So as I predicted - but temporarily lost sight of - I spent one month warming down on a privately-hosted server copy of my long-term, habitual online game.
I completed all of its levels for a 3rd time, after 2023 and 2024. It was easier to play, but harder to appreciate life alongside. That is what I've come back here to help myself do, and list odd bits of gratitude which might be relatable.
I'm still getting accustomed to the new look of this forum (there should maybe be a picture of a book, or a waving hand for Introductions and Journals!), and haven't kept fully up-to-date on posts about gaming issues, but I've kept my thought processes attuned for the most part. For example, just as I completed the official game's levels, I couldn't stand to even try and celebrate a mere month's free time (compared to 2 years). The private server in question was also centralised around a home location, but frequently had players like me exploring 'dead' or obscure content to try and succeed, so there was some anxiety even there.
Basically though, whilst it could have been the recently-defined mistake of eating a ton of carbohydrates first thing for breakfast, I think had I spent yesterday morning reading/creating a novel, or learning of other people's personal experiences in-depth (which is what feels like my most natural task), I would have appreciated the unsuccessful trip outside enough to complete it. Today I was given a video tour of a relative's home, and I found myself envying everything from the history of the place, how comfortable they seem to have been with their travels, and healthy social urges, to simply express things with very good timing. That last is what I admire and value the most. I have been tiring of constant in-game comparisons and ego conflicts.
It's late morning on a Monday, and I mean to to try and keep up the cleanliness of my apartment, as well as read in an unbiased way.
Gratitude:
~ I eventually used an old motto reassurance to beat a last quest, which could/used to help with real-world situations: 'You know the drill!'
~ Dishwasher and microwave appliances
~ Daylight savings as a small and familiar challenge
~ A new and interesting cutlery storage unit
Thanks guys, and peace. ~ Matt
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