Fit, Focused, and Faithful in Daily Journals Posted June 19 Day 0. Starting again... That was tougher than I thought. I had a great morning. Put my phone away. It was great... then, I drifted into the same old patterns later into the day. This morning I was playing a game on my phone. I feel defeated just as I am getting started. Perhaps I need to change the start. No video games. But I can watch YouTube this month or something. Then, I will wean myself off of YouTube a month out. Going cold turkey on both may be a lot to ask of me right now with all of the major stress happening... This has been the toughest two weeks I've had in the past year. I need to be kind to myself.