “The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step”. The main idea is that we find the most resistance in doing something new when we haven’t started since we need to change what we’re doing, so by simply starting, the worst of the activity is behind us. An important thing that’s happened recently is that I’ve qualified to go on an experience/expedition with the New Zealand Defence Force (the army, navy, and air force) which goes from the 4th-7th of April. I applied about a month ago because I was somewhat interested in pursuing a career in the defence forces as they can pay for my university degree and I’d like a disciplined environment. I believe only 80 or so students in NZ can go on the experience a year, so I’m very lucky to have been accepted! A friend of mine has applied for a few years and has never been accepted. I think entry is mostly to do with academic results. Anyhow I’ll hopefully get a good idea of what it is like to be part of the Defence Force and will be very interesting. I will be able to go to military establishments that the public aren’t allowed to go to, and there will be many challenges I will need to face! It'll be tough, but it'll be a great experience. I’m not allowed to contact anybody without going through a captain’s phone or get out of the ‘experience’ until the end, but if I don't post about it, then there is certainly something to worry about. I'm needing to get fitter before I start though, so I'll try my best to be posting every day now so that I am kept accountable for doing all the exercises. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for whatsapp because I can now send voice messages for free to people overseas! I'm grateful for the opportunity to see what it's like to be in the Defence Force. I'm grateful to be one of the most well fed people on the planet. What went well today: My meditation helped me to reduce my stress that seemed to come out of nowhere today. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have written out times to do the jobs I wanted done to day for better organisation.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 76 Super quick post today. Didn't get much sleep so I skipped my morning run, meditation, and forgot my visualisation, but I had a run in the afternoon to make up for it. I had another busy day, but snacking got in the way of things since I busied myself at lunch with algebraic long division. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for being grateful! Saying these out loud gives me a nice fuzzy feeling. I'm grateful for the maths help I got today. I'm grateful for the freedom I have to work how I like. What went well today: I got through the day generally well and cut down a little on the homework stack I've got. What I will do differently tomorrow: I will meditate upon waking up, visualise, then have a run! I will also have a run during the day with the running club.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 75 Today I've gotten my working habits sorted! I ran for 10 minutes in between each block of 50 minutes of work, and I got a lot done! Quite a lot has happened in the past week or so, but I'll give the highlights. I got my first internal exam back and I scored E+, which is the highest grade in the NCEA system. It was a great way to kick off, but I haven't been working too efficiently until today. I've been working at a bar, at a wedding, and competed in a fencing competition, the last two of which I did the same day last week! I've been certainly keeping myself busy. On Friday a fellow student gave a wonderful speech on excuses and why we find it so hard to try new things, and it was 'because we find the most resistance' in doing so. He also used my favourite quote, "The journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step", and placed emphasis that it is the first step of a journey that is the most significant. I'd like to get back into practice of meditating and visualising, as that was a powerful force for me earlier in my detox. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for getting home earlier than I normally do today. I am grateful for the variety of advice and insight I heard in chapel yesterday. I am grateful for the delicious dinner I've had tonight. What went well today: My studying went very well this afternoon because I made sure I was active in my breaks so that my body was energised. I made good use of my morning tea and lunch time to get more of my homework done. Posting now has yet again given me more direction in where to improve! What could have done to make my day better: I could have visualised my goals to start developing good autosuggestion again. What I will do differently tomorrow: I will meditate immediately upon waking up, then go for a run as usual. I will visualise both after meditation and before I go to bed.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 69 Today has been an interesting one! I ran out of time to run in the morning but I did one during school with the running club. It got me energised for learning and I asked lots of questions after it! I now know for certain that I need to keep active to do my best in many ways. I've been having mild cravings to play EU4 within the past week but I know it would be terrible to play after all I've gone through to quit. It gets me thinking though, have I fulfilled all the needs that gaming has for me? I believe the answer is no as I haven't found a way to see consistent growth and maybe some other things. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for having something good to think about in chapel today from the chaplain. It was that although it is tempting to run away from our problems to have sweet relief, our problems really stay with us. It is instead much better to face our challenges head on so that we target the source of the problem and move forward in life. I can also relate this very well with Cam's story and my own journey. I'm grateful for having a run during school as it has helped me with my studies during the day. I'm grateful for the opportunity I have at my school.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 68 Today was a busy but good day on all accounts. Despite me not getting much sleep, I braved it out to get up and run in the morning, and I felt great afterwards! It woke me up and I wasn't very tired throughout the day. I have a benchmark to compare myself to because my brother went to bed at around the same time as me, didn't run in the morning, and was groggy and sleepy for half the day. I know I'm like this without a run so I feel very appreciative of my own effort to do so. I had two exams today, and l think I did pretty well in them. About a year ago when I knew I couldn't get a high grade after doing a similar exam, I was frustrated with myself for many days. Strangely enough I don't feel that anymore despite being in a similar situation, perhaps because I know that I'm just not the best at trigonometry or because I know it doesn't change who I am. I've been leaving my penpals hanging for a while now, I need to email them very soon... But I also have a stack of homework and study I need to get done... I think I'll just try to make emailing my penpals more fun by listening to music and sharing more of my week. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for the alertness I derive from exercise. I'm grateful for the trust others have in me. I'm grateful for the reliable pens I now have! What I've done well today: I've done well to go running in the morning and meditate despite my tiredness. I did very well in my physics exam and gave the trigonometry one my best shot. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have written times for getting homework done whilst in the bus: without those concrete times I tend to procrastinate. What I will do differently tomorrow: I will make sure to write in times to do my homework, I will get to sleep quickly, like now!

