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Hey guys! The link to my introduction.

I'll start off by using one of the provided templates (posting it below so I don't have to search up later).
 

DAY # -

Time I woke up:

Time I went to sleep yesterday: 

 

Physical task: Walk the dog

Mental task: Meditate

Projects: Dari

 

Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

 

Summary of Day #:

 

 

What I am grateful for today:

Over and out! 

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DAY # - 0

Time I woke up: 9:30

Time I went to sleep yesterday: 2:30

 

Physical task: —

Mental task: —

Projects: —

 

Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ I’ve started this journal

~ I’ve found a great channel on ENFPs and have learned a great deal about myself

~ I’ve gone to a friends’ gathering and had a great time there

~ I’ve walked the dog twice for at least 30 min

~ I’ve washed all the dishes before going to bed

 

Summary of Day #:

The day was great for me. It started with me being addicted and ended with me feeling connected. It is in my nature to be excited about a start of any project. I also found a great resource that will definitely help me understand myself better, and that has inspired me a lot. Also, A. and K. told us they are going have a child, and that’s just amazing. Just what is needed during these trying times.

 

What I am grateful for today:

~ I am grateful for people who run Game Quitters.

~ I am grateful for my wife.

~ I am grateful for my dog (and for the fact that she is finally having her period again).

~ I am grateful for having access to foreign education.

Over and out! 

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DAY # - 1

Time I woke up: 12:00

Time I went to sleep yesterday: 04:30

 

Physical task: Yoga 7 min

Mental task: Meditation 10 min

Projects: —

 

Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ I’ve taken care of myself before I’ve started doing anything else during the day

~ I’ve let my interest run wild allowing it to listen to a podcast, listen to some music, look through a book on Budapest, read a chapter from a book on sayings, etc.

~ I’ve spent a good evening with my friends and my wife

 

Summary of Day #:

I’ve had a great day emotionally. I am a bit upset I couldn’t do work today. Sometimes I wish I just had more time. Social connections are important, but so is work. And sometimes I am much more keen to spend time with friends than to do work.

 

What I am grateful for today:

~ I am grateful for my wife.

~ I am grateful for my friend V. and his mom G.

~ I am grateful for my theatre.

~ I am grateful to my mom for giving me life.

Over and out! 

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DAY # - 2

Time I woke up: 8:00

Time I went to sleep yesterday: 1:30

 

Physical task: Yoga 7 min

Mental task: Meditation 10 min

Projects: Theatre, Dating

 

Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ I've woke up a good chunk of time before I had to start my working day and thus I've spent a good deal of time with myself in the morning

~ I've performed in one of my favourite shows at theatre

~ I've had a great date with wife

~ I've enjoyed nature while staying in town

~ I've read a few chapter of Harry Potter

 

Summary of Day #:

It was a great day, really. One of the best for a while. I've been listening to a lot of new information lately, I've let myself explore my ENFP side of desiring to learn new things all at once. I've communicated with people a lot, I've spent very little time in front of screens. The weather was great, I'm starting to feel the summer coming on.

 

What I am grateful for today:

~ I am grateful for my wife.

~ I am grateful for living in modern city with access to nature.

~ I am grateful for the opportunity to perform on stage as an actor.

~ I am grateful for learning more and more about myself daily.

Over and out! 

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DAY # - 4

Time I woke up: 9:30

Time I went to sleep yesterday: 4:30

 

Physical task: --

Mental task: --

Projects: Work, Repairs

 

Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ I've spent at least 5 to 6 hours working productavely.

~ I've finally fixed the water problem in the kitchen.

~ I've walked for at least 30 min twice.

~ I've talked to my dad for at least 30 min.

~ I've responded to a friend of mine who have been long waiting.

 

Summary of Day #:

This was a very intense day. I've worked a lot, I've listen to a lot of new material. I think there was an hour or so which I've lost to watching porn. Fortunately, my wife came home and it was easy to stop without relapsing. I know this is not a No-Fap journal, but I think this is the only thing that really got me down yesterday. Other than that it was a great day. Also, I've just realised that it's only Day 4 but it feels like a whole week already...

 

What I am grateful for today:

~ I am grateful for having a good repair-man.

~ I am grateful for my wife.

~ I am grateful that dad is alive.

