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Granitwelle

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  1. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #11 // Days without gaming Day 29// Monk-Mode Day 0                                             Friday, 24/03/2017
    Another productive day, presentation went surprisingly well and all assignments were completed. Furthermore, we also had a nice business dinner in the evening. I was way too formal and tense, however it was enjoyable, the food was great and the wine they served as well. I usually don't drink alcohol nowadays, however it's part of business anyway. I socialised a lot and eventually failed monk-mode (back to square 1). Caught a cold as well, no time to waste and tons of deadlines in the next two weeks. Challenge accepted I presume?
     
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  2. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Don't see this in a negative light. You still have plenty of time to improve and undo some of the havoc gaming wreaks. I'm a couple of years ahead, yeah, but things don't get better by themselves. I wasted a ton of time and opportunities and everything feels like damage minimisation rather than improvement tbh.
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  3. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Business Administration, quite tough degree indeed. Quite tough paired with the detox lol. Fairing quite well though. You're student as well, right?
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    Journal Day #10 // Days without gaming Day 27// Monk-Mode Day 2                                                Wednesday, 22/03/2017
    Short entry today, yet another productive day. My brain is craving for a dopamine fix but all I have is work and sport at the moment. My stamina is returning and I feel more alive every day. This weekend, I'll add crunches, sit-ups, jumping jacks and squats to the mix. Meditation really keeps me grounded and I realize that testosterone is coming back as well. Still felt some negative repercussions, it's getting tougher.
    Gratitude journal
    - Poets of the Fall; Metal
    - Schweppes Bitter Lemon (lemonade)
    Workout/run: walked 3 kilometers
    Meditation: entire cycle
    Daily affirmation: Only three more days. 30 day mark is in reach!
    Reading:  Nicolo Macchiavelli - Il Principe
    Weekly Goal(s): serious progress on thesis, less complaining,
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today: completed uni assignments
    What went well today: socialization, work
    What I could have done to make my day better: stop caring and over-analyzing everything.
    What I will do differently tomorrow: not much, work like a madman
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  4. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #9 // Days without gaming Day 26 // Monk-Mode Day 1                                                                                                             Tuesday, 21/03/2017
    What has been intended to be a significant contribution to a team task was met with criticism as it was to in-depth and detailed. One needs to consider these things nonetheless, however the time pressure of our schedule does not allow for such things. I hate learning things by heart and not having sufficient time to reflect on content. We are not robots, but critical human beings with an intellect of our own, the capacity to understand, derive principles and form both the environment and ourselves to our own will. Yet the Bachelor system forces one to minimize effort and to reproduce bullet points like a broken record. I am so looking forward to a proper job to be honest.
    Complaining will get me nowhere, time to man up and "get shit done" and avoid to "half-ass" betterment attempts, as an international study colleague from Kentucky would always put it. Well then, I start another period of monk mode then.
    Gratitude journal
    - parents
    - professors that challenge you but motivate and help you develop further
    Workout/run: 1 hour on the treadmill. As soon as I recover my stamina, I will start lifting again
    Meditation: entire cycle
    Daily affirmation: Rome was not built in a day. Baby steps were made and I am on the right track now. (JK: Have to walk for myself though, there is no fast-travel option in life)
    Reading:  Nicolo Macchiavelli - Il Principe
    Weekly Goal(s): serious progress on thesis, less complaining,
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today: worked a lot and tried to reduce the workload for a group assignment
    What went well today: productive day
    What I could have done to make my day better: I want to overcome the beta mindset and become the best version of myself that I can become, be less dependent on others, become a jack of all trades who is able to operate on his own but also a pure team player if necessary.
    What I will do differently tomorrow:  work, team work, prep work for assignments, hopefully time to revise concept for thesis
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  5. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    @Destoroyah Indeed, you got me I see the journey theme and the zen vibe are in a way inspiration for my journal as well as my current attempt to improve. Fits well with the RL meditation and occasional craving for literature/poetry lol.  It is a good series, there are some lackluster episodes but the majority is really good imho. It is also highly rated on MAL so I'm not  the only dude who claims that^^.
    @Schwing: Indeed, the 90s had some really nice shows. Trigun, Ghost in the Shell, Hellsing, Elfenlied etc.
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  6. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    As you seem to meditate, there might be an anime you could like: Mushishi as well as season 2: Mushishi Zoku Shou; Part 1 + Part 2
    It's hard to characterise this series - episodic travel narrative with a buddhist/zen touch to it. Amazing O.S.T. and great artwork. I quit my weeb life mostly due to the fanservice/"moe"-ificiation of many anime. There are, however, some anime I would still watch anytime -> Cowboy Bebop, Mushishi, Ghost in the Shell SAC 1/2, Darker than Black (even though the story still does not make much sense) as well as Black Lagoon (Season 1)
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  7. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #8 // Days without gaming: 23                                                                                                                 Saturday, 18/03/2017
