I’m a gaming addict there’s no way to stop this far without this website. Posting here is my only way to quit games. The downside is I pretty much always hated posting here. So I’ll try something different. I’ll only post about gaming addiction here. Nothing else. Last night I gamed till 1040pm. I slept like shit. I feel exhausted. I want to quit I keep trying but at night I get horrible cravings. I can not stop myself from gaming at night. Replacement behaviors barriers to entry are not working. i want to sell my ps5 controller. But I don’t know what to d0. I always end up buying another controller to play wasting money. It’s hard.   This site is the only thing that’s ever worked for me so, I’ll have to keep posting here. I can sell the controller though. Yeah. I have no idea what else I can do. Aside from refusing to play video games with friends or associates.    So I can get through the whole day without games till about six pm then I’m in trouble. My plan is to post here and only write about gaming addiction and read peoples journals when I get the thoughts to game    Please help me I’m open to hear any advice suggestions or encouragement tyvm

Day 13 it would be unfair to say without adding that this goes hand in hand with trying to please everyone, imitating others people’s point of view and fearing conflicts and disagreements a lot. The more nice and complicit I act out, the more hate and cynicism builds up within. There were times when I told people what I thought of them, and felt free, but it was far too little. A big part of my past is trying to fit in, being noticed for it and bullied.

Starting my first serious attempt to quit gaming. Happy to be here.

Entry 11.5 Day 116: No Useless Videos Day 948: Sticking to Food schedule Day 551: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 99: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -6 Concentrated work units -10 theory units -75% effort run with a bi weekly increase of 10 minutes for the third time 1 Thing I could do better -Finish eating dinner earlier to go to bed earlier Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 116

Entry 10.5 (Written on 10.05 and it didn't post for some reason, so I'm posting on 11.5) Day 115: No Useless Videos Day 947: Sticking to Food schedule Day 550: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 98: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -5 Concentrated work units -8 theory units -Chest and shoulders workout 1 Thing I could do better -In the conversation with apartment mate, insist a bit more on a structure for the conversation when he said "let's just do it like regular, and not fold straight away. Nonetheless make it more general, start with 15 minutes for his issues and 15 minutes for mine, he can talk about whatever he wants in his 15 minutes. That's already a start of a structure and may help maintain the 30 minute limit. Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 116