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  1. 115 days Days porn free: 7 Today I left my comfort zone by: Talking to 1 person I don't usually talk toRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: 1/3 done Thoughts and Feelings: I got up at my usual late time. This is becoming a habit!Went to school. Standard day. I sat around listening to metal and reading manga when I should have been talking to random people though. I think this is my new escape.Came home. Got lost in my thoughts a bit. Ended up looking at these feminist videos because it's international women's day. I don't agree with progressives. You can't change the nature of the human consciousness through political activism. We either go forward and just see what happens or go back and start living in caves again.Researched some lower body exercises as per @destoroyah's advicewatched some elliott hulse. I have been thinking for myself a lot since i started this whole thing and much of what he says resonates with me nonetheless. The topic was finding purpose without religion.Looked at krita tutorials (krita is digital art software btw. It's free too)I haven't actually done my energising routine today. I'm getting too much into the habit of slacking off in the mornings. The notion of going 36 hours without a shower will get me out of bed. Tasks and achievements: Physical: row 2kmMental: studying, learning german, krita, workout researchSpiritual: meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalThe berserk mangaKnowing my shit (sometimes)This awesome musicone week porn and fap freeWhat I have learnt from today: Stuff about religion and politics blah blah blah I think too much sometimesTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talk to 3 people you don't usually talk to.Practice randomly approaching people onceGoal for tomorrow: get out of bed at the right time
  2. @Csaba_Bekesi Smile? You mean like this?: Haha thanks for your ten minutes my man. I do climbing at school but there is nobody my age I like there. I do have deep conversations with this one kid sometimes at school. Contrary to what you would think though- we have fuck all in common. I am into fitness/ sport. He isn't. He likes hip hop. I like metal. He believes in god. I don't. He is black. I am yellow. We are of the same mindset. Fuck school. Fuck being marginalised and all this fake bullshit. Sussex is WAY too far south. I am living way up in Durham. So there isn't likely going to be a 5th member anytime soon I'm afraid! Having something in common is a great way to meet people but to be compatible with other people is another story:
  3. 113 days Days porn free: 5 Today I left my comfort zone by: I talked to 3 people I don't usually talk to but the situation presented itself to me more.Routine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Sort of Thoughts and Feelings: I got up at a similar time to yesterdayI had social anxiety for a significant portion of todayI dropped it later onI went climbing, came home, worked out and did energising routineMy drum kit got moved out today. It will be missed. But I am not not a jack of all trades.Fiddled about with krita. Tasks and achievements: Physical: climbing, workoutMental: studying, learning german, kritaSpiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergeticsWhat I am grateful for: MetalPhysically pushing myselfthe 1000 days challenge pushing mefoodmy friends on nofap and game quittersWhat I have learnt from today: I have an idea to get shit done. I have to physically initiate the task and not mentally. Physical initiation is not subject to mental blocking and opens you up.I am lonely because I don't feel an attachment to anyone on an emotional level. The question is how do I find someone who can be a real friend to me?Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Start 3 conversations with random people. Move into the conversation first.Goal for tomorrow: Actually leave your comfort zone ffs
  4. 113 days Days porn free: 5 Today I left my comfort zone by: NothingRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: No Thoughts and Feelings: I got up at 7:50 which is way too lateToday at school I didn't feel depressed but I felt indifferent. I felt like I just wanted to be separated from all the people I don't give a shit about.I could have expanded my comfort zone today through conversation. But i wasn't in the mood.I came home and did the energising routine i missed out in the morningI had a big think about life. I wondered what my path in life is and what I want to achieve. I had doubts about becoming and engineer. Will I just become a cog in a machine with no creative freedom? Or is that just how the world works? I also had doubts about society and whether getting a high flying job just to earn meaningless money is what I want to really do. Whether engineering is a true passion of mine or a figment of the ego.I ended up researching about gender roles somehowI then got my shit together and did some physicsI then did some art Tasks and achievements: Physical: runningMental: studying, learning german, art, thinkSpiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergeticsWhat I am grateful for: MetalLifeThis5 days porn freeWhat I have learnt from today: I think too muchI don't really like talking to people at school a lot. There is no connection. Just the same old shit every day.I feel lonely. Perhaps what I want most in life is a friend who i can show my true self to.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Start 3 conversations with random people. Speak when you want to and release the restrictions of your mind.Goal for tomorrow: Actually leave your comfort zone
