Ive decided to take the plunge and make a major change. I guess lying to my boss twice in one week to avoid work so I could sit at home eat shitty and play a game i'm already max level in was the kicker. Literally an entire 2 days (each 12-14 hrs) of gaming and not a single drop of remorse until I actually looked objectively at what in the fuck I had just done. I've been handed an amazing job opportunity that would get me out of my dead end department store job; but it doesn't seem to register that I could lose the opportunity. I just wanted to game. If i wasn't off gaming, id be at work watching the clock waiting for the moment I could shed all my stresses and expectations and game all night. All the while ignoring my girlfriend, she has had to find something to do for the same time i game (painting) just so she can feel some semblance of connection while i'm totally checked out, headphones on, in a completely different world while my own goes to shit.

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