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Hello and good job with creating your journal! You need to find out why you played video games. Could you give me the top 3 most regular games you played? Also, are you an introvert or extrovert?

Hey, guys. I have been recording my deep and REM sleep for a few months because I use to have bad Hypersomnia. I do still sleep a lot sometimes and some days I am still tired for no reason, but it has improved beyond what I thought and me stopping video games has fixed nearly all my sleeping problems. It has been 23 days of writing since I stopped playing video games and now I am waking up at 7am without alarms or care, and I like to say, thank you, Cam! Note: REM sleep helps with memory, and cognitive skills in real life. I tried a lot of things to fix my sleep. The only thing I tried and worked was reading before bed after gaming. But, even then I would still be tired the next day. This didn't last long because I was always getting bored. The two main things in my life at the time was gaming and sleeping. When I wasn't gaming, I would feel tired and sleep. This is why last year, my last year of school, I would sleep in class regularly. I read books for about 4 days then stopped because I was too tired all the time. I use an app on my phone that tracks movement in your sleep. When you are in Deep Sleep, you will never move. When you are in REM, you will toss and turn; move around on your bed. The android app was called Sleep Cycle I think I paid $2 dollars for it. Here were the results for my typical night whilst playing video games. Typical Night w/ Gaming Typical Night w/ Gaming but Reading One-Two Hours before Sleep Typical Night Without Gaming I was getting too much Deep Sleep. Even when I was reading books before bed. And don't even ask how bad the night sleep I was getting when gaming without books. The reason why I posted this because I thought it was interesting how much gaming has an effect on my life. And sleep was always being affected as if I was drunk. For the people who have quit gaming, have you seen an improvement in your sleeping? I can't find any studies on about deep sleep and video games.

Thinking about if I should install Linux on my PC. I have always wanted to use Linux and wanted to learn a new operating system. Currently thinking about Arch Linux but I need to do my research before whiping all my drives. My brain is still trying to make me not do it because I still have a 1TB worth of Steam games on my compute. But my brain can suck a dick. I am doing this, this is a step towards my goals with IT. And before you even ask, I am too scared to even login into steam. That's why I haven't uninstalled the games since the typical way to uninstall games through Steam only. I mentioned in my other thread I want to learn C++ but I will do this. I can always use Wine and a Virtual machine. But my brain still says no XD. But seriously, I don't know why I am afraid of this change. I think I'm scared of regret. All those games for nothing somehow I'm telling myself. I thought this over, the only time after this 90-day detox I would play games, would be guitar hero or racing games with irl friends. I like playing them but only do it socially with IRLs. Anyways, it was good to see my brother again. I had a long talk with him, told him about what happened to my dad. We chilled for around 6 hours, it was really good to see him again. Goals for tomorrow need to get a few things from the shops, and go see John about his computer and maybe help brother if he isn't working

Good job man! I hope to see you around

Hello everyone and thanks for the replies! Got back yesterday, the cruise was good for the first day and a half, but of course, shit went down. It was my dads' cruise for his birthday, but his girlfriend wouldn't allow us to party with him or do any group activities. What was the point of even taking us then? She hit my dad when she was drunk. The next day, she was all nice to me, acting she did nothing wrong. I exploded. And now shit has gone now. Have no idea how long I'm going to stay living where I am now. Everyone is on my side, she's talked shit to everyone in the group. Since we have been back, she's telling everyone who didn't go how much of a shit I am. But, she leaves the part out how she talked smack about my dead mother to me and everything else. But, I'm the Nazi. I need to think about the positives. I am one week away from a month without gaming. I am excited! I finally did something in my own control and it feels awesome! I am still having panic attacks in large places with people; need to work on that. I have worked on with my selfishness, sharing a pizza for an example. It felt good for doing things that I want to do and I want to keep it up. I might upload a few videos later tonight and post them here. Thank you for this forum Cam, you have helped a lot!

Hello, I have always wanted to learn and master a coding language. For years now, I have always wanted to learn C++ but gaming was always in the way. But, the problem with C, it is a harder language to learn. That is why I'm considering to learn Python first, as it is considered to be one of the easiest languages to learn for beginners. Should I learn Python, may take 3 months to learn and get the hang of coding? Or, should I learn C++ which could take 6 months and allow me to code the programs I always wanted to do?

