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TheNewMe2.0
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Thanks @Icandothis I'm happy to share my journey with you and hear about yours as well. I'm glad that my posts have a positive effect on you. That makes me happy. Hopefully this job works out well and I'm able to leave my old job for it relatively soon. Positive: Another week begins I feel little more refreshed this week than I did last week so that's good. Even though it's only 27 hours working six days feels like forever before I make it to Sunday and have my day off. Oh well. I'll do my best to enjoy the time off I have each day and be really careful about what I do so as not to stress myself out at all. Last week was really stressful so I'm trying my best to not have that happen again. I'm kind of tired of eating this big cheesecake from Costco. Now I just want to eat our ice cream but we gotta get through the cake first. I think this means I like ice cream more than cake. I smiled at my doll I accomplished starting to return a pet turtle (I don't like having pets) I am grateful for @Icandothis my doll, returning turtle, my journey, posts, positivity, new job, old job, new week, payday in 3 days, 27 hours of work God bless
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Good job increasing the amount of stuff you have to do to play again. Welcome to the forums.
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Positive: bananas and yogurt are good. I fought to not eat any desert yesterday and won. The key was substituting desert with a banana and yogurt. I was craving super hard and then ate those and was okay. It was sugar free yogurt too. So today I'll probably eat desert though. And yes watch a lot of the flash and go for a hike. A good day lies ahead of me. It's a routine and simple Iife I live, but somebody's gotta live it. It's not so bad once you get used to the repetitive nature of it. I made breakfast for my mom today. That was out of the ordinary. I'm waiting to eat desert to see if I can eat it with her. I smiled at repitition I accomplished making 2 breakfasts I am grateful for repetition, 2 breakfasts, banana, yogurt, substitution, desert, flash, hiking, good days and air. God bless
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Hit up the library too, may the books never end. Huzzah. Hopefully you do connect with people IRL. Some people manage to stay friends with their gamer friends even after quitting too. Welcome 2 forum
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Positive: I got my new job pretty much. We're tentatively starting me on 11/1. They're going to have me slowly work up hours until I have enough clients that I'm able to leave my current job. I hope that time comes sooner than later and I get up to speed quickly. We'll see how training goes. I'll give it my best effort. I have a little more time today to write stuff. That's nice. I don't much know what I'd like to write about though. Other than work I really don't have much to talk about and I'm trying to talk less about work. So that leaves me with nothing to talk about? I guess other than work I just eat and watch tv and post on here. I workout some too. I managed to do 10 knuckle push ups which is good for me. I wasn't able to squat I just felt not up to it. That's like 3 weeks in a row with no squatting. Gotta get the squat back up. I'm committing names of characters to memory from the flash. I might keep a text doc on all the names. The new ones are Mark and Clyde Mardon. Mark is also known as weather wizard. They are brothers that both got weather controlling powers from the particle accelerator explosion. Mark sets off a tsunami that leads flash to make his first time travel adventure. It's kind of questionable how they just put villains in the pipeline without any trial or anything. They all just get a life sentence for being misbehaving meta humans. Some of them murder so it's more understandable. But some are just robbing banks or whatever. Is that really fair to give them life sentences? It's just a show so it's okay. It doesn't have to make perfect sense. I smiled at shows not making sense I accomplished washing dishes I am grateful for cam, dishes, shows, flash, weather wizard, mark mardon, Clyde mardon, my new flash text document, god, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, God bless
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Good luck at your interviews. I hope they go well. I'm starting a new job too I'm not sure how near freedom is for me as I don't know how many hours they'll be able to offer me to start. But we'll see maybe it's closer than I think.
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Good luck. Forgiveness is good albeit very difficult to offer at times. Hope your grudge dissolving goes well.