  5. 112 days Days porn free: 4 Today I left my comfort zone by: Being open on 1000 days accountability callGetting myself upRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Not entirely Thoughts and Feelings: I got up at 9 after a lot of self persuasion.Did energising routine. Some days it just doesn't work. Didn't feel tingly like I normally do.Surfed the forums a bit. I think it's productiveWatched more cowboy bebopStudied a bit but I hit some brick walls and ended up trailing off. Didn't absolutely finish everythingRead some mangaDid accountability call. almost 2 hours holy shit. I really enjoyed it because I got to talk about things I am usually uncomfortable talking about to other people I am always in my head. Tasks and achievements: Physical: rest dayMental: studying, learning german, reading, callSpiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergeticsWhat I am grateful for: MetalAccountabilityHand grip exercisersEasy cruisingWhat I have learnt from today: I talk about myself too much. Need to get better at listening.The ego asserts the consciousness and not the mind.If I am studying I should immediately move on to something else if I hit a brick wallTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Start 3 conversations with random people. Speak when you want to and release the restrictions of your mind.Goal for tomorrow: Get up on time
  6. 111 days Days porn free: 3 Today I left my comfort zone by: NooootttttthhiiiiinnngggggRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Yes Thoughts and Feelings: Got up veeerry late again but I don't care.Decent day at school. I wasn't very good socially today. Felt a little autistic so to speak.Came back did workout. I will have to shuffle the reps and sets around because some exercises felt easy and others were brutal. Should everything be brutal? Or just semi brutal?Did my energising routine. My parents were out so I did the noisy exercise this time. It didn't really do much.Watched cowboy BebopDid some art. I drew Josh Middleton from sylosisDid some duo lingoWent to work and absolutely slayed Tasks and achievements: Physical: workout, workMental: studying, art, learning germanSpiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergeticsWhat I am grateful for: MetalCowboy BebopHaving a jobGetting to stuff my face with food while I workGetting shit done todayWhat I have learnt from today: Need to find a way to push my spirit through my ego. Assert my consciousness.Need to fix workoutTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Get up early and studyGoal for tomorrow: Finish all homework
  7. 110 days Days porn free: 2 Today I left my comfort zone by: Talked to 3 people I don't usually talk toRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Yes perfect! Thoughts and Feelings: Got up veeerry late but I managed to sneak a cold shower in.At school today we had a lecture from a psychologist on stress management and she made everyone do 10 mins meditation. Bwhahahaha.....noobs.I let my mind wander a lot today- especially pondering the idea of sexual energyToday I smiled at a girl randomly. Instant conversation like it was normal. I think the art of approaching people is all in your demeanour. If you can insight the feeling in them to engage with you through gestures then you are less at the risk of your mind trapping your words. e.g you won't be like "Uhhhh what should I say?.... Oh shit....."I read some mangaI got some studying done.I rowed 2 km. Tasks and achievements: Physical: rowingMental: studying, nofap posts, researching paganism, readingSpiritual: cold shower, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalEmotional clarityPhysical exercisePersefoneWhat I have learnt from today: The sexual energy is twofold- both physical and emotional. My previous approach to nofap was an attempt to deny the physical side and empower the emotional. However the two cannot be separated. With the mental intention of suppressing my sexual energy I was placing a bottleneck on my spirit thus the flood gates only gave way in the end. But with understanding of my sexual energy I can allow myself to embody it and not merely vent it through a frustrated wank. To be free of masturbation perhaps I need to simply embrace my sexuality. I dispelled an urge today by simply saying something along the lines of "It's ok- this is a natural impulse. Let it pass through" I just let the lustful thoughts take over. Truly get in touch with your sexual energy and work with it. The wild beasts are always the strongerConversation is more than just wordsTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk toSmile at someoneGoal for tomorrow: Do full workout
  8. @Simms Thank you for this piece of advice. I think this is what everyone wants deep down regardless of gender. Someone to rest in and someone to draw strength from. Someone to catalyse your yin an yang energies.
