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James S.

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  1. Days 160-165 This has been a good week. No problems with gaming. I hit the gym twice and I got a good sweat on. Slowly reading my bible, trying to get about a half to a chapter a day. This is a project long overdue. The last time did this was like 10 years ago. I am already benefiting from my reading. Normally I would be home asleep right now, but I am transitioning to my new work schedule this week. I am holding on for dear life and see how I come out on the other side lol
  2. Days 153-159 It was a rough week. I was a big mess come Sunday, and I just focused on putting myself back together. I had a good weekend just sorting myself out. My wife and I got to spend some good quality time in, we have gone to the library, I learned how to set up my applications on Fedora, and we hit the gym hard. I really pushed myself at the gym, sore all over. 😃 I am just taking it easy and enjoy my workday. I am trying to take a break from streaming movies and do more reading. Like a breath of fresh air compared to the last few weeks. The hard part is to stay this way and maintain it thru out this week.
  3. Hey Stivmorrison, Playing WoW classic is a personal decision you can make. I get the good memories with the game. Just ask yourself one question before you do. Do you want to undo the hard work you put into getting up to 5 months without games? Will this game benefit you at all other than going down memory lane? I wish you the best with what you choose my friend. 🙂
  4. Days 146-152 Frustration, lots of frustration. Quitting gaming doesn't mean your life is fixed. It is just a stepping stone, or in my situation, it removes the veil to reveal the problems that I been ignoring all my life. Those problems don't get solved right away, they take time, they take seasons. Like I long to be a part of something, but we are stuck in this rut. My frustrations at times make me want to find something virtual to be a part of. It tries to wear me down into asking why am I holding out. I have to walk away from my computer. Seasons are changing. The call center I work for has gone thru shift bids last week. My wife and I talked about it, and she came up with a good idea. We are going back to Friday/Saturdays off. We are going to check out churches running Saturday night. There is no way we can screw that up lol My shifts start later, so I am preparing for war. Bed by 1pm and get up by 10am. Enjoy my mornings with my wife before work instead of feeling ripped out of bed in the mornings. I feel like I am trying to undo the damage from the past 7-8 years. We picked up bad habits/lifestyles and they have to become undone. I remember a wise lady years ago who got fed up with people coming to her with the same problems year after year. It was funny, but it was really true. "Mature! Mature! Mature!". I feel like I am just as guilty as the people she was saying it to. "When I was a child, I spoke like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I gave up childish ways." -1 Corinthians 13:11 ESV
  5. Days 139-145 Kinda a scary week. Dealing with some issues at home. At one point I even questioned what was the point of giving up games. Really I been struggling with a lot of frustration with the limits with life. I have a shift bid coming up as well, which will dictate my next 6 months on how my schedule will look like. What I want is totally not available at all. I let a lot of my stuff go and I am gearing up to let go of more stuff. I feel like I am trying a social experiment. Who would I become if my gear wasn't available? My computers were not available what would I do with myself? My life situation SCREAMS change is needed, so I am trying to remove the distractions. I want to give up mindless watching TV or surfing the internet for going to the gym or improving my home condition. I am mindful in the morning and mindless at night. I need to find a way to be productive in both time frames.
  6. Days 132-138 No gaming this week. A few moments in a waking dream where I thought gaming was normal, then I become aware of it and shut it down. Car problems got worse and I had to take a day off to resolve it. Heating assembly hose was the problem. The car cooling system doesn't like badly anymore which is a huge pressure off my back. I made progress in getting some furniture that is not ours ready to head out of the house. Bought a cheap desk to put a smaller work station together. To give me an alternative to the home theater setup we got. I did some research and experimenting with Linux again. I wanted to set up a server box and my laptop. Question of Ubuntu server vs Centos server. Opted for Centos, but I want to keep all my systems unified with the platform I plan to use. I switched my Kubuntu to Fedora 30 with KDE Plasma. What really won me over is Ubuntu could not solve the Broadcom issue with using the built-in WiFi adapter in my laptop. Fedora solved it on the first trial. I am going to run this for a few weeks and see if it will work for me or not. If it works right I will upgrade all my computers with Fedora.
