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Daniel

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  1. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 66
    At last I started going back to the gym. Little by little.
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  2. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 65
    Skipped my journal entry from yesterday. Today I spent some time looking to buy a new phone and a gaming account. However at the end I dismissed the idea. As I mentioned earlier the fact that deleted my own gaming accounts and that I'm looking to buy new ones makes it seem dumb.
    My heart hasn't been on the forum these past 4 days. Perhaps it's shame or guilt. Or just that feeling down phase after relapsing. But I'm feeling a bit more positive. "Doing things" seems to be the antidote for feeling depressed. When you are feeling down just aim to accomplish one task or chore that needs to get done. Keep adding tasks until you get out of the hole.
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  3. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 64
    Thanks everyone who commented during my relapse. I feel like I'm back at day 1. 
    After relapsing I find my gaming problem even more scarier.
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  4. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 63
    As I said in my last post I relapsed. Now it's time to get back on track, now I'm just wondering if I should go for 90 days or 150 instead.
    All I can say is that there were danger signs and I decided to ignore them. While I didn't played Vainglory per se I did bing on streams and played online chess. My diet went to hell and stopped hitting the gym. It's time to start again.
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  5. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 63
    Relapsed. More information tomorrow.
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  6. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 62
    A member sent me an emotive message with an awesome video, thanks.
    I need to put my web filters back on. Besides watching the streams I played online chess. There's this weird compulsive feeling about just gaming, eating crap and sleeping.
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  7. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 61
    Today I spent some more time looking for a new device for gaming. Then it hit me. I sold my accounts! And while I could simply buy a new account the fact that I deleted my old accounts discouraged me from getting another device. Urgh. Feeling horrible.
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  8. Daniel added a post in a topic Quest for the perfect life - My Journal   

    Welcome, apply the tools and get ready for this journey. Stay strong!
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  9. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 61
    That was rough. I'm feeling better and will do my best to get back on track. To stop daydreaming about video games heroes and become my own personal hero.
    I think I felt stressed. Probably just need a better outlet for it. In a way I seem to enjoy analyzing other people playing.
    This is what keeps me going the amount of time invested. It seems like I had been losing sight of the real goal.
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  10. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 60
    Has been bad weekend. I even missed to post my daily journal entry of the saturday.
    Today I binged on streams. Started with those prank videos and chess videos. Then thought well perhaps some videogames streams wont hurt. Finally I was about play videogames online. Two reasons stopped me. One was that I didn't want to relapse and break my badge system. Second I thought I'd be rusty so why bother.
    This is odd. Another way I manifest my addiction (when the cravings are strong) is with poor eating habits.
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  11. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 59
    I ordered some replacement parts for my fathers laptop and I ended up searching for a newer iphone where I could play videogames. I only bought the laptop parts but it amazes me how I still think about the game. It's like I had been on and off the pink cloud.
    I noticed a relation with the craving. The more the cravings I have, the less motivated and focused I feel. The less cravings, the more motivated and focused.
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  12. Daniel added a post in a topic Fagus' journal   

    That's a great approach @Fagus and @Reno! Will be applying it.
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  13. Daniel added a post in a topic [NSFW] Marquess' journal (Cute emo girls inside!)   

    Do you use a foot pedal for transcriptions? or how does it works?
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  14. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 58
    Yesterday had  a slow morning. All the usual, lack of focus and slight cravings. iI got better in the afternoon. Went to the gym and had a good night sleep which definitly is making feel great this morning. 
    Before going to sleep I thought about meditation or at least  a self analysis about me and videogames. I related videogames with a very happy stage in my life. Also when I was lonely videogames would be my refugee. It would be a social activity as well.
    Thanks! I will be reading and applying it.
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  15. Daniel added a post in a topic Daniel's 90 Detox   

    Day 57
    Lack of focus, didn't manage to get to the gym. I still imagine playing or creating tactics/strategies for the games.
     
    I'll do this at the evening then.
    Haha, good one, I will keep that in mind.
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