Entry 9.3 Day 53: No Useless Videos Day 885: Sticking to Food schedule Day 488: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 36: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -Absolutely nailing it once more which is in a very large part thanks o the fact that i wrote one goal which was accomplishable to a "mastermind" partner. nailed both the input and the output goals. [ also going 30 minutes over on last pomodoro to finish the goal i committed to -Morning jog -Wrote all delays throughout the day with minute amounts   1 Thing I could do better -Drink a bit of water after evening routine once more Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5  Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 54

bro fist   that is also amazing     As a rule of thumb, I use medication as a last resort. Probably would have to be dying, so I od not support that. Again "as a rule of thumb", because I have not a clue about anything regarding your situation [ I believe you're not dying though probably... Even though I might be wrong.... Am I? ] 

An update: I've made some progress - abstaining through staying still and silent, whilst trying to watch visualisations of me interacting with my previous game 'float by like leaves on a river of thoughts', or however that's meant to go. I started to become bored with in-game goals and haven't resumed any play on it in about a month. I've been reading and even typing some fiction during the day, but that's mostly to relax and indulge (my imagination) rather than to escape.  Oddly enough, about half of the time I've thought about treating life like a constant battle (against *insert 'waste' of time/energy here*) lately, I remember how 'back in the day', there was a group of people I knew who mostly liked to play our previous game 'honourably', and that I could count on a few people to playfully battle me.  That may have been a cop-out in a way, because while I stayed engaged and outside of my head with them, I didn't draw a whole lot of strength from within at that time. I may have thought and acted quickly as a general habit, but was slow on the uptake in important social skills. ~~~ I think I've improved a lot in quietly reasoning myself into positive action, but I'll probably need to try adjusting medication again this year - after finding a little more work.  Re @Ikar's last reply - if one were to ignore old/changing habits of doing whatever feels like a good idea at the time, I know my willpower functions fine if I know what actually is a great idea. I don't know if I can manage absolutely everything in my life yet without at least asking for some input from people in my life - who occasionally overstep into it perhaps only out of enthusiasm for their own ideas. I usually perceive enough people stamping out enthusiasm, possibly not even in the name of healthy independence. Before I lose track, I want to express some gratitude as a usual list: ~ Witnessing some important life events for members of my family ~ Being able to take some issues a little more seriously ~ A few decent visits to the beach in good weather (I've retried a pair of good sunglasses now) ~ Having the wherewithal to pull up from some unhelpful thought discussions To Sunday. 

Well done. Stay sharp, as a Man Thinketh so Is He. Being mindful of our thoughts is very important in my opinion

Entry 8.3 Day 52: No Useless Videos Day 884: Sticking to Food schedule Day 487: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 35: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -Absolutely nailing it with the schedule, followed it within 10 minutes delay apart from 1 minute during planning of tomorrow  -Once more afternoon workout -9 pomodoros and 3 SPIs   1 Thing I could do better -Exercise 4 in the workbook might be a bit too complicated and is bogging me down. I already wrote it so I think I'll follow through, but should probably stick to simpler exercises further along [ Just a thought - Maybe I should cut it right now and stop delaying?] Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5  Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 53