Netzwerker Posted December 31, 2019 Share Posted December 31, 2019 Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being here One amazing thing that happened/I did today mabye quitting games Workout/run 0 Meditation 10min Visualisation and daily affirmation meh Reading (6hour(s) of studying for the next exam today) just watched some random educating You-tube videos my wake-up time 06:40 Weekly Goal(s) sleeping for less than 8 hours . Monthly Goalbeing able to study more frequently What went well today: did my meditation What I could have done to make my day better: study a bit more, should have done some more sports What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: --- Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future ---- Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amphibian220 Posted December 31, 2019 Share Posted December 31, 2019 Hello, Wanted to ask these questions Have you noticed a marked change in how you plan your day over the last weeks? Have you changed your goals relating to physical fitness, education, socializing? how much more do you complete your daily plans than you used to? Thanks Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Netzwerker Posted February 16, 2020 Author Share Posted February 16, 2020 sorry for long delay , I backed here to refresh a little bit . habbits changing like gaming is so hard . I am not impoving day by day , this is why I am relapsing again and again , I do not feel good now to back to my journal , but I have to that . Gratitude journal Today I am grateful for being here One amazing thing that happened/I did today 8 hours without gaming Workout/run walked for like 4 kilo meter Meditation 10min Visualisation and daily affirmation Life gets easier when it gets harder . Education very random things , 0 my wake-up time very bad sleeping schedular Weekly Goal(s) sleeping for less than 8 hours . Monthly Goalbeing able to study more frequently What went well today: did my meditation What I could have done to make my day better: study a bit more, should have done some more sports What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow: tomorrow I have to wake up early , eat alot , carry a water bottle and going to library . Weekly summary, thoughts and improvements for the future tI have learned that games does not solve any of my problems , It is just a way to kill time instead of fighting my fear of studying . Study is actually like a monster for me , but I will make it as easy as breathing or drinking water or just gaming for 10 hours straight . I AM A NEW PERSON 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Netzwerker Posted February 17, 2020 Author Share Posted February 17, 2020 the main problem there is that games are like allowed drugs that every house contain them ! even small potions can carry hard impact on your life , not to mention that the digital addict is related to porn , social media addict too . so the problem is not only because they are games , it is because they are digital addicting games that lead to other unlimited addicts . I am a human like you , I have tried millions of time to control my gaming hours but I was not able , even when I was able to control that for 1 hour a day during exams it was extremely exhausting rather than relaxing . I hate games , Games are the reasons of my current shitty situation . I am isolated , depressed , thin , failing at university . so Please do not try to control your gaming hours , try to fully abstain instead , And most important is filling your time with better activities and better motivations like self rewarding in order to prevent future frustrations . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amphibian220 Posted February 17, 2020 Share Posted February 17, 2020 So what subject are you studying at University? Why have you chosen it? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Netzwerker Posted February 18, 2020 Author Share Posted February 18, 2020 @Amphibian220 Hallo and welcome to my journal , I am studying something related to IT and programming , so my study should be mostly on my pc , and that sucks because I cant hold my self to not play a game or wasting my time . Thanks for your comment . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amphibian220 Posted February 18, 2020 Share Posted February 18, 2020 I asked you about how you chose the subject because you could have an idea how to apply the skills to make a great change. I have a friend who wants to study computer science in order to computerize businesses back in his home country, which are still relying on old software or just plain mobile phones. When I had a time wasting problem, I went to a library that blocked access to most websites and only allowed me one hour of free work. Due to the time constraint, I worked super fast and didn’t fall for any distractions. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Netzwerker Posted February 18, 2020 Author Share Posted February 18, 2020 @Amphibian220 I always wanted to be a programmer , and i think that I am clever enough to make pc programs that can help . but the reality is something very hard to achieve because of my gaming addict . Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Netzwerker Posted February 22, 2020 Author Share Posted February 22, 2020 why do i play games if they will not solve any of my problems ? because i failed in real life and I wanna kill my time otherwise I will be depressed . being success in real life needs around 30 years of hard working , and me as a gamer I hate working . I hate everything except gaming , I do not like that , but I do that every day , I am doing something I do not like every day just to ignore something else I hate to do . so I do not like gaming and I hate hard working . so I am not doing something I love in my life , I am wasting it . so I have to change something , not only 1 thing , I have to change my whole routine , my whole life . otherwise I will hate my self , I will loose the will to live . I hate dying too , I do not like games and I hate hard working . so I have to change something . I cant change the reality of dying because I will die at some point . I do not like games , even when I try to like them , I realize that my whole life is going to the hell , so I can no longer like or love games . I hate hard working , but I can change that , yah this is my solution , hard working to reach my goal of happiness while being happy doing that . this is my next step . I like my self , I like studying , and I will reach my goal of being the man that I always wanted to be . I do not fear any thing , no 1 is better than me , they only doing more important things instead of just gaming . 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amphibian220 Posted February 22, 2020 Share Posted February 22, 2020 Netzwerker, How do you find work difficult? Is it memorization of material? Is it monotonous checking and correcting errors in the code? One point that is good to look at is how much easier other people complete the work that you are doing. Other people who can see you are like mirrors. The Italians have this word “Sprezzatura”- I think it means doing work with a lot of ease and fun and not sweating it. Another thing is spotting bullshit “contrived” work and treating it like that. Do you know what certain applicants do with bullshit psychological and logical tests to get into consulting business? I am telling you from first hand experience - they game them. They don’t cheat, they pick up that the recruiter just added more unnecessary hurdles, so they jump over them. When I have work, I know only have so much fuel before my mind gets tired, so always do the important stuff in as short a time as practical. research example: i need to find an answer to a question. Ask peers what cases they have looked at. This saves research time. I have only about an hour’s worth of time. Quickly read those two-three cases, write down ratios, read 1 or 2 journal publications on the case. Start drafting answer. relax for two hours. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Netzwerker Posted February 22, 2020 Author Share Posted February 22, 2020 1 hour ago, Amphibian220 said: How do you find work difficult? Is it memorization of material? it is just concentration disorders . 1 hour ago, Amphibian220 said: Is it monotonous checking and correcting errors in the code? the problem is finding a way to code the code ! the start is too hard . 1 hour ago, Amphibian220 said: Sprezzatura this is something I am missing , I am studying horribly like some1 who is forced to do something he hates . it is like a war between my dream and my self . @Amphibian220 thank you so much for reading and analysing my posts , you are helping me . you are the only 1 who is really reading my posts and the 1 who make me back to this forum . but I have not understood what u mean by saying this , can u make it easier to understand ? "Another thing is spotting bullshit “contrived” work and treating it like that. Do you know what certain applicants do with bullshit psychological and logical tests to get into consulting business? I am telling you from first hand experience - they game them. They don’t cheat, they pick up that the recruiter just added more unnecessary hurdles, so they jump over them." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amphibian220 Posted February 22, 2020 Share Posted February 22, 2020 (edited) Sometimes coursework involves “work” that is of minor importance. The lecturer will indicate that . Don't waste your energy on it. The more serious work involves some important elements- if you get them, the rest falls in place like a jigsaw puzzle. I have never studied coding, but your concentration should start improving given your exercise, eating, sleeping are in good order. Edited February 22, 2020 by Amphibian220 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Amphibian220 Posted March 2, 2020 Share Posted March 2, 2020 Netzwerker, Have you asked the tutor or other students for help ok the learning material. Are you stressing less or about the same as before? Finally did you play any sport that raised your spirit? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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