Entry 12.11 (Written on 13.11)
Weeks until average life expectancy: 2701 - 18,905 days (80th birthday)
Day 660: No Useless Videos
Day 1494: Sticking to Food Plan
Day 4(1528): Eating Only between 06:30 and 18:30 (Last bite before 18:30)
Day 0(68): Being in bed before 22:30
3 Things I did well, no matter how small
-8 BPEs
-At the very least 1 pomodoro
-Beginning the Wolt shift at 16 58. It's not 16 55 yet, but an improvement.
1 Thing I could do better
-Still make a weekly schedule...
Sleep documentation for the week
Nov 9-10 7 52 - 15 - 9 - 14 = 7h 14m
Nov 10-11 12 19 - 10 - 15 - 10 = 11h 34m
Nov 11-12 6 18 - 15 - 9 - 4 = 5h 50m
3 hrs 45 minutes in between main meals at least. Day 305
5 hrs in between main meals at least. Day 163
Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 115
Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 197
Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5
Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 682
Coughing at least once during the whole day
Yes 11 I assume yes
No 2
Notes: I've spent quite some time today reading about GTA VI news, watching the monitoring of samp servers(Online amounts) aswell as checking out the channels of YouTubers I used to watch of samp-rp (Tarko, Aaron Robson)(Just the thumbnails) On top of that I read regarding the games that have the biggest amount of users online. MMO RPGs aswell as Generally.
Why are the onlines of the servers so important to me before entering? I guess because the more players there are, the more influential I can get in relation to them, and the more people who respect me I can get in a general sense. On top of that in samp, when there is a low amount of players it reduces the "real world" feeling. Because in the real world there are a lot of people doing random stuff, while you do your own, but if there are only very few police representatives/gang members etc. it feels quite empty.
But why am I starting to check those out once more?
For one, I think it is because I do not devote myself completely to the BPE.
A part of the reason for this is probably
A. A lack of clear very short term goals (When I am drawn into games, it is because of the small goals pursued and quick, "clear" reward at the end of the phase. E.G. I go to steal some materials from the army base. There's "whether we'll succeed to still the uniform" then whether we'll get caught on the way there, whether we'll manage to get it out,, and whether we'll get it back to base. So there's always something to watch out for, and a clear reward once I manage to get the truck back to base.
Comparing to my current book reading: The only goal is a set amount of pages to read, and I do not accomplish it anyway.
The problem is I don't even know, whether when I finsh the book it will give any recognition. Probably not, I'll just need to get to the next book. This is why university exams are so captivating.
In the university (or almost any course taught by another person on that matter) you also assume that once you finish this you'll have a better "job" waiting for you, Which leads me to the thought that if I had some sort of mentor I could have felt more certainty regarding my direction.
B. Reduced personal contact: In the game you always are seen, a single line away from an interaction with other people.
IRL I just put a boatload of effort to make the apartment mates meet (Contacting all 11 of them, except the one that was abroad)
just to have our half our meeting of the 3 people who eventually did end up coming ended up with the majority of time being dominated by two others of them speaking and almost none of my subjects covered. Which would have been absolutely okay, if I knew that we can easily set another meeting. But the gist of their replies was: Naah perhaps once a month, we don't have time for those things to be set once a week. Which is also possibly due to the fact that I didn't at all discuss the subjects I was referring to discuss. They just spoke about cleaning, warm water, heating. Those are all important stuff, but I had more personal stuff coming up too that would have been a little bit more interactive, like when who goes to do groceries, and maybe we could set some sort of cooperation in this regard, and then set dates.
Bottom line, those are my most prospective "personal" contacts, but the process on establishing the relationships seems to stall.
Oh well, just gotta keep trying. Perhaps with just a few of them. I'm sure
C. Rejecting the sports event created a void. Both regarding personal relationship space(Interaction with my family in a true common, cooperative undertaking) aswell as losing a part of my identity. As I was recognized in front of myself and in the eyes of others thanks to some sports achievements.
D. Having a reduced physical load in the Wolt shifts: This is due to two causes: 1. Because I'm wearing quite some clothes against the rain and cold, which cause me to sweat extremely once I move faster. On the other side if I take them off, I get the wind blowing through my lungs, which then causes me to cough. Aswell as possibly get eczema, due to hands cracking because of the cold
2. Because I've experienced quite some extreme coughing after the shifts, which I assumed is a combination of the wind blowing through my chest and a lot of cold dry air breathed in and out, in combination with poor air hygiene in my apartment complex aswell as on the streets, I have started wearing a face mask to try and reduce the effects of the cold dry air(probably combined with the car exhaust gases), thus reducing the problem. It indeed work and the coughing significantly reduced because of those two measures.
The problem that is created out of this is that when I move faster, the mask gets wet because of the hot air I keep breathing in and out of it through my mouth, which then causes me to take it off, and get coughing again.
Because of all this I end up riding at a slower pace, because when I just breathe through the nose in a "non-sports" pace the mask doesn't need to be taken down, and even if it does, the dry air is not taken in in a significant enough amount to cause the extreme coughing I had earlier.
But because of this slow moving I feel numb, and a bit like a "lazy cheat" who skipped a sports event in order to give the looks that he's moving his body whereas he just barely moves at a pace equal to fast walking or very slow jogging usually. (Like someone's grandma I'd say)
Alright, after some documenting, let's move to the next step in today's schedule: writing an email to the R-Pur companmy which may then give me a mask which allows me to breathe sportily too and filters the air at the same time. The problems are only that I ned it to have a combination with glasses later from below 0 degrees celsius cold, and that I just hope my old mask is still capable, and that the new filter wont go to waste, as it costs a hefty 30 €
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