February 7, 20215 yr DAY # - 14 Time I woke up: 9:45 a.m. Time I went to sleep yesterday: 11:35 p.m. Physical task: Cleaning my room and vacuuming my car (maybe cardio workout tonight) Mental task: Reading for Sociology class / bullet journaling Projects: don't really have a project right now Miscellaneous accomplishments: ~ Cleaning and disinfecting my space ~ Cleaning and Organizing my desk and school paper work ~ finally cleaned out my car and got her washed ~ flossed my teeth Summary of Day #: Today I wanted to be productive but also take it easy at the same time. I chose to clean up and organize things so that my world can feel a little bit less chaotic as I'm going into a new week of college. I felt cute and cool today as I admired my fresh haircut in the mirror. A friend of mine I used to work with at the car wash gave me a free wash which was really nice. I finally got some face products to help heal my razor bumps faster. I'm also trying to learn how to shave better so I don't get them. I like feeling clean cut instead of scruffy and rugged. I'm surprised that I got myself to day 14 of no gaming and no twitch. I guess all it took was to just start and begin the process of distancing myself from all gaming/gamer content (as well as selling my console.) I still miss my friends that I made through gaming. I think about them here and there throughout the day. Overall, I feel like today was a good day. What I am grateful for today: ~ That the day was nice and sunny ~ That my friend and coworker gave me a free car wash ~ That it's super bowl Sunday ~ That I'm starting to feel more confident in my appearance Cheers!
February 11, 20215 yr Author Day - 18 morning/noon entry This morning as I rolled around in bed not wanting to get up, I started watching a video on YouTube about quitting videogames. The one that I watched this morning mentioned that everyone has a reason for why they game an why they choose to quit. So I started to think about my own Whys. Why I started playing videogames? because I was bored and lonely because I wanted to talk to people because I wanted to make friends because I wanted to feel like I belonged somewhere Because I wanted to escape dealing with figuring out school things because I wanted to escape dealing with career things because I wanted to escape dealing with personal finance things because I wanted to escape dealing with physical health things because I wanted to escape dealing with my mental health issues because I wanted to escape dealing with my life skill issues because I wanted to escape dealing with family issues Why am I quitting? because I don't want to fail my classes anymore because I don't want to feel like a failure anymore because I want to become a better version of myself because I want to feel better about myself because I want to live a more balanced life because I want to feel more in control of my habits because I want to grow in my academic skills because I want to work on my physical health because I wanted to get better sleep because I want to find a new hobby because I want to find something that can be "my thing" that I can bring up in conversations because I want to be more socially competent in real life because I want to grow skills that I can use in my future jobs and careers because I'm tired of carrying the stigma of being a gamer Prior to making these lists I got up out of bed and felt a bit sad because I realized that I may be quitting gaming in the sense the that I am abstaining from it, but quitting should be more than just abstaining and counting days. But making this list helped me feel better because now I can wake up in the morning and not feel as though I'm just holding myself back from something and counting the days. I'm doing this for a reason and that reason has value and power. And every day that goes by isn't just another number it's a chance for me to go in search of my Whys and a chance for me to really carve out my new normal. Cheers~
February 12, 20215 yr Yo, that's a really good list. I can identify with 95% of that, especially the escapism. I think you hit the nail on the head though. Purpose and values are the best thing for driving change. Keep up the good work.
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