[Mohammad's Journal]

I am back again to start a new detox.

I should admit my life has improved a lot since I started to quite gaming. Even though I have failed to quite gaming yet, I made significant progress in my life by just tryimg to quite!

I have spend about 2-3 hours daily gaming and that is still quite a lot. I have to quite gaming to live a life I desire.

This is the first day of the new detox.

I did workout for two hours and read book for 1.5 hours. I have been doing workout at least three days a week in the past two months.

I have been eating healthy food and keeping track of carb and calories intake in the past two months.

 

I think I am ready for the detox now 🙂

lets do it!

 

[Mohammad's Journal]

Day 6: 

I woke up this morning at 7:50 am for work. I was dreaming playing dota 2 with my favorite character 😂. The dream  was super fun so I tried to get back to it for another 10 minutes so I can enjoy a bit more of it. It didn’t happen so I woke up and start working after a quick breakfast. 

so yea, today, I have strong temptations. I am very tired because of hard work and now feel so bored. I have nothing to enjoy other thab gaming! That’s obviously a big issue. My routine while not gaming is just self-development. So whenever I stop gaming, I just do daily workout, meditation and all these type of self-improvement.

I can start watching Netflix so I can relax and have fun. However, after watching Netflix for a while, I would feel wasted again and then probably relapse. I feel that now that I am wasting my time on Netflix, why not game so I enjoy it at least.

I won’t relapse tonight since I am serious to end this gaming issue but I know I am close to relapse. I need to do something about it.

as @Ikarmentioned, I may just go for a walk knowing that tomorrow is a new day. I don’t want to get depressed again.

 

It’s already weekend but I have nothing fun to refresh for the next week. I have to play with my son all day long for the next two days and at nights, doing workout and meditations! Also, there are some work-related things that I have putting off for a while and need to do sooner or later. So it’s basically work, work and work for me😞

My relationship with my wife is also bad so I don’t see much light in my life 😞

[Mohammad's Journal]

Day 5;

 

pretty healthy day with no gaming temptations! 
woke up 7 am and did yoga for 30 mints, meditation for 5 and start work at 8:30. Finished work, played with my son and hit the gym for a 30 minutes cardio exercise. 
 

it’s a bit late now but going to bed; hopefully, can wake up early enough in the morning to do the yoga before work.

[Ikar's Diary]

15 hours ago, Ikar said:

There have been times where I played less and when I was disgusted by gaming and where I felt it's not sustainable and was on and off about gaming. However it's not documented here, because I just haven't relapsed since I started writing the diary here.

I honestly feel like my life got a lot better since I stopped gaming and I live by that. I really got 8 hours of free time back on weekdays and 14 hours of free time on weekends. I tried to cut an hour or two from gaming before to study, exercise, do whatever, but it hasn't worked for me and I had to stop completely.

There are days where I feel like doing nothing or when I have too much free time, but then I just decide to sleep, go for a walk, have a shower, watch some lecture on YT or do some household chores. I've honestly never felt stressed out by life's events to get me back to gaming and I don't feel a pull to make it a hobby.

I also thought gaming was really the thing that kept me from more valuable things - success at work, at the university, in relationships. I actually broke up with my X a month before I quit gaming. I thought very heavily about that. I felt like I had nothing but gaming when I quit gaming. It's like when people quit smoking, because they got a heart attack, but they wouldn't do that before it happened.

I think that if you can half-ass gaming while still having decently healthy relationships/work/hobbies, then you are going to do that. Can you get your family/friends to support you with their care and maybe create some rewards for you if you stay away from gaming?

 

Thanks for all this.

Not really, I don’t have any help. Have to do it on my own. I surely cannot have a healthy lifestyle while gaming. I know I should stop it at all cost. Gaming is just a waste of time; this bothers me a lot. I may enjoy gaming at the moment, but have to live with depression if I game.
I want to make good use of my time so I feel proud of myself. That’s what makes me happy in life. Creating some kind of meaning in life rather than pointless gaming!

I’ll continue doing my diaries here; hopefully, I’ll get over it this time.

 

[Ikar's Diary]

Wow, you’ve been game free for 909 days! 
how did you make this work?
I’ve tried for two years but it failed hard. Please give me some advice.

Thanks

[Mohammad's Journal]

Day 4 with no temptations. It used to be difficult to stop gaming even for a few days but thankfully, I am not getting any temptations!

hope I can keep this up. As usual, worked the day, spent evening with my son and did some yoga-meditation before hitting the bed.

I will read a bit before sleeping 🙂

 

 

[Mohammad's Journal]

2 hours ago, Mohammad said:

Day 3:

Little to no temptations. I worked during the day and play with my son after work. I also cleaned the house.

