Sunday 1st Day 13: No Gaming Day 0: Meditate 10 minutes 3 Things I Did Well, No Matter How Small Got an x-ray for my fractured foot Ate healthy foods only, no chips nor soda Did 1 concentrated work unit 1 Thing I Could Do Better Try to work at night even if I feel like culturally, everyone is taking a break at that time. Since I don't do much in the mornings or afternoons anyway. Plus I am a night owl so I naturally focus better at night I think. Just a thought.

Remember, you are not alone. I have played many games disguised as "visual novels." I would say maybe weigh the pros and cons of organised study as a small recommendation from me.

Well done. I can appreciate the effort it takes to write in your journal everyday on here. I also liked the bold formatting, makes it easier for you to read in the future. And the red color for gaming and green color for yan. I wish Cam would make it so copy pasting also translates the formatting such as boldness of text and text colors. I have to redo it everytime :')

Entry 31.5 (Postyed on 1.6, written on 31.5) Day 136: No Useless Videos Day 968: Sticking to Food schedule Day 571: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 119: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  -4 Concentrated work units -Food and concentrated units separately -30 min reading book of practices 1 Thing I could do better -Next week possibly include double the quinoa instead of lentils to make it more time efficient (but run it through cronometer first if its okay like this and then reversing it), possibly also replace edamame (so 3 times the quinoa or so do a 3 part roatation Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 137

Happy Sunday all, though so many Sundays have been difficult for me. I've been on my 'solo' profile (on an online multiplayer game) this week. It was probably right for me to be told, that, if abstaining from games, 'the high' would be/is over. That high/the high, whichever. It just sucks that so many of my triumphs have felt realest when they have been of little consequence. Yes, I have definitely suffered from that knowledge, but it hasn't stopped me chasing those things, when either boredom or lack of triumphant emotion results in a mental 'stand-still'. I haven't wanted to simply snap to attention and march right off to an aggressive gym session, as I used to do from back in the family home.  I used to think I was super-independent for not complaining much. People might just not have liked that word, and its associations, so I soaked that attitude up and consolidated on it. However, standing up for the needs of individuals and other groups still seems to be virtuous or brave. Certainly, I have wanted to be considered equal to people in my life, not just a side-show in someone else's. It could be that some of my treatment of others has left a similar feeling behind too. I shall continue to try and remember and operate like that. Those few things alone leave me enough to deal with IMO, and it's tough but I may have to confess that I'm not ready for new mountains of knowledge from organised study. Our public/official achievements may be fit for comparison, but I appreciate that the experiences behind them can hold just as much weight. Hoping y'all enjoy the weekend as you best can, ~ Matt