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  1. Day 6: another fail. I was on a dumb phone for a while. I recently switched back to a smart phone again. It is helpful with work and texting and the like... but, it is another level of distraction. I need to make this detox more of a priority. I have to recognize how this is messing up who I want to be and what I want to do... argh!
  2. Day 5: Failed the last three days. Argh! Cam, I think the videos are serving some sort of purpose. Novelty, excitement, newness, a laugh, intellectual input, rest, relax (I usually go to a certain spot on my coach or on my bed to rest), get away from people (I'm an introvert in a people-oriented field), "learn" or hear something new, ... I think those are some of the reasons I do this. Now, I think the next question you might ask would be, "What can you do to fulfill those real needs/felt needs with something else?" I really need to think about that. Reading, naps, playing an instrument... I think this is key because even though I sort of want more information from these videos or novelty, I think it can also be detrimental because my mind and being really needs more rest. I have plenty of stuff to decompress... maybe I need to decompress differently. Maybe I could try writing things down in a journal and rest that way. Then the problems and issues aren't just swirling up there and I'm not just trying to escape from them. That might be a healthy and fun way to rest. I will try that. When I feel like watching some videos... I'll write. Second, if writing ain't doing it, I will read. Third, I will play an instrument. Is any of this making any sense?
  3. Day 2: the struggle is real! Last night I read a book instead and went to bed much earlier than normal. Normal bedtime was creeping into 11pm range... too late! Last night I fell asleep around 930pm. Much better! After work or during a break from work I'll usually snuggle into Youtube or something. Today, I'm working instead. Right now I am working on a coaching certification. I really do talk myself into being "Tired" and that I "need to rest." I have a little more desire than even yesterday. Good starts!
  4. Hi all, I completed the detox for video games about six months ago. Since then, the lure back into video games has stayed more or less at bay. Now though, a second head of the hydra has remained high for some time: videos (Youtube mostly). I mindlessly consume these. When I am stressed or trying to relax... I watch videos. I search for more of them. It feels good initially to watch some video on some topic... but 20-30 minutes, 1 hour later... mind numbing and energy sucking. Day 1: no more videos. I need to detox from this like I detoxed from video games, twitch.tv, etc. I am not going to watch movies, tv, Youtube, espn, news, etc. I know that if I allow an exception I will over consume that. I can survive without videos... people did for a very long time. My hope is I will instead rest in reading, prayer, conversation, working out, take a nap, etc. Wish me luck!
  5. Day 126. Starting to trim down some things. I need to focus on fewer things. Master a few things. Studying Greek is really important to me personally. Reading great literature is as well. Setting aside time for deep thought on a regular basis for my work is also key. Chess -in-person, OTB, is a great side thing to take my mind off of the above, but I still need a plan to stick to. I played at the Jewish Community Center which has an active club every Wednesday night. I met a few good guys and played some great slow games. I look forward to playing more regularly there and improving at the game. Family relationships Spending quality time with my family at meals and in front of the fireplace are key. We spend considerable time outside together once a week. This is going pretty well. Settling in after 18 days in the hospital! Thankful that we are home!
  6. Day 124: no Video Games Day 1 (again): no internet Day 2: no added-sugar/eating late at night Well, the internet is destroying me. It is much harder than I thought to not view a Youtube video of comedy, or watch a chess lecture, etc. I think I may need a detox from it... Not sure how to do that well. Sometimes I need to go online and do some work... then, I get sucked into mindless wanderings. This is a common issue I'm sure. How have you guys dealt with this? It is different than no video game detox. Kind of, right? How do you attack this one Cam? PS. I really liked the video on Youtube about chess yesterday. I think that is a big part of the answer to my question... being okay with myself when nothing is urgent. Making a plan. Doing what I need to do. Take productive breaks. etc. Help!
  7. Day 122: no Video Games Detox Day 1: no Internet/TV/Youtube & added-Sugar Last night I felt awful. I was eating a bunch of kettle korn and watching some shows with my wife. We finally had some time with each other. I enjoyed it. Until... I couldn't sleep until 2am because I was feeling warm, headache, foggy... I think from sugar! Yikes! My body isn't used to it. I want to keep it that way. So, 2017 is going to be a new year of discipline. No surfing the internet, no TV shows, no Youtube. And, no added-sugar. An apple or something is fine. Starting a new challenge because I need it. I haven't played video games or looked them up on Youtube or looked at streams in some time. But, the second head of the internet hydra has merely replaced that one. Time to slay that nasty being in me and live a life of discipline this year like I truly want to. Wish me luck! I'll post on how that is going daily. This is the next challenge for me.
