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    90 days

    Day 20-23 no erotica/pmo/games (mon) (goal: Dopamine system reboot, achieving boredom/peace): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 652; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -63; Identity total: -1135 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up 08:45 down 01:00 + soild breakfast & lunch + meditation 10m + schedule day + exercise p|s|c + contrast shower 2x1m + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap The last few days have been quite a bit of good work, but need to make sure that the other stuff doesn't get ignored as well. It did to a degree. Downloaded a movie 2-3 weeks ago and still haven't watched it. Not sure if that's good or bad, even though it's one of the goals. The reboot things are all good, no lapses. Due to bad weather I haven't exercised outside or ridden the bike. Might need to sign up for a gym instead. The way you do anything is the way you do everything: need a somewhat loose schedule running all the time, with free time in, too. To get more precise over time. Otherwise things proceed quite randomly when it comes to focus on subjects.
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    90 days

    Day 19 no erotica/pmo/games (thu) (goal: Dopamine system reboot, achieving boredom/peace times): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 619; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -61; Identity total: -1167 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up 08:45 down 01:00 + soild breakfast & lunch + meditation 10m + exercise p|s|c + contrast shower 2x1m + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap It is interesting to note how slowly the counter goes up. It would be noticeable if it was slowly going up from 0, but just getting out of the negatives would take months like this. Bullshit, if every day is super day it would take just a bit over a month. How you do anything is how you do everything: Almost great is not enough, chasing till success is what is needed. Every day, super day, otherwise it's a lame day after lame day.
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    90 days

    Day 18 no erotica/pmo/games (wed) (goal: Rewiring of the dopamine pathways, achieving boredom/peace times): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 614; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -61; Identity total: -1174 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything. If you keep doing the shitty job, you'll keep doing other shitty stuff instead of what's important.
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    90 days

    Day 17 no erotica/pmo/games (tue) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): I'm considering coding a game and today I spent a bit looking through a catalogue site for games and did a few minutes clicking through a game to see the art style, music, etc. Not playing. I'm actually quite happy with what happened - I felt a little bit of desire to play but it was barely there, and any games that would have gotten my attention before were easily ignored. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 593; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -59; Identity total: -1193 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap
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    90 days

    Day 16 no erotica/pmo/games (mon) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Rainy day, not great for outdoor exercise or riding. Although, I could have done either if I really wanted. The troubleshooting took most of the day again but is finally done. I haven't tracked properly, need to sort out level 3 definition and track it closer. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 593; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -59; Identity total: -1193 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: Exercise schedule for rainy days is unclear, like other things where a defined system is missing.
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    90 days

    Day 15 no erotica/pmo/games (sun) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Poor day. Dealing with troubleshooting my pc most of the day. Need to set limits when doing stuff like this, otherwise I can spend ages and igoner everything else, as it happened today. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 586; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -59; Identity total: -1200 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: When a task needs to be done but stretches from an hour to a whole day. Need timer or schedule to avoid these.
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    90 days

    Day 14 no erotica/pmo/games (fri) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Yesterday I was so much in a hurry that I forgot to add the points for the superday. It was almost but not quite but there anyway. Similar today. All done, but late to sleep. It was meant to be 50 points each, instead there will be 25 for yesterday and today. Maybe 50 points for every proper superday till the end of september, then less, will see. I'm seriously turning the habit of delaying and wondering and slowly getting ready to do something until I decide it's too late to go, into pretty much the same but going late anyway. Two times today, both for important things. Both done though. Improvement. Hopefully I'll manage to start reducing the delay and lateness soon. Bad habit of not being chatty enough when I should have been. Habit Tracker (super day: yes!): Good habits: 576; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -57; Superdays: +50; Identity total: -1208 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty! + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 (later :() + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2) (about 8 hours, yay), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: Being late is not an excuse not to go. Don't embarrass yourself by being late and just go there on time.
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    90 days

    Thanks @Tzen1. Yes, one step at a time. Also, I celebrated a little bit indeed, with three snacks/bars :) And with a good day as well. A bit off two parameters I've set, but just have to mark it as super, as it was. @BooksandTrees, yup, it doesn't feel like an accomplishment but I can definitely feel some positive effects. Hopefully it will continue. Day 13 no erotica/pmo/games (fri) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom/peace): Habit Tracker (super day: yes!): Good habits: 568; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -55; Identity total: -1262 Superday misses in bold: Procrastination list is empty! + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 (a few minutes past) + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x1m) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2) (a few minutes less), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything: Two fears overcome today, to apply the same to as much as possible. Try to reduce the internal struggle, go for it more decisively.
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    90 days