Thanks, man, after a few days of reflection, I think you're 100% correct! This week has been so shitty because of the Tuesday incident, I couldn't even be bothered writing about it at the time. Its time for me to move on and connect with people and not elude everything like I just did. To be honest with you, I just wanted to drive into a fkn tree. Last night I drove around for a few hours and came home at 2am. I had a good think, and with this cruise ship I'm going on tomorrow with dad and the family, it will be a good time to give back!

I realise how selfish I truly am. All I care about is me, someone needs help, sorry I come first. I'm trying to convince myself don't live in the past, fix my mistakes and live for the future. I truly understand now, why people stop talking to me or give me looks after my stupid actions. I somehow help others for my own gain, and the truth is really hurting me. I need to let this sink in, I know I can change, I already am at this very moment. 14 days without my favourite thing in the world. I need to do a lot of reflection. I've been selfish for years, and gaming was a big part of it. Maybe I'm over reacting over something so small, maybe I haven't just matured it and realised reality. Sorry, I'm just losing my mind right now

It was hard for me to realise everyone has a story. Everyone has as much as a complex story as me and you. Gandhi to Hitler. Bill Gates to a Homeless. Cam to someone who plays 12+ hours of Dota a day. Life is a BIG game, some people are good at it, some people are not. Our lives is a big open world game without loading screens. Farting in public is in your story, and probarly mine too but it is almost instantly that people forget. They have a bigger quest to follow and complete. Btw, check out this video LMFAO https://youtu.be/tnvRWlRQOUM?t=3

Sorry for not posting yesterday, that night I only got 4 hours sleep, coughed my guts out and couldn't sleep. I passed out before I could write in my journal Yesterday Anyways, I spent some time with dad, he was very happy with the gifts I gave him for Fathers Day, but I think he was happier that I spent time with him. The last few times I would only go see him for an hour or two. Had a really nice breakfast meal and later that night, we had a few members over for a family dinner. It was super nice and I think my dad enjoyed it. Later, I finally deleted all my gaming apps on my phone, good thing because I'm 4 nights of sleep away until I go on a boat cruise for my dad's birthday. I don't want games to play, while I can go have fun in real life. Had a fear of playing games on Steam since I was bored as hell last night. Messaged my friends then we went and watched The Free State of Jones at the movies. It is really good that my friend is being supportive. We use to play Arma together a few years back but he got his life sorted out way before me, he's been trying to get me out of the house for a long time, but my excuses turned into lies, then lies turned into eluding. I'm surprised he has put up with me for this long. Today 12 hours sleep. Whelp. Woke up at 12.30pm, and man I was pissed off. Felt like crap, I don't believe I slept for this long. I knew I would make up for the sleep I didn't get from the night before, I need to set an alarm! My friend messaged me if I wanted to go out. Of course, I ignored it. 20 minutes went by, but I went "fuck it" and went out to get some lunch. I'm glad I did, got me out of the house and I enjoyed the KFC. Came back home two hours later, then read a few chapters of a Game of Thrones. 30 minutes in and fell asleep. I think I slept for an hour. Ever since the nap, I feel much fresher and awake. Which was a bonus. Came on discord and talked to my gaming buddy. Finally told him what I was doing and surprisingly understood me and agreed. I'm happy about that. Tomorrow Goals: Buy new shoes for trip --- go with friend and chill

Man, you actually sound like me. A year back, I had an argument with my dad when I told him, I don't want to lie to my children about Santa (if I had them) because it's a waste of time and they should not follow the dogma of society which they can spend more time in learning and experiencing. (Note: I would still celebrate Christmas with presents etc) You're correct, there is no meaning, we are just a small spec of sand in the universe and it sucks. But, you have a story, and a story will always have chapters to follow. No matter how small it is! Go watch the video below man. I'm going to follow this thread https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qc6cMHUyblg

Good work man! Clearing your head outside is better than battling out with it at home.

