Friday, 5th of December:
The temperature outside is pretty high today. I 'cut it fine' at 9am by walking up part of the road to the park, but then turned back to walk the block closer to home, so I wouldn't find myself stranded.
One of the first definitions of technology that I read in general science class was of technology, perhaps: it was 'machines are tools which ease human effort'. I think that sometimes we have forgotten the 'connection' we could have achieved for 'ease' (of access) to entertainment or information. That might be why noticing a harmless, dissenting opinion online may have worked upon many a person as a negative, emotional trigger.
For me, occasionally coming first is a physical cringe of pain, or solitary embarrassment when, you know, I perceive something to be worded in an incendiary way. All that here has almost become a dance - it is meant to attempt to explain my conflicting desires to post or commit to anything online, of late - here at my computer, or to a lesser extent, my phone (I can call and/or lie down while holding that).
On the latest-played version of my crutch-game, I have spent a lot of the time sitting here, staring at further solitary movements. I even turned off global messaging. It was sometimes even peaceful - I typed to whom I wanted to, almost undistracted.
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But recently, I've only really detoxed 'on the daily': a few hours - though rather unmoderated, followed by actually looking forward to calling time on play for the day, then resting and completing chores, telling myself to start a streak the next day. I came to type of what I've missed, which has been actually being able to distinguish a good day from a bad day, after seeing either one through to the best of my ability (sans-games).
I have been remembering racing to my desk and computer to post here, as though to competitive gameplay, so that I might get concentratedly-formed sentence practice. The two have gotten muddled on occasion, and I should at least remember whether I am trying to connect, or simply entertain and inform myself - maybe everybody else. That said, I like the sound of the work you've all been putting in. Perhaps it quite should be, as we plan a historically-fun time of year.
Best wishes, guys. ~ Matt
Gratitude:
~ Not having to stay anywhere long that is really being subjected to the heat today
~ Ice cubes
~ The human elements noticeable (or not, as I saw in a random text yesterday) in tech-communication
~ Sleep and slight head-cold recovery
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