If you are still watching YouTube, perhaps the easiest pivot is to allow yourself to watch YouTube videos that encourage you to stop watching YouTube. Watch relevant videos from Cam and Dr. K (HealthyGamer). They will bring you what you are seeking. And tap into what you seeking, deep inside you, inside your body, what you truly want and know -- happiness for yourself. A life you can really have that involves no suffering with YouTube. Find that within yourself, seriously, even if it's just a glimmer, and pull from it. Pull all you can, all your effort, to connect that energy of you wanting to stop watching YouTube, of you wanting a life you really enjoy, and see where that takes you next. That is your motivation and you giving yourself life. Andrew

Hey all -- Starting a journal here today. Updating it when it feels right to do so. Well, I'm about 2 weeks free from all my addictive behaviors -- porn, games, sugar. I committed to a dopamine detox for 2 months, allowing myself to recommit when that 2 months is up. I've been happy with everything that has changed. Wow. Naturalness is coming back day by day. I'm finding my groove. But boy, life events. Stressors. They still come around of course. When I've found my groove, sometimes, shit hits the fan. But. I'm stronger, I can manage it better, especially thanks to the power of my commitment and healing here. Now I can make smarter decisions even when I'm stressed. Today I am going to focus on destressing myself so that I'm not expending energy in the background being stressed, and continuing on with my groove. Sometimes it's hard not to worry about how things are, especially with the state of the world sometimes. But I am drawing on my faith, my skills, my strengths, to go another day, one day at a time, living into happiness, and my dream life -- my dream life that's here right now, and my dream life that I'm building too. Andrew

Hey Matt / wheatbiscuit, Good week to you! I'll share that I'm observing a few words you've used, like spiteful, enmity, 'the next challenge', even feeling it might be the end of you when you and other person walked near each other at the gym. It sounds to me like there is something inside of you that needs to be seen and released. Because thankfully, you did not get destroyed by this person. I sense your worries about others. That's awful to carry that type of pain! By something inside of you that needs to be seen and released -- I mean a negative emotion or some type of tension that is inspiring you to see threat in the world, when thankfully there is not so much threat, as evidenced by your example. I don't know you or your situation fully -- my apologies if it truly is threatening where you live and that's a known fact about your neighborhood -- but I can just imagine it would be very challenging to break away from gaming and adopt a positive life outside of gaming if the real world is just a huge big threat! Especially if the people are like, carrying spite and enmity and things like that.  I speak from experience -- as you connect with whatever is inside you that spurs your perception this way, you yourself become more at ease, more at peace, and the world just blossoms into something so great you don't want to game anymore. You're motivated by what life is, what you're finding it can be. I haven't read all of your posts, but I'm sure you've sensed this, especially to be here in this forum. And then yeah -- people also treat you differently too when you're not on guard, when you're happier and at peace, people do become happier also, as they share in your joy and the joy you wish for them; they share in the freedom from hate, threat, stress, you wish for them because you yourself know, as a human being, that it is awesome to enjoy your life with safety. They join you in that. And so I extend that to you, friend. Andrew

Hi Marlouk! Welcome. I'm rooting for you and your goals.

Food Schedule Update 8.5-21.5 (Including 21.5) Everything remains the same except for:  1. 50g of chard on non fasting days - because of the antioxidants and because a nutritionist suggested it to me 2. interchange the food plan completely in between monday and tuesday, because i often have more tasks on tuesday and i end up stuffing all the foods together. start with doing it only in the second week, and if it works, expand it for both weeks in the next iteration 3. I may eat an extra orange at the next running day on sunday - just because i forgot to eat it on the previous iteration because of the change in between days Last weight measurement 53.85kg on 2.5 How the week that is changed will look Sunday - run Monday - run + half Tuesday - non run Wednesday - fast Thursday - non run Friday - run + half Saturday - non run