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Positive: we are getting our microwave fixed So that's good. It's apparently a 1300$ microwave that came with the house we're fixing now. That's mind blowing how expensive a microwave can be. They're like 30$ at Walmart. Anyways I'm still trying to talk less about work even on here. Although is talking about not talking about work talking about work? It doesn't matter. What's important is that I'm trying to limit it. I like not talking about work it makes me feel more peaceful even if work is really difficult. I dunno. I'm just enjoying rewatching The Flash and sitting here on my couch. Passing the time as best I can. With the microwave out of commission it's gross to eat cold leftovers. So I got subway. I tried talking to a girl there but it gave me so much anxiety I don't want to do that again. I'm accepting for the most part that God may just want me to live my whole life single with no friends for some reason. Maybe so I don't get distracted from work or something like that. It's odd. Early in life I had a lot of friends and girlfriends, but now there's not even a glimmer of hope for those things to come back into my life. I'm really okay with it. My life is good even without those. I smiled at my acceptance of my life I accomplished eating cheesecake I am grateful for my notebooks, acceptance, cheesecake, strawberries, sweater, t shirt, v neck, blanket, couch and selling chair.s God bless
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Positive: Li got back to me. Li asked if I can start on 11/1. She also setup a phone call for us Friday. So it looks like progress is being made with the new job. I think it'll be a slow transition but I'm not sure. I just hope supervision starts asap. So I'm pretty much not trying new shows for now. It caused me some acne. It's when I go and try 30 minutes of a show that I get the acne. Yeah. Uhm. Just trying to stay hydrated. Wondering what the new job will be like and how much hours I'll be getting there. I misplaced my jacket. Hopefully that turns up soon. My mom just fixed it with her sewing. I recently got over my discomfort with using the bathroom at clients houses so I could drink a ton of water. It's still uncomfortable but whatever I've got to use the bathroom if I want to drink 80oz of water a day so I'm doing it. The Flash is good as ever. I'm memorizing character names and other trivia so I can play Flash trivia with clients like I do. It's kind of fun. IE: The teleporting villain is named Shawna Baez and her boyfriend is Clay Parker. Probably no one knows that off the top of their head. Gonna stump these clients. I smiled at doing better I accomplished accepting that I'm probably not going to get to make up hours with a client (darn). I am grateful for smiling, doing better, new job, li, acceptance, jacket, 80 oz of water a day, bathrooms, villains and flash. God bless
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Yeah sounds like it needs it's time and space to heal and grow. Do what you can that's all you can do. Hopefully you'll be fine and things will work out ok.
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Positive: Still working So my new job offer is at a standstill. Li hasn't gotten back to me from my most recent text to her. This is not good but it's not completely hopeless, we'll see if something happens. That being said at least I'm still working and have a job. I'll be pretty bummed out if Li doesn't come through with a job like she said she would. It sounded like such a good opportunity for me to get my hours at a better worksite. I smiled at the rug I accomplished time managing I am grateful for Li, new job, rug, time managing, old job, superman, wall outlet, bowl of fruit, fruit and me. God bless
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I'm gonna try writing out my positive for the day without writing 'Positive:'. Okay so. I'm still very happy with my Flash stuffed doll purchase. It's the best 50 cents I ever spent. I still enjoy playing with the doll and watching The Flash with it on my lap. It's like having a kid or a pet. Except I don't have to take care of it really. My mom made a bunch of meatball quiche that didn't turn out so well. I could barely eat a slice. And yet this morning she was eating two slices with a pile of meatballs on top because she wants to finish the food and not waste it. That's gross to me but it's also great dedication to not wasting on her part. I probably would have tossed the stuff. In other news I got a job offer. This job would pay $1 an hour more and probably be better work doing outpatient therapy. The only caveat for me is that I don't feel that comfortable with the staff there. They aren't completely unbearable but I would rather get the job with Li if I can because I Felt better with her. The issue is Li isn't getting back to me about the job. It's been a month since she said I could get started and we haven't gotten started. So I texted her today and we'll see if there's any news on the new job. I've been dying to get started there because I'd finally be counting up supervision hours. Blah. Hope it happens. I smiled at the flash doll I accomplished taking out garbage I am grateful for flash doll, garbage, taking out garbage, cleaning up, cleaning bathroom (need to do), slippers, heater, sweater, showers (need to shower MWF), mom who is not being too mad at me for getting bunk recliners, . God bless
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Positive: I had little time but still made my awesome breakfast I love my breakfast sandwich. It's really good. It's usually better than whatever I eat for dinner or lunch. And that's cool with me. We've got to finish two so so pies pumpkin and blueberry. Then it's time to get a cheesecake or other cake/pie from Costco. Yeah. It's gonna be awesome. Costco has good sweets from what I've gathered. I only have 7 minutes to post today because I had to answer email this morning. I smiled at the day I accomplished making breakfast I am grateful for the day, breakfast, Costco, cheesecake, these 7 minutes, table, notebook, usb drive, remote, and roku. God bless
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A day at a time - Panda's daily journal
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That's cool. You're taking care of things that you've been wanting to work on for a long time. I bet it feels good. Things sound complicated with Veronika, though that banter sounded nice. Hope things go well with you guys. Congrats on being a double major.