~ I am grateful that there are new prospects for me.

Over and out! 

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DAY # - 5

Time I woke up: 9:00

Time I went to sleep yesterday: 1:30

 

Physical task: 7 min of yoga

Mental task: 10 min of shavasana

Projects: Work, Home

 

Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ I've finished first draft of the contract at work.

~ I've reached out to two people who I need to reach out to despite anxiety.

~ I've read a book a little as a means to get down to work.

 

Summary of Day #:

This is pretty late into the night. I feel the urges coming on. That's because I have a big project ahead of me and when I have a big project ahead of me (especially with tight deadlines) I always tend to look for ways to avoid doing it (thus making it all even worse). And so I enter this cursed cycle of procrastinating and then wanting to procrastinate even more, because things don't get better on their own - obviously. So I've spent a good deal of time today watching porn and eventually relapsed. I know this is not the point for the journal, but it does matter, because watching porn when I'm quitting gaming is always a precursor to a) start watching gaming videos again, which is in itself a precursor to playing them. Also, a dangerous thing are web-based flash games which can lead to me playing again. A thought has just occurred in my head, that I could potentially open up my other laptop and lunch a gamer I like... but that would be counter-productive to the big goal I am working towards. I don't feel like I have the power to stay through the night, honestly. I want to sleep REALLY hard. So, this is what I'll do: at first I will go and procrastinate productively - i.e. do something I like doing instead of work. If I succeed in this I will then seamlessly transition to work. If it still doesn't help, then I'll go to sleep. Since I need to focus, I think that reading will be a great thing to do right now.

 

What I am grateful for today:

~ I am grateful for my wife.

~ I am grateful for people who can think and who still live in this country. 

~ I am grateful for all the hardships that come my way.

~ I am grateful for my natural tendency to sleep to rest.

Over and out! 

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DAY # - 10

Time I woke up: 6:30

Time I went to sleep yesterday: 1:30

 

Physical task: --

Mental task: --

Projects: K

 

Miscellaneous accomplishments: 

~ We've signed an important document during negotiations.

~ I've sent a work e-mail I was putting of yesterday.

~ I've dressed well.

 

Summary of Day #:

Past two days I've been in a business trip. Today is the end of the second one and tomorrow I'm leaving to come back home. Being on a business trip really gave me strong urges for some kind of sexual adventure - bare with me here, this is at first gonna be related to sexual desire, but then I'll talk about why it's important in terms of gaming - so, these sexual desires have been connected with (in the following order): 1) having sex with a hooker; 2) watching porn as if fantasising about cheating. Since my ass is too lazy to do something and I don't have time to search for an actual hooker, and also I'm a married man (God!) - oh, well, fuck it. These thought make feel even more ashamed, because this is sinful (even though I am not religious it is strongly embedded in me that cheating is wrong yet so desirable). Well, anyway, long story short I've relapsed a lot during these two days on NoFap, but today I've decided this needs to stop and now I am once again taking what's left of me internally and doing my best to fight the new drug... SO, as I said, this is where gaming comes in. You see, for some reason after a hard day of work here I feel really stressed out. And I want to get that hit of dopamine that my brain is used to. And, being an addict, the hit must be pretty strong to take effect. That's why... oh, well, I suppose I just don't try anything else at all. I have a book with me but I haven't once opened and read it. The weather is great outside but I stay in the hotel room all the free time I have (opting out of working outside when I can). Why? Who the fuck knows. I'd say, because I don't take responsibility for myself in these matter. For some reason I do not take care after myself. There must be some kind of deep feeling regaridng that but I am certain I am running away from it like hell. And the feeling is something along the line of "am I selling my soul for the corporate career because I just can't find any better way to earn decent money on what I'd love doing for a living"? Jesus, even that question makes me anxious, but that's only the tip of the iceberg, I know for sure. ANYWAY, there's a high change I'm going to game very soon, because the urge is really fucking strong after quitting porn. I need that dopamine hit, and I'm not sure I am going to make it through, to be honest with you. I am really urged right now, but I still could meditate and go to sleep.

 

What I am grateful for today:

~ I am grateful for the money I make.

~ I am grateful for people who provide service in this country.

~ I am grateful for my colleagues.

~ I am grateful for being able to go abroad.

Over and out! 

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