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TheNewMe2.0
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Positive: Survived yesterday's misery My boss was being a jerk to me yesterday. Just hearing her say my name with contempt in roll call was enough to set me off upset all day and still reeling into the next day as I type this now. God willing she'll get replaced or die or something. At the very least I hope not to have to interact with her except for roll call on these group meetings. I just never hated anyone before I started working this job. Now I've known what it is to hate two people. Sure I try to be about love and not give in but it's very difficult and I just default back to hating her whenever I have to interact with her. There isn't much I can do otherwise. The bible does say people will have evildoers. So maybe she's just an evildoer and we're hating her and that's how things go sometimes. I'm doing my best to still be nice to her and subordinate even though she's a total jerk to me all the time. It's extremely difficult and I don't know if I'm going to be able to handle it. I'll try though. I budgeted an extra five minutes of time today so I could make a sandwich to try to save money on lunch. If I can get a sandwich to hold me over for lunch then I'll be alright and make it home to eat dinner and not spend money eating out. That would be best. Saving money is good. It's what mom wants and I guess I kind of want it too. I smiled at savings I accomplished getting up early for sandwich making I am grateful for savings, sandwich, making, early, timers, alarms, atom, dcs legends, spiral, notebook God bless
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@RealworlderYeah, my TV time is my chill time for sure. It actually takes some effort to settle down and watch. A lot of the time I'm just too anxious so I walk around the house for a while or do something else. Sorry to hear you're feeling burned out. Get that chill time in for yourself too. It's no big deal with the abilify the odds were against me so it's not a big surprise that it didn't pan out. I've got one more to try but I kind of don't even want to do it and just give up already. Sometimes giving up is the best thing to do. Getting that quality over quantity with the risperdal. It's not so bad. I'm okay with staying home. The only person who wants me to move out is mom. She wants me to 'live my life' and move out and find a social life. But I haven't found anyone to socialize with aside from people on here really. I mean maybe I'll meet someone through work eventually. But I don't like, think I'll be trying out dating apps again for like years. I just didn't cope well with them before so yeah. Just gonna deal with the isolation. Positive: got new bottle of rubbing alcohol I'm in the practice of putting alcohol on my beard trimmer after each use in the morning. I think it keeps it hygienic and prevents it from causing acne. That's been going well. I just got a new bottle today with my moms help. She keeps a stash of most useful things somewhere in the house. Both my clients cancelled on me today so I guess I have the day off. I'm gonna try to make up the sessions later in the week though so I don't miss out on hours. Gotta make that money even if I'm underpaid and making very little as is. Gotta make what I can. Things seem to be looking up with the supervision. They said they will see if I improve for approval and I got into a group supervision that's only 35 an hour so 140 a month. That's pretty cheap considering it'd be 100+ an hour if I got individual supervision from someone off PT. So things might actually work out and start moving forward for me in my journey towards licensure. I also learned that counselingexam.com is a good site to study for the exam with. So I'm hoping to get that done after about a year of working towards my license and having the hours actually count. I might have to drop my cash client because working with him doesn't count towards licensure so that'd be a huge bummer. I'll see what I can do. I smiled at butterflies I accomplished keeping warm with my blue blanket on the couch I am grateful for my couch, blanket, butterflies, caterpillars, area rugs, flash, lightning belt, armlets, earmuffs, glasses, pen God bless
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Ya we'll see what happens. I do need to find a new supervisor. I'll keep looking this week. Great job making serious progress with your golf game. That sounds very satisfying. I kind of wish I had MLK day off. We only get so few holidays off it isn't much unfortunately. I'll be working today, can't really afford to take it off and just straight up miss work. Well I guess I could, but I'd have to reschedule everything to Saturday and that's just too much work to take off this holiday I think. I only do that for like New Years, Christmas, Thanksgiving and other few holidays. Happy MLK day though. Hoope your backs alright.
