Entry 7.3 Day 51: No Useless Videos Day 883: Sticking to Food schedule Day 486: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 34: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -Workout in the afternoon to reduce 2 cold showers to one and test effect on eczema, of course one day is not enough but this is the first day and that is good 🙂 -Planned to finish workout 30 minutes early to have a space for delays, which i indeed used up -4 pomodoros and 3 SPIs   1 Thing I could do better -Write the delay times in the schedule itself to make it simpler to make the evening detailed Pomodoro report Gaming count since relapse  Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5  Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 52

Day 59: did a few miles on the treadmill yesterday! just walking during zoom meetings, or later that night I walked and watched a show on my iPad. felt so much better once I was done.

27 Feb - 6 Mar: I had a few good meetings the last few days. I met with friends in a pub, played board games with others and went to a meeting with my financial friend group 🙂  I went to the mountains with my girlfriend and had some family meetings as well. Went to an event/discussion with her and also for a run with my friend. Apart from lessons with my students, I worked on the new online table and did some reading.

Entry 6.3 Day 50: No Useless Videos Day 882: Sticking to Food schedule Day 485: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 33: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well no matter how small  -wake up at 4 am -36-40 hour-ish fast -Visiting the doctor finally - weight 53 kg, blood tests "perfect" according to him   1 Thing I could do better -having planned for the accelerator video meeting in the schedule. If i didn't include it in the daily schedule - Not do it. Gaming count since relapse  Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5  Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 51 (Up 2 because on day 46 i didn't up 1)

I risk having panic attacks every time I interact with my sister.  My panic attacks make me overthink terrible things, and I consider harming myself or others.  With that in mind, I feel the best solution is to create a secure environment for myself.  Prioritize being alone when she is home.  Mentally prepare myself before she speaks to me. Focus on my own goals instead of satisfying hers.  I might need to use a no-contact strategy because of how extreme our relationship has gotten.