I don't really know what to say here other than I want to stop gaming - it's eaten my life. I'm a software dev trying to go freelance, but I need to get rid of this time sink to be successful. I like to think I'm pretty intelligent - I (mostly) self-taught the skills I needed to get hired for a full time entry level software dev job, but then I ruined it because of my lack of discipline. Gaming was an easy out when things got hard, and I used it too much. I left my job on amicable terms to start freelancing, but my productivity was sliding and I wouldn't have lasted much longer. All my life I've succeeded by helping myself, but as I grow older I've realized that I'm not strong enough to do everything on my own and I need to be willing to embrace social experiences and ask others for help. This is pretty new to me (this post is probably the most I've ever shared about myself on a persona/emotional level), and it's scary, but I can't keep doing things the way I'm doing them.

Welcome!! Good job starting your journal as well - it will help a lot.