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Positive: new week new money I'm usually excited on Monday to make money again. But because of the Abilify I'm feeling kind of depressed and lethargic. Like I don't want to do crap and I'm not looking forward to work at all. But that's okay. It seems to be wearing off as I've stopped taking it so I'll be alright. Still nervous about this new client. I really want it to work out and am afraid of it going sideways. But so far they said the client's good. I haven't seen if the parents are bad or good yet although the dad wanting to know what services entail is kind of a bad sign that he might be anal about the whole process and cause trouble for me. We'll see though I won't know for sure what's up until I go into their houses and try working with the kid. He's 8 btw. We have a phone call today at 3 to talk to the dad about services. We'll see how that goes. God help me/us get along well enough to keep services going smoothly. Mom's making me an omlette for breakfast so I don't have to cook breakfast like normal. It's nice. I have more time to type up my GQ post. I am kind of hungry though. Grateful for my mom even if she can be troublesome at times. She was all upset at me for buying ice cream that I decided I didn't like and didn't want to eat. It was like 3$ it's not that big a deal if I tried it, didn't like it and would have to toss it. That's just the price you pay for trying new things. You gotta toss em if they don't work out and that's time and money wasted essentially. You gotta waste some money to try new things because some or all of them won't work out. That's why trying new things is costly. I wrote in my paper journal yesterday. I don't often have/take time for that. But it was really nice. It helped me get my thoughts out and make sense of things a little more. It helped me not have my thoughts all jumbled up in my head and instead put them on paper. Maybe I'll do that more often. I smiled at omlette I accomplished texting sup I am grateful for omlette, mom, supervision, new client, more money, work, work ethic, happy to earn more, lalala, no music God bless
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Good job pursuing gamequitting for 5 years. I can imagine that keeping on top of your life much more during that time led to making a lot more money. I too hope to make more money. I've been at this gamequitting for over a year and I've been a lot more on top of making money. I hope in three years I'll be making a lot more. I will probably have to transition to private practice in order to potentially make a lot more money. The only trouble with that is I don't feel that comfortable doing it. It would probably take a lot of effort and time to actually be successful at it and even if I put forth my best I still don't know if I'd make it. We'll see what happens. I could maybe get promoted at my current job someday. Glad you had a good day with your golf and working out. Those are really good hobbies to be into. You coach sounds cool. Very enthusiastic. Ooh LoL esports that's not good. I've been able to gamequit well luckily, but I'm not able to stop myself from masturbating. That one eludes me. I'm working out legs today too. I can't lift weights with them because my legs cramp up for some reason but I'll just try to do body weight today.
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Positive: still trying to not masturbate Despite failing continually epically for many months now since my 6 month streak back in the day. I have contniued to at least keep trying to not masturbate. It's just somehow more difficult now that it was before. Or I don't have as much energy to dedicate to it or something. Ironically I want to stop because I want to have more energy to enjoy life with. And it works for like a week at the most before I relapse and masturbate again. God help me. I don't know what to do to have a long streak again. I'm trying to force myself to watch tv and chill today aside from exercising. I just looked at houses all day yesterday which was way too much time spent on that. Had me kind of stressed out at the end of the day. I did find a couple houses worth investing in if I had 80k right now to do so. Sadly even if you rent out the house you'll probably just about break even with your mortgage. The only way to make a profit off renting your house is if you rent individual rooms like 4 of them or so. Then you can make money. But the problem is that's a lot of people to deal with trying to make sure they all pay rent on time and stay in the house long term. So renting the whole house you'll just break even but it's probably still worth doing because the house appreciates over time and then you can sell it after owning it for several years to invest in something else. Looking at housing I feel I'm not motivated at all to move out. I get along well enough with my mom. Plus she cooks and cleans for me. The only reason I'd move out is if I found a wife. Then I could move out with my wife. But the way things aren't going with dating app/approaching for me it seems like I'll never find a wife. And thus it seems I'll never move out. I'll just live at home, try to make more money and eventually buy a triple net. If I could save 60k a year it'd say 5-7 years to buy a 1mil NNN. That'd be worth it. I guess I could store the money in a house while it built up. Blah hope things work out with the new client. If they don't I guess I'll just have to find a new one. But I'm hoping and trying to make it work. Watching Saiki K on Netflix. It's funny. I like the magician side plot. I smiled at a new day i accomplished keeping warm I am grateful for typos, new dya, warmth, spitting, sand, water, trees, fire, snow, ice, God bless
