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Day 25 18.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for powering through my slow phases and coming out strong.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) studied more than 7,5hours again ?
2) I realized that that after intensively learning a subject you find the applications in real life every where especially with mechanical enigneerng. (For the first time since I am riding the evelator to my study place I watched it intensely and calculated how it worked and tried to find the weak points in the design. It was like a revelation for me)
3) got my mobile screen time under 2hours (finally!)
Workout/run
5min Tai-Chi
5,5km run
more than 11k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
used it to motivate me during studying
Daily affirmation
only a few quotes with my app
Reading + taking notes
studying, no spanish today and a little bit for fun in the evening before going to bed at the moment it helps me to shut down my system and distance it from the study material otherwise it hunts me in my sleep (happend before and was not relaxing at all ? )
my wake-up time ( changed it from: "Getting to bed before 9pm")
7:30amWeekly Goal(s)
get the fourth week of miracle morning done (6am I try...), study a lot for the next exam,
reduce screentime under 2 hours againMonthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied more than 7,5 hours again, had a great run, had an hour long relaxing coffee time with a friend
What I could have done to make my day better
studied more (more is always better^^ someday I want the 8hours to fall today I missed it by only 15min ? ),spanish time! (since I finished my old course two days ago I subconsciously balk at starting the next one maybe try to do it tomorrow in the morning? we will see...
What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow:
wake up earlier, study 8hours, go to the gym, go to sleep earlier
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Inspiring diary so far keep it going.^^
and yeah from my own experiences as somebody who overreacted quite a few times so far in hindsight none of the problems/situations were as bad or as dramatic as I imagined so keep calm and fight trough the storm!!
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Day 24 17.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for having the willpower to fight throu the day and feel satisfied at the end of it.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) studied more than 7,5hours ?
2) woke up earlier than planned but did not go back to sleep and just started my morning
3) installed a website blocker on my mobile -> it seems that did the trick with my studying problem
Workout/run
5min Tai-Chi
2h Workout
more than 12k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
during a few times, but only short term goals to motivate me during studying
Daily affirmation
sadly I did only a few short ones preparing my morning tea
Reading + taking notes
studying, no spanish today and a little bit in the evening (this is becoming a habit and helps me shut down before going to sleep)
my wake-up time ( changed it from: "Getting to bed before 9pm")
7:01amWeekly Goal(s)
get the fourth week of miracle morning done (6am I try...), study a lot for the next exam, reduce screentime under 2 hours again
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied more than 7,5 hours!, had a great workout with two friends, nearly no urges today it was great, go my mobile time back to around 2,5hours try to get it down further
What I could have done to make my day better
studied more (more is always better^^ yeah at least half an hour more tomorrow), maybe a meditation in the evening and some spanish time
What I will do differently tomorrow:
wake up earlier (I try, but I do not know yet becasue I felt my missing sleeping hours during workout) , go to universtiy early, study 8hours, maybe go for a nice run in the evening,
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I deleted my steam, paradox and my blizzard account two months ago and at first I was also really against it because of all the money I "invested" in them over 10 years but then I calculated the whole amount of it and thought what else I could have done with this crazy load of money additionally I said to myself if I do not want to loose the same sum over the next years again i have to do something radical and down they went into the "trashbin" and since I got the confirmation emails not once did I look back and felt bad about it.
p.s. It also makes it more difficult to start gaming again because you have to start anew.
