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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 85, 86, 87, 88, 89, and 90! I MADE IT!! 90 days as of yesterday evening! Day 85 - Wednesday - worked, ordered a pizza for dinner from Round Table it was wonderful. Day 86 - Thursday - date was nice. Went and saw Incredibles 2 which was really fun. Day 87 - Friday - got my hair cut and went to Costco. Was going to the store in the evening to get dinner and other needed items and my car broke down! I found out you can call and join AAA and get towed all in the same call. They helped find a repair shop that would be open Saturday as the one I usually go to is not and didn't have a dropoff place. Finally got some dinner in me at about 9:30pm. Day 88 - Saturday - work was insanely busy all day long. I wasn't able to pick up my car after work as we all ended up getting out late so I called the auto shop and told them I'd get the car Monday morning. The distributor had died the part itself was $599 and the total came to $923 :( at least it happened when I didn't have a lot of places I needed to be. It's also fortunate that work is so close I can just take the train and it's two stops away. Got together Saturday evening with a good friend/ex boyfriend/former roommate and went out for pizza then went and saw the Solo movie. Day 89 - I think I overdid it on Saturday I was just exhausted all day. I slept in and took a few naps. I watched some of The Expanse and Star Wars episode 8 then went to bed early. Day 90 - work was busy again, worked all day. My boss looked at me and asked me how much weight I had lost since I started. I have actually lost 10 lbs! It's cool that she noticed. My friend Albert was in town on a layover so I picked him up at his hotel and we went and ate mass quantities of sushi at Saburo's again. So now I'm on day 91. I might play a video game tonight since I worked today and I'm exhausted now. I think I'll let myself play only on days I've worked when I really don't have much energy. Days off I need to get things done or go be social and do fun things or clean house or work on projects. My body is still adjusting to how physical my new job is so I might just use video games as a reward on work days. I've still got to read some more, write some more, and sell some games. I plan to keep active in this community even though I haven't been posting daily. My life has changed a lot these last 90 days and I'm excited to see what the next 90 brings. Happy 4th of July everyone!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 79, 80, 81, 82, 83, and 84 Thursday - worked and read Friday - worked, then went to game night at my friends' house Saturday - worked, wanted to maybe go see a movie or something but decided to just rest and went to bed early. Slept 10 hours Sunday - cooked blueberry pancakes for lunch and chicken for dinner after going to the store. Read a lot, stayed cool as it was very hot! Glad it happened on my day off. Tried a soak in epsom salts which seems to have helped. Monday - worked 10.5 hours which kicked my ass so hard! Tuesday - weighed myself this morning. I've lost 10 lbs in the last month! That was all the weight I gained while unemployed! Worked, and it was a lot easier today than yesterday. I have a date Thursday night and Friday off which I'm looking forward to. Hard to believe I will hit 90 days next week. It's really going by fast now!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 76, 77, and 78 The weather has been hot and humid the last few days. Working Monday and Tuesday I would drink tons of water and just sweat it all out like crazy! Took it easy Monday night and talked to Matthew on the phone. Last night I went and saw Deadpool 2 with my roommate. Today I slept in, defrosted the freezer, and went to Costco. Met up with a friend for lunch and then later in the afternoon went to happy hour with a couple former coworkers. Came home and cleaned up some and just relaxed in the air conditioned house the rest of the evening. The days are going by so fast! I feel like I'm making the most of each one even though I have to spend a lot of time recovering from work. I feel bad that I haven't had the energy to keep up reading everybody's posts but I want you to all to know I'm still in the detox to the finish along with all the rest of you. I want to finish then start to figure out what more I can do to help others here because what we are doing - improving our lives - is totally worth doing. Goodnight all!