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@DaBestGotcha. I'll look into debt consolidation from my bank. We shall see if I can get a lowered interest rate. That would be very nice and take some money off the total payment due. Positive: yay it's the weekend two days off. I still haven't gone in on working Saturdays yet so I'm enjoying my full two days off at the end of the week. Feels like I'm taking so much time off living like this. It's so luxurious. I kind of feel like I'm not working enough and there's an extra six hours a week I could be working and making money. So probably eventually I'll go ahead and work Saturdays and get at least an extra three hours a week going on there. My client's gonna get a job eventually and then I'll move him from tues thurs to sat. And then I'll have six hours in the week and 3 hours on sat open. So like up to 9 hours. I could get another client at that point in time and add some more hours like that. It would be better money to be working 36 hours a week instead of 30. I'm only at 24 now, but I just got a new client and if they work out then I'll be at 30. Their dad's asking what the services entail which is kind of concerning for me. I don't want a helicopter parent hovering over us the whole time prodding and poking me as I try to do therapy (and watch tv as a reward for doing so). Hopefully the kid's down to watch my shows too. I smiled at Dabest I accomplished brushing teeth I am grateful for seeing dentist today, teeth, debt consolidation, dabs, roku, onn, macbook air, grid, sticks, leaves, dirt God bless
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@DaBestYa I'm grateful for you guys. The Abilify isn't working anymore. I think it's causing me stress, anger and possibly acne too. This is not good. I think I'm just going to have to bite the bullet and accept a 13 hour sleep day everyday from now until possibly forever. I could still try Fanapt but I don't know. I'm kind of sick and tired of trying out new meds. I think I might just want to stay with the risperdal and deal with the somnolence. Where do I go to get my loans consolidated? They are pretty high % like 5-6 I think. Positive: at least I still got risperdal Risperdal kind of sucks because it causes me somnolence. But on the upside it prevents me from feeling suicidal. So I guess it's kind of worth it to not be suicidal. I get less time to be awake but it's more quality time as I'm not all stressed out and overwhelmed. I guess 13 hours is just the price I pay to not be suicidal. Today's the last day of the week so that's nice. I foolishly listened to a client and applied for jobs when really all I wnated to do was take a break from applying to rest because I'm so exhausted from everything I've been doing. I could really use that break. Well, I'll stop applying after this round and finally get a week off eventually. Probably won't bring it up again. I smiled at GQ I accomplished finishing breakfast while stressed from abilify I am grateful for GQ, breakfast, risperdal, fools gold, mystery spot, santa cruz, ca, va, cold, hot, weather, trees God bless
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@RealworlderI just texted my clients mom telling her about flea shampoo. Maybe she'll do it and it'll rid the dog of the fleas. It's not a good situation because I have to go into a flea infested home in order to make money and do my job. If I don't go I don't get paid. And I really want to get paid. The abilify seems to be going well so far. I didn't feel stressed, tired or get insomnia from it. So I think I'll be able to continue with it. If it keeps working it's just a matter of time before they reduce my risperdal and I get to see if my sleep reduces. 21 hours a week would be nice. I think I might be less stressed with more time to just chill, hang out at home not doing much. Sounds nice. Maybe I'd even work more as I'd have more time in the day to do work too. @DaBestThank you for all that useful information. I'll look into paper trading. Sounds like a good way to get started and see if I can mentally handle putting my money into a stock. There's a lot of anxiety that could come up with taking that kind of risk. I'll keep in mind what you said about getting penalties when you pay below 20% on the down payment. I'll make sure to try to get 20% before trying to buy a property. My hope is still to make enough to buy a triple net listing. The cheapest I saw was 700k so that'd be a 140k down payment at 20%. That's quite a bit of money, but it's not impossible to save it'll just take years of saving to do. But in the meantime while I'm trying to get from student debt deficit to 140k I was thinking I could invest