    Day 12 no erotica/pmo/games (thu) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 553; Procrastination: -1525; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -55; Identity total: -1277 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): stamina exercise, >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap Meditating during a fire alarm break was pleasant. Time well spent and enjoyed under the sun. Going to bed a bit past bedtime again. Happened to do 90 day without games today. Yay... Doesn't feel special. But I think getting off games was a necessary first step to getting off easy dopamine highs. It was an open quesion whether I'd play again after the reboot, but it's out of the picture, as least till the new 90 is reached. How you do anything is how you do everything: Going to bed a bit past bedtime is like leaving that one thing for just a bit longer, it doesn't hurt if it's nearly fine, right? Bad way of thinking. Along similar lines the things I've been putting off for so long are "nearly done". Bullshit.
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    90 days

    Day 11 no erotica/pmo/games (wed) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): All is fine with the off-limits things. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 548; Procrastination: -1513; Addictions: -250; Other bad habits: -53; Identity total: -1264 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + [off pt work day (NA): stamina exercise, >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap Spend quite a bit paying attention to what was important. That was the upside. Downside: got food that I shouldn't have gotten - some biscuits and nuts, even though I didn't eat most of it. Also, researched something important at the wrong time and I'm late for bed now, without even writing a journal entry. How you do anything is how you do everything: Getting the biscuits shows lack of preparation - I should have gotten enough proper food with me. Next time I should not get the easy way to get protein but take better note on how to avoid this from happening again.
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    90 days

    Day 10 no erotica/pmo/games (tue) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Sprints in the park are great only after 2-3 weeks I can sprint much longer and I get winded much slower during other stuff. Enjoyed a walk today. I was reading on the benefits of naps, my feet over the river, sun shining. I may try a nap in a few days and see if it seems to have a positive effect on learning and mental performance. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 538; Procrastination: -1501; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1264 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap At work tomorrow to spend at least four hours on professional development. Rest can be for fun and news. That's for listening while doing low-concentration work. How you do anything is how you do everything... being tired and taking my time to get to bed is a pattern of moving slowly and generally wasing time just because I'm feeling tired. If I quickly do the things I have to do I can finish much quicker, go to bed faster and have better rest.
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    Piotr journal

    Great that you're not having issues with games. You say you desire calm life, yet would be nice to have your own business... these two arent't likely to go together. But the thing that's missing... we have a need to strive. Calm and comfort make things pleasant, but rob us of the ability to chase our dreams.
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    90 days

    Day 9 no erotica/pmo/games (mon) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Today there was a very fun social occasion, but it passed somehow... shallowly. I was enjoying it at the time, but didn't think about it one bit after it ended. A bit disappointing. My mind is constantly on what I want to do for work, as it seems harder than expected. Oh well, hard it is, I'll have to figure out ways to do it better and faster. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 523; Procrastination: -1489; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1267 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -12p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >2x30s) + kegels x3 + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike (NA)] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything. Attempted humour. Kinda worked. Need to try it again.
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    90 days

    Day 8 no erotica/pmo/games (sun) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Morning was good, then started studying for new job. Not going great, but slow progress is better than no progress. Slept quite a bit in the afternoon. Shouldn't miss exercise, will probably help to not get sleepy. One of the things on the procrastination list seems to have resolved itself. Two things left from tomorrow. Before I was avoiding them, now I don't manage to find the time for them. Well, that's just an excuse, could find the time. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 507; Procrastination: -1477; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1270 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -18p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike (NA)] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything... how much humour you have while doing anything is how much humour you have while doing everything :). Reminder: To practice humour.
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    90 days

    Day 7 no erotica/pmo/games (sat) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Fairly good day, manged to do reqular stuff in the morning and spent about eight hours working on what I want to work. Ate a whole watermelon and lots of bananas. Not good. Also, decided to work all day without lunch, which was a stupid decision. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 484; Procrastination: -1459; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -51; Identity total: -1274 Superday misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -18p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike (NA)] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything.
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    90 days

    Day 6 no erotica/pmo/games (fri) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 475; Procrastination: -1441; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -45; Identity total: -1259 Super day misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -18p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap I start to feel a bit funny every now and then. I want to feel good and I get restless. Unpleasant news increase that. All fine for now though. Also, finally got rig of the biggest thing on the procrastination list. Finally. How you do anything is how you do everything.
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    90 days

