nils 55 Posted April 5, 2022 Share Posted April 5, 2022 Hi fellow gamers and ex-gamers, my name is Nils. I am a 26 year old medicine student from Germany having a problem with League of Legends (LoL). I finally decided to join the forum and am looking forward to some new perspectives and tips concerning video game addiction. I tried to quit several times, also relapsed several times. Longest period without LoL unfortunately only were 72 days. I created several LoL accounts and deleted them again after a while. Today I only have 1 account which gets deleted at 22th of april 2022. I am not playing since 18 days the moment I write this. In the following I will write notes rather than a long text with lots of sentences so you can easily read it. I have analyzed my behaviour quite a lot in the past and maybe my thoughts are helpful for you who are reading this right now 🙂 my problem? addicted to League of Legends since when do I play? Season 1/2 (2009/2010). started at age 14 when did it get out of control? 2017/2018, in my 5th semester after I passed a big medicine exam. I needed a break from learning at that time and due to a lot of reasons (see below) I played slowly more and more LoL. why do I play? 1) I like the game design and mechanisms. 2) I like playing competitively / outplaying other players. 3) I get social approval from other players / a feeling of power and success (being good at the game, being better than others = above average). I also have the feeling of being useful to others. 4) I use LoL as a distraction from real life problems such as parents`divorce, feeling lonely, learning for exams, being discontent with social relationships, ... (LoL is like a narcotic, it makes u numb to real life issues) 5) The game doesnt cost anything and is always available. 6) I "function" at the game (feeling of being efficient, working in a flow) 7) It has become a HABIT. It means I play cause thats what I did in the past years in my free time. Its like an automatism when Im feeling bored. reasons to quit? 1) My gaming behaviour caused health issues such as: - bad posture (nerd neck / forward head posture / tightened and shortened muscles) - back pain - skin complaints (I got a Sinus pilonidalis from too much sitting and had to go through surgery) - not doing sports anymore / too little movement - lack of sleep / disturbance of circadian rhythm 2) Gaming doesnt help me dealing with my real life problems. Problems are not solved but delayed. 3) Gaming causes a narrowing of interests. I neglected former hobbies such as: composing classical music, being outside, reading, doing sports, playing guitar and piano, ... 4) Gaming leads to a neglect of social relationships. My social skills became worse over time. I feel lonely from time to time. 5) The game itself (LoL) is frustrating due to the scaling system (playing from behind feels awful) and toxicity. I know this but STILL play (sign of addiction)! 6) I am unable to control the amount of time spent playing LoL. LoL turns me into an undisciplined person. 7) I neglect the easiest every day tasks like cleaning, eating on steady times of day, going to bed early, showering, brushing teeth etc. 8 ) LoL has a negative impact on my studies and the chance to become a good doctor that is helping other people with his skills and knowledge. 9) LoL has a negative impact on my self confidence (long-term). It is only rewarding short-term. 10) It has become hard to enjoy "normal" activities due to the constant overstimulation LoL and platforms like YouTube provide. 11) LoL has become such a big part in my life that I think about the game even in random situations when not gaming. It controls my thinking processes. how does my addiction look like? 1) uncontrolled consumption of League of Legends 2) gaming despite health and mental issues 3) narrowing of interests 4) I get cravings from time to time when I watch or interact with LoL content (montages on YouTube, Twitch streams, watching professional LoL tournaments). This caused several relapses. 5) I DONT have any abstinence phenomenons like getting nervous / angry or anxiety. I can have long periods of time without playing LoL and its not a problem for me, but when I get confrontedwith triggers I find it hard to resist the craving. my triggers? being on the internet / sitting in front of the PC, trigger Nr. 1 is YouTube (watching LoL montages and streams). I know its a trigger but from time to time I cannot resist searching them up on purpose though I shouldnt, negative emotions: boredom / sadness / loneliness (was a big issue in the past) / lack of self-confidence, being confronted with a big task (LoL = procrastination device), just thinking about the game can also be a trigger for me. my goals? quitting LoL for good because I am unable to play this game in moderation. what do I do in order to reach my goal? deleting all my accounts, taking notes on self-improvement / my behaviour, reading books about the topic, interacting with new people / making new friends that share my healthier interests, trying out new/old hobbies: I got into bouldering lately and really like it, I also play more music like I did in the past. I even started learning a new instrument and took 6 music lessons (e guitar). Thats it for now! 🙂 Maybe my thoughts are beneficial to you too. I appreciate everyone`s thoughts on the topic, and if u have some advice for me, I would be really grateful. Thank you for your reading this! Kind regards, Nils Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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