  7. Days 127-131 Not much has changed. Did some house work and rearranged our living room again. I am sacrificing my desk to give more room for the cats and my wife to do her work outs. A long time back we put our money together to get a Nintendo Wii from a pawn shop as a family event. Naturally it didn't work out. My wife wants to get her hands on it and try again to play games that require activity. I was stunned when she suggested it and I was "that is not a bad idea". Then it popped into my head...I can't do that. I can't play video games anymore. I will undo all my hard work. We discussed it and I compromised. She can only use it when I am not at home. I am wondering if I am leaving a time bomb in my living room.
  8. Days 121-126 Seems like gaming is a thing of the past. I get nostalgia every so often, but everything has changed. Like over the 90 day detox has been a shift of how our household works. My wife and I no longer at different computer screens. We are on the couch together pretty much every night. Almost hard to believe I gamed all my life. I don't know if I am on the outside looking in or something. Our new situation has it's challenges, but not the ones I started here with. At the same time I don't want to drop my guard too much. All it takes a moment of feeling comfortable and I can fall back into the black hole. As for our new challenge we are learning to balance what we watch. To cut off before I get no time to sleep. Unfortunately I can't just quit streaming videos anytime soon. Or at least to I change occupation. I found Google has made a tech support certification program that I can take which is more affordable. Hopefully it can help me get back into computer field. One step at a time, one day at a time.
  9. Days 115-120 We splurged and I finally got a replacement power supply for my main computer. I installed it and got it working. My PC went down before I quit gaming and sure enough steam was installed. Also my other failed attempts to play Windows games on Linux. Thankfully my guard was up, I wanted to wipe the system clean and start fresh. Testing out Majaro KDE Plasma with it. Trying to see if there is any real benefit to switch over verse keeping Kubuntu. I did break away from the TV shows for a few days. Working on a few things around the house. Ending up watching a few episodes last night. It is amazing how my mind gets consumed by the TV show. Even my dreams mess with me. I plan to break away tonight and keep it simple tonight.
  10. Days 107-114 No gaming problems I haven't been posting since I been stuck in a cycle. Fell hook line and sinker for The Walking Dead from AMC and I just started up Stranger Things 2. lol Putting together a play list of angry music. I been itching to hit the gym. Execution has always been the hard part. Not much else going on except getting the car in the shop on Monday.
  11. Days 104-106 No problems with gaming. I am just realizing removing video games was only like removing on layer of distractions. During the time of my detox we got our hands on a 46' flat screen TV and we hooked up my computer to it. We kinda made a home theater setup. We are away from our computers and we watch stuff together. Yet a part of me things I traded one addiction for another. Sizing up the thought of taking on video streaming, but it's difficult to do when you work for a streaming service. I am wondering if I should do some job searching. Other thing holding me back is this job is best job I had in a while. Finding full time jobs in Arizona is very hard if you don't have a 4 year degree. I tried to learn some things about being social, but my heart is not in it. I know I need to learn how to socialize, but I lived a very selfish life style for so long. I have deprogram myself out of it and changing habits is not easy. I don't mean to be a sour puss. I just know it's not easy to change.
  12. Welcome to the community! I feel your pain on that. Gaming detox was like step 1, then other challenges come after. You got this!
  13. Thanks Fawn! Yeah learning that my brain chemistry was against me gave me fire to fight and this journal help keep me straight. To answer your question. If I could sum it up, I feel like a useless tool. Like I feel alive when I am a part of something that helps other people and makes a difference. I have very strong compassion, like I feel people hurting and I have to do something to stop the pain. Other side of that coin is that I can have hero complex at times. Which I had to learn the hard way I can't do that anymore. So I am trying to learn how to maintain my own household. I can get it done, but I am no master of keeping things in order. I can envision having things where they need to be, but with my ADD mind that is not happening. I am thinking I need to improve my social skills. How can I help people if I don't get to know them. I think I relied heavily on Church institutions to give me access to people who need help. This is going to suck. I rather quit gaming all over again than train myself to be more social >_< Keeping up with people is hard.
  14. Welcome! You got a great vision for what your life can be. Now is the time to take baby steps and begin to learn how to let gaming go. I definitely recommend the journal, it helped me keep myself straight on my journey. Just know bro it is going to be a process, so go easy on yourself!
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