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  1. Still alive, still not playing, life's been better than terrible, so, yeah. That's my progress report of the day.
  2. I appreciate the intention of helping. However right now I have a psychologist and a psychiatrist working as a team to give me the best possible medical attention for my mental health profile right now. If I want advice on what to do, I will ask as I have done before, this is primarily a thread to remind myself to not play games for the period I have set for myself. The task is time bound, because the nature of it, is to make my brain function more normally, so that I can assess at what point do which games become damaging to my health without having a dopamine withdrawal clouding my judgment and with mental health professionals by my side so help me make that call. So again I would appreciate if you could refrain from giving advice that hasn't been asked for.
  3. Still going strong and not playing. Finals are close, let's see how it goes.
  4. Already replied but a second reply. The games that I find that actively damaged me the most, namely gatchas, I actively avoid looking at any info related to them, so at least i'm not behaving that self destructively.
  5. Also, still haven't played though, and will not for at least 2 more months. But I will definitely never ever touch a gatcha again, and while all else might be going to shit, that isn't.
  6. It's specifically about one game, Warframe. And it's because it's the best game I have ever played for me, no abusive monetization. Good events, but playing outside of those events it's still worth it. And the game keeps going in the direction I want it to go. And it never felt like if I don't play now, I won't be able to get this later. So when it comes to mental health issues, this game has had the mildest impact of them all in perspective. I do want to play that game quite a bit, but I have committed to not doing it for 3 months at least. And this might all be the dopamine withdrawl speaking. I have been diagnosed an anxiety disorder last week and while not depressed exhibiting several symptoms of depression. I guess that theorycrafting and watching the news has been my way of looking away from the pile of shit my life has been the last few weeks.
  7. I'm going to really have to start to stop keeping up on news on the games I like, it just gives me unnecessary stress knowing i'm "missing out" on things that depending on how the detox goes and my plans for later, I might get anyway. And if I decide to stop playing all games all together, it doesn't matter what i'm missing out on. So shouldn't stress myself with it. Starting to catch up on my studies though it might be a little to late in some cases. Got diagnosed an anxiety disorder last week and I can't say I was surprised. Dealing with it as best as I can.
  8. Haven't posted in days, but still haven't played at all. Not because of lack of temptation though.
  9. Still going strong, putting my rutine back together.
  10. I'm still staying away from videogames, day after day I'm becoming more aware of the urge to play. However it's not a "I enjoy this game so I want to play it" feel, it's more my brain being like "shouldn't you be playing rn you little shitter, gimmie my dopamine fix" kind of feel. It's strong enough to drain some of my energy throughout the day but not strong enough to make me actually play. Also, I need to get a new wallpaper on my PC, having a genshin wallpaper clearly isn't helping but I have no idea what to put on there. Also, I uninstalled a bunch of games, and since gaming might be out of my life for good or at least a long time, i'm considering eventually switching to Linux. Unrelated but I vomited today and I have 0 drive to go to the gym, so I will try to study as best as I can(instead of grinding for some shitty useless gems).
  11. Ye, it's kind of what i'm doing now, and it's slowly working, also today i'm in the process of uninstalling a shitton of games.
  12. I've tried doing that, and it helps to a certain extent, it's weird because the recommendations seem to depend on the device i'm using. Anyways thanks for the advice and while it does definitely help, it's not a silver bullet. Algorithm does weird shit sometimes. Still I quite appreciate you taking time out of your day for making the suggestion.
  13. Didn't check in here in day 3, back at day 4, still haven't touched any games, feeling good. Trying to focus on my studies and the gym.
  14. Still getting reccomended Genshin and Guardian Tales content on Youtube, i'm feeling good today so I didn't even feel like checking the videos. I wonder though if there is any way to get that kind of content out of my feed other than not watching it persistently. Gotten a little behind on my studies so tomorrow going back at it with all my energy.