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 71, 72, 73, 74, and 75 Wednesday and Thursday I worked, came home, showered, and then came home and took it easy in the evening. Friday I did too then quickly went home, showered, then joined some friends at a Portland pride party to kick off pride weekend here. It was good to see a lot of former coworkers there. I stayed up a little later and had more beers than I should have but it was a lot of fun. Worked all day Saturday. Work has been frustrating this week with a lot of people out of the office. Some of my coworkers would handle stress so much better if they ate right. I kept making mistakes this week which is rough. A text conversation at lunchtime with my brother helped get some perspective. I know I'm slow at this point. I'm getting stronger every day but there are some things that are a real struggle at times. It's important to keep doing things right and ask for help when needed. My boss and the assistant manager seem to like me as do the majority of the people I'm working with so that helps. Went home and just crashed last night. Today I went to the gay pride parade in downtown Portland. Got to see lots of friends. Went with my good friends Kenny & Brad down to the festival at Waterfront park after. Came home around 5:30 and called my dad to wish him a happy father's day. Relaxed the rest of the evening. 75 days. Wow! Hard to believe how different my life is now and how fast the time has gone by. I recognize that my two days off per week are really the only days I know I'll have energy to be social so I have to be sure to schedule time with friends on those days regularly. I used to just play video games and be lonely and wish people would call me. I'm spending more time reaching out and making an effort to connect now and that's what I've been needing to do. I need to get some epsom salts and more IcyHot. Starting this physical of a job at age 45 means I don't bounce back like I could have when I was younger but I don't know if I would have been strong enough at all to even try when I was younger. I'm taking less ibuprofin last few days but still need it definitely at nighttime. Goodnight everyone!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Rest of day 68, day 69, and day 70 Talked for a while with Matthew on Sunday afternoon. I'm going to have to just give up on any romantic relationship with him. It's hard but necessary as I deserve to be with someone who would make me a priority. The friendship is strong and not going away but I'm not going to initiate as much with him for now. Went and did some shopping then relaxed during the evening. Work on Monday went well. It went by really fast. I just crashed yesterday evening. Had the day off today. Went and got my haircut and had lunch with a friend/former coworker. Ran into a couple other former coworkers and talked to them too. One's job is ending in a week, the other is dealing with a lot of chaos as they outsource our old department to the Philippines and are in the middle of the transition. I also chatted a lot with friends online during the day. It was a good day. I'm still sore and achy though. Goodnight all!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 66 and 67 and the beginning of day 68 Friday was a light day at work which was very welcome. It meant I was able to go home right at 6pm and go to my friends' game night at their house at 7pm. Of course I was tired and achy and ended up having to call it a night at about 10pm but was good to do something social with my friends and show off my bruises. My fingertips on my right hand are kind of numb and tingling which made it difficult to shuffle cards or pick up little plastic pieces. I'm probably taking more ibuprofin than I should but I feel it's necessary right now. I kept waking up in the middle of the night with my arm and hand hurting and needed to get relief in order to sleep. Yesterday was good it was more busy and it rained like crazy here in Portland. Got home, cleaned up, then ordered a pizza. I sat down to watch the Sense8 finale and a friend texted me wanting to hang out. So I went and visited him and his boyfriend last night which was fun. I realized I had some IcyHot left from a couple years ago from when I injured myself trying to run so I rubbed it all over my arms, hands, and legs and was able to sleep better without waking up as much and needing to take as much ibuprofin. I finished the Sense8 finale this morning. It was a very satisfying ending. I haven't decided what I'm doing the rest of the day yet. Cheers!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Thanks Beartic I appreciate it. If I was injured while working it would become a Workman's Compensation claim. I don't have any benefits yet at the company. After six months they all kick in. I haven't been there long enough to accrue any FMLA time plus I don't think the store has enough employees to fall under the requirements of FMLA. Depending on the injury that would determine how long out of work one would have to be and if it's too long then they would have to terminate the employment. I am on COBRA currently so I do have health insurance that has been continued from my previous employer but it costs me about $765/month. Six more months of that then I get to be on the company health insurance and will also be able to get short term and long term disability insurance should they ever be needed.
