Empathy

Internet time off.

I am taking care of cleaning up my room right now.

I feel better today.

Ok I read that. Thanks for recommendation! Looks like I have a lot of things to do today. Let's start with taking care of myself and hygiene stuff and as you suggest - breaking cleaning up my room into smaller pieces. If I start to work remotely from a clean room, I'd definitely feel better.

That really inspiring summary. You gave me and others a lot of advice. Thanks @BooksandTrees!

Thanks for the advice! I really appreciate it.

Day 327 looks like more than 24 hours! How have you made it?

Hey @BooksandTrees Thank you for a hint in my journal. I see a great journal to read and I admit I have to do this gradually to not spend too much time on the internet. Still I see it as a source of inspiration for my struggles. Thank you!

I have a lot of trouble to clean up my room. Everything is a mess around me right now. How to face it? I tried dozens of times and still can't handle it.

@BooksandTrees It's really complex situation and I don't really know if I can describe it here properly. I'm working with my therapist a lot on my case of technology addiction and it helps me a lot. I am aware that my willpower is not enough. The biggest struggle is when I am home alone and don't have any alternative activity to do. What do you suggest to fill my free time instead of gaming?

But I won't give up!

I did it again.

Internet time on. Wasted couple of hours on Slay The Spire. I hate it. I literally hate it. Internet time off.

Internet time on. I gamed for 50 minutes. God damn it. 50 fuckin minutes. I have to stop. Uninstalled the game that made me play. It's all on my mind. I can take care of this. Internet time off.

Internet time off. I see it's a good habit to write here a post each time I start and finish using Internet. I just feel I need it. I relate to this 100%. I have to take care of my work, but I don't feel motivation or energy for this. Whenever I'm under pressure I can't engage into other hobby activities. I walked yesterday for 30 minutes and it helped me relieve some pressure, but also made me more tired.

Internet time on. @Erik2.0 Yeah, I watched couple of testimonies of other people about the same problem I have and same of hmm tutorials? About how to quit video games in 60 seconds or 90 day detox. I have to watch all of the videos on a playlist start here.

Internet time off. I did some important things, and watched Youtube for about 30 minutes.

Internet time on. I feel really sad and lonely right now. Possible withdrawal, right?

Internet time off.

Let's start a new chapter in my life.

Hello. I started gaming 20 years ago. Right now I struggle with not only gaming but internet and generally media usage. It's really severe. I can neglect things that are important for me, despite negative consequences. I failed a lot of things due to my addiction. I neglected my health drastically due to my addiction. I lost a lot of important relationships due to my addiction. My addiction is confirmed by specialists - I've been working on this for about a decade on my own and for about 2 years with couple of therapists - it helped me in the process, but I still have a lot of work to do. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing control of my life and it sucks. Sometimes I feel depressed and anxious. I think it's especially difficult for me, because I work 100% remotely on my laptop, and I don't have anyone who's checking my results. I hope this forum will help me with living the life sober. I named myself Empathy, because my counselor once said, that this is one of my biggest skill I have, if I'm living away from my addiction obviously.