    Time sure passes quickly. Just a mere week separates me from the first milestone of 30 days w/o gaming. Conversely, I never perceived my decision as wrong or longed for games. I did not even feel the urge to play. I presume that it was not an addiction in my case then, but rather a filler for the lack of other activities and options to spend my time. I make a lot of progress on several assignments we have received for the next fortnight, however I lack this time for prep work on my thesis (biggest assignment). This will be a stress spike I need to consider for the next couple of months. Still, I cannot convert myself to a pure workaholic as it seems. I need to find meaningful hobbies for the future, however work currently prevents me from doing so. I have been flirting with martial arts for a while, maybe I'll pick up archery (kyudo) or swordsmanship (kendo). One is never too old for these things after all.Gratitude journal
    - my family
    - more rain
    - a very particular type of char that tastes amazing if it is prepared with butter, spice and a slight dash of lemon. Add some potatoes and vegetables and you have a feast!
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - significant progress on assignments, set up collaboration platform for work group, had an amazing conversation with team members
    Workout/run: -nothing-   --> this is bugging me actually. No time for sport
    Meditation: -nothing- --> likewise, no time for meditation. Need to get back into the cycle
    Daily affirmation: Rome was not built in a day. Baby steps were made and I am on the right track now. (JK: Have to walk for myself though, there is no fast-travel option in life)
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive  --> doing well, one more day       check, comparatively less time wasted
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: another very productive day. so far, so good
    What I could have done to make my day better: make up for lack of meditation and sport
    What I will do differently tomorrow:  work, team work, prep work for assignments, hopefully time to revise concept for thesis
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  8. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    (just my POV) I see where you are coming from. Most people have their own problems and they tend to avoid negative people/thought. Capitalism to certain extent and social media (i.e. stroking the super-ego) cultivates egoism and renders people shallow, but who are we to judge? I've been through the same shit, cut people out of my life, going full lone wolf in an attempt to "make it right". Didn't work out, was perceived as a drama only. People are drawn to positivity, success and greatness, an introvert, gamer/weeb or metalhead does not really go well with this concept (that's how it was for me during school). You are working on yourself and you try to improve your position - this alone is a noble pursuit.
    I try to fix it by focusing on self-improvement and I try to care less about opinions of others - you can't change other people, but you can change yourself!
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  9. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Journal Day #7 // Days without gaming: 22         Friday, 17/03/2017
    University went well today, made a lot of progress but still face a high workload. I socialise a lot but I do not find time for sports, I'll make up for that now.
    It has been raining a lot lately as well. I like the mood actually, on the one hand, it makes me pensive and lost in thought. I get a craving to be creative, to write something or philosophize a bit. A nice mug of coffee, relaxing, somber piano music (/classical music/downtempo/ chillout) and a good book - this is the life If you talk a long, extended walk with your dog, immersed by nature with that fresh scent lingering in the air - sublime. The world is purified and peaceful, as one poet might put it (and especially true if you live in a city).
    I digress, however I wanted to reflect a bit upon this peculiar mood. I'll start working on my assignments now again, no dilly-dallying. I'm not playing games after all anymore, so I'd better quit that mindset. We all have dormant latent potential which must be polished, so I better get started ^^
    Gratitude journal
    - rain for turning me into a wannabe poet-philosopher
    - my dog
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - getting out of my comfort zone, socialising like a boss (no logical need for anxiety as it seems, it goes well if one tries)
    Workout/run: -nothing-
    Meditation: full cycle
    Daily affirmation: Keep calm and carry on! And yes, we have such a poster at our university.
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive  --> doing well, one more day
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: tough day, but very productive. Did not sleep away my time
    What I could have done to make my day better: Quit complaining and end social anxiety. Would be sweet if there was a quick fix for that
    What I will do differently tomorrow:  Not much, keep on working, travel back to my place of study and (hopefully) ace the upcoming presentations
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  10. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Thanks for the recommendations, Schwing! You might not like Faun as they are quite unusual (Medieval, Folklore, German vocals), however as I listen to Eluveitie, I deem Faun a rather good complement to Eluveitie's harder stuff.
    Journal Day #6 // Days without gaming: 21         Thursday, 16/03/2017
    Not much happened today. I start to feel some withdrawal effects, slept a lot in the past two days (no lectures). I finished many household chores, however I only digress from the more important things. Next two weeks will be tough. Finished my paper as well, not that it is much of an achievement though (only three pages). I'll start to revise for finals, better than sleeping or partying too much (just another form of escapism). On we go!
    Gratitude journal
    - my parents again, my crazy family
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - did some maintenance work in the household, removed limestone and cleaned the flat for a bit
    Workout/run: -nothing-
    Meditation: full cycle
    Daily affirmation: I managed to hit the third week w/o gaming! Nine more days and the first milestone is achieved!
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: Well I was semi-productive (improvement over yesterday)
    What I could have done to make my day better: My all time low so far. I seem to look for alternative things such as YouTube/craving for Anime now that I quit gaming. I should not waste more time.
    What I will do differently tomorrow: plan on visiting the library to find some inspiration pertaining to work
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  11. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Burnout   