the money in a stock to hopefully grow it faster. We'll see if I get manageable anxiety from paper trading and see how it goes. I'd hope to invest 5k in stocks and just leave it in there for like a year or so and see how it goes. Positive: Abilify is working so far hooray I may actually be able to sleep less if the abilify is able to take the place of risperdal and cause less somnolence. That would be amazing. After all this time sleeping 13 hours a day it would be a miracle to get to do less sleeping and more living. I don't know what else to say. I'm on a 2mg dose which is super low because the target/average dose for abilify is 15mg. If I'm able to be mentally stable at this dose there's a high probability my somnolence will go down a lot. So we'll see how much abilify I need to take to feel okay while getting rid of the risperdal. God willing it'll workout for the better. Speaking of which. My job may workout for the better in february. I've got about 4 weeks to go and then they're going to plead my case to the boss and see if she'll have mercy on my soul and approve me for supervision and possibly a raise too. If I get both then that would be a miracle and I'd be super happy and grateful. If it doesn't work I'm seriously out of luck and I'm gonna have to keep looking for a job (which hasn't been going well). But I'll keep trying until I die. No matter how bad the odds are and no matter how bad things get. All I can do it keep trying. To get licensed, to have a healthy relationship with mom etc. I smiled at work I accomplished eating home made bread I am grateful for work, hm bread, dabest, realworlder, stocks, investing, savings, triple net, dollar general, bread, God bless
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@RealworlderI'm glad you like death note too. I'm just fininshing the last episodes and it's so good. That's awesome you got coasters from it. Maybe I could tell my clients family about the shampoo that might work since the flea medicine doesn't seem to be working. If you keep at it I'm sure you can find a way to get your PhD and me my license. It'll just take a lot of work and currently that's taking the form of interviews. I gotta go send out emails to search for a supervisor again. More interviews to conduct, here we go. Hope you're doing well. @DaBestYeah I wish they'd kill all fleas and bedbugs wordwide. Where do you buy REITs and how do you tell if one is a good one to buy? I was thinking of just buying some apple stock. Research huh. I don't know much about how to do that but I can try. I read mr mustache yesterday it was kind of interesting. I didn't know you could take out loans for a property with only at 5% down payment. How do they calculate how much money you need to be paying them back on the loan per month and what's the average rate for that? Also what's the cheapest fees you can get on a website to buy and sell stock from? Positive: I sort of have half a day off today which I'm going to spend hanging out with mom We're going to go run errands as usual. Get meds, buy bread at dollar store, look at second hand stuff and do something else she needed to do. We que up quite the list of errands and go run them all together. It makes it more bearable to do them together for me. It's not as solitary. I'm actually a little excited to start abilify. It's possible it'll be the lesser of two evils and actually drop my somnolence down to around 10 hours a night while still managing my psychosis. If that actually happens I'd have 3 hours more each day to exist. That would probably make me happier and less stressed. Smiles. I hope that it works. If it doesn't I'm essentially out of options. I'm tired of trying more meds that don't work. I've been through over ten to no avail I think. I'm kind of done trying more and there weren't but one or two left to try anyways. So here we go. Wish me luck. I smiled at mom getting forgiven interest on property tax I accomplished saving money I am grateful for mom, forgiveness, saving, subway, sandwich, pm client, masks, vaccine, laptop not being broken, laptop, keyboard God bless
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@DaBestThanks for all the resources I'll see if I can get those books on hoopla. I read rich dad poor dad that was enjoyable. REIT's huh? What's the annual return % on those usually and how safe are they? I got the first book you mentioned. I'll checkout money mustache online I guess. It sounds like a good blog. I like the idea of saving to retire early. I just wish I had a bigger income. Positive: The flea situation is more under control now I washed and bombed everything. Now I'm just waiting to get repellent and I'll go to my clients and wash my clothes and self after each session while going in covered in repellent. That's the plan. It'll probably work and prevent the spread of the fleas. They applied med to the dog but it's apparent that he still has fleas on him. So, that sucks and all but whatever. I'm doing the best I can with it and I think if it works out I won't have any flea bites to deal with as long as I'm diligent about my washing clothes and self after each session. I smiled at The Flash Season 7 Feb 23rd new episode yeah I accomplished washing water bottle I am grate3ful for flash s7, water, bottle, thermos, thermoflask, flask, phone, phone case, phone magnet, phone mount God bless
