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Day 20-23 no erotica/pmo/games (mon) (goal: Dopamine system reboot, achieving boredom/peace): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 652; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -63; Identity total: -1135 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up 08:45 down 01:00 + soild breakfast & lunch + meditation 10m + schedule day + exercise p|s|c + contrast shower 2x1m + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap The last few days have been quite a bit of good work, but need to make sure that the other stuff doesn't get ignored as well. It did to a degree. Downloaded a movie 2-3 weeks ago and still haven't watched it. Not sure if that's good or bad, even though it's one of the goals. The reboot things are all good, no lapses. Due to bad weather I haven't exercised outside or ridden the bike. Might need to sign up for a gym instead. The way you do anything is the way you do everything: need a somewhat loose schedule running all the time, with free time in, too. To get more precise over time. Otherwise things proceed quite randomly when it comes to focus on subjects.
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Day 19 no erotica/pmo/games (thu) (goal: Dopamine system reboot, achieving boredom/peace times): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 619; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -61; Identity total: -1167 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up 08:45 down 01:00 + soild breakfast & lunch + meditation 10m + exercise p|s|c + contrast shower 2x1m + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap It is interesting to note how slowly the counter goes up. It would be noticeable if it was slowly going up from 0, but just getting out of the negatives would take months like this. Bullshit, if every day is super day it would take just a bit over a month. How you do anything is how you do everything: Almost great is not enough, chasing till success is what is needed. Every day, super day, otherwise it's a lame day after lame day.
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Day 18 no erotica/pmo/games (wed) (goal: Rewiring of the dopamine pathways, achieving boredom/peace times): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 614; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -61; Identity total: -1174 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything. If you keep doing the shitty job, you'll keep doing other shitty stuff instead of what's important.
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Day 17 no erotica/pmo/games (tue) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): I'm considering coding a game and today I spent a bit looking through a catalogue site for games and did a few minutes clicking through a game to see the art style, music, etc. Not playing. I'm actually quite happy with what happened - I felt a little bit of desire to play but it was barely there, and any games that would have gotten my attention before were easily ignored. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 593; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -59; Identity total: -1193 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap
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Day 16 no erotica/pmo/games (mon) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Rainy day, not great for outdoor exercise or riding. Although, I could have done either if I really wanted. The troubleshooting took most of the day again but is finally done. I haven't tracked properly, need to sort out level 3 definition and track it closer. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 593; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -59; Identity total: -1193 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: Exercise schedule for rainy days is unclear, like other things where a defined system is missing.
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Day 15 no erotica/pmo/games (sun) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Poor day. Dealing with troubleshooting my pc most of the day. Need to set limits when doing stuff like this, otherwise I can spend ages and igoner everything else, as it happened today. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 586; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -59; Identity total: -1200 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: When a task needs to be done but stretches from an hour to a whole day. Need timer or schedule to avoid these.
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Day 14 no erotica/pmo/games (fri) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Yesterday I was so much in a hurry that I forgot to add the points for the superday. It was almost but not quite but there anyway. Similar today. All done, but late to sleep. It was meant to be 50 points each, instead there will be 25 for yesterday and today. Maybe 50 points for every proper superday till the end of september, then less, will see. I'm seriously turning the habit of delaying and wondering and slowly getting ready to do something until I decide it's too late to go, into pretty much the same but going late anyway. Two times today, both for important things. Both done though. Improvement. Hopefully I'll manage to start reducing the delay and lateness soon. Bad habit of not being chatty enough when I should have been. Habit Tracker (super day: yes!): Good habits: 576; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -57; Superdays: +50; Identity total: -1208 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty! + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 (later :() + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2) (about 8 hours, yay), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: Being late is not an excuse not to go. Don't embarrass yourself by being late and just go there on time.