  9. Yes removing game related stuff helps but abstinence only creates frustration. Understand that gaming satisfies your emotional needs which can be otherwise satisfied. Try getting more exercise (grind xp). Take up a craft (pick a profession). Learn more about life (look at the wiki). Exercise is actually addictive because you release endorphins.
  10. I got physical activity on my agenda (warrior). I developed a passion: art (lover). I read up on philosophy and psychology which led me to make my own ideas about how life works (mage). Develop your archetype like your characters. Get a new haircut. Get new clothes. Life is a game.
  11. 110 days Days porn free: 1 Today I left my comfort zone by: Talked to 3 people I don't usually talk toRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Yes perfect! Thoughts and Feelings: Got up on time and did some of my work out for first timeI actually pmoed yesterday. Sucked a bag of dick.I felt quite empty towards to end of today. I think it was because of my tiredness sexual frustration. Both emotional and physical.Came in went straight to bed and fapped Felt much better afterMade a lengthy post on what I think about nofapNofap counter is kaput. I need to sexually liberate my mind. Relieve the shackles of the counter and I won't gravitate to pornTasks and Achievements: Physical: workoutMental: studying, readingSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalWankingIdeasSatanic BibleMangaWhat I have learnt from today: I know masturbation is unnatural but I can suppress my natural urges. Until I find a girlfriend I am going to liberate my mind from this nofap business. Porn is still off the cardsDiversity of ideas is importantNofap isn't magically going to turn you into superman. You have to actually do the thing. Approaching women is a separate activity that can be fulfilled on its own.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk toGoal for tomorrow: Row 2km
  12. Hello again I see you have more questions. I suggest you start a journal on this site. It is a useful tool so others can interact with you better and help you. And most of all so you can self reflect and help yourself. Personally I had no issues quitting. No relapses at all. I just approached life in a way that I approached games. I was using games as a substitute for life. Build yourself as your own character. I can relate to your FL studio dilemma. I am an aspiring artist and I used to do this a lot with drawings. My advice is stop trying to make masterpieces. Go at your music production with the sole intention of improvement. Just go and make something and you will learn from it. What I do is I just sketch random stuff that I need to improve on in cheap sketchbooks again and again. I just keep them as practice books and I don't have much emotional attachment to the drawings. I suggest you have a folder to store all your practice music files. Eventually you will realise that nothing but improvement matters.
  13. Hi hubert Removing everything to do with gaming is good. But I found it was necessary to fill the gap with something. Try getting back into your old hobbies. That's what I did. We are about the same age (17) so I can relate to you disrespecting your family. I think that it just takes a bit of growing up and opening yourself up emotionally. Being on this site will certainly accelerate that I think. I haven't fully got there yet though. I have found that when I get annoyed by something really insignificant this helps: take a deep breath and when you breath out think "why am I angry?". try to deduce the underlying cause of your irritability. Lack of sleep? Bad day at school? Being conscious of where your emotions are coming from helps you control them a lot.