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@RealworlderYeah retirement is gonna take a long time. I guess it's a good thing. I didn't used to plan ahead much or think about doing something with my future financially so it's a step in the right direction. Good luck to you too with your process. Yeah we'll see I'm still interviewing for jobs so maybe I'll find a good job take the risk and try switching before I get the yay or nay. I only get bugs from clients sometimes so this would be the first fleas in winter for me. I love Death Note. I thought it was giving me a headache to watch. But realized it's because I didnt' close the blinds and the glare was getting to me. It's a good show I'm almost through the exciting conclusion. They really have a good battle with Light and the detectives. I get what you're saying about holding onto hatred towards others. It does make sense to me that you would not want to hold onto that because it makes your own soul unwell. Positive: new week to make money yay I smiled at job intvw I accomplished saying hi to mom I am grateful for job interview, mom, money, new week, clients, driving, sitting on couches, dogs with flea med on them , phone and timer. God bless
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Good job taking the step to get off teh game. That's a ton of play time. Good luck staying off it, post on here if u can
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@RealworlderIt's gonna be a long road but I'm gonna make it and get licensed and get a good job. Yeah I'll have to try to be aware of not burning out that's a good point. I guess we can post on both. Then we can follow what each person's doing and all that. Oh shoot, that deadline is close. I hope you get the referee to reply and help you out by then. Me getting allowed to get licensed at my current job depends solely on my site director/boss and if she gives me the thumbs up or thumbs down after me and my supervisor send her an 'application' to get approved for supervision. I'm prepared to deal with it either way if she approves or denies me I still plan to get licensed either way. Yeah that'd be cool if I ended up with a better boss, I'd like that. Positive: bombing my room for fleas It's not something I'm happy is happening. But it's still a positive that I'm taking action to bomb the room and get rid of the fleas. It's a lot of trouble dealing with all this. I've got 3 loads of laundry to do today to try to kill off any fleas that're in the blankets. Getting fleas in the winter is the worst. I just really hope to God that the flea bomb works and they don't come back. Other than that I had a nice day yesterday going hiking and eating Korean food. Then watching a ton of Death Note. We'll see if I'm able to tolerate the music in the anime. Some shows I've lost due to music intolerance. Still watching it so far though. It's a pretty good show. It really makes me wish I had a death note to use though. Which is kind of bad/guilty pleasure because killing people is against my religion. Thou shalt not kill and all that. Maybe it would be good to memorize the commandments. I did have thoughts of wishing I had the death note to kill my boss with though. But I don't think I'll actually kill her. I'll just do what I always do and rely on God to get vengance for me. He said Vengance is mine. So we can kind of forego vengance because God will punish evil doers who screw us out of getting our license like my boss has. Thanks God. I smiled at vengance I accomplished eating yogurt I am grateful for vengance, yogurt, God, God getting revenge for me, booties, onesies, shoesies, twosies, cheese, and me God bless
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@RealworlderThanks. I do like to think about what the end goal is for me. I find it very motivating. My dad kind of taught me to do that as he likes to visualize a long term goal and use that to motivate him in the present to keep working. Thinking about my triple net investment goal makes me willing to work long hours now. I'm even open to working on Saturdays and picked up an extra few hours with my cash client to try to make that extra money each month. Retiring at 60 would be five years earlier than average for men in the US. I could live with that. Then I'll buy an Acura. I know it's silly, but I like those cars. I like Honda brand cars. Thanks for posting on my page I really appreciate it and will return the favor in Feb. I read your journal today but I guess I'll respond to it on here? Would it be too much typing if we post on both our pages each day? I'm okay with doing some stretching while I watch tv. It's not the most comfortable thing to do but I've done it before and could do it again. Good job working on your PhD app. Good luck with that. I hope licensure and grad school work out for us both. Keep up the good work with the exercise, I'll try to squat some weight tomorrow. Positive: It's the weekend. For however many weeks longer I have Saturday's and Sundays off. It's nice to have all this time to just chill, maybe do some squats and watch