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Thanks @Tzen1. Yes, one step at a time. Also, I celebrated a little bit indeed, with three snacks/bars :) And with a good day as well. A bit off two parameters I've set, but just have to mark it as super, as it was. @BooksandTrees, yup, it doesn't feel like an accomplishment but I can definitely feel some positive effects. Hopefully it will continue. Day 13 no erotica/pmo/games (fri) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Habit Tracker (super day: yes!): Good habits: 568; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -55; Identity total: -1262 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty! + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 (a few minutes past) + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2) (a few minutes less), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: Two fears overcome today, to apply the same to as much as possible. Try to reduce the internal struggle, go for it more decisively.
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Day 12 no erotica/pmo/games (thu) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 553; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -55; Identity total: -1277 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): stamina exercise, >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap Meditating during a fire alarm break was pleasant. Time well spent and enjoyed under the sun. Going to bed a bit past bedtime again. Happened to do 90 day without games today. Yay... Doesn't feel special. But I think getting off games was a necessary first step to getting off easy dopamine highs. It was an open quesion whether I'd play again after the reboot, but it's out of the picture, as least till the new 90 is reached. How you do anything is how you do everything: Going to bed a bit past bedtime is like leaving that one thing for just a bit longer, it doesn't hurt if it's nearly fine, right? Bad way of thinking. Along similar lines the things I've been putting off for so long are "nearly done". Bullshit.
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Day 11 no erotica/pmo/games (wed) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): All is fine with the off-limits things. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 548; Procrastination: -1513; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -53; Identity total: -1264 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): stamina exercise, >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap Spend quite a bit paying attention to what was important. That was the upside. Downside: got food that I shouldn't have gotten - some biscuits and nuts, even though I didn't eat most of it. Also, researched something important at the wrong time and I'm late for bed now, without even writing a journal entry. How you do anything is how you do everything: Getting the biscuits shows lack of preparation - I should have gotten enough proper food with me. Next time I should not get the easy way to get protein but take better note on how to avoid this from happening again.
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Day 10 no erotica/pmo/games (tue) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Sprints in the park are great only after 2-3 weeks I can sprint much longer and I get winded much slower during other stuff. Enjoyed a walk today. I was reading on the benefits of naps, my feet over the river, sun shining. I may try a nap in a few days and see if it seems to have a positive effect on learning and mental performance. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 538; Procrastination: -1501; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1264 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap At work tomorrow to spend at least four hours on professional development. Rest can be for fun and news. That's for listening while doing low-concentration work. How you do anything is how you do everything... being tired and taking my time to get to bed is a pattern of moving slowly and generally wasing time just because I'm feeling tired. If I quickly do the things I have to do I can finish much quicker, go to bed faster and have better rest.
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Great that you're not having issues with games. You say you desire calm life, yet would be nice to have your own business... these two arent't likely to go together. But the thing that's missing... we have a need to strive. Calm and comfort make things pleasant, but rob us of the ability to chase our dreams.
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Day 9 no erotica/pmo/games (mon) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Today there was a very fun social occasion, but it passed somehow... shallowly. I was enjoying it at the time, but didn't think about it one bit after it ended. A bit disappointing. My mind is constantly on what I want to do for work, as it seems harder than expected. Oh well, hard it is, I'll have to figure out ways to do it better and faster. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 523; Procrastination: -1489; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1267 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike (NA)] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything. Attempted humour. Kinda worked. Need to try it again.
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Day 8 no erotica/pmo/games (sun) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Morning was good, then started studying for new job. Not going great, but slow progress is better than no progress. Slept quite a bit in the afternoon. Shouldn't miss exercise, will probably help to not get sleepy. One of the things on the procrastination list seems to have resolved itself. Two things left from tomorrow. Before I was avoiding them, now I don't manage to find the time for them. Well, that's just an excuse, could find the time. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 507; Procrastination: -1477; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1270 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -18p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike (NA)] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything... how much humour you have while doing anything is how much humour you have while doing everything :). Reminder: To practice humour.
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Day 7 no erotica/pmo/games (sat) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Fairly good day, manged to do reqular stuff in the morning and spent about eight hours working on what I want to work. Ate a whole watermelon and lots of bananas. Not good. Also, decided to work all day without lunch, which was a stupid decision. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 484; Procrastination: -1459; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1274 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -18p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike (NA)] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything.