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  1. Samon

    Daily Journal - Samon

    Hello everyone, today I saw this forum and I knew directly it can help me to get rid with my problem. Is it just a problem or an addiction? I dont know and I dont really care. Im not the person who is scared to say he is addicted to something like gaming. I am simply not sure, but its not important I think. I read the sticked thread, templates I can use. Etc. I will see whether I use one of that in the future. But first I want to tell you something about my current situation. I play since I was a kid. Started with offline games, went to online MMOs soon. I played much, even as a kid. But it was never such a problem, because you had parents who kept you away from gaming too much. So the years went on, and I kept playing games. All those games didnt make me really addicted. It was fun, but nothing serious. But then I started with League of Legends. First I just played it regulary. But as soon as I hit 30, so I could play ranked games(competitive games), I started to play hardcore, whole days... This was still not the big problem I have today. It got more serious when Lol was more like a way to get quick fun, without putting work in it. Im not a native speaker, so I cant express myself that good, so excuse me if my sentences feel a bit "not beauty". You know, everything in life is based to putting work in something to get something lucky out. School(Grades), Job(Not only bur Money), Sports(healty, good feeling after it) etc. But in Lol its different. Sitting on your ass start the queue and the show goes on. It doesnt matter how good your are in Lol, at the end you get matched with people who are on your level, so you will never ever win more games than 6 out of 10(average). So basically you have 50/50 Chance to get the victory screen at the end of a game and so you get a nice feeling without doing shit. Just some mouseclicks. Lol is no fun for me. The only fun is to get those victory screens, carry a game etc. but as I said you cant win every game, so 50% of the time you feel bad. So I knew pretty fast that this game is bad for me. I tried to quit a lot, I forced my friends to quit this game, but no one could. I feel like a big problem is that I dont have alternatives to the game. My whole day is basically at the computer, so if i dont play, i watch youtube etc. so also unproductive things. My friends are also addicted to games, so they are no alternatives. I think there will be enough time to tell you more about my story. To make it short for now: Today I played some round of league, tilted as usual much and googled lol addiction. I saw guys with literally my story. They gave me energy so I try to quit with this game again. This time forever. I uninstall it today(again). this should be it for now. I will try to write something everyday! Edit: I want to add that Goals to reach: 1. 90 Days without LoL, Lol Videos on Youtube 2. Lowing computer Usage in general(need to think how many hours I need to keep me updated and to do my work on it) 3. Practicing my instrument every day
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    70/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes! good day overall I think. Had again a long talk with my friend who quitted games too. It always relax me and keeps me on track, although our relationship was really not always good like now. However after those years, he is probably the one you are miss the most (when your family is there). Yea rest of the day did most of my tasks. Not much coding just checked somw things really quick, but its k helped also my bro with his application, i enjoy meaningful things like that Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    69/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Did my tasks like usual, and rest of the day pretty normal too. So yea keep going.. ill read some journals now and call it a day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    Hey man, I saw your Journal today too and also thought that your story is related to mine :). Glad to see you here! Thanks for the website tip and if you need any help in getting started qith programming, ask me! 68/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Nothing special today, thats good^^ Did my tasks pretty early and was free for the rest of the day. Read a bit more in my book(after 50-60pages I start to enjoy it). I usually only read at the evening, but I had nothibg to do and I dont want to sit at displays so much anymore. What I am still aiming for: Sport routine My tablet is still brokeb so I write in my phone, thats no fun tbh haha Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    Yes, you are right. Usually I only read 5 Pages and i want to sleep then^^ 67/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Again Pretty Standard day. The Sun shined very much today although it was cold. I wish I could go out do Something, but 1. i have no Friends Who like to do Sport it sp, only ppl which Game and usually only Meet Other ppl when there are some Dance activities 2. i still didnt manage to do some Running Session on my own. Yea, but i try to not blame Myself i am Doing good, just Space for improvment. Thats normal and good. tasks went good too. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    66/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Yes, what can I say? Days are not very different, Thats good for me. So I did all my tasks again like usual. I currently Reading a Book when I go to Bed. Its interessting how difficult it was to Get a proper One for me. Movies etc Are Way easier to find Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    65/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Writing on phone is soo uncomfortabel. I dont Even want to Write much because of it haha However did everything, was some hours outside I Play a Lot Basketball but First I want just run Daily then i ll see ill read some Journals now and call it a day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    64/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Pretty Standard day, I had a rough discussion about Something with some ppl today... In Those days i wish I Studied LAW.. However did. all my tasks again, no Problems with that. Look forward to etablish now a Sport Routine like usually Reading some Journals and call it a day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    Hi Lea, I wish you the best and Hope You can achieve all your Goals :)! 63/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Did all my tasks, but again a Bit More Computer usage in General(uploaded some vids again). However I wanted to mention that I am still getting some thoughts about Gaming Hard. Sometimes These thoughts still come, its not like I am near to Game again, But yea. Today I listend some Music and usually Music Pumps me up to do my goals. But in the past I didnt use this Motivation. Instead i kept listening, watching things which motivated me. I wanted to be Perfect, but did not much for it. Today I dont want this Fake Motivation, i know its ok to be Not Perfect ad Long äs you improve Yourself. Thats all and its good! Im out now Reading some Journal and call it a day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    62/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Did my tasks again Pretty early, and thought about what my next Coding project dhould be. I Learned that I have to pick Something which is Fun to do, so a project I want to do(Not some dumb Math exercsises-tools) and it has to be a Bit difficult too.. not much Else to say + i am on my Phone again. reading some Journals now and call it a Day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    61/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Pretty Standard again, did my Tasks and closed the Computer then. Was a Bit boring, Need to Look what I can do Else. I cant Write so much todaY bebaute I am Using my small phone Display this time.. try to Write more next days, ill read some Journals again and call it a Day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    60/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall. A bit late journal entry compared to other days, because I was on a party again. I went outside early, so I didnt had much time for my tasks, but did again from everything at least a bit. Next days I hope I can do more again. Yea.. What can I say more? Lately I dont have much to write. Maybe ill write a bit more in detail what I do, we will see. i check some journals again and call it a day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    CR - When do I level up outside?

    Yes, try to clarify more goals. No gaming is good but mindless surfing gives you also those good feelings which you dont want to lose. Thats why you keep grinding in front of the display. I also recommend to put this time to a minimum. Maybe not could turkey, because you need alternatives. Things you can do instead of doing that. Otherwise this will definetely not work. Wish you the best
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Hey man, I think everyone understands you here. You simply dont want to face the problems, or start with your tasks, because you know it is "hard". But isnt it even harder to keep playing and saying everyday "this is the last day of playing"? Stop the "tomorrow i will start". I know, you relapsed and its easier to staying in the relapse than being on track again. I mean, you probably think "3 weeks gaming, one more day is ok" or maybe even not. But you are here, you want to start again, so just start man. Ok you cant imagine how good your life would be if you stood clean for 90days. But I can promise you one thing: in those next 90 days you will either say "damn i still dont know how good my life would have been" or "hell yea I made it and it feels good". So dont look back, you maybe lost this detox but this doesnt mean you lost the whole intention to stop gaming and starting to be productive. Go ahead open the new journal - start again. And ill look forward to your daily journal entrys. You can do it man!
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    59/90 without any Lol Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Did my tasks again pretty fast. After that I just closed the computer till evening(3pm-9pm) that was nice. I feel more and more when I am at the computer "hmm what can I do?". But I know the longer i sit in front of the display I will feel again like I want do sit more infront of it and so on. So Ill try to simply close it, whenever I dont want or I have an alternative. You can always look something up etc. but you need to stop yourself while doing that. yea not mich else to say... Still cold, cant go outside much. Today just to buy some food. reading some journals as always and call it a day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Journal - No More Runescape

    Thats probably true, but absolutely normal. I mean no one is just doing good on somethign without to study it. Thats how it works
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    58/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Did all my tasks, went then to the city to buy some things. Was on a party atthe evening, was fun. not much else to say... as usual i will be reading some journals and call it a day for today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    It's never over. Another afterparty journal

    Nothing bad at it, some normal days are pretty good!
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    Fagus Detox No. 2

    Glad to see you here, and welcome back. However I think you are right, just not game is no solution. You have to change your whole "dopamin system" you cant do things which give you instantely dopamin. Well there are things like sport etc. this is of course something good. But not netflix youtube etc. so yea, i am looking forward to your succesful detox
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    57/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Again not very much to say. Did all my tasks pretty fast, because I knew I had a meeting at the evening. This went also good, and it feels nice to leave the house more often. I hope I can keep that up. I need to find in the near future a new coding project, because they current one i work on is nearly over. Still have something to do for it, but yea. I will read some journals now and call it a day then for today. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    56/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall. Made all my tasks pretty fast today, because I had to learn with my silbling and had a meeting in the evening. Went all good its late again, so a bit short journal entry today Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Journey to my white coat

    Nice deku, keep going, you are doing so good lately :)
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    55/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! good day overall I think. Like usually did my tasks, but this time I stopped them when I did enough for me. So I was free of displays afternoon. I hope I can keep that up. Yea, learned again with my silbling for school and for myself. Not much else to say about today. Oh yea, I had a good idea to make learning for driving license easier for me. I coded a little tool which helps me. Feels good to use the learned stuff to actually do something which is helpful. Usually I only do things, so i learn, they are not really useful. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys
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    Journal - No More Runescape

    Its true that good grades can replace the "winning" part in games. Not exactly but yes, it definetely helps. However I wouldnt rely to do is. To be honest its not very hard to be on track while life goes good. But what if it doesnt goe as planned? We all know life is not linear, there will always a step back. Its important to stay strong at those times. Because if you not stay strong in the hard times, you cant get over them!
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    Setting things straight

    Welcome here mate. I had the same thoughts with LoL thinking that I could earn money while playing. But that would mean: play 24/7 not because u want to earn money, simply because u have to play so much otherwise you will not keep up with other high elo players. And is this really what you want to do? Never going outside, just playing games? Sad life imo, and so I said no. I am glad that you do that too. I wish you the best mate, looking forward to your journal.
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