  8. I saw a pyramid that turns this one upside-down. Our greatest needs are philosophically defined, pursuing what is good, beautiful, and true. That is what makes us human. It is true we can't do that unless our basic needs are met, but how much are we truly thinking about pursuing food, clothing, etc. in our modern age. Well, I hope not too much. Those things are taken care of more easily than ever before. We have so much more time to pursue works of wonder... but distractions are so well-done we easily give our whole minds and souls to games. May we seek first the best things and leave behind the worthless ones.
  9. Day 119 Wow, that is way too long! My previous post is too much stuff. I don't even want to look at it. I think I'll just stick to a short paragraph. Today, I want to wean down my options for the year... see what is really worth focusing on and sticking to it. I might as well put all my thoughts on here and start weaning it down. It's okay if I don't do everything. it may take a few years to do this... but that is okay! Areas of focus: Exercise: calisthenics and jogging (Prep for Navy) something daily and eat small meals every three hours. Relationships (wife, kids, community, my brothers): turning off distractions when I'm around my kids and wife (turn off bluetooth--don't listen to a book and tune out your family!, turn the phone off while at home as much as possible,being fully present in conversation and listening to people, love=attentiveness.Help with chores around the house with joy.Take girls on "dates" monthly.Take my wife on real dates once a month (dinner, hike, movie, play, symphony, museum, etc.),get away with my wife at least once this year for a long weekend without kids at a nice resort or something (make sure it isn't a "pastor and wife retreat" because we end up having to spend lots of time with other people instead of each other. Family: Take advantage of "free" Tucson Symphony Orchestra tickets due to Lily taking lessons with a violist from the symphony,Brothers: Hikes with my brothers while we talk about being men and literature.Volunteer: continue in community leadership councils and volunteering at the elementary school to develop friendships in the community. Reading: Listening to great works of fiction (Audible) (listen to at least 12 books), work through reading list for 2017: Ancient Greek Lit, Great works of Western Civilization (from Wes Callihan).Greeks Epics : The Iliad , The Odyssey. Drama and Lyric: Book Reader: Aeschyls, Sophocles, Aristophanes, Eurpipides, Sappho, Pindar, Theocritus, Hesiod, Quintus of Smyrna, Apollonius of Rhodes. Histories: The Landmark Herodotus: The Histories, The Landmark Thucydides, Xenophon: The Persian Expedition. The Philosophers: Plato: Six Greek Dialogues, The Basic Works of Aristotle. Recommended Additional Reading: The Homeric Hymns, Expanded to full texts by the drama and lyric poets. Euclid Elements. (Might want to purchase Wes Callihan's Greeks teaching series to be a guide through these texts).Works on Pastoral Identity (continue working through Eugene Peterson works). Five Smooth Stones for Pastoral Work. Wendell Berry, ... (3 works for the year)Year of Biblical Literacy Prep (2018 for church) http://bible.realitysf.com/resources Eat This Book, ... (5 works for the year)Modern works: Better Living Through Criticism: How to Think About Art, Pleasure, Beauty, and Truth by A. O. Scott; The Righteous Mind: Why Good People Are Divided by Politics and Religion by Jonathan Haidt; How to Survive the Apocalypse: Zombies, Cylons, Faith, and Politics at the End of the World by Robert Joustra and Alissa Wilkinson; Modern Romance by Aziz Ansari; The Underground Railroad: A Novel by Colson Whitehead; Hillbilly Elegy: A Memoir of a Family and Culture in Crisis by J. D. Vance; A Jesuit Off Broadway: Behind the Scenes with Faith, Doubt, Forgiveness, and more by James Martin SJ and Stephen Adly Guirgis. (7 works)Devotional Work: read through Bible this year, St. Gregory of Tours Lives of the Fathers, prayer through Psalms, scripture memoryPoetry: memorize a few classic poems, start with "If" by Kipling. (4 poems memorized for the year. try listening to them at least once a day.Memory: Memorize the New Testament in five years (big hairy goal: four verses a day with review, one hour of time a day, make use of "off" times). a few poems too. Language Study: Ancient Greek (Pharr book on Homeric Greek, a few lessons a week, ,much is helpful review at this point.), Spanish (not sure how to do this), Latin (to prepare to teach my children in a few years), Hebrew Groups of other men (learning communities): Charlotte Mason Idyll Challenge, Journaling on gamequitters and reading other people's journeys, The Edge, Wheaton College Group, Drexel Heights Pastor Group, How to do this: One thing that isn't working out of late is waking up and reading for long enough in the mornings. I need to get up early enough to exercise and do my devotions. But, I need to set aside a few hour segment most days of the week to get away from everyone else and just read. There is a separate building at the church that no one goes to that has a nice leather couch in it. I will try to get away over there for a few hours a day to read. Say "no" to most all other things that might try to get my attention. Unless of course they are more important than the current task. Not watching TV, not playing video games, not playing chess.com, and being intentional should go a long way! I'll keep track of "how many" hours I've taken to read and therefore how many books I've read through in the weeks, months, and years just to start keeping myself accountable and compete with myself a bit on this. Should be fun! Let's see what this new year holds.