  14. 109 days Days porn free: 11 Days fap free: 2 Today I left my comfort zone by: Pretty much nothingRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditationPorridge50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Nope. Got up wayyyyyyyyy too late. Thoughts and Feelings: Got up super late and I didn't do my routine.I was fine at school but I wasn't very socially outgoing. I just sat and read manga and listened to metal on my phone when I could have gone and talked to 3 strangers like I said yesterdayForgot to say my weights came yesterday! I got my gym gloves today with my climbing gear. Fucking sick!I did my full routine when I got back home.I had porn urges today. This one pair of tits keep cropping up in my mind. Rubber band solved it a bit.I did more art. I have been doing really well lately. I am going to keep drawing from referencemy duo lingo streak is deadThe rubber band doesn't hurt as much anymore. Cold shower pain tolerance kicking in perhapsTasks and Achievements: Physical: runningMental: studying, art, researching autonomic nervous systemSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalNew retro waverubber bandsWhat I have learnt from today: I have so many opportunities to meet new people but I don't take them.Perhaps I am focusing my willpower on noporn so I fail to get up early?Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk toGoal for tomorrow: get up at the right time ffs
  15. 107 days Days porn free: 10 Days fap free: 5 Today I left my comfort zone by: Talking to 2 people I don't usually talk toRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerPorridgePhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hour50 exp duolingoMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: No. this is getting annoying Thoughts and Feelings: Got up pretty fucking late but I did most of my routineI did a technology tournament all day today. We competed against other school in a team of 4 and came second. Psychic vampire was on my team. He is ok.My hand to eye coordination was on fucking point today!Came back and did some climbing. Tried to spark up a random conversation with the girl who I talked to before. I flopped but I don't care. Let's try again!Climbed like a beastmade a 1000 days postDid art. I drew alissa white-gluz from arch enemy. Getting gud at faces.Tasks and Achievements: Physical: climbingMental: tournament, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalChallenging tournamentGrowing upSylosis What I have learnt from today: I don't get as angry with people anymore. I understand that some people have been fucked in the head and it isn't their fault.I am finding it easier to assert myselfTo talk to random people I have to shut off my brainTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk toGoal for tomorrow: get up at the right time
  16. Piotr my man Where have you disappeared to?
  17. 106 days Days porn free: 9 Days fap free: 4 Today I left my comfort zone by: Teaching kids how to read mapsDoing deep breathing so much I feel like I will immolate.trying my best in running and trying to pace popular kidsRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerPorridgePhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hour50 exp duolingoMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Yesssss. I felt the adrenaline surging through my veins! Bwhahahahaha Thoughts and Feelings: Got up super late and super pissed off and depressedWent to school. Girls were sitting right next to me in studying. I could have easily said something and they even tried to talk to me but I just pied them off.Did a school long distance running event. Came 22nd out of 100 and something. Noice.My mood dramatically elevated from that pointI had to teach a lesson in cadets with a group of others in my year. nailed it. They just sat around and did nothing and I carried the whole thing. They were winging afterwards about the kids mucking about. The teacher gave us all a lecture on how it was our fault for not preparing properly. he was right! When you are in a situation like that it's a battle of the ego. Some kids will try and mouth you off and piss about. You have to play your cards right and assert your ego in the right way and divert their attention to you at all times.Came home and I did my whole routine which i didn't do before.Studied 2 hoursDid artTasks and Achievements: Physical: runningMental: studying, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalThisnaked womenrubber bands and how much those fuckers hurt when you smack them on your wrist. ouch.teacher for knowing his shit. and me for knowing he knows his shitlearning how to teach kidsfixing depressionWhat I have learnt from today: Depression has it's roots in my routine. The question is: how the fuck do I get out of bed at the right time?How to teachDrawing from reference is useful. But i want to be able to do it without.My weights are on the way! Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk toGoal for tomorrow: get up at the right time
  18. What is YA? Haha. You'll never catch me reading a romance novel. I have been thinking of writing a novel but I have been having doubts. I have a lot of ideas floating round my head and I feel like I should externalise them in something to preserve them. But I am content with just sharing these through my art.