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Day 23 16.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for the small coincidences in life.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) I did not choose to hang out with my friend, drink beer and watch a football game because I know that it would have destroyed my morning and studying routine for the next days
Workout/run
5min stretching
5+km run
more than 11k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
I forgot sadly in the morning, but tried it a little bit during work (did not go so well)
Daily affirmation
3 minutes in the shower
Reading + taking notes
studying, 10min spanish and a little bit in the evening
my wake-up time ( changed it from: "Getting to bed before 9pm")
6:35amWeekly Goal(s)
get the fourth week of miracle morning done (6am I try...), study a lot for the next exam, reduce screentime under 2 hours again
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied more than 2 hours (yeah sadly not a lot ? ), went for a run, choose to participate in a business run in 3 weeks -> so extra reason for training, had a quite productive workday, but also really long (nealry 10 hours)
What I could have done to make my day better
studied more (more is alwas better^^, but today it is true), used the mobile phone less (had around 4 hours, far too much) -> will change tomorrow, stop myself from looking on my phone in the morning just to see the playoff results (try to do it at least after meditation)
What I will do differently tomorrow:
wake up earlier than 6:30, tai chi in the morning, go to universtiy early and do not cook at home that kills my morning boost/routine, get at least 7hours of studying done, workout at the gym, less screen time
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Day 22 15.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for realizing that even after deviating from your way a little bit, you can always get back on track.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) got back to waking up at 6:30 (finally^^) and my day worked like a charm ?
Workout/run
5min stretching
more than 10k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
tried it, worked a little bit (but only for a short while)
Daily affirmation
3 minutes in the shower
Reading + taking notes
studying and 10min spanish
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the fourth week of miracle morning done (6am I try...), study a lot for the next exam, reduce screentime under 2 hours again
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied more than 4,5 hours (more than yesterday ? ) and worked for around 8 hours so I had a quite productive day (waking up ealier again helped really a lot!!), went with two working collegues to the best pizza in town and now I know I can order there for take away ?
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more (more is alwas better^^), used the mobile phone less (had under 4 hours, but still far too much) even though I nedded it at work I could have put it don while commuting
What I will do differently tomorrow:
wake up at 6:30 or earlier, do a greater workout in the morning, go to work, get at least 5hours of studying done, maybe go for a run if the time allows it
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Day 21 14.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for finding fun and happiness in the small things of life.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) realized that I can help my sister with her physics and mechanics tasks in preparation for her next huge exam it gave me a feeling that just maybe some of the stuff I am learning at university is/will be useful in real life
Workout/run
5min Tai-Chi
more than 5k steps (after standing more than an hour in the freezing cold I had no urging to do any sport ? )
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
tried it, but did not feel any difference ?
Daily affirmation
a few minutes in the shower
Reading + taking notes
studying and some additonal reading
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied 4 hours (well at least it is more than the last few days structure helps a little bit, my goal is to raise the amount every day until I am at 7 to 8 hours when I am not working), went to the Palm-Sunday Mass it was freezing cold in the open but I had a blast with some of the kids standing near me^^
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more (as I said before I hope it will change), used the mobile phone less (had 5 hours today ? )
What I will do differently tomorrow:
wake up before 6:30, use my mobile phone less than 3hours, try to feel the panic/stress from the next exam (at the moment I am only feeling it slightly and that may be the reason why I am unconsciously holding myself back)
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Day 20 13.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for realizing problems around me and becasue of myself.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) had a great workout where I could see my progress over the last months
Workout/run
5min Tai-Chi
110min workout
more than 12k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
no ? but I reserved at least a few minutes during my next morning routine
Daily affirmation
in the shower
Reading + taking notes
no spanish today but studying
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied more than 3 hours and had a fullfilling workout, visited my parents home for the first time after the last drama
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more (like always, but I think I know now what I am missing: a strict structure of what to learn and how much it is something I will change tomorrow), viewed less information videos on youtube (as a result other than the basketball playoff highlights no other vidoes for me tomorrow and the day after)
What I will do differently tomorrow:
wake up before 7am, live a strict day tomorrow while going to sleep earlier (i think that is my main problem at the moment)
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Day 19 12.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for being able to see a ray of hole in most of the moments.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) started to hear part of the university lectures while walking to refresh my memory
Workout/run
1min stretching (sadly no Tai-chi)
more than 7k steps (yeah i was lazy today ? )
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
nope
Daily affirmation
in from of my bathroom mirror and with my mobile app
Reading + taking notes
10min spanish time today and studying
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied more than 3 hours (I did not count the 1 hour listening to study material during walking because who knows if there is a benefit from it), had nice talks with two of my friends
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more (what a complete disapointment today!!) it seems every day I wake up late (7o'clock and plus) und not have anything immediate to do in the morning is not working well for me, this I MUST change immediatly otherwise I fear I am nearing my old routine which will lead to a relapse probably sooner than later
Honestly I am a little bit relieved that I may be nearing some of my old habits, but at least I recognise it faster and easier now.
