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Sashiku

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  1. Sashiku

    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    Thanks so much for taking time to read! I try to follow a few journals as well but lately I haven't been able to sit here and read much. I hope once I am well that I can get back to how things were. I must say I have lost some confidence and motivation though but I am sure I'll regain it once I have recovered. I also want to get back to drawing daily. I really liked doing that. And yea, Habitica is really good for me too. I was doing so well before I got sick. I am about 30 coins from getting a sonic blast.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    Day 15? I have no idea what day I am on now as It's been about a week and a half of being sick now. I am FINALLY starting to feel a bit better and actually slept properly without coughing last night. I feel more rested so I should be able to start doing things again soon. I played my 3DS.. for about 2 minutes yesterday before I was bored. Being so sick and unable to do anything really threw me off and put me in a bad place but for the most part, I didn't give in. I don't really consider my 3DS to be one of my issues as I barely play it but I still want to get over gaming in general before I use it much.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    My brother left the car in the middle of nowhere with the keys locked inside. Because of this, I can't get the antibiotics I need. And because of that, I'm not getting any better. I am so so so miserable. I'm about to give in till I'm better just to have something I can do while sitting still. I'm so tired of laying around but unfortunately, I can't seem to do much else since I am barely sleeping still. I wake up every evening after coughing and struggling to sleep all night and end up sleeping all day. My eyes are always glued shut from the constant watering. The constant coughing isn't helping and the sore throat is only making it worse. I honestly don't know what to do. My friend Jamie brought me the medicine because of the lack of having a car and while that helped some, antibiotics are required to get better. My mom got better with them. I'm going into week 2 of being sick now. I don't know how much more boredom and sickness I can take before I break.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    Thank you.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    ~~~Day 10-11~~~ My sickness seems to have gotten a lot worse and I'm heading to the doctor soon for some antibiotics for this sinus infection. Losing a lot of sleep but still no gaming. I'm not eating well either. The inability to do anything physical has made it difficult to not think about gaming but I haven't thrown in the towel yet. The urges are pretty strong though and having to lay around being bored out of my skull is just fueling the fire. Sometimes they are so strong I think I'm going to lose, but then I immediately snap back to reality and go talk to my family. Its been hard to sleep due to constant coughing and difficulty breathing so I've spent many nights on the internet watching random documentaries and cat videos till the symptoms calm down enough to sleep. I just wish the infection would go away already. It has put a complete stop to everything I had planned. If I had been well, my entire house would be clean by now and I'd be doing yoga routines by now as well. I would read but my eyes are so red and swollen and water so much that I don't think I could. I suppose I'm just quite frustrated.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    Thank you guys! I really appreciate all of your support! I really do appreciate all of your comments and thoughts on my situation and goals. You've all really inspired me so much!
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    ~~~ WARNING, THERE COULD BE TRIGGERS IN THIS POST. READERS BEWARE. ~~~ ~~~Day 9~~~ I don't know how to make spoiler text. :I Nothing new to report, still too sick to do much of anything. I've got a nasty sinus infection. I had another dream last night. Here is a quick storyboard of what happened. *Watching a Markiplier gaming video* That looks like SO much fun! Why am I quitting? Quitting seems so stupid when I could be having fun with my friends again. I never got to play Michonne yet. Oh! And everyone will be so let down if I don't play undertale like I promised I would. Maybe I should quit quitting. Nobody will know. I can go back to gaming right now and everything will be back how it was before I made the stupid decision to quit. Then I woke up. UGH. I literally HATE these dreams. They make everything so much harder because I really DID want to play those games and do miss my friends BUT they haven't won yet. That is because I know gaming put me on a self destructive path and I can't let that continue. Plus I've already made new friends here and my family is really proud of me for even trying. Anyway, that's really all I have. I hope the dreams stop soon. Going to try Cam's suggestion of keeping a gratitude journal.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    I just came to a realization. I didn't post it here because I want this to be daily stuff mostly.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    So do I . (meanwhile Tolkien laughing) Awesome.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    Thanks guys. I appreciate all your comments, support and suggestions. ~~~Day 8~~~ Turns out I have a sinus infection. I did have a low grade fever yesterday so I did lay in bed a bit. I'm in a little pain but not too bad and I can't walk for very long without feeling weak so all of my current time is spent watching movies or looking over my doll collection. Still no gaming. Though i have had more vivid dreams and daydreams about games I've played. I figured out another huge reason I played is because of the stories. I have always been in love with characters, and scenarios, even before I played games. I used to be an avid reader and even got awards in school for having a college reading level. I suppose I always wished books were more interactive but now that I think about it, I loved imagining the characters for myself and making things look in my mind how I wanted them to look. Games took part of my imagination away and maybe that is why I loved games where you could create things. Creation is my specialty and my absolute favorite thing to do. I used to write stories for my dolls as a kid and have them act out what I had written. I even made up plays but my siblings never took them seriously, so I stopped. I have a lot of comic ideas now. Sometimes I wonder if anyone else on the planet has an imagination as big as mine. Anyway, sorry for writing so much. The sitting around is really starting to get to me but I can't do anything about it till I am better. Good note: We may be caught up on bills by next month! I am crossing my fingers. Its so hard to get ahead when you've lost so much. I'm not too upset about it anymore though. Things happen.
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    TheJan's Journal