    SMART targets might help as well. Keep your goals within possible reach. Destoroyah's triangle (or a variation thereof) is also frequently mentioned in management literature, I second this!
    S = strategic (it should be a goal that boosts you in any way)
    M = measureable (ability to quantify the goal, to weigh it)
    A = achieveable (possible within all levels of the group)
    R = realistic (can be achieved)
    T = time-bound (manageable within a feasible timeframe
    I manage 60 hrs/week. If you go for 80hrs, you need to slowly train resilience over years, work overtime and find something you truly have passion for. I call the 80hrs "overdrive" as I manage to do it for three weeks/month at max and then I need a "cooldown" period. The question is "is it really worth it?"
    Excessive work often comes with bad habits to make it bearable, i.e. overindulgence of any form - smoking, fatty food, heavy drinking, lack of exercise, you name it. I'm perfectionist in my endeavours, so I tend to put my all into them. I learned the hard way that one needs qualitative recreation (no screen/gaming), otherwise one works like a capacitor (max power - recharge - max power - recharge...). Constant output is better than spikes however, that's why I think it is quite important to take it easy and be more enduring if that makes sense. Marathon runner vs. sprinter. Unfortunately, we don't work like batteries. Don't push yourself too hard!

    (I'm not a doc, Taken from a psychology lecture) There is "eustress" (positive stress that motivates) and "distress" (negative stress that impairs, sickens). If you keep up crazy work weeks for prolonged periods, eustress turns to distress and it will often also have negative implications on the body (impact on heart or arteries, irregular sleeping patterns, psychosomatic issues etc.). The body is in fight or flight mode and anticipates danger, therefore produces fibrin. Moreover, it also tends to absorb high-density lipids (HDL), the "bad type of fat" such as cholesterol. This combination is like a time bomb if stress prevails.
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  12. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Thanks for the recommendation, I get a Cowboy Bebop vibe from this piece. The guy's got some talent.
     
