Reza

all of my life i had addictions but nor permanently . i was addicted to going to the gym , hanging out with my dude , watching movies , watch football matches , and ... but they are two things that i am struggling with since the day 1 . one is gaming , well only league of legends , i don't play anything other than that and the other one is masturbating . funny thing is both almost started at the same time and that was the start of 90% of my problems to be honest . i am stuck at 18 while i am 21 ( i didn't continue school and i don't have a job or skill ) . these two ruing my life , or it's better to say i ruined my life by doing these two . but i am glad that i am making progress PS : sometimes i ask myself so what , what really happens if i play or don't play games or i don't masturbate , who knows maybe i die tomorrow why should i do this? ... i don't know why but i am doing it maybe when i competently backed to my life , maybe after entering university , maybe after dating someone , or marriage , maybe after i get a job etc i find an answer for this WHY

i feel like i like nothing . i feel like a soulless body just doing things , eats , drinks , reads and ... . i don't enjoy almost anything and there is nothing that i say i " like " or " want " to do . have you even felt that way ? if i play games i feel bad with a little bit of enjoy , if i don't i don't feel anything .

day 2 : it's almost 9 pm here. today i woke up a little earlier at 10 am . i had some stuff to do and some shoppings . at 3 pm i decided to write my journal 😅 . later i started doing ny work outs witch i paused it a while ago but not compeletly because of my right arm injury . i finaly grabbed my books and studued around 2 hours. not so bad for a start after a while . still no social media or gaming today . i might go out with my dude tonight or maybe just stay home with our guests and maybe even study more positive points : no gaming - no social media - i controled my anger well during discussions - i started study - i started my work outs again - wake up earlier negetive points : i masturbaited , i am having trubble with it needs to ve solved - i lost my mind and raged only once witch was not my fault at all , still i want to make it to 0 - still need to wake up so earlier , 10 is not good check yesterday goals : 1. wake up earlier ✔ 2. study for my exam ✔ 3. no gaming / no social media ✔ 4. control my rage at bad situation ✔ next day goals : 1. wake up earlier 2. study more 3.no gaming / no social media 4. not raging even once 5.no masturbating 6. do my work outs

two months ago i started make friends with books 😃 . i read 1. man's searching for meaning 2.make your own bed 3.unfuck yourself 5. way of the wolf 6.just shut up and do it 7. to-do list formula and not i am almost finishing 7 habits of highly effected people. this books is amazing . unbelievable . just go and read it as soon as you can. i wish i read it first before all those books ( although all books were amazing but this is something else). i got 8 more books to read 😊

i see people write their journal i think that really helped them so why not , i write it too . i am going to be 100% honest here and not "show" if i am doing good or what ever. this id middle of day two but first i write yestersay. day 1 : i woke up at 1 pm , i know pretty late . until evening around 6 i read books and chill . at 6 : 30 my friend called me abd we went mountain climbing and we were surprised to see some of our friends were there too ! exacly at the mountin we were lmao . we came back at 8 . from 8 to 11: 30 pm i just were in the home spending time with ny family ( i am fixing ny broken relationship with them , so far we made huge progress). i went to bed at 2 and that was the day 1. positive points : no gaming - no social media - having fun times with my dudes negetive points : i didnt read anything for my exam witch is in 3 month later - i broke my no fap after 5-6 days - i woke up pretty late - i got so angry over something witch was my own fault next day goals : 1. wake up earlier 2.study for my exam ( everyday) 3.no gaming / no social media 4 . control my rage in bad situations

@Quitter hey ! thanks for the reply . i believe this time i am more experienced than last time so i kinda know better what to do 😄 ( the point of fails is we learn something at least) so far I've known from videos and stuff gaming gives you feelings and when you want to quit you must find new things , new values and goals to replace them . for me personally i was just scrolling down into a website and i found myself in book categories and i said you know , why not and i ordered 4 books and then 5 more books . the books gave me new values , new attitude . i feel fresh when i read books . also not even pdf stuff , only paper a real book . and it's not just the matter of gaming , the whole social media too . social media like instagram didn't used to be THAT harmful like this days . dangerous people and bad habits get bigger and bigger every second , the fake life styles and efc witch im sure you know all of that . so with all of that i deleted them too , life is just better without them , so much better 🙂

Hello game quitters . my name is Reza . 5 months ago i joined here and quit video games for a while . it was amazing . i don't want to bring any excuse and i admit i ruined it myself first by deleting my account here . this forum is actually really helpful . two month ago i started to reading books after reading 4 books now i am reading 7 habits of highly effected people . this book really changed me . people say that i am not the same person that i was two weeks ago and they see huge positive changes . still with all of that i believe video games and social media is pushing me back to old me witch was not good at all. so i decided to delete all of them . today i deleted telegram , instagram , all G-mails and every account i had and created a gmail only for this and for the big one , league of legends i am getting help from here . not only quitting games but also replacing it with useful stuff witch will actually help me . now it's 3 am at night i played 3 games of league of legends . i know myself , moderation will not work so i go cold turkey and delete all of it . here will be only community i am active because this actually helps a lot. i appreciate any advice . thank you for reading :)