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Hello I m feeling very miserable right now It is.the first time that I didn't fix that misery by pmo or gaming. I feel that there is a big stone in my throat and there is a lot of negative self talk here. It all started with me wanting to learn and I went in my room to use my mums phone to time time for certain sessions one thing let to another and I was binge watching yt videos.I felt miserable a out that. those carried over to several things in my things that I have done afterwards. I ended up running away from learning for.the exam because I know that the exam won't be going great anyway. I admit and wrote down that I have made a mistake and then I continued until 10pm. Tomorrow I'll be having an exam as well as on thursday. I ended up crying. For one that I haven't felt that miserable before and for second that I getting my emotions. Though I did well on the lab day I felt miserable and I don't know whether that's a thing that you get positive feedback but in the evening you feel like shit( sorry for that word)

Hello Today I am feeling well I did some school work and a to do list and for the first time I got everything done! I feel more relaxed with people and I am more talkative. As I got home I didn't feel the urge to check up my phone due to me having deleted my account. My mindset is that I am in for a bigger treat as I continue my journey through the unknown. For sure I still face gaming nostalgia especially in the current week after I decided to quit for good. I am writing this post exactly at the same place where I was gaming one week before. I suggest everyone to check out "The slight edge" It helped me to learn to leap from the right philosophy to the right actions. Gratitude 1. the awesome time at a cafe with my mum because I won her as one of my accountability partner. 2. having classes with the most important german teacher which has shown me that german is not about grading and pressure but about interesting history stories 3. The fact that I am having no changed regarding my eyes ( I had them checked today.) To change Eating less junk food

Good morning Today I had a good night of sleep and as I woke up I wanted to game. I got up and had a breakfast Right know I am procrastinating to learn more about chemistry. It is scary that I cannot be the unproductive guy anymore that there is the high expectation to live an epic life I am scared to make changes like to manage time more productively. It seems like I do productive things but they are not in my control like the work I am doing has no references o myself. All in all I love to be comfortable no matter of its effects because the fear of changing is stronger than the negative effects of gaming That is pretty weird. I feel like the void I have now with no games needs to be filled up with negative self talk and all that other crap. I don' t know how to fill that void. all things that made me happy temporarily are gone so I ate junk food like crap yesterday I watched Yt Videos.. Why do the changes need to be that big?? My goals are getting good grades joy in life wing productive in the toughest situation all of the time Low stress levels Gratitude list Warm bed family My decision to quit games

Hello I have quit gaming because it is negativelyaffect my health.J gave back acne and my posture Sucks I have very high blood sugar due to me neglecting my health. I face Huge amounts of stress due to procrastination I live at a higher risk of being obese There is a higher risk getting a stress induced illness Yesterday I was hitting the shower noticing that my stomach was hurting slightly due to me being forward for a long period of time. That was the moment when it was time to really affecting myself I have quitted gaming Today on day 1 I did some school and now I am extremely tired I had a very tasty meal before I am having gaming nostalgia for a little bit it really seems to me that I have no motivation for school but for gaming thr motivation is always there. so now I feel that there is too less motivation and too much time. I feel nothing right know is that the point of living? Feel like a zombie I don' even know how to be happy without eating junk food and watching porn and binge gaming Most of the time I spend was in the virtual world. How is it possible to feel good without arteficial short term rewards? It is all so overwhelmng and watching self improvement videos won' do the trick I played clicker heroes for several weeks and that gave me the constant measurable growth but the need itself isn't there anymore since I quit yesterday I understand that gaming is the all in one activity but this information doesn' help me. I know what to expect when I quit gaming but all the information are theories and All what I need is something practical that I csn actually apply.

Hello I have a little issue about gaming I wanna quit gaming for good but there is an game update coming out in a few days I fact the release date is one day before my birthday.... I don'tknow what to do. I love my birthday which means a lot but since gaming took over it seems like it a day like any other which screwed me up already. TODAY I have reached my lowest point during my vocational college.I have just slept 3 hours and tomorrow there will be any exam. I don' wanna game anymore I watched Scrooge from Christmas Carol which describes how to rise from a rock bottom and it was awesome. I realized that my ultimate bottom is being kicked outof school.. I have read the slight edge and got to the point about the Rollercoaster between failure and survive!