  10. Day # 118 Gratitude journal Today, we have out little boy home for 24 hours. He has some sort of infection on his pinky. Green in the center, white, then the tip is all red. He is heading to the pediatrician now... Thankful that he is doing much better. Thankful we have an appointment today. Thankful my wife can take him. Grateful for enough strength to get through this next trial with hope. Praying he will be alright and the docs have a good treatment. His immune system isn't that great from too many fluids and everything and taking so much blood for all of the tests these last few weeks. Anyway, I'm trying to be grateful and warding off the panic that rises up again. One amazing thing that happened/I did today I got up this morning after an exhausting night and read for a bit. Workout/run I walked for 45 minutes and did 60 squats. Memorization Proverbs 15:1, Ephesians 1-3. Reading + taking notes Psalm 6. Genesis 19-21. Dante's Inferno, Canto . Life can be hell. Dante is helping me get through it. Getting to bed before 9pm Yesterday, I got to bed before 10pm which is better than a few previous nights. Today, I got to bed at 9pm. I slept long! Feeling better. Weekly Goal(s) Make a reading list for the year. Decide what language(s) I will study. (Ancient Greek and/or Spanish) Limit the groups I'll be a part of. There are more opportunities than ever right now... I need to be wise. I shouldn't do everything. (Wheaton, 4Tucson, Navy, Idyll Challenge, ...) Reading: Charlotte Mason, Chapter 10 Monthly Goal At work: get vision team working together again. We've been off for the holidays. Finish strong! 3 Month Goal Memorize Ephesians chapters 1-3. Start jogging. (Been walking for last few months) What went well today: Didn't completely flip out when I saw my son had an infection. I did better not allowing the stress to get to me. Instead of going on chess.com right when my wife left I got on here and journaled instead. What I could have done to make my day better: ... less chess.com later in the day. No chess.com! What I will do differently tomorrow: ... no chess.com And, going to try reading at work for a few hours by setting an "appointment" so I can't be disturbed.
  11. I've been pretty triggered lately with my wife in the hospital, baby boy sick, and taking care of everything at home with the two girls and trying to work, clean, laundry, etc. etc. Tough stuff! I need strength and to adapt, but it has been a true test. I haven't done amazing 24/7. I've been playing chess.com again... I was on Youtube last night for a few hours... I get so tired of myself. I need discipline and not escape, but I find myself doing exactly what doesn't help me or my family! I hate this sometimes. How do you stay intentional during trying times?
  12. My baby boy is better. He may be able to come home in the next day or two. I hope he is well enough to do that soon!
  13. Day... it's been a blur. My three-month-old son has been in the hospital for two weeks now. I pray he can come home soon. There is no trauma like a sick baby. I'm thankful for God and modern medicine. Hoping continued improvement for here on out. Need to adapt and be strong for my family. Discipline, not escape.
  14. Day 94 I have an estimated 16801 days left to live. If that happens, I'll die on Dec. 11, 2062. How will I live each of those days? "So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom."
  15. What is the "Challenge?" Yes, I need to journal daily! It might help me stay on the track of goals. I think I've been listening to this podcast too much. It is really good but I had a great journey the other day. I left my phone in the car and walked through a rose garden. I eventually got close enough to the roses to just stand there and really see them. It was amazing to unplug and just spend time to really see and hear without digital noise. Maybe when I run and walk I should not listen to things on my phone as much. I do like learning while I go, but maybe I can save that for my drive time and look forward to it...
  16. I did too many. What do you track on it? I think it would be best to just track around 3 things or so. Not sure what is optimal.
  17. Day 93! I haven't journaled for exactly a month... I just was Cam's response to "journaling daily is a good way to clear your mind." I need to keep that in mind. I haven't gone back to video games the whole time. I watched a chess video or two... the world championship just happened and all. I feel "caught up." I was using coach.me, but I was tracking way too many things. Then, it got buggy and wouldn't work on my phone. So, I deleted it. I've been reading voraciously. I started studying language again. I am walking and counting calories. I think I may not need to count the calories everyday. I'm in a good grove of small meals every three hours, even an apple in the in-between times. I will start jogging in a few weeks, sticking to a plan. What is the "Challenge?" I would like some principles for this stage of things. I feel like this detox was life-saving. Not that I was going to kill myself, just that I was killing myself, my soul, my life daily with video games. I was numbing myself, self-medicating, with this digital drug. I'm doing my best to set boundaries on my digital life. I deleted Facebook a month or so. I haven't missed it. I don't watch the news. I listen to the three-minute NPR news each morning, and that seems to be enough about "earthquakes, wars and rumors of wars." I'm reading The Iliad. It's wonderful. Richard Lattimore translation. I have an interview in Washington DC on Thursday. I wouldn't have been ready for this opportunity without gamequitters and you guys. Thank you! I hope I get it!