Really tired, not going to write much. I don't believe I want to go to bed at 9pm on a Saturday. Woke up at 8.30am, Yeah I slept in went shopping with dad at 10am, got myself a new watch and loads of new clothes. Been meaning to go out and get some for about a year now. We got subway for lunch and came home. Watched The Fifth Estate, then some Youtube. Im 200 pages away from finishing the first book of a Game of Thrones, so I'm going to read it before I sleep tonight so I can start on Clash of the Kings. A good and productive day! Todays goal(s) Wake up at 8am nope but hellyeah -- go with dad shoppng hellyeah -- Subway hellyeah Tomorow goal(s) -- Fathers day -- Spend time with dad

10 days! So close to two weeks. I'm slowly adjusting but now, it feels like I'm doing the right thing. Not the, "Just play 1 game, it wont hurt." "You spent all that time trying to rank up on CSGO, and now you did it all for nothing." My brain isn't liking me right now haha but hopefully these thoughts will go away soon. Woke up around 9.40am, Coffee wasn't that great on me last night, couldn't get to sleep until 1am. In the morning, I sat around really not doing anything, watched a few videos and that's about it. At midday, at the last moment, I decided to ring up my friend and grab some lunch. Not Subway Ive been hanging for Subway at least 3 days now, I need to go :'). I didn't feel like doing anything today, just one of those days, but I had nothing else to do. After lunch, we chilled for around an hour. We went to the shops, and I bought meat for fathers day. I went and dropped him off at home. Came home and had a chat for a few hours with dad. Chilled in the garage with dads friends the went and got Pizza for dinner. Now I am just chillinng and watching Drunken Peasants podcast then probably going to bed, Another successful day for me! Todays Short Term Goal(s) -- Wake up at least by 10am hellyeah -- This time I will eat subway kindahellyeah -- Buy food for fathers day hellyeah -- Uninstall game apps -- forgot about this Tomorrows Short Term Goal(s) - Wake up at 8am -- go with dad shoppi ng -- Subway?

I 'm getting back into the groove. Even a small thing like this, giving comebacks to my irl friends, it feels good to be me again. We use to enjoy talking shit to each other, but the last 2 years I couldn't be fazed. I was actually happy today, for one of the first times in a while, I actually cared about being in the moment, not how many games I will play when I get home. I had legitment laughs, not masked ones. It really feels good, I have achieved something and I have no regrets. I woke up at 10am. Better than yesterday but not good enough. I still could do things but I wouldn't be able to get lunch at Subway. I went and watched some Youtube videos and waited until the new episode of Mr Robot was downloadable. In the time period, I noticed Cam was about to Live Stream. I went and watched the stream, asked a few questions and Cam was kind enough to answer. Australia represent btw . It fe lt like a perfect time to do house work, so I streamed the video on my phone and did 2 hours of cleaning in my bedroom and study. I learned a lot from the stream. After the stream, I went and watch Mr Robot. After that, my friend and I decided to take Jacob and us to watch a movie at the cinemas. Jacob hates horrors so we lied and told him we would decide what movie we were watching when we got there. Max and I already decided on Don't Breath lmfao. He was quite salty xD. Before that happened, we went to McDonalds for dinner. Not Subway but clo se enough. The movie was pretty shit imo haha, we had a conversation about it. I take movies way too seriously, but the movie was that bad. Before the movies while sitting in the cinema, I did play an offline Trivia game for around 5 minutes because I had no internet. I need to uninstall all games on my phone before I do a major slip. I'm regretting I've had 3 coffees today. I have some weed but I don't think it's going to work,I have a feeling I'm going to wake up late again. Just great. Tomorrows Short Term Goal(s) -- Wake up at least by 10am -- This time I will eat subway -- Buy food for fathers day -- Uninstall game apps Todays Short Term Goal(s) -- WILL eat lunch at Subway Yes and no -- Movies hellyeah -- Clean my room -- hellyeah Long Term Goal(s) -- Gain more knowledge on the Quran -- Enjoy life --

Welcome bro. Glad you joined Game Quitters!