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 61, 62, 63, 64, and 65 Sunday was my mom's birthday. I got her a nice rose bush with brightly colored pinkish red flowers from a local nursery which she really liked. Got to spend the day with her, my dad, brother, sister in law, and nephews. It was really nice. Monday was a day off for me. I got together with a few people from the rethinking job search class and we went and had lunch at the Portland Mercado and got some fantastic chicken and mole from a food truck there. Did a bunch of shopping and cooked chicken, rice, and broccoli for lunches. Tuesday I worked and had the scariest moment of my life. We were done with a car and I opened the passenger side door to put a hub cap lock back in the glove box. My coworker was on the driver side and he started lowering the car and my left foot was under the lift! I was like "oh shit!" and tried to move it out and it was stuck! I started yelling at my coworker to stop the lift and it kept going and my foot was starting to turn downward. I started screaming! Fortunately my coworker stopped the lift and I pulled out my foot. I took off my shoe and sock and saw that the foot was okay just bruised in a horizontal line across the foot just behind where the toes are. Of course at this point I was full of adrenaline and went into the restroom and cried a little. I worked the rest of the day without incident. Everyone was good natured about it because we are working with machinery that can cause serious injury. After the incident everyone is yelling "watch your feet" at each other when we lower the hoist. It's nice that we can laugh about it but it was so close to being a lot worse. I had visions of losing my foot and not being able to do the new job anymore all in those few seconds. I got home and realized I still hadn't processed all the emotions. I cried some more. I felt so alone. My parents are 90 minutes away and my brother three hours away. Before I would turn to my friend Erick when I needed emotional support and someone to just hear me and help talk me through what I was feeling. Unfortunately he developed a meth addiction and I had to let the friendship go two years ago. Prior to Erick I would turn to my ex boyfriend Kevin or ex boyfriend Don when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I feel like I don't have that now. I could talk to Matthew, but he's still on vacation in Paris and he insists that he just wants to be friends with benefits and nothing more. Whether he's unwilling to be in a relationship or is just unable it doesn't matter. I don't feel like I can look to him like I wish I could. The last we talked was Sunday or Monday. He's flying back tomorrow. We'll see what happens. Wednesday work went well and wiped me out. European cars that don't have lug nuts and instead have to have the tire bolted on (some Volvos, Audis, Porsches, Mercedes, and BMWs) are a complete nightmare! I'm trying to figure out how to get better at putting the tires on these cars but they're so hard and after trying for a minute my knees end up hurting then my back. I got some old kneepads from my dad that I started using specifically for when I work on these cars. I think they purposely make it too difficult for people to do themselves like when they have to put on a spare so they'll sign up for the roadside assist package or some service like that. I talked to my roommate Wednesday night and told him about the near-accident Tuesday. I didn't tell him about the feelings of being alone. I talked to another friend this morning via IM. I ended our chat by asking "How would 'looking for someone to hole me while I cry' look on a dating profile? " which got a laugh. Today was good. I hurt all over. I'm going to bed. Goodnight!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 57, 58, 59, and 60 My mom says it takes about three weeks for a body to get used to a really physical job. I sure hope so because this job really kicks my ass every day. It's like doing leg day for eight hours a day with an hour break somewhere in the middle. I have bruises everywhere. I have to use my foam roller every night and every morning to try to massage all the sore muscles. At the same time I've been sleeping so soundly lately. Time is flying by fast. I'm learning a lot of new skills. I'm not depressed at all I'm just tired and sore. I went to a meetup last Wednesday after work which was fun. For the most part though I just take it easy in the evening maybe get take-out for dinner. I work every Saturday and I'm off every Sunday plus one rotating weekday per week. I'm trying to plan my social activities for my days off. Tomorrow is mom's birthday I'm driving up to my parents' place to spend the day with them. I have Monday off too. Hard to believe I'm 2/3 of the way through the detox. Life feels good even though my body is so sore and tired. Time to crash! Goodnight all!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Day 56 The best part of my day now is when I come home from work and take a shower and wash off all the dirt and sweat. I feel like I've become my father who after work would usually come home from work exhausted, take care of a few things, ate dinner, and then watch TV. My roommate has been making a lot of fruit smoothies lately around the time I get home and offering me some which is nice. I ache all over from work. Every day I wonder if I'm crazy for pursuing this career path. I have a sore spot on my back that has been hurting a lot today. I always try to lift with my knees but this is just some long term wear and tear that is getting activated. I did a bunch of yoga this evening like cat/cow and doing planks to try to help my back. I also have been foam rolling my glutes, IT bands, lats, quads, and calves as it really helps with the muscle aches. I've taken ibuprofin as well. I got an email today that I didn't get the flight attendant position I interviewed for a couple weeks ago. I also got a rejection email last Thursday from dream job #1 that thanked me for applying. I turned off notifications from indeed, glassdoor, and Linkedin. It feels good to not need them anymore. Goodnight all!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 54 and 55 Sunday was fun it felt like a Saturday on this 3-day weekend. Met up with a friend for coffee, went to Costco, Trader Joe's, and Fred Meyer. Met up with another friend for happy hour. Friends started texting me to come over to their places. I was already buzzed so I took an Uber to my friends' house. We had some drinks there then went out to one of the clubs here in town which was fun. After a day of working I'll be too tired to host a board game night at my house I think. I'll have to switch the times with other friends who like to host. I'll also just want to relax and not do much so the temptation to play video games will pop up. I think after the detox I'll allow myself to play games only after a day at work as long as it doesn't interfere with other priorities like sleeping, writing, and eating right. So many evenings I ended up eating cereal for dinner which is really not ideal. I won't allow myself to play on my days off as I'll have too much else to do Today I'm just relaxing, doing laundry, and recovering from last night. Matthew is getting ready for a trip to Paris so he's trying to change his sleep schedule at the moment. We'll probably talk later today.