Hello I m here again after some troublesome weeks of relapsing. I feel like this is the best place to stay accountable for myself I got into laptop gaming a couple days ago and it screwed me up I delete my save file and I was watching Cam's video There will always be another game, which remembered me to move on from gaming even if the latest update of my favorite game comes out. I don't wanna procrastinate on my decision to move on from gaming Anyways today I got the slight edge after 2 weeks of waiting time !!! I love this book It is motivating me a lot. I am on my day 1 I feel no emotions at all Gratitude My brother My parents What I can do better No gaming news!!

Oh wow H pylori! I am learning somthing about that in school Do you take the triple therapy?

Things to improve My health really My food it makes me tired. Going outside even when it is tough. Saying no to porn phone downstairs(let to distraction and pmo another aspect I like is setting reminder of nogames Passed one week today reset counter of pmo but hey another week of learning

Hello I m tired I dreamed that I have been gaming(the usual) The unusual it was very real!! And I unfortunately didn't do any of my favorite things yet. I notice that I almost do everything that has nothing to do with my self development I haven't put any time in it thinking I do that when I have time. The moment wil not come I am still bleeding from my 2 weeks of gaming that I ll see in the one exam for tomorrow. Self development is slacking I feel like I am very hard to myself Do you have an advice hoe to transmute that self negativity? I watched some videos about time management and all that. It helped me But I need to have discipline and willpower I guess that those are developed by time. Gratitude Warm bed What is going well focus on the bigger thing like liking forward to breaks during a tough working period (that I face now).

@Hitaru thank you for this comment What do you mean with theorise? The self knowledge is critical I experienced a decent strong urge right now and as I was prepping for the test on Wednesday I said Oh well I have an urge right now I am not gonna give it the power But later on I ignored that urge and yeah I was in my writing Other than that I am feeling Okay I have little interest in gaming but the flash backs of me gaming just a couple of days are still here and there. Still the gaming news are always available even if I don' have an account. By the way I ordered the slight edge last Tuesday Gratitude Warm bed tired got a big chunk of my presentation done. What I ll do differently tomorrow Time management Meditation Start workout or guitar

Hello @Regular Robert thank you for your comment and What do you mean having wings? Do you mean that everything will go easier? So I've watched a video about NoPmo that setting reminder when a week or months is up , is better than couting days Is there a truth about that? I still am working on to get my presentation done. I didn't go outside yesterday and it really screwed me up. today I did go outside to calm down. U experience gaming nostalgia and I am feeling no strive at all. To be honest I am afraid of living my life to the fullest. It seems like a intimidating mountain and it sounds like when you quit you ll hop on that mountain with ease. It is like you start gaming and you see a professional gamer on yt. There are a lot of skills to be developed but now it feels like everything I do now has no fulfillment. I m feeling stuck in that void. Gratitude The small walk My bed

Hello I'm very tired this is my day 4 of nogames and I am stuck at home in my work I have started 3 tasks and it doesn't fulfill me at all. I used the pomodoro timer to prevent me from just spending all my time in one subject. This ended up with me being here burned out and tired. I got up at 9.30 am and I went to bed at 12 pm. one presentation is on thursday and an exam on Wednesday. I had cravings for looking up gaming news just to give me some purpose. I don' know what to do with my time and I can tell that I won't touch school stuff again

Hi binge 3 or 4 hours of yt today I notice that I procrastinated obviously but the reason is the politics presentation that I'd the reason that hinders me to get to positive momentum . I feel like it has to be done first and the other things come after it.

Good morning I think it is time to prepare some more Actually putting a plan up on what to do when I am bored or tired. I have pushups for measurable growth For a resting activity I have meditation or walking outside

Pmo Relapse I was bored sitting on the couch not getting instant gratification.. there were things to do and I didn’t do sport today after Porn the tiredness is hitting me like a bullet. I wanna finish strong.. Things to be done differently Phone downstairs I am so sorry for the girl that I had been fantasizing..

It is probably both I hated my emotions because it was the issue that I was identifying myself with the emotions I had. Like today in chemistry class. I was frustrated that I wasn't as quick as the others Than I noticed that I had embodied the emotion. I sat back slowed down and thank good was my meditation practices come into play I didn't meditate but I went silent and was like on a crest of a wave. Then I saw that the task I was struggling with is one that isn't difficult it just needed a little bit more of rearranging of the formula and another operation method. I was very proud of me not being pumped up by that emotion I got 2 or 3 task as a homework due date tomorrow but now I have another 3 or 4 hours to go.!!! By the way I wrote an incredible insight yesterday. I could do my homework. And watch some videos how to shift one's emotional state. A normal day would look like that Get up drink some water Go to school After school eating a meal then go for a walk do homework repeat what I have learned Then the spare time I would love to play guitar or some workout rutine sleep I like to prepare myself more for the tough days but My time management skills make it difficult to find spare time... Can you please give me an advice?