Day 8, oh man! I am proud of myself, a full week without a snip of gaming. Every small thing has improved, I really can't believe it. I'm connecting with people in real life, I can keep a standard conversation and my anxiety has calmed down. It also feels I am more clear headed now, most of my thoughts use to be clouded, it was sometimes hard to make quick decisions or come up with solutions. And rings around my eyes are slowly fading away. But, I do feel more angry and down. I rather feel depressed than have panic attacks, but I will be trying to find a solution to fulfil and reverse my depression. Today, I woke up with a banging on my front door. Half asleep, I quickly got up and answered the door. It was a courier. I asked him, what time it was, he said, 11am. I knew this would happen, last night I didn't sleep until late because of my earache. 3am wasn't a good time to sleep. I received the package and he left. My whole day was gone, me going to Subway for lunch and me considering to go to the movies, I couldn't do that today, and even until now, I feel like shit. I feel like a crab hiding in its shell. Hide and do nothing. I will always flight, even for stupid things like this. I stayed home all day, I quickly went for a 10-minute drive to an ATM to get money for rent, then came back home to watch John Oliver on Youtube. I have been having cravings all day, I went and watch a few Mw2 Montages I enjoyed back in the day, that was a bad idea. I will have plans for tomorrow and I want to see myself do it. Todays Short Term Goal(s) -- Go to ATM hellyeah , maybe eat lunch at Subway nope -- Maybe go to movies nope -- Tomorrows Short Term Goal(s) -- WILL eat lunch at Subway -- Movies -- Clean my room -- Long Term Goal(s) -- Gain more knowledge on the Quran -- Enjoy life --

He can only quit if he wants to quit. But, if he wants to quit but his brain says no, I would show him videos of Cams or Cams recommendation above.

Thank you man, really appreciate it more than words can express. Hoping to make it over to AUS/NZ next year so can't wait to meetup. Hey man, if you come to the Gold Coast or Brisbane in Australia, I am sure I will come up to one of your shows or meetups!

thanks man, didn't go as plan at the doctors. Cams videos helps a lot, its hard to find support on something that people dont understand or knows exist

I wonder if people taking drugs dream about taking drugs. Our brain and minds are crazy

Thank you man!

