NEW VIDEO: I Quit MMOs and THIS Happened
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Hello!
This night was extremely challenging! I couldnt sleep I had a PMO relapse after that I got a lot of things done
I had cravings to play games in the night.
The most important take away has been that you gotta be very intentional to make and take action on a daily agenda.
One advice is to make that goal measurable.
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Why did I quit playing games?
I want to be a self-relianr person being in bondage to games.
Hello Yesterday was pretty awesome felt no cravings and had some epic moments.
I had a dream about gaming 2 specific games today but they semed more surreal than realistic. I woke with having some cravings That's why I wrote this post.cravings
first weekend is coming
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Good luck you can do it !!
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Hi
I had one exam today and it went well.
Got up right at the start
I made the goal to repeat the school material and to finally start with my examination prep for April!
More importantly I want to start to learn new techniques but somehow I don't put it high enough to actually tackle it Might be because I don't trust that something new can replace my old dysfunctional boring learning strategies..
Could someone help me with that?
I made a plan yesterday in the evening but I didn't get to start it When I wake up I surprisingly react a lot to my circumstances and don't refer to my goals I made the evening before
Could you please help me with that
I have been starting the Miracle Morning after a couple of months rest.
I'm in exam prep mode!
Don't feel any cravings at the moment.
Having huge sugar cravings now and instant gratification
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9 hours ago, Phoenixking said:
Days without games & porn: 14
Waw. I can't believe I'm pushing 14 days with no porn... I still get urges on the daily. Not nescessarily for porn in itself, but just erotica stuff. Certain pictures, music videos, stuff like that... I have been staying away from all of that for 2 weeks now. It feels healthy but I certainly acknowledge that it has a definite grasp on me.
Today was a productive day. I had a lot of energy when I came back from work. I made a little list of everything that needed doing. Once more it quickly became a long list. But I kept it. By the end of the evening I made sure if anything needed adding and I now have a mere 5 goals for this month and 2 bonus goals (as in, it's not bad if I don't make these but it would be nice). I learned that I needed to prioritize. My writing assignment is a big deal and I'll make quite a bit of money off of it. We're still negotiating but I told them I'd spend 30 days, give them 15 pages of proper stuff and would ask for 2250 in return. For a full month of work, that's only fair. It takes about 3 hours for 500 words if you do it well. It made me realize, if they would accept, that I'd spend a large portion of my time this month on this project. And that's when the social media, the notification, the chores and the dishes, ... it all fell away. It's not important right now. I shouldn't stress over this. Sure, it's nice to be in a living room that's clean instead of messy. But if there's nothing written, there's no money for rent.
I feel so capable and productive today. Right now I'm tired as fuck. But I feel like I made good choices in terms of what's important to me and where should I spend time on. I think this year will remain focused around that fulcrum: getting enough gigs to build up the freelancing and finding the balance between what is important and what isn't.
Highlight of the day: The mixture of emotions I experienced while watching a documentary about Robin Williams, while working on the writing gig and texting Elien. Sadness, creativity and joy all in a few dazzling minutes.
Budget status: Slowly circling the drain. Almost out of money. I'd like to try and make the end of the month without dipping into my savings. I'm pretty sure there's some money coming in next week, depending on how fast the paperwork of the bonus I got will go. It's about 1000. Enough to make the end of the month. Gasoline and internet got paid, dinner with my friends this weekend was expensive. I should watch out what I spend when eating out, this is clearly a cost I need to cut down a little.
My one goal for tomorrow: Cook! Salmon and cream spinach. Bonus goal: Do something from the list after Krav Maga practice.
Nice job for your streak!!!
I'm also tackling those two stepping stones at the same time!
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Howdy!!
I struggled to wake up today initially waking up at 5.30 But then snoozing till around 7.
I don't need coffee anymore. Noticing that I morally judging whether this is a igood or a bad morning.
I have listened to a meditation introductional podcast which went great. Did some studying
I m grateful for my jacket
for my mom and for the next day!!
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2 hours ago, katsudo19 said:
Hey! I remember you from I guess 2017? You still struggle with games? I see that @Mettermrck keep struggling too. Man we must find another way to stop this nonsense. My previous nick was @Onlysoul.
Yes I haven't been in it to be honest.
But now, I wanna make it right.
I have been struggling withchaving an agenda over the holidays.
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On 12/30/2018 at 1:27 AM, Mettermrck said:
Day 0/367
Well, I'm back....defeated but not giving up. The past year or more has been agony for me. My divorce was finalized early in 2018. I lost a full time job in June due to absenteeism. I was out of work for 5 months, barely scraping by on my Mom's limited income. Somehow I managed, with the help of my state's vocational rehabilitation program, to get another good full-time job. And I lost that in 5 weeks...due to absenteeism. So I'm back on the scraping limited income.
I was already struggling when my 90 day detox completed in Sept 2017. I was already slackening in my diet. When the 90 days was up, the gaming itch was already there, just waiting for me to let my guard down. Boy, did I ever. And boy, did gaming come back into my life.
To make a long story short, I've spent the last 15 months with my head in the clouds, trying to recapture the magic of those 3 months when I was off soda and gaming and transforming my life. Only, I tried to do it by holding on to my addictions in moderation, or at the very least, hold on to one addiction as a crutch while I quit the other. Gaming was usually the crutch. This never worked. I never felt at ease with either habit in my life and could never sustain a balance, despite the best laid plans. I tuned the world out and barely functioned while I played mental tug of war.
After losing my latest job a couple of weeks ago, I had to take a hard look and get past my rationalizations and self-deceptions. It was not easy. I felt like I was begging..."take the soda but please let me keep the gaming!" And it never worked. In my stubbornness, I kept trying.