What I will do differently tomorrow:
wake up before 7am, ban all bad habits/behavior and train my iron will/willpower to stop all of my urges and stop thinking: "But it is just an hour, just a little bit." that is wrong and I will change it!!
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Day 18 11.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for having friends who accept me the I am.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) had a nice workout and one of my fastest 5km runs till today.
Workout/run
5min Tai-Chi in the morning
140min workout
more than 14k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
I try...
Daily affirmation
in the shower
Reading + taking notes
10min spanish time today and during studying
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
studied more than 4 hours, had a great run and workout (planing to run a half marathon at the end of summer helps a lot in motivating me to run faster and longer distances)
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more (yeah, it is going to be this phase again ? ), no beer after workout, but it was only one and with friends, the test at studying at home was complete disaster (that is the reason I was not even able reach the 5 hours mark) so I had to go to universtity at lunch time which I will do tomorrow after my morning routine!
What I will do differently tomorrow:
study at least 6 hours tomorrow (I have to make up for today as well), study at universtity starting from the morning no experiments any more, maybe another run in the evening, meeting a friend for coffee and meeting another one later tomorrow afternoon
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Day 17 10.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for having a work that interests me.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) against my inner voice I worked two hours more than usual to have more study time in upcoming weeks
2) I realized a lot of things in my Tai-Chi-course today which improved my form quite a bit (can't wait to try tomorrow morning)
Workout/run
5min Tai-Chi in the morning
90min Tai-Chi-Course
more than 12k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
had no time in the morning and during commuting it did not work well
Daily affirmation
in the shower (note to myself: try to shout my affiramtions instead of just saying them^^)
Reading + taking notes
10min spanish time today and read a lot during work and commuting
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
no youtube video so far today, work went well, tai course greatly improved my form (we will see if I still remember everything tomorrow morning)
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more (yeah, it is going to be this phase again ? ), ate a little less (I did not realize it during the day but in total I guess it was over my normal calories intake)
What I will do differently tomorrow:
study at least 5 to 6 hours tomorrow, try to test if I am able to study at home or I still have to change the environment to get things done effectivly, go to the gym with a friend
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Thanks a lot and yeah for me miracle morning was an eye openener, because now I realized what I missed the last two attempts trying to quit gaming, watching too many series and films and change my life. It was structure and a clear goal. Both the miracle morning gave to me because the first thing in the morning I do nowadays is to meditate and then do a few of my tai-chi exercises and the affirmation in the shower afterwards is already on a near automatic level, only visualisation still gives me some problems (lets be honest a lot ? )
Another benefit is since I am waking up between 6 and 6:45 a time I thought impossible a few weeks before I do not have that much time in the evening and have to think what I really want to/must do before I go to bed. (like write this diary here^^) For me to avoid possible time problems and having too many new habits in the morning I read my books and write this diary in the evening.
So in my opinion you should just try the miracle morning for a week to see if some structure in your mornings helps you to cope with bad habits and also it is an easy way to train new habits to counter the old ones.
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Day 16 09.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for know that my hard work is being rewarded.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) got my exam back, weeks earlier than expected but I am very happy because got an A something I would have never thought possible ? ? ?
2) organized another meeting about the excursion and it is already completly planned, far faster than the times before
3) went to my first psychiatrist session today it was a little bit wierd, but afterwards quite liberating
Workout/run
5min Tai-Chi in the morning
120min basketball
more than 18k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
no progress today but I tried
Daily affirmation
3min in the shower
Reading + taking notes
extra spanish time today because I did none yesterday, started to study for the next exam but only about 3 hours
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
got my exam result back, today felt like a really nice day where a lot of things were working out for me, rewarded myself with some sweet pumkin seeds for the exam (an exception for my no sugar diet), had a great basketball training and a kind of funny, strange fealing during mediation in the morning( but only for a short period of time maybe tomorrow as well?)
