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I like podcasts where Jordan Harbinger is the host!! How did you episode 489 of his Arts of charm podcast channnel?

I m not doing anything.. I have changed something in my planned routine but for some reason I do the same mistake again. I eat candy and watch youtube vids. It's soon supper and I still didn't do anything for school. Also I have seen a kinda attractive girl today and I sat next to her like kinda expecting she will fall in love or something in that direction. And Then the quote "the world owes you nothing" I an procrastinating on what needs to be done and unless I don't put the effort in it the reason why I am procrastinating will still be there. It is difficult to do something I am very uncomfortable with doing.. Day 9

Hello I did a full blown fast food binge it started all with eating chocolate and then I felt horny and I watched a porn video- after that i ate a lot of candy to make myself feel good again. Now like 3 hours after the relapse I can see that the preparation for the next day and setting a tight schedule to set oneself up for success is a real thing because when you are not intentional with what you do when cravings hit..... To be honest I didnt meditate for 2 days and I really miss that feeling of being refreshed after a meditation practice. Mindfulness when a trigger comes is as I believe crucial to exercise as well as self-forgiveness You gotta make some time for it because it is the only way out of comfort coping and other coping strategies. I felt horny by feeling a light feeling in my stomach. It didnt feel like a tightness in the chest area when I am angry or frustrated. It just feels weird My future for the week are: at least half an hour of really intentionally put meditation practices into daily life By the way I have put 8 cents in my habit and I am more than happy that I have gone beyond 7 days!! I was listening to some podcast lately it is called Art of 'Charm and one thing that I could take out of it is that : feel the urge to scratch and be curious about anything I also noticed that very often I am settling for less what I want. I have now specific goals.. I want to quit gaming but do I do with the time when I have no big dreams or goals that can motivate me longterm. Dirk

Hi I I dropped 6 cents in the habit bank! Yesterday was awesome but I feel apathy towards real life opportunities like I when I don't have a plan and go to the city with a lot of people around I kinda want to escape that. Also, I have seen so many young couples about my age or a little younger.. I was like...holy crab and I am still going to the event with my parents... See ya

To be honest with you @JustTom I am doing school almost the whole time when u sm not meditating or doing some home workout.

Hello day 2 I put two cents in my habit bank- working with that system I can see constant measurable growth more clearly Yesterday i texted a good friend of mine from America about that. I am not stimulated by anything now.. I am also tired but there is an exam coming up (as always) and yeah When Cam said that we got to be intentional with the time does that mean that we are rotten if not all the days are going perfect or highly productive? Dirk

Hello How do you do? I managed to be without games for Saturday!! I have pushed through some school stuff, which I was very proud about. I restrained from sweets which was very tough and i have done the most difficult tasks first. On Saturday i have planned what i want to do for Sunday but my list was there and i didnt even look at it and was watching yt videos until i was I felt like a light heat coming out of the area of my chest then i watched some porn, not knowing what that heat meant. After that I gamed. I dont like to numb myself mentally when there is a more unpleasant feeling or emotion coming in My guess is that i exhausted myself and then on Sunday i was bored and not stimulated mentally and some justification going on.

Thank you very much @eshi2000 for your powerful stuff You are right about the amount of stuff that I wanted to tackle simultaneously. I'll shoot for just 1 or 2 at a time at the most.

Hi week 1 Feelings: overwhelming I faced fear and frustration and it very intense. I didn't respond to it the correct way though. Responding correctly is not as easy as it looks when you are viewing it from the fishbowl gaming was for me. Ironically after I had an energy outburst I made some meditation only to freak out even more intense after this.. It was all add up for the last months of suppression gaming was for me. Right now I am feeling nothing.

Hi @eshi2000I have started to push through the detox and I feel like I constantly force myself and thus getting overwhelmed by the amount of school work I got to do that I didn't cover the last year. It is all overwhelming and I feel like I am not allowed to give me a littlebit relaxation because it might negatively affect my grade.. I also don' know how to be self compassionate I know that the cramming I am doing now is the opposite of it.. So I am kinda cramming as much as I can everyday. Is that normal? I see some posts of people who only tackle one habit at a time. Also I am thinking that I am not doing the detox right. I really need all the help I can get! I am tackling sugar, nofap, yt, no games, At the same time And new activities like takin a walk , meditation, Japanese, Kung fu, school and 20 minutes of bike racing Is that too much? I feel like I have no connection to my emotions except for when I am meditating with an app.

I plan to study for 2 hours a day but there are huge amounts of material from over 3 Months to cover.. And I get distracted so easy and the work for the exams next week and in 2 weeks are requiring at least 5 or 6 hours It all is moving so slow..