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 67 Today I got a decent amount of revision done, but I know I could have done much better if I did my morning run. I reckon I should do the run all mornings, even if I'm going to be doing more exercise soon after, because it wears down my discipline and I end up flunking off some days like today. I'll get my brother back into it so we can be more accountable. Yesterday I worked at a wedding reception and fought in a fencing tournament! A stressful but very interesting day. What I did well today: I made sure to do mostly timed working sessions to up my productivity, and worked to an extent. What I could have done to make my day better: I certainly could have gotten to sleep earlier and had a proper morning run (I didn't run too far today), both of which would have helped me a lot today to get all my work done. What I will do differently tomorrow: Meditate as soon as I get up, morning run at 6:05, and giving it my all for the two exams I have during the day. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I'm grateful for the fan my brother gave me for Christmas. I'm grateful for the wonderful meals I have had today. I am grateful for the work opportunities I have been offered.

Here in New Zealand, 'afternoon tea' or 'morning tea' refers to a snack or meal you have in the morning or afternoon. I never thought about literally eating tea as the name suggests though! It is great to see things from somebody else's perspective in many ways, I did not think humor would be one of them 90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 65 I'll make this quick as I am supposed to be sleeping. Today I made good use of my time at school again by grinding out my lunch time to do work whilst eating, and got the physics help I needed. I stuck to my plan to eat afternoon tea on the bus (I didn't eat any liquids, don't worry!) and managed to get a good plan sorted of what I needed to get done, and how long it would take approximately. I missed out one vital thing though... Actually doing the work. I have a habit of doing nothing on a Friday, and sometimes do python programming as a productive activity that is semi-enjoyable. I just became a blob though and browsed D&D reddit for a few hours. I also have come to the realisation that I may need to stop listening to D&D (Dungeons and Dragons) podcasts and looking up its rules in my free time. I have had a suprising and somewhat unhealthy interest in the role playing game (non-video game, it is social). I am still thinking on this but it uses video-game-like mechanics with a levelling system, and I think I need to stay away from solely virtual or imaginary pursuits. I have a fencing competition tomorrow and am working at a wedding, so I'll hopefully post in the afternoon about that!

Great to hear that your ski trip was good, I'm a skiing veteran myself, skiing every year since I was around 5! It looks like you may be overthinking things. I did heaps of thinking about my life purpose, work/fun balance, social life, and my grasp of opportunities over the past week and it has done me no good. Thinking about things I'm not sure about sometimes leads me to raise even more questions, and I end up more confused than I was to start with. The best advice I found was to just continue with actions, as it is through actions that we learn about activities and many other things. If meditation is helping a lot, continue I say! Hope this helps and good luck with your cooking!

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 64 I have felt something has been missing from my life in the past couple of weeks... I now know what that is! Without my daily journalling I have been aimlessly wandering from day to day without sense of improvement or much purpose. I'm posting now and I know where I'm headed next as I have an idea of what I could have done to make my day better. This morning I ran with my twin for 10 minutes or so, and meditated a bit on the bus to school. I did well at school today and dedicated my lunch time to getting my maths homework finished where I could get help where needed. In the afternoon I came home and instantly started snacking and relaxing, which took up a good 40 minutes of time I won't get back. My previous attempts at simply not having afternoon tea to save time just makes me frustrated or feel a little down, but I've just come up with a solution. I think I should pack my afternoon tea so that I can eat it on the bus home, and at the same time plan what I'm doing in the afternoon to make the most of my time. I've got this! What I could have done to make my day better: I could have gotten up quicker to have a longer morning run I could have worked more efficiently to get my stack of homework and revision partly done. What went well today: I made good use of my lunch time to study hard, I did amazing at programming a calculater GUI for windows today, and I got up to have my run despite having a bad sleep. I asked questions during class which helped with my learning. What I will do differently tomorrow: I'll pack my afternoon tea so that I don't endulge on too much and make the most use of my time after school! I will meditate for 5 minutes before having a run. 3 Things I'm grateful for: I am grateful for enjoying programming again by getting tangible progress done. I am grateful for my Eureka! moment of finding that reflection is essential for my sense of purpose and wellbeing. I am grateful for having so many opportunities that I actually have to drop out of some things because I'm so busy.

90 Day Detox Attempt III Day 60 Whoa, this detox is whizzing by with school to keep me busy! Also I think I've beaten my previous 'high' score for detox days. So camp was good, I might post on that later. I may have taken tutoring the young ones a bit more seriously than necessary, but was a learning experience to say the least. I might post when I've got more time, I've got stacks of work and study to catch up on since I went to that camp, so I'm going to have even less time to post. My twin brother and I are going to go running in the morning together for the first time ever! I'm surprised I didn't try to get him into it earlier, but it seems my (mostly) consistent running every morning and success over time has convinced him he should try it as well. My ripple is now showing! Today I mostly tried to catch up with work. It didn't work out the best but I reckon I did fairly well. I need to do more exercise breaks in future though, I'll be doing those with James tomorrow afternoon. Thanks to the reader for reading my journal! I appreciate your interest