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more (yeah, it is going to be this phase again ? ), stayed strong with the sweets, not being so sarcaastic and sometimes negative in conversations, could have woken up earlier
What I will do differently tomorrow:
go to work, wake up earlier, study a little bit in between and go to my Tai-chi course (I am not sure if for 1,5h or 3h, I guess my workday will decide it for me)
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Day 15 08.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for having a loving family.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) called a meeting with some friends directed and organized the next excursion because the ones responsible did not get it done and it felt really fullfilling
Workout/run
10min Tai-Chi in the morning
less than 8k steps ?
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
I see some progress
Daily affirmation
in the shower
Reading + taking notes
no spanish today but some reading while commuting to work
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
went to work, organized the excursion
What I could have done to make my day better:
I became weak the last to days because I thought I could handle part of my urges (especially reading comics online and reading some threats on reddit) but it seems the only way at the moment is to completly deny myself of this consuming behavior otherwise I will rob myself of well neaded sleep, I can already feel how the combination of my bad habits of staying up late and consume content and wanting to wake up early like the last two weeks is attacking my health
so starting tomorrow there will be no "just a little bit", "I am going to take a quick look" and so on, it seems like I am not made for the middle way (at least not after such a short time) and the last two days made me realize this!
What I will do differently tomorrow:
go to university, study, meet a friend, play basketball and go to sleep far earlier than today
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Day 14 07.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for having a loving family.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) i did my first 6,5km run since ages
2) cleaned my part of the flat feverishly something i wanted to do for weeks
3) stayed strong despite being attacked by urges the whole day long and was able to be a little bit productive
Workout/run
10min Tai-Chi in the morning
6,5km run
14k+ steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
yeah a long, long way it will be (has anybody a good book or yutube video which can help me with this problem?)
Daily affirmation
in the shower (today twice because of the run ? )
Reading + taking notes
10 min of spanish and quite a few notes of how I want to change my life (this is going to be a never process....)
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
was a little bit hungover in the morning but I did not yield to my urges like I did everyday after a party night, but today was really hard (so far the hardest in the 14 days just the urge to watch a game on twitch was crazy I guess the run and the long cold shower afterwards saved me there), I cleaned my room, organized a little bit for next week
What I could have done to make my day better:
I could have started to study instead of telling myself that monday will be the day to begin with it, I could have prepared myself for the hungover morning with a few emergency plans to counter the urges and avoid using a lot of willpower to fight with them head on ( in hindsight I think I expected something like this to happen but I did not want to admit it to myself that one of my weakest moments would be after a night out ? )
What I will do differently tomorrow:
go to work, work on my next week plan, study a few hours, wake up at 6am and read a few pages of the next self help book on my list
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Day 13 06.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for finding friends who accept me the way I am.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) started preparing for the next exam
2) had a really funny evening with friends
Workout/run
10min Tai-Chi in the morning
2 hours of workout
more than 12k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
a little bit but it will be a long way
Daily affirmation
in the shower again it seems there it works really well for me
Reading + taking notes
10 min of spanish and read a book I wanted/planned for half a month
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope
Weekly Goal(s)
get the third week of miracle morning done (6am), try waking up before 6 o´clock once, prepare/study for the next exam, using youtube less than usual
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
started strong in the morning, went to gym second day in a row, had a nice evening with friends
What I could have done to make my day better:
planned my day better, read alittle bit less -> I wanted to finsh the book yesterday, but it cost me at least a thrid of the day (a project for the immedate future is now to learn to stop reading at some point and continue/finish the next day)
What I will do differently tomorrow:
plan the next week, tidy my room, start studing for the next exam, go for a run
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Day 12 05.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for realising that not all of my old pleasures have a hold over me any more and some others are way less fullfilling than just a few months ago.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) till the exam had a high focused day
2) first time since a long, long time I had under 80kg bodyweight felt great, now it only has to stay this way
Workout/run
15min Tai-Chi in the morning ?
