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Greetings everyone,

My name is Ricardo, I am a 21 year old law student who has been suffering from gaming addiction for years.

I must admit I was amazed to simply enter the website and be personally greeted by Cam himself, he listened to me rant just a little bit about my problems and that was enough to prompt me to start this 90 day detox. Already at my age I feel like I have lost the opportunity to do so much with myself because of the amount of time I have put into gaming. The embarrassing part about it is that the general reasons put forward for gaming (stress/socialising/challenge) exactly fits my bill.

I was bullied as a child because I was just simply different from the other kids emotionally and didnt particularly have a good sense of humour. I used games as an escape and to fill the void of my social needs which I wasnt truly satisfying in school. This escape became deeply ingrained in me as I grew older and the habits had cemented themselves in my psyche. I still managed to to do well enough to law at university and honestly I love the topic. But for years I still felt empty, regretful and at a loss at why. It suddenly hit me that games had robbed me of several important aspects of my personality which didnt have the chance to develop on their own. For example, originally I was very creative as a child, but reliance on other material limited this and I eventually because unable to come up with anything truly interesting without taking something from games. Also, every time I gamed for the last 2 years, I had an instant hit of guilt, because I knew I hadn't achieved anything by doing so.

I have broken down inside myself several times where situations at which I have failed, I knew if I spent more time and focus on dealing with them the outcome would've been differnet. But instead, I just played games as an escape. Also, the loneliness of nothing being able to fit in socially as exasperated me to keep gaming. Finally realising all this, I undertook a series of efforts to break this addiciton, all of which have failed. While these futile attempts infuriated me, they eventually made me realised how deep this addiction goes into my personality. I want out, a clean sheet. I know I can do great things if only I can break this hold and become the person I know I can be.

If you are still reading at this point, thank you, I will endeavour to keep a journal of my process, I definitely know this will probably be one of the most difficult things in my life.

Wish me luck!

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Hey Ricardo! I wish you the best of luck on your journey. I'm really sorry to here how difficult your childhood must have been, but there are tons of great people here willing to talk to you and support you if you need it. Do you have specific goals for yourself? That's what helped me get as far as I have without gaming. I hope this goes really well for you (same for law school!)

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