    I listen to Katatonia, Killswitch Engage, Insomnium, Black Sun Aeon, Draconian, Eluveitie, Faun, Apocalyptica, Amon Amarth, In Flames, Moonspell, Turisas and sometimes mainstream stuff such as Metallica, BFMV or Trivium. Moreover, I also like Jazz/Jrock/ Traditional Shamisen/Koto music.
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    Day #5 // Days without gaming: 19         Tuesday, 14/03/2017
    This will be a short post, I've been working all day long. Lecture, assignments, coffee break with friends. Nothing exceptional, however I managed to waste less time in front of a PC. Things are improving slowly, but steadily.
    Gratitude journal
    - I am grateful for my parents' support and unconditional love
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - Contributed a lot in a lecture where I did not expect I'd be knowledgeable enough.
    Workout/run: Walked 3 kilometers
    Meditation: Japanese pine incense sticks as well as my singing bowl support my meditation routine. I started to work on my root chakra, need to be grounded after all.
    Daily affirmation: Well done so far, the 30 day milestone is getting into reach
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: socialised with friends
    What I could have done to make my day better: Negative thought still impairs my performance. I want to fix this
    What I will do differently tomorrow: work hard again
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  13. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Day #4 // Days without gaming: 18         Monday, 13/03/2017
    Appointment could have been better, I should have argued in a better way. Well, preparation is paramount
    Gratitude journal
    - Nujabes' instrumental pieces, Aimer's angelic voice and heavy metal
    - I'm grateful that I have finally found the guts to get my s*** together
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    -nothing in particular
    Workout
    -none
    Meditation
    full cycle chakra meditation
    Daily Affirmation
    The road gets tougher, but men define their worth via opposition. Keep calm and carry on!
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: socialised more, got my paper done
    What I could have done to make my day better: (never touch video games in the first place) prepare better in advance, be more confident
    What I will do differently tomorrow: another meeting, another chance
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  14. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    Weebs and metalheads everywhere he says lol. Indeed, I can cater to both camps I presume. What's your take on Killswitch Engage? Which genres do you prefer? With regard to Japanese singers, do you know Amezarashi? He has some good songs, although his videos might be a bit strange though sometimes
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  15. Granitwelle added a post in a topic What makes you happy?   

    - Jazz music, Traditional Japanese Music, Heavy Metal (crazy combo, I know)
    - be productive, get things done, achieve, develop further
    - spending time with my friends and family
    - proactive things: doing sport, lifting starts to make me happier as well, hiking
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  16. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Serious doubts about NoFap   