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Positive: today's my actual day off this week Okay so today is my day off. But I messed up something and had to spend like 30 seconds on work. So we'll just say that didn't count. I got a Flash superhero stuffed doll. He's like feet tall with a big head and little body. It's great. I hug the stuffed toy while watching the flash on Netflix. It's probably the best 50 cents I've spent on anything that cheap. O yeah I got it at a garage sale. I wish I got a supergirl one. I saw a supergirl funko pop on Craigslist but they didn't reply. Unfortunately we bought recliners that hurt my back to sit in. And now we're trying to sell and no one is buying. Ah. That's unfortunate. Sorry mom. I may have caused us to waste money on these chairs. Today I'm just going to watch tv run errands and probably go for a hike with mom. It's going to be a great Sunday. I smiled at my flash toy I accomplished eating quiche (not so good but I ate it to help finish). I am grateful for the flash, flash tv show, flash toy, garage sale I went to, puzzles, marek, supergirl, funko pop, the atom and me cuz I'm awesome. God bless
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How come you're hyped about 2020 ending?
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Feel better and get well soon. Glad you're keeping the comedy alive.
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Positive: I got most of the day off. Yes it sucks to lose hours because of a client cancellation but it's also nice to not have to work those hours too. So my client cancelled and I'm just hanging out most of the day today. I figure I'll probably watch the office some. The blueberry pie turned out to be not as good as the pumpkin pie. Which is surprising as it has sugar. No matter. We'll eventually get some high quality sugar at Costco. They have good cheesecake, cakes and pies. Yeah. I'm wondering if people figured out that I changed my name but am keeping the same journal just with name changed on it. Well hopefully they figure out it's still me. I haven't paper journaled or written poems for a while. I kind of just watch tv in my spare time. Sometimes I learn a little Spanish. I Feel a bit guilty for that but not that bad. I smiled at the flash I accomplished making breakfast I Am grateful for the flash, breakfast, blueberries, pie, cheesecake, cake, ice cream, journal, poems and life. God bless
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Positive: we got cheese sticks It's a funny and simple thing, but I was happy to get cheese sticks yesterday. And some chicken nuggets. These small comfort foods make me happy. We got a coupon to get $20 off of 100$ spent at Harris teeter. So we bought a lot of groceries including two pies. They were only 5$ a pie so whatever. One is a sugar free pumpkin pie. Which is really good considering it has no sugar. I wish they made more sugar free deserts I'd buy them. But alas it's not sought after in our society as of yet. We have a bunch of buddha statues around the house now. But we're christians ironically. I think I'd like it if we had some christian stuff around. Like a cross or a plaque that says something about Jesus. I've been talking less about work at home and it's working for me I think. I just feel a lot more present with whatever I'm doing. My mind isn't all caught up thinking about work during my off time. I feel way more engaged in watching tv and hanging out with my mom as such. It's kind of cool. Makes me want to continue not talking about work to not bring it home with me. Of course I dunno much else what to talk about. I saw people playing soccer yesterday and remembered how I played for 10 years. I don't think I'll play again though. It's too violent of a sport. With all the kicking and pushing. Yeah, that's okay. I think I'm going to learn how to cook a new dish. It's going to be a little bit of work but I'll get it. I smiled at my blessings I accomplished eating tomatoes I am grateful for blessings, pies, tomatoes, groceries, cheese sticks, soccer, Jesus, christian swag, buddha statues, dragon decor soon to be in my room. God bless Erik
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Positive: I'm cutting out processed foods and sugar. I got a stomach ache from eating a hot dog last night. I woke up and threw out my hot dogs this morning. No more processed food or sugar as much as possible. No more deserts. They're taking a toll on my health and I can feel it. It's like my sleep isn't as deep or regular. I'm gonna keep getting my mom to buy organic chicken, turkey and beef. The healthier I can eat and live the better. I need the better quality food for my body. In some ways people who are fatter than me may even have stronger constitutions as they're able to eat all that fatty sugary food and not get sick. But my body can't handle it. I've got a sensitive just about everything including my stomach. Yep. I might make a new thing on here that says I quit deserts today. I smiled at my mom who made me breakfast today (even though it wasn't so good) I accomplished throwing out hot dogs I am grateful for sugar free foods, organic meat, parasyte, supergirl, tv, vrv, Netflix, table with carvings, freckle and wrinkle. God bless Erik
