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Went back, not sure how to feel


Talby
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Well, I went back.  After surviving 6 months of lockdown without gaming, I rewarded myself for all the ongoing stress of trying to get the last stages of a wedding sorted and also going out and doing an epic run as part of a recce for a fell race.  I spent the afternoon on my own gaming, feeling pretty good about myself.  Since that day I've allowed it back it and said I'd control it, but I can feel the need to now install GOG and Steam and have started looking around for other games to play despite not even being anywhere near finished the one I started.

To be honest, I found the whole idea of having an addiction hard, I still do.  My counsellor said I needed to be careful self-diagnosing and making what might just be behavioural issues pathological and suggested some alternative ways forward so I'll try those.

Feels good to write about it, but I'm not sure where to go from here because on one hand I feel free allowing myself to do it, but I really need to put plans in place to control it.

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  • 1 year later...

Totally didn't control it.  Didn't have a plan.  Just went back to using it as a way to hide from stress.  The stress of a new job, the stress of dealing with isolation over winter, the stress of feeling like a failure a lot, the stress I was having from going to counselling and talking about some more of my issues.  I've decided to come back and ease my way back into the community, try to be a bit more compassionate with myself and others.  I looked back over a few of my old posts and noticed how angry I was at myself, which started to project onto lots of other things in life.

It's been a rough year, for everybody I suspect.  

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I recently relapsed as well after one year of non gaming.

Its really hard. I dont know about what to call this, but the fact is true that for some of us when you are playing games, that is all we can think of for the whole day!

Playing game would be the only thing i look forward too the whole day and would ruin my exercise 

If that is not an addiction I dont know what is

Stay strong good luck!

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