My son went to bed so I have some free time now. I want to go to gym but feel so tired! I need to buy some groceries. Don’t have too much time during the weekdays and I get so tired after work 😞

 

 

I ended up doing workout and meditation  tonight 😃

so far so good

[Mohammad's Journal]

Day 3:

Little to no temptations. I worked during the day and play with my son after work. I also cleaned the house.

My son went to bed so I have some free time now. I want to go to gym but feel so tired! I need to buy some groceries. Don’t have too much time during the weekdays and I get so tired after work 😞

 

 

[Mohammad's Journal]

22 hours ago, ChewyChickenBones said:

Wishing your son a quick recovery.
Meditation is an incredible asset in recovery. 💪

Thanks @ChewyChickenBones😃

[Mohammad's Journal]

Day 2:

I did not have any temptations for the 2nd day. I am very tired today since I couldn’t sleep well last night (my son is sick😞). Worked the whole day and spent the rest with my son. I did clean up the house. I am going to meditate and read before falling sleep.

I am happy that the 2nd day of detox was a breeze. I am so happy that I am doing this 😊😊😊

I am planning to wake up earlier in the mornings so gonna go to bed as early as 9-10 pm

 

[Mohammad's Journal]

Day 1: 

- did not play games

- workout

- read books

- meditate

😊😊😊

[Mohammad's Journal]

3 hours ago, ChewyChickenBones said:

Welcome back!

Having a balance with gaming can be challenging. Can understand what you've gone through. After the  first detox>returned to gaming, but it quickly escalated to several hours devoted everyday. It began to be detrimental since it took up a large portion of my days.

You've taken the first step. Take it one step at a time. One day at a time.

It absolutely is detrimental. I feel so depressed just because of gaming. I am going to try as hard as I can. I will continue even if I relapse a thousand times!

I am going to make it work 😊

[Mohammad's Journal]

I am back after seven months. I bought a high-end computer and monitor in March 2021 and totally gave up on quitting. Here is what happened:

I have been working 7.5 hours, five days a week, and gaming 3-4 hours every night. On the weekends, I have been with my son during the day and start gaming at nights. It’s been very upsetting for me since I am literally behind my computer most of the waking hours either working or gaming.

I feel very depressed and my physical health is deteriorating due this hectic lifestyle.

 

in 2020 that I was active here, I was going to the gym 3 days a week on average and I finished 12 non-fiction books. During my detox, I felt so happy and strong: in control of my life. This year, on the other hand, I have finished one book and have been to gyn 4-5 times a month on average.

This gaming disorder is killing me slowly. I need to stop it to gain my strength, motivation and happiness in life. The temptation is so hard to resist so not sure what I should do.

I am here again to give it another try because that’s all can do. This is my first day for a 90-day detox.

 

 

 

 

[Mohammad's Journal]

On 2/16/2021 at 10:30 AM, Jason70 said:

Urges are tough. Sorry you gave into one game. However, they are things we have to face, sit with them, realize they're there and   They will eventually pass. 
 

Take it one day at a time. One day at a time. Stay strong

Best 

Jason

Thanks man for the support. I can't do it. I have been trying for more than two years and I am relapsing all the time! I am embarrassed and not sure what to do

[Mohammad's Journal]

I relapsed again and have been playing 2-3 hours per night in the past 20 days. I am feeling very bad about it. I have a tough deadline next week and due to gaming, I won't be able to make it. I am very stressed and not sure what to do. 

 

Also gaming every night kinda disrupt my sleeps. I am in trouble and can't really bypass this shitty gaming habit. when I don't play, I am bored yet very productive. When I play, I am kinda happy because it's fun but I am feeling very bad about my work and life. I am not spending enough time with my boy. I am not cooking and not cleaning my apartment. I hate this lifestyle!

[Dear Diary...]

On 2/16/2021 at 6:18 PM, BooksandTrees said:

This past weekend I reached 120 weeks without gaming. I officially became a boyfriend on Valentine's Day. This is one of the happiest moments of my life and I'm so proud. I'm very proud of the woman I'm in a relationship and also proud of myself for staying true to myself and not settling for someone out of desperation or loneliness. We're such a good match for each other and I'm just eternally grateful. I can't put it into words.

I've also gotten out of my work rut and become much more productive this week. I feel very good about this. I'd like to study a bit. I might study tonight actually. I'm a little bored tonight and don't have to work late because of my productivity. I just don't really want to lol. But I have to and it is good for me.

I am very happy for you 🙂

[Dear Diary...]

On 2/9/2021 at 1:45 PM, BooksandTrees said:

I've reached new levels of boredom and unfulfillment at work and it's crushing my motivation. Little projects pile up, studying has to occur, no time for fun outside of work. I'm just grateful for my new relationship. It's the one bright spot right now that I've got going.