2 hours of workout
more than 17k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
tomorrow ?
Daily affirmation
used them not very much today
Reading + taking notes
my 10 min of daily spanish and studying of course
Getting to bed before 9pm
the usual....
Weekly Goal(s)
get the second week of miracle morning done (this with 6am morning time)
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
the exam was okay, hopefully I know something about that in 2 weeks time, great workout, lost some weight over the last 2 weeks (2,3kg^^), had quite the good mood all day long which was nice (even with or because of the exam?)
What I could have done to make my day better:
here we come to the tricky part, I found some triggers for my urges today which are the opposite I of what I would have expected: euphoria! and it is harder to take down than the negative feelings or just to kill time
so the important part: I am still on day 75 of no gaming (I realised they are no the reason of my problems but a very toxic symptom of them), no sweets and most of the sugar since start of lent, on day 12 of no fap, no webnovels, no netflix, twitch and other film and series streaming sites, BUT after workout I read some webnovels to celebrate the day and lost sight of the time and one hour, which I allowed myself, became nearly 3!! and I could not stop!! so now I know that I have to regulate them strictly as well ? at least for the immedate future
What I will do differently tomorrow:
start fresh, plan the next week/weeks do some sport maybe study a little bit or prepare the materials for it and HANDS AWAY from my addictions!!
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Day 11 04.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for seeing progress even if it is a slow one.^^
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) had a great run in the evening which blew my exam anxiety away (at least till now^^)
2) studied more than 7 hours (maybe another one after writing because of the exam tomorrow)
Workout/run
only 3min Tai-Chi in the morning ?
29min of running
more than 16k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
I promise I will work on it this weekend
Daily affirmation
affirmation app is great (it is called my affirmations, but because my mother language is german I have to input all of my affirmations in the app and can not use the standart ones)
Reading + taking notes
my 10 min of daily spanish (it is becoming quite relaxing, maybe because there is no exam at the end ? ) and studied for more than 7h till now
Getting to bed before 9pm
the usual....
Weekly Goal(s)
get the second week of miracle morning done (this with 6am morning time), study extra hard for the exam
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
productive day, my run was awesome and refreshing, nearly no youtube video or any of my usual cravings, slept kind of normal so also nice
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more, a more fixed timetable for the day wuld have saved me from my last few minutes of procastination, but I guess that is something I have to work on
What I will do differently tomorrow:
waking up later to get more sleep before the exam, finishing the exam and then it is time for sport but this time for real (had to shorten my workout today), a brutal workout out or a 10km run something to empty all of my batteries^^
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Day 10 03.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for not chickening out of the exam happening this friday, like I did so often before.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) had a godd, but refreshing different tai-chi season
2) studied 8 hours (yeah! finally)
3) if had another rough night where I could not sleep a lot but I powered through the day and it was hard but rewarding
Workout/run
11min Tai-Chi in the morning
90min of tai chi in the afternoon
more than 11k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
nope done nothing today again ? ?
Daily affirmation
downloaded an affirmation app now I just need the time to personalize it ( maybe on the weekend)
Reading + taking notes
learned a little bit of spanish and studied for more than 8h
Getting to bed before 9pm
I am not sure if this will ever be possible for me ( maybe when I am sick? who knows?)
Weekly Goal(s)
get the second week of miracle morning done (this with 6am morning time), study extra hard for the exam
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
productive day, tai chi was great, had a long coffee break with a good friend, no youtube video or any of my usual cravings,
What I could have done to make my day better:
the day today was great and rewarding, but sometimes I thought it is running on rails and not in a good sense, I know shortly before the exam is a stressful time, but combining this with the lack of sleep over the last two days and it will be driving me crazy (but at least weekend is in sight^^)
What I will do differently tomorrow:
waking up earlier, do a little bit more strenous exercise or a running sesson to turn down the stress a bit, mediatate more!