Today I am on day 2

Happy for WiFi works again I csn then push my presentation talked to a nice girl

I feel nothing right know and it doesn't surprise me but I don' want to identify myself with my emotions but I don't know how to do something that shift that state... Usually I freaking hate my emotions especially when I feel like I lose intro of what is happening around me I don't feel very well today I started the day strong and after school I procrastinated a bit and went for a walk talked on phone with a company for my diabetes equipment I note that I am more active and less anxious about someone watching when I have my phone in my hands. The feeling is liberating. I browse fb for one hour and thus I pushed myself to get the needed things done. aI wanna try to put my phone away so I can be more focused I know it is hard to be with little distraction and now I am extremely tired I have a presentation ext week and a vocab test tomorrow.

Hello Today I am feeling tired and there were some quick and short flashes of gaming every now and then.

I forget to say that as long as other aspects of your life such as relationships, social communication finances and career aren't suffering from gaming It is alright to game in moderation.. As Cam said it's the relationship between games and the person that can be toxic. Not the game itself.

Hello I come to the conclusion that I wanna quit cold turkey but I am focusing on new things only and not think about quitting games. I want to try out new things and to occupy my mind with sports, maybe guitar and Djing. I don' wanna count the days of being away from games but just enjoying the tough parts as well as the epic good moments of life. There are new things I want to try out and Learning the most mundane social skills at first. I often thought about being more confident outside to express my opinion more often and just being more open to the world. I have felt cravings after I quit today like where could I be in the game if I had it kn my phone.(I have deleted my Google account) The gratification that gaming provided for me is just not healthy as well as the constant feedback of in- game growth doesn't make me feel that way when I did some real effort to get something done.. Of course when you face only good things like instant gratification you start to be It is the mix between good moments and bad moments that make life so exciting that there is a real purpose and challenge to get through. For me as I started clicker heroes 1 or 2 years ago I was a beginner with no knowledge and it frustrated me and I hated it. I never made progress!! But with the time I got better and I researched more to improve and it began like a snowball effect(the progress that I made and the passion) NOW I can say that yeah it is difficult to start doing new things buy I don't give up because of the positive momentum and the improvement that is coming slowly. I noticed that my earlier relapses occurred because I didn't put enough time to into the new activity to see how it is like to see improvement. It all needs time to develop like I haven' been a good gamer 2 minutes I started a new game . I don't know whether I can say that when I hit a bad or tough moment This was a real epiphany for myself that I clearly see the analogy between gaming effort and the effort that I ll be grinding out of real life. Gratitude: My decision one of Cam's videos(I am sorry if I quoted some of your Content) My sleep pattern of 7 to 8 hours a day My parents that they bought me a guitar a couple years ago. My parents who made it possible for me to spend one year in the USA My gym teacher Mr. Witman who made me fall in love with home workout and thus solves my hatred to sports My encouraging friends there who helped me out. My track coach who promoted my inner passion of long distance running. My brother who is always there if I have a problem My friends*whether they game or not)for their helping hand when I had no clue what to do in the lab What I want to do next: I want to make a chart of my daily weekly and monthly goals to design it like a big game to work on something bigger that even though I might not be able to grasp it it makes me keep pushing forward . Regarding new activities I have little time during the weekdays. U managed to talk a walk every day after school and squeezing in some guitar or djing depends on how I feel. That's all for me I enjoy the idea of writing a journal to keep myself accountable. For me it is an epic way of seeing my emotions and being able to see my progress and my ups and downs.

Hello I have been playing games over the weekend and I have a presentation tomorrow and I haven't done anything with it I feel like that I am quitting my schooling because I don't have an interest in it. I see a lot of people they are burning for their subjects. But I think Why do you spend so much time with something that boring (school stuff) I do my stuff half heartedly when there are holidays or weekends I do a shit with school. Gaming again is really pushing down my attitude to anything else other than school I have backache neck ache and I am extremely tired and cannot focus on school.

I am grateful for the bus that takes me to the town for the opportunity to learn in a vocational college for my personal well being for my caring mother for my warm clothing for a good 8 hours of sleep for a well prepared presentation for an opportunity to learn more about my subjects I am grateful for the safety that I have

I want to be honesst I am having google play on my phone to look whether there is a certain upgrade in CH so I can game it again. The consequences of that are as always in darkness and will come after I have ged until the pressure is too great.