    Everyone has those temptations. It can be hard to resist but remember your goals. It's really up to you what happens but remember, we all support you and hope to see you succeed.
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    Foreign Languages

    My language of choice is Japanese. I have college textbooks, Japanese for dummies, and a few other books. What helped me even more than books though, was talking with a lady who taught Japanese once a week on skype. Maybe you can find something like that? I found that group via google+.
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    Jeremias Journal

    Good work, having goals is a great way to focus on things you want to do instead of old habits. Remember to think of some activities you want to do for the weekends you mentioned. A few good activities can make a huge difference.
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    Marshu's Journal

    Congratulations on starting your 90day detox. Everyone here is quite helpful so if you ever need to talk, feel free. We're all cheering for you.
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    Piotr journal

    I'm so glad you decided to post here, and I'm even happier than you've come so far. Life can be really hard and we all make mistakes. All we can do is support each other and try to make our lives better. You are doing great so far and you've got all of us here to talk to when you need to. Congratulations on 57 days!
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    ~~~Day 7~~~ Yesterday was spent on the couch all day. My fever is finally gone though thank goodness. Being sick was actually a bit of a good thing though. The constant boredom made me want to do other things like taking walks, studying japanese, and reading a book I've neglected. I am so excited to get this day rolling.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    ~~~Day 5~~~ Nothing much to say today... Sick with fever and did nothing all day but sleep. Hopefully I am well tomorrow.
  18. Hello everyone. I'm Leah, and I've tried to quit before. About 2 years ago I realized I was playing my life away i tried to quit but I had NO idea what I was supposed to do with the time I had gained and after a couple days of being bored as can be, I started right back up. I had no support at all, and all my "Friends" seemed to look down on me for quitting. I have been incredibly sick of games for about a year now and every morning I turn on my PC and sit in front of my 90+ Steam games, not wanting to play any of them. I have been making myself play them anyhow because of boredom and stress, which has only made me hate them more. I started gaming in my early twenties. I'm half blind due to my Optic nerve Hypoplasia so there is not a lot I can do on my own. Leaving the house is nearly impossible as I can't drive and I'm too poor to afford a cab, therefore, gaming was an easy fix... Except for the fact that I wasn't fixing anything. I was just trying to have the life I always wanted. Fantastic journeys to faraway lands, seeing things clearer than I could see them for real, being a heroine... And for a while it made me feel wonderful. I've never even left my home state before, so games were just a way for me to leave the house *in my own mind* and do something I couldn't actually do for real. Having ADHD only worsened my addiction, as boredom is something I don't cope with well. Now that I am quitting, I don't know how I will deal with the limitations again but I certainly have to try. I hope this will be a great community and that I will actually be able to quit once and for all with your help. <3 Thanks for having me. <3
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    Sashi's Art

    All of my art will be posted here from now on. Feel free to keep up with it if you want to. If not, no biggie. https://www.facebook.com/The-Cute-Fix-198975723501737/
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    Thanks~ Also, hoping to get respawn in June.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    ~~~Day 4~~~ I had trouble getting to sleep last night so i didn't wake up till around 3pm. i went to bed at 8pm from a headache and slept till 12am then struggled to sleep till about 7am. I dozed in and out a few times but never really fell into a deep sleep. I was going to hula hoop yesterday but the hula hoop I have is way too small. It's not heavy enough to stay on my waist. The other one I have is perfectly weighted to stay on my waist but it has these ridges inside the ring that hurt terribly when they hit my waist or ribs. I will have to get another at some point. Today has been okay. I walked as soon as I woke up and used a pedometer too. It said I walked 860 steps but I think it's wrong as I only walked to the end of the street twice and back. My 3DS has a pedometer built in so maybe i will use that instead. I did get on my 3DS yesterday but only drew on the *swapnote* app. No gaming at all still. I have to say it is harder than I thought it would be to quit. Going to go fold my laundry and try to get to sleep at a reasonable hour tonight, hopefully my body plays along. I didn't get a lot done today since I was sleeping but tomorrow I intend to finish laundry and clean out my birds cage. No need to reply if you don't want to. Posting here just helps me keep track of what I've done so far.
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    UGH. People keep asking me to play a game with them so I finally put in my skype description that not asking about games would be appreciated. This created a lot of people asking me why and telling me I don't have to quit and that I can just limit it. They don't get it at all. I have had to explain this like 10 times already. I think I am going to write up a paragraph and copy/paste it every time. I only turn on my skype at night because I get a little lonely. Before now I talked on skype every single day all day. Now that I have nothing to talk about with anyone it's hard. My best friends aren't even fully accepting. I am thinking of not logging in but I don't know what I will do for social things then... I can't get out much due to being unable to drive so irl friends aren't going to happen I'm afraid. This is another reason It's been so hard to quit. I'm also a bit of an oddball so even when I'm out, I rarely click with anyone.
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    Sashi's Art

    I uh... I seem to do better when I freehand. ^^; Thank you very much!
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    My Journal ~ A New Beginning

    Great tips. I did cook dinner twice now. Hoping to do even more. I don't have the resources to buy instruments but that could be something I could do down the line. And no worries! I have an origami book. I am gonna go jump on the trampoline now. I am also going to buy a hula hoop as I have a lot of fun doing that.
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    Quit for 90 Days? Post here!

    Congrats! This is a new beginning for you and I am so glad you made it. I am excited to get there too.
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