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Day 9 02.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for having found a sport where I can give my all.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) played probably the best basketball of live so far, it was crazy I was really in some kind of flow where I hab near unlimted stamina and a lot of really unbelieveable shots got in
2) created a kind of timetable for my week (really detailed, this was the first I have done this way)
3) learned 15 new words in spanish during commuting
Workout/run
11min Tai-Chi in the morning
90min of highspeed basketball (I could feel my heart even 20min later bumping like crazy)
11063 steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
nope done nothing today ?
Daily affirmation
the affirmation shower is slowly becoming a thing ?
Reading + taking notes
learned spanish and studied for 4,5h but will add another after writing this diary
Getting to bed before 9pm
we will see if it works this week
Weekly Goal(s)
get the second week of miracle morning done (this with 6am morning time), study extra hard for the exam
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
productive day, basketball was great, met and talked with an old school friend still do not know how to feel about it
What I could have done to make my day better:
had some rough phases at lunch time even read some chapters of the novels I am funding on patreon ( I do not know if this is a breach against my resolution but the stress was a little bit to big ? and i fell back into a bad habit mabye because I could not sleep much last night and I had less willpower than normal?) at least no gaming, no fap, no comics, no visting my webnovel sites and reading the really addiciting stuff, no netflix and amazon prime and similar stuff so far
What I will do differently tomorrow:
waking up at 6am, trying to get more sleep, study a lot, not becoming weak in the face of temptation ( I have to find something else to cope with my stress, basketball worked well but we will see)
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Day 8 01.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for friends who look out for me.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) worked nearly 8h and studied at least 3h
2) created a kind of timetable for my week (really detailed, this was the first I have done this way)
3) learned 27 new words in spanish during commuting
4) decied to do a halfmarathon in october so that I have a reason to run in the morning
Workout/run
11min Tai-Chi in the morning
8209 steps (yeah today was not a lot of time for walking or sport ? )
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence (the pro level courses of headspace are great)
and after writing this dairy another 10min
Visualisation
nope done nothing today that is something I have to change if I want to get the hang of it
Daily affirmation
the shower again and yeah there I can talk all I want
Reading + taking notes
learned spanish and studied,
but friday after my exam the whole evening is planed for reading (I am super excited already, any good books tipps? if some body is reading this ? )
Getting to bed before 9pm
hopefully it works this week already going to sleep at 2215 to wake up at 6 so we will see
Weekly Goal(s)
get the second week of miracle morning done (this with 6am morning time), study extra hard for the exam
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
a great productive day even now I am on a high because of all the things I have done, I am especially happy about the spanish words mabye I have the time for a few of them everyday
had quite a nice smalltalk with a working college during our wait for the bus (this is special because for weeks if not months we just greeted and smiled at each other but today I thought "Max, leave your comfort zone!!" and it worked well)
What I could have done to make my day better:
having a striker morning routine in the morning I am still quite slow and today the first thing in the morning was me reaching for the mobile, that was frustrating), write in my diary I forgot it completly this morning ?