a bunch of tv. Go for walks too of course and run errands with mom. But I think I'm going to like working Saturdays. Maybe not in the immediate sense because I'll be more worn out. But in the grander sense I'll be happier knowing that I'm earning more money to put away towards my investment goals. Although for now it's just going to pay back my student loans. That'll be a nice day when my loans are paid off fully. Probably two years from now. I'm changing my notes and doing more therapy stuff at work in the hopes that my boss will approve me for supervision. I'm not gonna hold my breath. I'm not very hopeful that she'll come around and help me out. She's been a world class jerk to me since day one and actively opposed my supervision. So I think after 5 weeks and an application to get approval from her through my supervisor I'm gonna get denied and have to start looking for a new job. That kind of sucks. I really would like to get approved and stay at my current job. But if the axe falls and I'm denied supervision. I'll have no choice but to get a new job or face never getting my license. It's not a good situation I'm in and it's stressful for sure. But it'll be five weeks before I get my answer and then I'll know if I'm staying or going and be able to apply for jobs then. I smiled at my journal I accomplished telling mom I love her I am grateful for journal, mom, love, god, sweater, Kohl's, hiking, trail near my house, darkening drapes, big tv, fireplace God bless
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Positive: my client didn't cancel My client called and I was worried they'd cancel but they didn't. So crisis averted. I just really want to earn all the money I can and that means my clients need to show up so I can get paid. I have a little sea salt zen garden my other client gave me. It's kind of nice to rake the little salt to make a pattern. It's messy though as the salt spills over the side and onto the table it's on. Oh well, life's not perfect. So I calculated at the current rate I'm saving money I'd need to work for 10 years to invest in the cheapest triple net I could find on the internet. That's pretty sad. I hope I get licensed within three years and can make more money to get my investment property sooner. Maybe I could buy a house at 200k then save till I have 400k and buy a million dollar triple net. That would be pretty cool. Those net you around 30k annually. That'd be nice to get 30k a year without having to work for it. More money is always nice. I figure you need at least 2 million invested in triple net plus a house to live in to retire. That's like 20-30 years of saving money then. So. I'd be like 60 by the time I could retire off my investments. I guess that's possible. I'm not much closer to getting supervised no call backs and today I'm supposedly getting instruction on how to fix my notes. Hopefully that actually happens I'll keep asking them to help me with it till I'm approved for supervision. I smiled at rug I accomplished sleeping I am grateful for sneeze, atom, rug, sleep, vase, pot, plants, planters, mom, cl, god, love god God bless
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@BooksandTreesI hear you. I can totally see how the apps are geared towards attractive people not looking for commitment and findoing something like that would be an exception to the rule. Very difficult to find. The stuff in DC was pretty nuts. 4 People got killed for rushing capital hill in a protest is what I heard.
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Positive: I think I got rid of the fleas Well no bites for two days. I think they might be gone. I washed everything that might have fleas on it in hot water and high heat. So I think that took care of it. Also the owner of the dog put med and flea bombed just in case. So I think we're good. Gonna try sleeping with the thicker blanket tonight. Four people got killed in the Capital hill protest yesterday. So that's not good. I knew someone who went there too and was nearby when it happened probably. Scary stuff. This is why I don't go to protests. Also I just tend not to like being in large crowds and I have a fear of being trampled to death. I'm learning about triple net lease investing from a little book on it. I only need 300,000$ to invest in one of the cheap ones. That'll take me like 10 years to save at my current living rate. So that kind of sucks. I hope I get licensed in due time. They did say I have a chance to get approved now so I'm gonna keep trying to send out requests to interview for a supervisor off psychtoday. That's probably my best chance to find a supervisor, get approved and start supervision. No luck lately with interviews everyone says they aren't a supervisor. I smiled at flash doll I accomplished eating bean sprouts even though they tasted bad I am grateful for flash, doll, bean, sprouts, mole, sun, fence, wheat, plants, outside, inside, warmth, love, good energy God bless
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I was never able to do well on dating apps. I got a gf from one and things went horribly she was not good to me. I still think about trying them out again but I don't know. I think it'll probably go poorly again for me.
