Entry 20.1 Day 5: No Useless Videos Day 837: Sticking to Food schedule Day 440: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 10: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -Morning workout -13 pomodoros (hot damn) -Staying awake for some more duolingo even though I was very sleepy 1 Thing I could do  better -A little more concentration during pomodoros. Less flying in thoughts. Gaming count since relapse  Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5  Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 7

-That's a nice number 🙂 I was also above 1,000 before the relapse. I think it was somewhere in the 1100s. (the 800 day counter was for useless videos, not gaming) -Anyway what I was seeing as a problem in what you said is not that you didn't like the "negative" counter which reminds of gaming, which i didn't understand that you meant at the time, rather what was "worrying" me is that you said we shouldn't have a non gaming identity. Which allows for loopholes for you to play here and there which could very quickly slip to full scale relapse. I think balancing shouldn't be attempted. But I might have mis-interpreted you. -I'm not 100% sure it is like that for everyone(not regularily remind ingthemselves), I think that the counter is an important progress reminder, and may be a source of pride in the long term. -Well, at least we agree on the fact it's a hazard to be managed for the rest of our lives 🙂 Bottom line: I think balancing should not be attempted, because the neuro circuits are strongly tied with each other and can quickly get us hooked.

That's an interesting point, haven't thought much of it that way that it's a "negative" counter. I could rephrase it to something like "Days of self-accomplishment" or something of a sort, however, even the name of this website is game-quitters, so it is quite tied with gaming, guess I'm gonna stick to that phrasing for now, but it's worth pondering. Sounds like you're getting closer to self-actualization as you see it, keep it up 🙂  

Got to love it when people take responsibility 🙂 I'd like to use this opportunity to remind you however that the times in between (the times you work) are also up to you and are your choice, and you can change them if you'd like, or make the best of them if you wouldn't, just in case you forgot 😉   

Day 12 + 13/90: Busy weekend with the kids! Yesterday and today have been going well My son has taken up a strong interest in Minecraft. It's going to be challenging for me to not deprive him of his interests, while also not relapsing myself. But I still feel good about it, and I feel in control. Lots of reading and exercise. Focus feels good. On my TODO list tonight is to read more of Respawn and prepare for a busy week at work.