What I will do differently tomorrow:
wake up at 6am study a lot and talk to more people (maybe during basketball training)
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Yeah, @seriousjay is right @Rude, you have to try things to find new friends, for me it was basketball and tai-chi which really helped me, and when you are trying new things you should also participate and try talking with other people especially do not wait till they come to you (because sometimes that never happens or only after a long time). Just get out of comfort zone^^. (I know it is not easy at the beginning but that is fastest way)
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Day 7 31.03.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful to have parents who love me with all my faults.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) studied between 5 and 6 hours (it seems like 8 hours is for next week)
2) now I can study more than 60min in one go (something I thought impossible a week ago)
Workout/run
11min Tai-Chi in the morning
10724 steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence (the pro level courses of headspace are great)
and after writing this dairy another 10min
Visualisation
read a little bit about it and it seems like I did it subconsciously (still not sure^^)
Daily affirmation
I tried again today even shouted it load in the shower^^
Reading + taking notes
studied between 5 and 6 hours and read about visualisaton and affirmation
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope like the days before
Weekly Goal(s)
get the first week of miracle morning done and I am going to wake up earlier than 6am on the next monday, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the exam next week and the following exam, train myself in the SAVERS and be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment
reducing my mobile time under 1 hour for most of the days
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
another productive day with 5 to 6 hours of studying, had another talk with my parents about my situation and they insisted I look for professional help for my addiction problems
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more, tomorrow I try again, I woke up later because of the summer time change I could not handle the early time?, still some anxiety problems it seems like meditation helps but I guess I need more practice
What I will do differently tomorrow:
at least 4 hours of studying because I have to work as well tomorrow, meditate more and start with my spanish practice (even if only for a few minutes), wake up early again this weekend was quite bad in this regard
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Day 6 30.03.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful of being able to exercise and try my hardest in things I did not know are important to me until now.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) studied more than 6 hours something I tried to accomplish this whole week (now it is 8 hours^^)
Workout/run
11min Tai-Chi in the morning
2 hour workout
16795 steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence (the pro level courses of headspace are great)
Visualisation
not great today, but i planned for tomorrow some intel gathering on it^^
Daily affirmation
trying, trying, trying (I want it to work!!)
Reading + taking notes
studied 6,3 hours (yeah^^)
Getting to bed before 9pm
nope like the days before
Weekly Goal(s)
get the first week of miracle morning done and I am going to wake up earlier than 6am on the next monday, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the exam next week and the following exam, train myself in the SAVERS and be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment
reducing my mobile time under 1 hour for most of the days
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today:
had quite the productive day more than 6 hours of studying (i am falling more and more in love with the app "forest"), lost more than 1 kg this week by trying to change my life (and some friends even noticed!) workout was crazy I am really fatiged because every saturday my buddy comes with new ideas but hey that keeps it interesting.
What I could have done to make my day better:
studied more, even today I planned more but tomorrow is a new day and I try again, I woke up later because my roommate was noisy in the middle of the night so to compensate I had to adjust, trying to find some methods to cope with my reacuring anxiety problems (they are slight but still there), I found some triggers but still not sure how to cope with them
What I will do differently tomorrow:
the 8 hours benchmark of studying must fall, I will lose an hour this night because of the change to summer time we will see if I have to change my sleeping plan again, try to mediate more than once and get a hang of visualisation (hopefully...)
Time to restart my life again
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Day 26 19.04.19
Gratitude journal
Today I am grateful for realizing that every failure does not mean the end of the world.
One amazing thing that happened/I did today
1) I only slept between two and three hours last night because of sleeping problems (sometimes that happens to me) but I stil managed to have an above average day (but boy was I sleepy some times)
Workout/run
3min streching
2h workout
more than 13k steps
Meditation
15min in the morning of complete silence
Visualisation
used it to motivate me during studying
Daily affirmation
nope nothng today (but I tried "I am not sleepy but wide awake!" several times -> did not work ? )
Reading + taking notes
studied for 6 hours, a little bit spanish today and a little bit in the evening
my wake-up time ( changed it from: "Getting to bed before 9pm")
8:30am (but as i said I tried to fall asleep to the whole night so I added 2 hours at the end to get at least some slepp ? )
Weekly Goal(s)
get the fourth week of miracle morning done (6am I try...), study a lot for the next exam,
Monthly Goal
to study a lot for the following exam, be more grateful for everything in life, find the joy of living in the moment, think hard about my values and what kind of person I want to be, "survive" the miracle morning 1 month challenge!
3 Month Goal
getting my degree or getting it nearly done so that at least at the end of July I have it in my hands, having a really productive life, living my life so that I am proud of it
What went well today: (1,0)
studied at least 6 hours again, had a challenging workout,
What I could have done to make my day better
studied more , more spanish time and definitly more sleep!, sceen time was above 3 and a half hours again ?
What I will do differently tomorrow/What I have planned for tomorrow:
wake up earlier, study at least 4hours, go to sleep earlier, start the new spanish course, less screen time