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Days 52 and 53 Friday was a long day. Work meeting at 7am worked until 6:15. Too tired to go to my friends' board game night last night. Ordered a pizza and relaxed and talked to Matthew. Saturday worked 8-5:15. Did freight today which required throwing, lifting, stacking, and shelving 156 tires. Worked in the shop in the afternoon. I'm getting the hang of some things. My body just aches and I'm so tired when I get home. Ate, talked on the phone with Matthew and now I'm headed to bed. I've got the next two days off to rest and get things done. Alright, goodnight!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Thanks Beartic I appreciate it! I still need to see Call Me By Your Name as well as Deadpool and Solo Today was day two on the job and it was hard. I haven't worked this hard since I helped a friend of mine move last November. That was also the last time I ached this much. I smashed my left thumb with a hammer and my back hurts. Using my foam roller on my hamstrings and upper back and taking some ibuprofin has helped. My strategy of getting in at the bottom of this company and working my way up is going to depend on how quickly I can learn to do this job well, not making mistakes, and taking care of my body. It's hard and scary and I feel like crying and asking "what have I done?" However, this is the hump I'll have to get over. It's been a long time since I faced one in a job. The most amazing part is I would have had a lot more difficulty doing this job 20 years ago than today. So that's progress. I'm beat. Matthew should be calling soon. I'm headed to bed and zzzzzzzzzz....... Goodnight everyone!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Day 50 First day at the new job! Everybody is really nice. I was on the computer most of the day with new hire training modules. I shadowed a guy after through the process of fixing a flat tire for a full size pickup. I'm so out of my element here! I know that once I struggle through the process a few times I'll be good though. So much to learn! My head hurts! I got a huge chili relleno burrito from Los Gorditos after getting home from work and showering. Talked to Matthew for a bit on the phone. I am beat and I'm going to sleep really well! Goodnight all!
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    My 90 day gaming abstinence detox journey journal

    Day 49 It was hard getting up this morning. I felt there were things I had to do but not anything to really look forward to. The Rethinking Job Search class was good. Came home talked to Matthew on the phone for a while this afternoon. I checked on the job website to see what the status of my background check was and the status said "hire in progress" I got a text a while later from Jenny the hiring manager asking if I could start work Wednesday I replied yes. She messaged back that she would call me tomorrow and give me more information Called my mom and told her and dad I got the job! Called Matthew and talked to him some more and then called my sister and told her. I texted my friends who had been most supportive. I'm just chilling now and watching Rogue One and goofing around on Facebook. My conversations with Matthew make me feel better. We joked about being BFFs. I get the feeling that he is being reserved because he wants to make sure I'm in this for the long haul. He has also been burned by a narcissist before and my early enthusiasm reminded him of the "love bombing" he'd received before from that person. It all makes sense to me. I just have to continue to be trustworthy, open, confident, and humble. I feel happy now. I won't have trouble getting out of bed tomorrow morning! Goodnight all!
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