Daniel

Hey man, I am also at NoFap forum, see ya there!

That's why we are here. So we can understand each other during the detox. There are good days and bad days, just keep going.

My ego was hurt by this . Maybe because i wanted it to be more than that, but deep inside i know that it was all pretending... It´s the truth. One can pretend to obtain a mastery in a videogame (learn to play an instrument, build an empire, fly a spaceship, become a marine). But when you shut down the console, what is left? A friend once told he would only buy videogames where he could do things he couldn´t do in real life, being criminal for example (he could be a criminal in real life but come on!)

That´s right! I appreciate being in this path.

(Warning trigger alert, video game image) Day #29 (Warning trigger alert, video game image) Today I googled a female cosplay from a videogame. It was just few minutes but I realized it was a dangerous path. Realizing this I ended doing some introspection about another up game I played. One which I hold no regrets playing. Final Fantasy X. I remember I liked a female character from that game. (Lulu, my videogame crush. Wasn´t she a cutie?) I started to wonder what this game had in common with Zelda Majora´s Mask and why I have fond memories of them despise the fact that I have allowed videogames to hinder me so much. I realized that I was 12-13 years old when I played these games. I guess it was a difficult time in school. I wouldn´t say there were any traumatic experiences but during this stage I reinforced several attitudes. One of them was not trusting other people, another one was I wasn´t very attractive to female girls. During my age of 12-15 there was some sort of collective bullying at my school. Everyone would get bullied now and then, naturally the populars/strongest ones were the least bullied and the unpopulars/weak received the worst treatment, I was close to the last group but not at the bottom. It´s interesting how the behaviour of kids in school is so similar to animal packs. Now I understand why games were to attractive to me during this time. I missed plenty of parties or social gatherings from 12-17 because I was very insecure. Why go to a party when you can be someone else in a videogame? There´s another reason why I remember those two games so fondly. At that age my immediate family was still complete and together. I felt safe and loved. Eventually I had change of attitute at 17. Started working out, reading, actually studying and doing homework, increasing my confidence and dating girls. But that´s another story. Woah, such a cathartic post.

Day #28 It's all good. I have been waking up later than usual, 6:30-7am. Spent some time at Spotify. I want to learn to DJ. I remember sadly during my teenager years I was gaming while some of my friends where learning to DJ, they were doing musical events and playing at local clubs while I was pretending to be an archer in an rpg.

If you eventually want to game in moderation, Cam covers that topic here: https://gamequitters.com/how-richard-kuo-plays-video-games-in-moderation/

Generally, the 90 Days Detox consists on not playing videogames during 90 days at all. If you still have access to videogames but you play less, it means you are not on detox, it means you are limiting the time playing videogames. The point of the Detox is to setup a system that will prevent you from playing videogames during 90 days. You can either set up the system properly or not, it's your decision.

Keep it up Damian.

Song of the day: Incubus - Drive

@Mettermrck I think this is related to the following quotes "addiction can be managed not cured" and "1 day at a time". I believe this is the reason Cam usually says "Try the 90 days detox, see what happens". However Cam doesn't say "Try the 90 days detox and get cured!", maybe this is the reason. Looking at those who are beyond 90 days detox you can see they are always busy, busy, busy. Maybe the detox is just the beginning of a new journey, where we will do the sames things that we used to do in videogames. Things like socializing, mastering our craft and competing, but with a healthy approach. Perhaps trying to improve the common good? Maybe is not one or another, but both, as they may complement each other, the eternal vigilance while moving on to better things in life. Would love to read any input from 90 days+ detox members. *Maybe you don't feel proud but you should think of yourself as a proud man. You challenged yourself to 90 days detox and you are following through. You are proving you have the will to accomplish anything you aim for.