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Positive: I still get to keep my couch. So I'm grateful that I get to keep my brown couch and not get kicked out of the house. My mom seems to have accepted that I'm in the living room watching tv on a couch. Which isn't a bad look. It's pretty normal for a home to have a couch and tv in the living room. I don't think I'm asking for too much to allow for this to be here. Thank God she's okay with it though. Hopefully this lasts until I move out. I'm okay with her removing my standing desk though to reduced living room clutter. I also feel more aggressive when I use that desk from the standing so I'm not sure if I even want to use it anyways. Short day today. Gonna try to deadlift. I've been feeling pretty tired from work and not having enough energy to do my workouts. I'm still trying but I'll do like one pushup and be too dead to continue. Deadlifting has still been going well though so that's good. I smiled at my blue shirt (Supposedly the most favorite color) I accomplished meditating through construction outside I am grateful for my couch, my mom, tv, living room, standing desk, stand, blue, shirt, fingernails and blankets. God bless Erik
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Sorry they were unkind to you about your religion. We've all got to coexist to live together.
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Positive: I get an extra twenty minutes to my morning today. On TTHSat I get an extra twenty minutes in the morning to do my GQ post and eat breakfast etc. It's nice. On MWF I feel much more rushed trying to get out the door and meet my client on time. But I do make albeit barely. TuesTh I have to see my most difficult client. He is the worst client on my roster that I have to deal with. We only have about three more weeks worth of hours for him before they need to renew his hours or cancel his case. I'm hoping they cancel his case. It's not worth the 6 hours a week to be abused by this mean kid. He's someone that will probably take decades or never learn to be a nice person. He's just always going to be bad and mean to everyone around him no matter who tries to help or change him. He's just a bad person and will always be one. Pretty much. My job at this point is just to endure being around him while he's a jerk to me and his family. Also it's taking forever to get started at my new job. I'm just waiting and waiting on Li to get back to me to start. I don't know what's taking so long, but it sucks waiting and not knowing if this is actually going to happen or not. I smiled at taking on the job I accomplished getting food from Walmart (pretty good deals there) I am grateful for Walmart, my job, potential new job, Li, God, paycheck tomorrow ish, and my rug which is a continual source of good feeling getting to look at this beautiful rug beneath my feet as I watch tv. Hooray for decorations. God bless Erik
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Positive: skin's clearing up again. So that's good. My skins clearing up as I stay away from new shows for a while. I'll still spend 3-5 minutes trying one out but nothing more than that. No more full episode trial runs for me. I just finished The Good Place. Which was awesome. I really liked how they weave philosophical teachings into the show. I feel like the show is telling us that people can improve and that we're all worthy of having a chance to become good people. I think that's fair. I like their way of viewing good and bad people. I'd like it if the afterlife was similar to the way they depicted it in season 4. It would be so nice to have people go through a process to purify their souls and make them good enough to go to 'the good place' where you could see them again and not be terribly annoyed by them. I feel like I'm a person who is dedicated to goodness to some extent. I think I'd do well in a good place trial and get in eventually. I guess I always felt like I don't get rewarded for being good so I don't always feel like there's a point to being good. But over time I've found that there is a reward for being good. You feel better about yourself and your life. You don't have anxiety over doing bad things. Your conscience feels lighter. And I think it's worth the struggle to be good now. I smiled at today's client I accomplished waking up I am grateful for my breakfast sandwich. One client just eats cereal for breakfast. And I'm like my breakfast sandwich is so much more nutritious than that. It has eggs, turkey bacon, whole wheat bread, cheese and spinach. It's got a lot of protein. So I'm grateful for my sandwich because it's nourishing and more so than many people get for breakfast. God bless Erik