  18. Well done, Reno F! Good luck on your writing and online business plans. I'm currently listening to "Personal MBA," and I truly enjoy all of the principles of business that actually matter explained well. If you haven't read it yet, I would definitely recommend it =)
  19. Day 63 Wow, I haven't said anything in a while. I've overwhelmed myself a bit with various things. I will try coach.me. I tried Habit Bull, but it limits you to 5 habits or you have to pay. I was using Loop Habit Tracker, but the font is too tiny. I don't even up it every day. Habitica was starting to obsess me a bit but this app doesn't even get me to open it! Hah! Habits I need help with of late: Finances. I listened to an interview on NPR called Irrational Spending Habits or something. The one thing that stuck with me is this: "We all think we are good with money that we are better with it than we actually are." I think I am above-average with money. I'm not. I spend money too much: eating at In-N-Out Burger and buying books and tools... I'm a spender. So, I told my wife that I would ask her before I make a purchase each time. That is hard to do sometimes... We are on a spending freeze... "You Need a Budget" looks like a good budgeting tool that syncs with your bank and phone and lets you know which categories have funds in them... (Only $27 left in groceries... or -$5 in eating out.) I will try these. Do you guys have any other suggestions? Oh yeah, I also found this helpful from "Rich Dad, Poor Dad." Broke people: buy stuff Middle Class: buy liabilities (Debt) Rich: buy assets *That's easy to remember and sort of motivating in a way! Searching for a good habit. I'm still looking for a good "break" habit that is challenging, progression-based, and enjoyable. Reading has been going in and out of this. Playing an instrument is another one that is hard to keep up with but I'd like to make it work. What do you guys do to take a break? (It is so easy to go on Youtube and watch dumb stuff about the elections in the US... yikes!) Fitness: I'm tracking my calories with MyFitnessPal everyday. I've lost about 6 pounds so far. I'm walking a lot more regularly too. In a few weeks I will start a running plan. Reading: I did well for a few weeks. I was reading 30-50 pages a day. Navy... Then I applied to be a Reservist Chaplain in the Navy. The application process is just crazy. This is eating up a lot of my emotional and all other energy... So, that's why I have been away for a while. It is pretty crazy how much you have to do... Yikes! I'm getting a little tired of it... I need to push through!
  20. Yep. try chains.cc , it's not so gamified and it works for me! Greetings, Mad Pharmacist I don't have a mac. I think chains.cc would be great for that. I will try Habitbull.
  21. Day 51 I may need to lay off of Habitica/HabitRPG and use something else that isn't gamifying my life. I think it helped for a bit to get me over the edge... but I need something else. I'm getting to use the app like a game instead of like a tool. Do you guys have any recommendations?
  22. Awesome challenge! I'm excited to see this. And, it is pretty amazing you have done the detox five times. Sweet! Keept going! I have been using Habit-RPG. Sometimes I will mindlessly wander through that and not do any tasks but just keep going back to the app. Anyway... I need to think about a better habit/to-do app maybe.
  23. How do you guys put a quote/signature at the bottom of each of your posts?!
  24. Day 50 Yeah, book clubs aren't just for women. I think my younger brothers will have some interesting books for me to read! Should be fun.
  25. Day 47 Thankful for: 1. Spoke to a Navy Chaplain recruiter yesterday about being a reservist Chaplain. Seems like a good opportunity to pursue and pray about. 2. Coffee. 3. My son slept for two hours in a row by himself from 1AM-3AM... it's the little things, you know? 4. I desire to stay focused on my calling even when pursuing a part-time opportunity on the side. I want to be faithful with what I have now. 5. Resilience, listening to the chapter on friendship was really good yesterday. We have friends for pleasure, virtue, and utility. Most men I know don't do well making and keeping lasting friendships. Friendship is a worthy pursuit in itself. And, as Aristotle said, virtue is a wonderful side benefit to friendship, not the main goal... My wife is definitely my best friend. Yet, I'm most grumpy and mean to her at times. I'm trying to read more often. I started something with my three younger brothers. We're going to get together and talk about our reading monthly-ish. Each month one of us will bring a book for everyone to read before the next meeting. So, each of us will get a chance to recommend something... I guess this is a "book club." But, I do desire to be real friends with even my brothers.
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