Day #27 (Warning Trigger alert) Last night before going to sleep, I remembered a youtube video I saw a long time ago. It was a video about one of the videogames I was addicted. The video showed a female streamer playing in the same team of a pro player. During the video the streamer is killed along with another teammate. The pro player is last man standing of the streamer team. The pro player tries to disengage to avoid being killed but proceeds to 1vs3 the opposite team. The streamer is excited at the pro player mechanics and can't believe what she witnessed. The pro player used one of the characters I enjoyed playing. I will avoid elaborating on the character the pro player used but it brought memories of when I used to play. It gave me a slight craving for games. I had no trouble falling asleep. I feel a bit stressed about my diet. I will try to start measuring my meals. My closet is getting cleaned today as I am getting rid of any excess of clothing, I am only keeping what I really use, I will store winter clothes and any suit. The rests gets separated into "worth selling" or "throwing away".

Day #26 Today was not a great day. I missed my cardio workout in the morning. Last night I slept late at the laptop while messing around with Spotify. I ended up in bed at around 12am. Sleeping late = Risk factor. It could have easily ended up in a relapse. I have started sorting out my clothes. I wasted a lot of time mindlessly browsing on my phone. This is something that needs to get adressed.

¡Hola Francisco! Don´t waste any more time and get your journal as soon as possible. Apply all the tools that Cameron recommends and get those 90 days! Congratulations on your NoFap detox.

I heard many people usually got great ideas or inventions while walking.

Some time ago I wrote something along the lines..."People want to rule the world but they can't rule themselves" “To rule yourself is the ultimate power.”— Seneca the Younger

Day #25 Things were patched up pretty good with my g/f I guess she simply needed my attention and support. I am pretty pissed of at myself for wasting my weekend like this, now my desk is a mess (if your desk is always a mess I recommend reading Making time work hard for you Harold T. Taylor)and I didn't get anything done about my closet which is in terrible condition. Managed to get one gaming account sold. The other account is gonna be harder to sell so I just went ahead and deleted it. @Mettermrck My cousing celebrated his bday at saturday and her g/f celebrated for sunday. They decided to celebrate together Saturday evening. There were two old friends (which I barely see anymore). There rest of them I don't consider friends but more like people I see at parties. This is due to my cousin usually inviting me to hang out with them. @dahankus What would you consider similar to you? When I was about 22 I quit drinking for about 2 years. That's why nowadays I have a low alcohol tolerance compared to most people (I would say I have a normal tolerance but must people develop a super heavy tolerance due to excessive drinking). @Hitaru When I was younger I like that style along with melbourne shuffle, electroflogger and all that. Nowdays I prefer Deep House and Electrochill.

Day #24 Had some issues with my g/f which were solved. During some moments I honestly thought of breaking up with her in the future. I remember that yesterday during the party I told my cousin than women talk way too much. Sometimes it is very hard to keep listening.

Day #23 This was a weird day. I feel old. I had about 6 beers and 3 smokes at a party. Slept at 3am. Conclusion: Not worth it. It simply is not worth it anymore. In Mexico is a cultural and social activity to get wasted on weekends or during birthdays. I am pretty sure successful people either avoid those parties or just show up for the first hour and then leave. In the future I will simply avoid putting myself in this situations. I either go to the party for a short time, to have 1 or 2 beers or not go at all. On smoking I felt the only benefit is as a conversation starter with the opposite sex but even so...

Hello Damian, I was also a strategist gamer and like you the game would consume my thoughts even when I was not playing. What's the reason you want to quit gaming? Have you followed Cameron's recommendations to quit gaming?

Oops. Here is the link http://highexistence.com/why-you-should-avoid-the-news/

Day #22 Today I woke up later than usual, at 7am. I noticed that I can manage to get up at 5am but it seems I have trouble getting anything done from 5 to 6:30am. I noticed 1800kcal is higher than I need, I should be at 1400 or 1600 kcal on non weight-training days. My cousin sent me the online promo of my workshop and asked if that was me. I felt excited that this is actually happening however I felt guilty confessing it's a free workshop. I feel confident that it's the right choice, it's my first workshop. After I successfully complete it, I will be confident either charging for future workshops or setting up a Toastmasters with additional fees for me. For a moment I thought of going to a reading club but I hesitated. Then I thought of grabbing a beer but that's a no. I feel a bit without direction so that's what I will do, plan for the following days and things that need to get done.

@Mettermrck It must be very hard to face a divorce, keep going on the path of changing your life. Do you have any kids?

Keep going Pete, improve, improve, improve!