I'm just struggling to find motivation for my projects. Even when I exercise before and after work or watch my shows or do a hobby it does nothing to quell my boredom. I'm not really sure what to do. I guess we all go through these phases.

It is interesting that you do not game even with the disappointment and boredom you, sometimes, get in life! 

Boredom and gaming are strongly correlated in my case; not sure how to deal with it.  

[Mohammad's Journal]

Day 20:

 

I played one game on day 19, but didn't play on day 20.

[Mohammad's Journal]

I have not been playing in the past 19 days. 

I am feeling tempted to play games again! The reason could be the long weekend! Not sure what to do now.

 

@BooksandTreesThat's a very good idea. But, what kind of online activities can we do together! I cannot think of any. It is fun playing together! But, I know it negatively impacts my life so I really do not know what to do about it. 

[Dear Diary...]

Congrats @BooksandTreesfor 117 weeks from gaming! It is motivating for me to see how far you came 🙂

[Mohammad's Journal]

I am back after a month of relapsing. I spent the last month playing 2-3 hours per day. It was not detrimental to my life and I enjoyed playing with my brothers. However, I was not able to do workout and read books in the past month. I spend the whole day working behind my desk so I believe two hours of gaming per day is very bad for my health anyway. 

 

It is interesting that my brothers are quite similar to me! After I told them that I want to delete league of legend account, my older brother agreed and he immediately removed his account as well. My younger brother who does not suffer from gaming addiction only removed the game from his computer. 

 

Today was the second day without gaming. I did daily workout and read books. I am on track again 🙂

[Dear Diary...]

2 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:

I tried quitting ever since 2008 and couldn't do it. It took until 2018.

That's a long time. 

I get urges sometimes but I just change the conversation, calm down and realize the day will end and tomorrow is a new day, and try to force myself into a different mindset. Enough pain is enough. 

Wow! it took 10 years for you to get here. That's right. I have been trying only for two years. I've got to try again.

[Mohammad's Journal]

I don't know what to do. I am not determined enough to start a new detox! I have played for about 2-4 hours everyday . I removed my steam account about a month ago to stop playing dota and now I am playing league of legends! LOL is even harder to abandon because my two brothers are also playing it! That reminds me of my childhood so there is quite of lot of positive feelings playing with them. However, I should do exercise and read books instead of gaming to be able to have a good night sleep and achieve long term satisfaction. Gaming at night makes me tired in the morning and it affects my productivity for the day. That is not acceptable so I know I gotta get rid of gaming anyway! It is just so hard to convince myself out of it and fight against strong temptation. I will try  to focus more on my goals and plans to be able to resist the temptation.

[Dear Diary...]

1 hour ago, BooksandTrees said:

Today I'm 115 weeks free from gaming and 117 weeks free from social media. I've been waking up early every day this week and feel so much better. I'm finally getting 6-7 hours of consecutive sleep each night. I'm dominating at work and I'm doing my hobbies etc. I feel a lot better.

I finished a difficult project this week at work and I took some time to just randomly play the drums because I like the noise. I wasn't trying to play a certain song or anything. It was fun. I've also been doing some yoga in the mornings and watching my tv shows at night. I've simplified life a bit and feel better. Also did some virtual chats with friends.

I wanted to talk about what happened in Washington this week, but I want to uphold the rules Cam set forth on this website and not discuss politics. I just hope everyone is safe and doing what they can to maintain mental sanity during this time. Having that drama on top of the coronavirus stress is not very good for our health. Hopefully positivity will come soon. 

I have strong opinions about it, but once again will not discuss as per Cam. I also don't want anyone talking about it on my forum. Thank you.

Congratulation on 115 weeks! That is so amazing. how does it feel to be free of gaming for this long? I mean, isn't there any temptation? Is relapsing something of the past for you? I am not sure how many times you have relapse coming this far! I am asking this question because, as you know, I am having difficulty sticking to my detox for too long. After a few months, I feel good enough to get back to gaming and that's when the dissatisfaction starts to kick in and I start a new detox.

[Dasvira's addiction journal and confessions (starting again...)]

8 hours ago, dasvira said:

Massive relapse between Christmas and new year.

I gamed all the time from Christmas to now. Started playing videogames (cyberpunk+red dead redemption) with my cousins and I got totally hooked on it. I downloaded that shit in my PC and I was playing videogames all the time until Sunday, then I binged in the expanse season 5. If I was not watching shows or playing games I was surfing on Reddit or watching YouTube videos.

I also drank wine and saw porn most of the days, and was waking up almost at midday most of the time. I simply gave up on my life during this last week.

I actually planned leaving this forum for good. However, here I am again restarting my journey to get rid of my addictions hopping for a better outcome this time.

Just like me. I was hooked on the break too! I am happy you came back here again.