    I also think that masturbation is healthy and normal, provided it occurs with regard to real people as well as in a realistic setting. Excessive use of porn is detrimental as it is often violent, unrealistic and misogynistic and thusly warps expectations towards a real partner. I've also read about cases where people lost interest in real humans as they focused too much on 2D or 3D depictions. I'd argue that moderation and a focus on a real partner are vital.
    NoFap in itself is not a cure for underlying modes of behavior such as low self-esteem or anxiety. It increases aggression and testosterone, but still one needs to channel these in a right mode of behavior that is socially acceptable. I tried NoFap in connection with Monk-Mode, however I did not realize "transcendental" change in my life other than increased levels of aggression. I worked more intensely, sure, and I started to work-out more. It did not improve my social perception or success rate though. I'd say that one needs to improve in many areas (know-how, social skills, aesthetics, eloquence) in order to augment one's position. And that requires more effort than simply quitting masturbation.
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  17. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Day #3 // Days without gaming: 17         Sunday, 12/03/2017
    I have spent the majority of the day working on coursework as well as planning appointments for the next week. I have optimised my meditation cycle as I know more about chakra as well as their associated chant and hand sign now. I am not esoteric per se, however I find meditation to be quite relaxing and it puts me at ease, reducing stress levels. I also spent some time outside, recharging my batteries in the sun. Spring is around the corner and the gloom of winter will finally fade. Also time to lose my graveyard tan, I am still pale as a ghost
    Gratitude journal
    - I am grateful for my parents' support
    - I am also grateful for those friends who maintained contact and with who I start to socialize more again
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - I feel more energetic now that I do sports and meditation, things are improving
    Workout
    Half an hour on the treadmill
    Meditation
    Full cycle chakra meditation, pine incense and the newly acquired singing bowl
    Daily Affirmation
    17 days, well done. Less than two weeks until the first milestone is reached
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive  better, still wasted too much time
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: more energetic, still a lot of room for improvement, I arranged a gathering with two friends for a quick beer next week
    What I could have done to make my day better: waste less time on the internet, stop self-doubt
    What I will do differently tomorrow: get my eight pomodoros this time (8hrs work min), start of another work week as well as first important meeting tomorrow.
     
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  18. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Maslow's hierarchy of needs pyramid   

    Interesting approach, I know Maslow as well from a psychology class. I also felt that gaming interferes with the basic needs: it provides a sense of safety, a "cocoon" in a way. It is predicable, one does not get judged and gets a sense of achievement as well from trophies and the like. The social element is replaced by multiplayer and VoIP chats and prestige is conveyed in terms of skill, contribution to a guild et cetera. Virtual progress does not replace real progress though - this was my wake-up call.
    Henry David Thoreau also approaches the idea of basic needs of a human from a philosophical point-of-view in his novel Walden, in case anybody is interested.
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  19. Granitwelle added a post in a topic HAIKU for Gamequitters   

    What a marvelous idea, love this thread!
     
    Liberation
    Years going by relentlessly.
    The pale flickering of a screen.
    Rapid end. Freedom.
    - Granitwelle
     
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  20. Granitwelle added a topic in Daily Journals   

    Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement
    Prologue: Start of the Journey

    改善, the Japanese term for continuous self-improvement, is a noble philosophy and perfectly resembles what the path I have decided to walk henceforth. For the purpose of this journal, I understand the term as personal philosophy rather than as exotic management concept or production tool. We are all but wanderers on the road of life that has many winding ways and paths which we could take. Some are steep and cumbersome, some are short and invite us for a casual stroll, some lead uphill and others downhill. We can choose to stagnate and withdraw in false safety, the cocoon of media, the comfort zone and gaming. Or we muster up the courage to walk down the road of life, unknowing what will await us up ahead.
    The way itself is the goal, the journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. My journey has begun.
    CUMULATIVE PROGRESS:    Days of journalling: 2     Days without gaming: 16                     (Status 11/03/2017)
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  21. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Shine Magical's journal   