  19. 105 days Days porn free: 8 Days fap free: 3 Today I left my comfort zone by: Smacking myself with a rubber band multiple timesRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerPorridgePhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hour50 exp duolingoMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: I got up way too late but I did all my stuff. Thoughts and Feelings: Helped with cooking todayI was less emotionally grounded. The routine! It's the motherfucking routine!Did a bit of studyingLost track of time throughout today. Weekend syndrome. Lack of structure.Watched more cowboy bebopI have attached a rubber band to my wrist and I am smacking myself every time I get urges for porn. It's really working well.Bought some weights.Tasks and Achievements: Physical:Mental: studying, workout researchSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalThese positive viiiiibbbeeesRubber bandsExpanding my musical horizons@Simms for giving great workout adviceWhat I have learnt from today: This punishment system for nofap really works. Maybe I could extend it to getting up in the mornings? 10 lashes if I don't get up. Sounds pretty brutal.Stop researching workout shit. Get to actually doing it. Do something.As my intention this year is balance I should have something physical on my agenda all the time. Same goes for everything else. I should hit the bunk and get up at exact times and maintain a strong sleep cycle.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Doing deep breathing so much I feel like I will immolate.Goal for tomorrow: Run like a beast
  20. Hi Thank you for the workout advice. I'll buy this set What is your novel about?
  21. 104 days Days porn free: 7 Days fap free: 1 Today I left my comfort zone by: NothingRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Didn't do shit Thoughts and Feelings: School was ok. It has been getting worse since I have been slacking in routine.Routine was completely fucked todayBought some climbing gear. Nice.Did a shit ton of workout researchWatched episode 2 of cowboy bebopI have been more irritable today.1 week nofap. I have been punching myself whenever I have urges.Tasks and Achievements: Physical:Mental: studying, workout researchSpiritual: What I am grateful for: MetalNofapFried egg sandwichesWhat I have learnt from today: If I want to be at 100℅ I need to be able to commit to a routine. The question is how do I get my arse out of bed? I think deep breathing first thing wakes me up a lot.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Getting up early and watching the sun rise outside already ffsGoal for tomorrow: get back in routine fully fully
  22. Hi, @Simms About workouts. I live in the middle of nowhere so for the holidays it is very inconvenient for me to get to the gym. When I'm at school I can just walk down the school gym easy. I would have to face all the arseholes in there but what ever. If I was going to lift weights I think I'll go down there when school is on because I don't have room in my house for this equipment. I can do dips in between my kitchen counters but my parents wont let me buy a pullup bar for a door (or let me do pullups anywhere in the house for that matter) because the house is built like a cardboard box. My step dad suggests dumbbells and I looked some stuff up which looks really promising. If I buy this set do and this workout what do you think? I can buy a squat rack in the future if I decide I want to do stronglifts 5x5 at home and the plus is I have a longer bar option for the dumbbells for it. As for warmups can I just do any full body warmup? Even this one for bodyweight fitness?
  23. You tag people by type @ and then the letters of their name but you have to wait and look under what you are typing as little boxes will pop up with all the people on the site whose names have the letters you are typing
  24. 103 days Days porn free: 6 Days fap free: 1 Today I left my comfort zone by: Letting my ego out. I tend to have a morbid sense of wit that likes to assert itself. That's how I would describe it.Nothing really tbh. I could have tried starting random conversation.Routine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Not really. I got up late but I did the whole win hof thing Thoughts and Feelings: Decent day. I have lost count of the days I have not been depressed. Know yourself, your friends and your enemies. Suddenly you will not be able to distinguish them as bad or good as you realise they are all invaluable to you.Checked out some workout stuff. Perhaps I should get down the school gym.Watched episode 1 of cowboy Bebop. Fucking dope as fuck!Went to work. Some of my teachers were there. Said hello.My duo lingo streak is kaput! I will make it to a week streak!Tasks and Achievements: Physical: workMental: studying, workout researchSpiritual: meditation, cold shower, bioenergeticsWhat I am grateful for: MetalHaving a good jobHaving good teachers90's animeWhat I have learnt from today: Getting up on the dot and getting shit done is a major factor in productivity. The amount of time I waste with lie ins.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Getting up early and watching the sun rise outsideGoal for tomorrow: get back in routine fully
  25. If you're having trouble with breath focus meditation try just saying in your mind: "Inhale, exhale". Do this in sync with your breathing and it is a lot easier to focus. The mind is a muscle so you can start small.