Overslept today, but I still managed to study a couple of hours in preparation for my final exam. However, I am feeling very anxious. Over this year and a half, since I began working, that I realized that I regret starting to work before finishing my Master's. It is not a matter of available time to study, but a feeling of being overwhelmed while trying to balance studies, work and family duties. On that last point, when I began my second year in my degree, I asked my family to help me with some of the tasks that I currently have in my family, like driving my mother and grandmother around since they don't drive, however everyone in my family just ignored me, and continued to dump everything on my shoulders. It should be noted that I am not an healthy individual, since I have BPD and need medication to just function, Even if everything goes according to plan, I probably lost some of my lifespan with all the stress I have been enduring in this last year and a half, explaining why I want to immerse myself in the world of Skyrim or Morrowind
To conclude, I want to confess a feeling that I have about a friend: she is two years younger than me, yet she already finished her Masters, got a permanent contract in her org, has a stable relationship and already has her own home. Meanwhile I am still struggling to finish my Masters, won't get a permanent contract in my company while I won't finish my degree, never dated and I still live with my mother. I feel useless, incompetent, and weak
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FormerSKyrimEnjoyer ·