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Positive: Probably gonna stop looking for a job now. My current job said they'll train me so I can start counting my supervised hours with them. Which is the whole reason I Was looking for a new job anyways. So I'm just gonna stop looking for a new job, try to do the training and get offered supervision hours at my current job. Because I like my clients and don't want to lose them. Mhmm. Well, hopefully I get approved for supervision within a month like my supervisor estimated. Really hoping that goes through. In the meantime I need to interview potential supervisors till I find one I feel comfortable with. Then I'll have a supervisor ready to go when it all gets going. Haven't really found anyone I feel comfortable with so far. Hopfully that happens too. My client likely has fleas and I'm going to try to buy his dog flea medication today to get them to put it on him. It's some trouble and expense but It's my best option for getting rid of the fleas. Hope they're okay with it. I smiled at getting rid of fleas I accomplished working an extra 30 minutes yesterday. I am grateful for fleas, extra work, extra money, paying off debt, supervisors, work giving me a chance, new meds, bible, remotes, sound bar God bless
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Hey try getting photos of you doing stuff or being in cool places. People like to see you actively engaging in something I think. Sorry for the flakiness it happens. Glad to hear your meditation is going well. I love to meditate it's so helpful for tolerating life.
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@DaBestThanks man. I'm trying. Working Saturdays , serious work. Positive: conducting supervisor interviews Got two more interviews down. three to go. Hope I find someone with chill energy. This one today wasn't terrible but I still felt a little tense around them. I smiled at water I accomplished doing interview I am grateful for water, interview, sups, soups, super heroes, blankets, flea medicine, mom, superman, andrew kreisberg, God bless
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Positive: Probably getting more hours soon So more hours loooks like more money and that's a big pro. The con of course is more tired and more stress. But if it gets really bad I can always drop my cash client. But working this much will be really good money and get me in the bosses good graces to get approved for supervision which I desperately need. So I spose it's worth it. I smiled at oil changing I accomplished drinking milk I am grateful for oil changes, milk, curtains, drapes, room darkening stuff, salt zen garden, journals, tags, zippers and the flash. God bless
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Yeah good to see you having a good weekend. I remember when weekends were a big stressor for you and you didn't know what to do with the free time. So seeing you so chill about this weekend is great to see. Good job working out, I gotta try to keep that going too.
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Positive: I got two days off This may be my last two day weekend. I might start working a full day saturday. Yugh. I don't really want to. But the extra money would be nice. I could pay my debt off a little bit faster. I just don't think I want to put myself through that kind of stress though. My boss said 25 hours a week is healthy for a therapist. If I work saturday that'd be 36 hours a week for me. When I was working six days a week before I felt very tired and stressed out all the time. It made me irritable to work that much. Yeah honestly I think I'll just back off of it and keep my workload at 30 a week. But in order to do that I'm going to have to drop one of my clients in favor of getting a new client at work. Which sucks because it means less money. But it will mean getting on my bosses good side and probably getting to count my hours through her so it'll be more money to make this move in the long run. Still it hurts to give up that client. Maybe it'd be worth working Saturdays in order to keep that client going. I could use the money. Gah this decision is so difficult to make. One day a week off is brutal though. I'll see how my Saphris goes and if it goes well I'll try taking on Saturday. If it doesn't go well which is probably won't I'll drop the client and get a new one. Poor client and me. We had such a short run. Darn. They paid me cash too. I smiled at blueberry vitamin water I accomplished getting meds I am grateful for vitamins, water, meds, costco, grass, butterflies, carpet, rugs, yoga mat, drapes, new drapes in my room God bless