    Maybe you are pushing yourself too hard? Gaming might have been the stress vent and now that you quit, you seek a replacement?
    I had a similar experience actually as I found myself binge-watching series like Dangerous Grounds (a dude hunting elusive coffee blends all over the globe - how random is that?^^). Concerning work, I tried to become a workaholic over the course of three months, sipping coffee like a madman, working 12-14 hours a day during the week. Grades improved significantly, however I had a backlash phase where I could not motivate myself to do anything. Long story short, academic performance during the recharge was lousy.
    If there is a series or good anime you want to watch, maybe you can use this as a reward? If you finished your study session, you could watch one episode. In order to see the next one, you need to finish your next session. Take a break and revise a lot two days before the exam to refresh your memory and finally, reward yourself with several episodes after you wrote the exam. I read that the human brain is more productive if we have a reward within reach. Just a thought
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  22. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Day #2 // Days without gaming: 16         Saturday, 11/03/2017
    I was actually quite lazy today. Spent time with the family, watching news on the telly and chatting with an old acquaintance of ours. I'm glad she visited us again, she always makes me smile. She's such a light-hearted and warm person, it's actually contagious. My dog was lazy as usual, but her appetite is finally back to normal. She's eating more again, which is a good sign and puts my mind at ease (she's got arthrosis and sometimes does not eat at all). On a personal note,  I wasted too much time in front of the PC again. I will meditate more and go to bed early. I still feel tired and idle too much, I hope this will get better soon.
    Gratitude journal
    - I am grateful for my parents' support and unconditional love
    - an acquaintance who would visit us regularly, whom I hold dearly as I've known her since I was a kid
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today
    - I start to smile more again. Feels a bit odd actually after all this time.
    Workout/run: Worked out for half an hour, using my home trainer as well as doing some sit-ups and crunches. Boy, I'm in a terrible shape, time to fix this
    Meditation: Japanese pine incense sticks as well as my singing bowl support my meditation routine. I started to work on my root chakra, need to be grounded after all.
    Daily affirmation: It's starting to get tougher, but what did I expect. 16 day streak, you can do this!
    Reading:  Nathaniel Branden's book on self-esteem
    Weekly Goal(s): spend less time on the PC, be more proactive
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    What went well today: Further conversations with parents as well as a the aforementioned acquaintance. Feels good to socialise more again.
    What I could have done to make my day better: wasted too much time in front of the PC, did not work again. It might be a weekend, still I need to get things done. I'll do it tomorrow
    What I will do differently tomorrow: prepare for a meeting, work on my thesis, travel back to my place of study
     
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  23. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Because I want to and desperately need to move on. These activities were equally introverted and isolating as gaming was for me. I kept on buying things, building up a collection and had them sitting on my shelf, gathering dust. I did not find time to read or watch them. They are also linked to gaming and would only trigger a relapse (Ninja Storm, Tales of, anime style JRPGs). Moreover, I felt that they made me somewhat emotional, mindful and sensitive. This is not necessarily a bad thing, however I now find myself in a hypercompetitive, capitalistic environment with regard to my future job. I wasted away a significant chunk of my formative years with gaming, so I want to catch up and finally become a proactive man rather than staying an introverted, complaining and shy adolescent.
     
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  24. Granitwelle added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    Porn is detrimental and the internet is indeed a rabbit hole in this regard. A relative of mine suffers from heavy porn addiction and it has been quite tough for his family. It warps and twists one's brain, it is instantly available and basically removes any urge to go out there and find a real partner. Does NoFap actually work? Sex drive is one of the primal instincts and repetition/habit only makes it stronger.
    I tried monk mode once and it was one hell of a ride. On the other hand, it does increase testosterone levels and I felt more assertive in the long run. Still cannot fully abstain though.
    For productivity increase, I personally use the following tools at the moment
    KanbanFlowTodoistForest App (no smartphone distractions)If you want to try a different approach to your working approach, maybe you want to try the Pomodoro Technique - 25 mins of work/5 min break as reward, after four hours, you get 15 minutes of break time. Simple but effective!
    Hope it helps you to get more done!
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  25. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Hi mate, 
    Well I have become a bit of a nerd through gaming, reading more or less the entire British/American literature canon as well as watching too much documentaries/anime about Asia/Japan. You also seem to be a metalhead? What are your favorite genres? I used to listen to Trash, DM, Doom and Folk. Nowadays, I sometimes listen to KSE, Eluveitie, Trivium or Metallica if I need to vent (also nice for workout).
    Nerdfitness - I actually signed up, but I never really used it. Thanks for the reminder though, now that I do more sports, I might return to it. It's gamification on the other hand - not that this triggers a relapse later though - do you have more experience with it? Any drawbacks? I actually plan on picking up martial arts, so this would be a nice way of tracking progress.
     
     


     
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