Thank you very much @karabas!! I am so tired since the start of the week..

Hey karabas I like your point 2 with the easy and hard habit. I am pushing through my first week of game free having a lot of work for school to do. I m overwhelmed by the amount of tasks there are to be finished..

Thank you so much for your good advice @eshi2000 I actually lapsed yesterday u was too tired to write I read about the what the hell effect What I realized is that fighting against an urge for me it was Friday night Saturday morning when I cannot sleep. next week when I cannot sleep I just want to fight through the night no matter what. I'll do the exercise for a whole night if that's necessary. The day after the craving would probably be away.

Hello I have heavy urges to game and the main trigger is probably that today is Friday.. Other than that I liked the Kung fu Lesson today!! I felt a lot more confident and I caught some girls looking at me.. One girl looked at me and she did that as well I get a little uneasy because I didn’t expected that.. But right now I am bored

Hello Yesterday I was going out having a walk and then instantly gaming thoughts and justifications to play hit me! At first it was the common desire to game I felt this desire from my chest and it was coming from inside. I was like that's interesting( I felt it before a lot when I wanted to game when I haven' been on the detox) But a fee minutes after that I felt down and I was thinking do I suppress that emotion? No I wasn't why did the craving and the desire got stronger?? I sped up my pace when I was home I realized why I had cravings like that. it was because I wasn't doing anything that engaged my mind I was just sitting there at the birthday table with my mums birthday guests. I was also bored at that time but I haven't felt anything during that time So today I wanna check more out giving Kung fu a shot! I also plan to work more with my daily agenda and with the detox in general I picked up Japanese for a little like the alphabet:)) Day 2 or 3 I believe Dirk

Day 2 Feeling about myself that I keep my phone downstairs so even If I do some lessons on my phone or writing down appointments on Google calendar I have no issues with having my phone but as soon as I go upstairs with my phone. Well. I m happy that I pushed through the day and "free time" I had .where I have done some school for the exam tomorrow and some self improvement!! I wrote down 10 Gratitude things and listened to a podcast on the way to school I couldn't help but smiling the whole way up to my work place??? They had a real impact on me!!

Thank you for your opinion and your awesome words! Yesterday I was reading something about having a daily agenda but i dont really know what that means.. Ihave put my obligations and when i return from school for this week in my calendar, is that the daily agenda or is it more of a detailied account of what can be done for the day? Also, I had procrastinated to do my presentation and studying for an exam over the last weeks Thank you for your replies!!! Dirk

Wow that´s awesome! I´d like to do the same! I have watched a nice video about what Cam has mentioned in the respawn package Something like while quitting games dont half-ass two things Unfortunately, I am half-assing school and gaming even though I know how screwed I have been today in the exam. Also, I thought that once i buy the respawn it will be a piece of cake... I noticed that there is no other way than being successful in quitting Video game addiction and that you keep reminding yourself of why you are doing this. I used to reason like this: Well, now I have repeated my goals and now i can full in control without any issues for the next 10 months! A few couple of hours later I find myself gaming and what the hell?? I know repeating goals and school material is one aspect where i really sucked at.

Thank you very much Eli!!! That´s what I did today I stopped playing games and i bought the respawn package yesterday. Am I serious about this? And then I removed my account Unfortunately I have a game account connected to Facebook..its over Kongregate.. My youtube is still full of gaming streams and I dont know how to remove that all since I dont have an google account anymore. I am trying to get some sleep(nighttime was always my weakest points) Thank you so much again for your encouraging words! See ya

@eshi2000 i have a question of how to respond to a lapse I have noticed that i lapse and then game hardcore for the weekend especially when some exams are close by. Could you please give me some advice on how to get back on track more quickly? During that time I dont feel like quitting gaming i feel like it is fun and then when my parents are entering my room I feel screwed up

Day 3 It goes alright until the nights other than that I feel more energy to do things. I feel lke you can go far with a good schedule that suits you.

Thank you very much @eshi2000 Yeah today I have decided to give quitting gaming a shot. (though I am still thinking about gaming) I have started with Kelly McGonigal s Willpower challenge that kinda makes me feel serious about my gaming addiction. Thank you very much though @eshi2000!!! I appreciate it!

I like your attitude ! I feel the same, but I do not know how to push past the first week without gaming It is always in the weekend when i am cutting off my streka of the week.... Did it get easier around day 50? I have heard that it is tough to push beyond that and then it gets again I am so exited to be game-free even for like 2 weeks!!!