Doing slightly better, energy is very low. With my new financial plan, I shall put rent arrears in check and be back on schedule with payments in the next 6 months. I started eating a bit more than before, I think that I am seriously undernourished, but finding better food has been hard because I do not know what my needs are.

The 828 days without games are still there for me. They haven’t been wasted, they still have their continuing benefit.  

Entry 14-15.1 (Written on 15.1) Day 1: No Useless Videos (already 0 as I'm writing this) Day 831: Sticking to Food schedule Day 434: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 4: Being in bed before 23:15 ) guess it still counts, even though i woke up at 00:30 and went on to play 3 Things I did well no matter how small -75% effort run -Sticking to 10 minute deviation from schedule -holding the day without gaming even though i woke up at 00:30 and started playing 1 Thing I could do  better -Had GTA removed yet again from the last time i entered Gaming count since relapse Gaming (Slavery, Regret) - 5  Yan (Life, individuality, freedom, purpose, self fulfillment) - 2

Honestly, I think I've typed too much alongside sessions over the years to make much progress with myself that way. That said, I also think I outlined other significant problems here in the past that led to extensive hours played in my case - and maybe why I ever looked forward to them in the first place. All it has taken today to entice me here to go off and think were made up of glances. I actually came to check-in here after nearing the end of listening to a sincere video interview about poverty, in the hope of something similar taking place. Should I have dared? 😄 To take an overview, no, I don't think any of us should need to rack up experience points; pre-agreed points of discussion perhaps, yes. One excuse could be a sensitive or indeed soft need that I once worded and was to the effect of 'seeing ripples in a pond I recently touched' - that is what I understand most video games to be like. But is it not better to have practiced responses in the offline world - to 'click' and 'examine'? I don't for one moment think that I could get by again reacting as I once did as a child, pre-games. That is only me.  One friend of mine expresses reluctance to 'overshare' at all, which is something I admire. The friend who contributed the lion's share to my journey here told me (after my detox!) that I still wasn't coherent enough for him. That is one of my more major concerns. If you hadn't already seen, I am largely soft by nature, and warming up is a very necessary process. Through abstinence I did achieve, but not much personally in that sphere.  To conclude and re-state, 'should need' has yet to become 'does/do need'. Forum direct messages are always welcome, as I've typed what I would have typed to anyone, almost anywhere.  If it helps anyone, I would encourage not to immediately view posts through the lenses of either addicts or fierce abstainers. I admit, it's hard to see many updates as a whole myself too, generally. 

If i understand correctly, the gist of the first paragraph, is suggesting a ¨balance¨ between ¨rest¨ and work. I do not buy that gaming needs to fit in our rest time. It's effect is too addictive, it is very close to being a drug and indeed affects our brain by releasing dopamine. I have been doing that for years which means that i already have those habit hormone loops firing up really quickly. It's basically like telling a previous alcoholic to drink jut once a week. I think this "alcoholic" decides to give up all control at the moment he takes his first drink. To clean myself of its effects and reduce the need for willpower to fight gaming, there's one solution I'm aware of, and that is to not touch it completely fo a certain period which makes my identity as a "non-gamer" stronger, and makes me find substitutions for the hormone rushes it provides, and not even think of it, because that's not something i do on a day to day basis. Regarding the other paragraphs As you say you haven't binged over 16 hours. I have. Already two days out of the 4 i gamed, and in my previous relapse it was often happening too, with frequent 20 hours of gaming and 4 of sleep. I do agree, there might be some haabit change needed, since i most definitely was lacking something if i started playing, although I'm not yet sure which , but i have some things in mind which I'm already trying out and we see how it works out I think you should re-consider the "balancing thoughts yourself too, and i think its your "soft brain" talking excuses. Don't give it any place and take the path of self fulfillment and life, and not regret and avoiding the challenges of growth by tricking your brain's hormones. Thank you very much for jumping n and giving your thoughts in any case. Appreciate it. Let me know what you think