Finally, this morning, I was playing Mass Effect Andromeda on my brand new gaming laptop. I should've felt wonderful playing such a gorgeous looking game on a powerful computer. But I didn't. I felt empty inside.
I realize now that my addictions are symbiotic. Gaming fills the time and helps me escape reality...soda provides the fuel for my escape rocket. They both have to go. The old saw I've spoken of before, that I just want to play the historical strategy games, has proven false. That only keeps the door open and I return to the RPGs for my binges. No more.
I've missed this community and now return in due humility. My plan is to just go ahead and do a year's detox for 2019 (actually 367 days beginning tomorrow), picking up the pieces along the way.
I think this time I'm going to make it. I don't think I will underestimate the power of my addictions again. It's good to be back. I'm already beginning to breathe free again.
I wish you all the best my friend!!
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Gratitude
I had a nice sleep for a Monday
I have woken up at 5.30!!
I am looking forward to tomorrow
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This is my official start on the 90day detox.
I have noticed that If I am not controlling my cravings and doing what my addicted brain is telling me, then my parents have to seize my phone.
Therefore, I had the choice of either having my parents take my phone (external control) or doing something about my addiction with the help of you guys and especially myself to set myself free(Internal motivation)
Before I have only seen the academics consequences and having issues with dealing with life.
Now I see the bonding that keeps me immature while having having your parents controlling your life.
To sum up I made the relation:
easily giving into cravings with no second thinking=>having issues with accepting the truth and beingin that state where you cannot deal with your life setting you up to live life depending parents.
Thank you
You can have it the easy way deciding what you gonna do with your life and living it to th fullest or you can be escaping life and continue gaming and giving other person the right to control you.
I have chosen the former.
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On 12/24/2018 at 6:07 AM, RS Addict said:
My parents have deep doubts about my truthfulness and willingness to quit games.
I know that feeling very well.
Especially I 've have meant it or olnly half heartedly.
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Happy New Year!!
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On 12/29/2018 at 7:29 AM, fawn_xoxo said:
I can totally see myself stressing about the lack of control too, but I think the useful question here would be this: Which of all the factors that are affecting your schedule are in your control? Because we all need to be responsible of our circumstances however we need to firstly know which circumstances are in our control, so that we don't blame ourselves for things that we can't affect.
I would really know which ones can be controlled!!
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I like your empowering journal posts!!
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Hello
I Have started to put some loops together after finishing a couple hoirds of studying.
I cannot imagine how epic that felt!!!
It was so deliberating and it just made so much fun!!!
I have been watching some videos on to apps and programs from other people but it was kinda overwhelming hearing and seeing what they look for.
I just put sokme loops together with no melody just drums and guitar!!! and some sound effects.!
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Hello
I commit to the 90 day journey
I have procrastinated so long for this decision but now I want to after several years of suffering.
I have beenstsrtimf with this yesterday
I have been watching porn and eating junk after I quit games
I think it was the 2 cognitive biases messing with me.
I want t9 at least keep the journal for the 90 days writing about my feelings and what areas I feeling with the most.
The day after porn and games I woke up wondering why I have been watching porn after quitting games.
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On 12/19/2018 at 12:09 AM, Peregrinator said:
All I could see were happy couples walking aorund
I'm feeling the same!!
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brain fog as hell I have relapsed and still have a game on my phone.
I don't thing that my wanting to quit games and improve in constant measurable growth outside if games is not gonna be the same as in gaming.
I need some opinion on the question:
The basics of quitting gaming is
1. learning how to deal with urges and withdrawals which will be easier the better your reasons are to quit?
Including all the cravings for that you miss games.
2.Getting involved in your life building up momentum to make your life as epic as possible?
I am frustrated that I feel like shot now Yesterday the only thing that mattered to me was getting to some constant measurable growth but I didn't find anything. It was my day 1 without games.
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by the way sinc3 I have stopped I ate a lot more junk food and I don't want to tagwt that addiction because I want to focus on games and porn at first.
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Today I almost thought if relapsing the last exam before Christmas with the old usual free time.
But when I was in town after school I thought f*** it I dont wanna go home There I ll be tempted to game.
I rushed through the Christmas market to see some familiar faces but I don't see anyone and then I was headed home for lunch.
I still think that I can quit games on my own but I have been watching this video by Tommy Rosen
In which he said that I should have a community and a 12 step program in order to quit for good.
I am not sure about this.
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I ha've been going to a toast master meeting a couple months ago.
This was the most intense thing ever.. I thought that they expect you to speak about solmething but they ask whether someone wants to speak about a certain topic.
I didn't speak about anything I felt like someone has to force me into speaking I didn't speak about anything...
It's really about being bold I guess.
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Hi good to have you!!
I kept my phone in the kitchen and use the communication when my intentions are clear. I have also deleted my account to make accessinggames more difficult.
During sleep time I keep my phone in the kitchen as well because I mostly gamed through the nights.
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Today I was proud of myself of getting up of my favorite bus seat to sit next to a beautiful girl.
On my way home I have seen some peeps playing Clash of clans a game I had some very realistic dreams about...
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Hello
1. If you want to make the recovery as difficult as possible give yourself no rewards and be hard on yourself....That's exactly what I have been doing.
2. I am scared to ask for help and I ordered something wrong and I was afraid of the consequences of quickly correcting myself to order something else.
3.I fantasize a lot being around people in bigger crowds lioke going through town. Something I have never noticed before.
4.This morning was nice I felt confide t with no interest in giving a s***about what others think over my beard.
5.I am proud that I haven't been playing games for ower a week now!!
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I want to learn DJ as well .I downloaded Music Maker Jam and I noticed putting some random loops together ( it doesnt have to be perfect) it is way better than listening to music!
Good luck!!