This was a big day, this is more of a vent, I don't mind if people don't reply on this one Today I woke up at bloody 8.30am. Okay, I'm going crazy, I haven't woken up that early without care since primary school. 30 minutes later, my alarm went off for 9am, You might say, 8.30 isn't good. I like to say, waking up between the earliest 11am to 2pm every day, you whole DAY is gone. 8.30 is great! Really don't believe I had another dream about video games last night. It has been 7 days and I'm still dreaming about Counter Strike customization. But, that didn't make my day bad so it's okay. Later that morning, I got into a call with a friend on Skype, and of course, he was playing Call of Duty. He showed me a few CoD videos I half watched. He already knows I'm on a detox, he did the same thing until recently. He started to play games again after a 3-week break. After I reminded him not to link me videos, he finally stopped haha. Of cause, he still persisted and linked me for my reaction. After a good chat, I went out to get my haircut at 12pm. It has been nearly 2 and a half months since my last haircut, maybe even longer. I went to the old dude I went to last time, but his store was closed for today. I was so close to "F*ck this" , which most likely I would've done, but gladly decided to go look for another barber I could go to. I remembered there was one down the road, but I was too scared to go since there's a lot of people around. But, I went to its barber and met the guy there. He was a big dude with tatts all over him. I didn't mind since I have family friends who are into that culture. I tried to keep a conversation going. Even though I suck at it, I wanted to try. We spoke about 70% of the time, he was a chill guy but quite. To be honest, I think I'll go there next time even though I hate crowded places. After that, I went next door to buy my dad a card for fathers day. I'm going insane, I would always do it the day before or not do it at all. I know I'm an asshole for this, I'm not even going to make an excuse this time. I'm glad I did it really early, that was a prime proud moment for today. in the store, no word of a lie, this guy was rambling on about how he thinks UFOs were chasing him. At first, I thought he was buddies with the clerk and they were just shit talking, I didn't take much notice, I was too busy looking for a card. After about 5 minutes, he was still talking about how things were moving around his house and believed people in "black" were following him since he was seeing UFOs. In his words, "I'm off my pills for 5 days, I swear it isn't the drugs since I'm off them, I think they're going to kill me" I looked at the clerk, staring right back at me, with the biggest poker face. This customer was being serious. I've never saw this before, this is crazy. I've met people online that were crazy, but this tops the cake. I got out of there pretty quickly, no offence if he ever sees this . I went home, did some regular house work until 3pm. It was my dads GFs birthday today, didn't even buy her anything, dad bought her a card for me. I know I know, but I seriously hate her and I wouldn't have done it if my dad hadn't. I was going to slip away into my room to watch Youtube until an unexpected visit from my step-grandfather. I am very happy that I'm seeing him again recently, I go to Trivia every Tuesday with him and his group. He helped me a lot when I was a child. He was like a third parent. Since 2011, I haven't really seen him. 2 months back, it was the first social thing I did since, ever. It was the first time ever for me to go outside regularly for fun. I'll get back to Trivia later. What I'm trying to say is, I would rather play video games than to go see my grandfather who could die at any moment. Like I said, surprised you even made it this far, but this is a vent and this is how I feel. I love him to pieces and without his guidance and knowledge, I would be lost. Anyways, he turned up and had a chat about American states, of course, and then told him about the experience with the UFO guy. For once, I finally had a chance to share an experience I had. That actually felt good. I don't really have stories worth noting to IRLs. I'm always so used to hearing his and other stories, I can never bring up my own and it feels like I've got some social-bond deficiency. After they left, I went and got ready for trivia, I arrived at Trivia on time finally. Being serious and competitive in Trivia is the closest thing to video games I have ever experienced. And I love it. I am the youngest there, at 19. Whilst, the second youngest is over 50 years old. Oldest is 75 I believe. There are 6 of us. One was a chess champion in our state 25 years back, he is very good with history, human anatomy, also science and art questions. His wife, she is very good with movies, cooking and pop-culture. The other guy is very good with sports, general and history. The second female is very good with general. My grandfather is very good at history and geography, and I'm good at some general and recent news questions. Not many teams showed today, only the 3 main teams rocked up. After a few hours, we came in as the 2nd place by two questions. We won twice in a row and came first for the month, next week we have a target to put down ;pp I'm excited for next week. We don't like to lose Anyways, with the money we won from the month, 45 dollars each, I decided to buy some alcohol for myself. When I was browsing, I had a thought that this would be a perfect time to get something for fathers day. With the money, I decided to get a bottle of Jack Daniels for my father. My rant about the doctors: I actually feel like shit. The whole day was great until just now. I made an appointment to see a doctor yesterday for today, but when I arrived the lady at the counter said I made it for the 7th. Apparently, the doctor has gone away for a week. Never make appointments on an app. I wanted to explain to my doctor I've gone on a gaming detox, but won't be able to. Ehh that's fine I guess, but I have a raging earache and a sore throat until tomorrow. In Australia, you can't just buy pain killers or drugs similar; you need a doctors script. So I have to await for tomorrow. As the anti-social person I am, I made an appointment at 10pm at night. Meaning I couldn't go see another doctor tonight since they close at 11pm. I'm stuck on, smoking weed to help with an earache, but will hurt my throat even more. Or take weak Ibuprofen to ease the pain, but the problem lies I had a coffee for trivia at 6.30pm so I probably won't be able to sleep. Sleep in pain, or not sleep without pain. Todays Short Term Goal(s) -- Haircut hellyeah-- Doctors yes and no -- Trivia -- hellyeah Tomorrows Short Term Goal(s) -- Go to ATM , maybe eat lunch at Subway -- Maybe go to movies -- Long Term Goal(s) -- Gain more knowledge on the Quran -- Enjoy life -- If you got through 1400 words, I like to say thank you, you god damn maniac have a super great day!!!

Hey Cam, thanks for the info! It just clicked to me that game addicts treat gaming addiction like depression. A lot of people who have depression will never speak out or tell anyone about their troubles or feelings. Thank you Cam for this website and your videos. It's helping us out in so many ways. It's hard to find information about gaming addiction since it's such a new thing. I have a feeling gaming in the future, gaming will be treated like alcohol, people might say gaming isn't that bad, but all the people around my age either play hours a day or don't play at all (maybe once a month).

Hey guys. I was wondering if anyone else had the same feeling when talking about your or gaming addiction as a whole to somebody. I explain to them it's similar to gambling and they just seem to look at me like I'm stupid. I don't even bother explaining it anymore. Did you guys talk about gaming addiction to someone? What did you say to get them to understand?