Hey, almost a month has passed and I haven't even started. Nothing has changed. And I changed my attitude... again.   I'm quitting watching and reading various motivational stories, what I should do and how I should do it. I'm stopping listening to other people and starting to listen to myself. I used to be very nice, but it's a flaw that causes more harm than good. It's better to be nice only when necessary. I don't have any rules yet; there are just three states - better than yesterday, the same as yesterday, and worse than yesterday. The first sentence is positive, the second - if it follows a better day, it's good; if it follows a worse day, it's bad, and the third is the worst. If there's something to do, I do it; I try my best, but if it doesn't work out, I won't get down if I tried. It's better than doing nothing or doing something half-heartedly. And yea, tomorrow is the first day, nothing will stop me anymore.  

April 26 (Friday) Gratitude: ~ restful sleep, but decided at 4am not to use my 6am alarm to get up for a day out (my cold might still be able to transmit) ~ ^ said cold is getting better, I think ~ I got everything I'm 'working' on sort of arranged on my table + desk ~ remembered to come here after some cravings and job applications __________________ As I've noticed, feeling naturally high made me want to play and chat with people on the RPG, but I know that only lasts like 20-30 minutes to an hour if I'm lucky, before slaving away at it for some coveted pixels. The ratio of discomfort/agitation/obsession to real pleasure is like 9 to 1. Not quite worth it, hey? It was a real journey today, starting out combing the job sites in the morning-afternoon for a few hours; going from 'there's nowhere I really want to be' to 'I could do and enjoy that, with some learning and effort, tbh'.  I haven't gone visiting with a physical resume as I planned this week because of my cold, but I got some more leisurely reading in last night. I appreciated being allowed to do that and having the world outside plus the world inside is an incredible privilege. I'm trying not to waste it. Good luck this weekend all, ~ Matt  

Nice work man! I had given away my actual accounts when I started a new major medication in 2017, and was off of the games for 2 years, but that was because of natural adjustment to the meds. I might do a giveaway soon enough in the company of friends, because doing it alone might make me want to get it all back for 'fun'. Congrats again!

Entry 25.04 (Written on 26.04) Day 574: No Useless Videos Day 572: Sticking to Food schedule Day 176: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 166: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did right, no matter how small. -Prepared dinner for next day as have been planning for a few days already 🙂 -Woke up at 4 30 and did a workout in order to make it to pick up my replacement bike from the store where they agreed to store it -Quite concentrated at job -At least 6 Pomodoro 1 Thing I could do better -Having planned for shower in the morning too, s that I wouldn't have to do only 1 pomodoro if I wanted to make it on time for the gym job

Two ,ore hacatons won, one job offer lost and two competitions lost i am here again)