    Day 5 no erotica/pmo/games (thu) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Working all day. Need to go to sleep quick, early morning. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 461; Procrastination: -1423; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -45; Identity total: -1255 Super day misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -38p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything. Anything.
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    90 days

    Day 4 no erotica/pmo/games (wed) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Rent-paying crap work day, like every wednesday. Wed and thu long shifts support me, the job is dull but easy and it pays not too bad. To be changed once I'm off the addictions and into an exciting career. Not sure how to approach wed/thu, as there's not enough time to do some of the things for superday anyway. Will think about it when I actually have a chance of doing one on a wed, a bit irrelevant now with the procrastination lagging behind. Finally deleted my duolingo account, no more distractions from that. BooksandTrees, I agree that it can be a good thing to have something like watching a show for stress relies. But right now for me I try to condition my body to not crave that, as I've had way too much. It's like a cigarette every week. Maybe it's not too bad, in general, but it's bad when you are trying to quit smoking. But you make a good point, I need to organise reliaxing time as well, instead of expecting it to happen. I'll pick something that is relaxing but doesn't interfere with my dopamine restriction goal. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 449; Procrastination: -1385; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -43; Identity total: -1227 Super day misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -38p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day (NA): >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts (one), books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything.
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    90 days

    Thanks @Deku, it's still somewhat of a moving target with some of the habits, there are misses still, but things are slowly getting better. If you need some help with new habits, Atomic Habits is really good. Just try not to get overwhelmed with new stuff, a bit at a time over long time is key. Day 3 no erotica/pmo/games (tue) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): Spoke with my parents about what I'm trying to do, it was really good. Got a little bit of peace inside. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 434; Procrastination: -1347; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -43; Identity total: -1204 Super day misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -38p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal + not doing these: movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap How you do anything is how you do everything. Yet again. Do not trade sleep for anything else. It's a bad deal.
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    90 days

    Day 2 no erotica/pmo/games (mon) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): How you do anything is how you do everything. Followed some good advice and dropped duolingo. Reading the last post, duolingo actually fits very well with what I should not do. Good day, close to great. Slowly chipping at the procrastination list as well. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 405; Procrastination: -1271; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -41; Identity total: -1193 Super day misses in bold: Empty procrastination list (current -38p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal, no slips on any of the limits (movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap (duolingo, fixed))
  21. Thanks @TwoSidedLife and @Ikar, you helped me see things a bit more clearly, I'll be dropping duolingo for now. Indeed, I don't really have a reason to learn a language other than that "it's cool" and that it might "somehow sometime come handy". I don't chase medals and stuff on duolingo, but I'm there for the feel good trickle of the successful "ding" sound and the gamified progression. Not intentionally, but that must be what makes me want it. I spent about 35 minutes on it today and it did feel like a distraction. There's ton of other way more important things that I was ignoring for that "ding". Thanks again :)
  22. Hi, I've stopped games, 80 days so far, I've started nofap and cut off movies, books, internet curiousity stuff, anything that I find interesting and is very easy, with the idea to rewire my dopamine system. I'm trying to improve my discipline and increase a lot my resistance to discomfort by building habits and doing boring and unpleasant stuff. And by not doing easy high-dopamine stuff. I used to flood my system with happy chemistry by reading and learning for reading and learning's sake, without much actual benefit from those. I'm trying to eliminate distractions from what I want to be my vocation. With that in mind, does it seem like a good idea to spend about 30 minutes every day on learning languages? The way I'd go about it is 15 minutes Spanish, 15 minutes German every day, long term, in Duolingo, which is lots of very easy exercises. In 3-4 years I should be quite good conversationally at both. They would not be immediately beneficial, I have no plans of living in or even traveling long term in any predominantly spanish/german speaking country. I don't even have friends who speak any of these. I just like how they sound, probably because of tv channels I used to watch as a kid. Is this a total and useless distraction? I do get a serous dopamine hit from it (I do feel very good while doing the exercises) yet at the same time, long term it should be quite good for discipline (daily habit) and it is not a huge time sink. Any thoughts? My main concern is the effect on my dopamine system reboot.
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    90 days

    Day 1 no epmo + 78 days no games (sun) (goal: Dopamine system rewiring, achieving boredom): No games has been fine, starting strict no sexual stimulation. I'm considering cutting off more stuff again, but the advice from the Universal Man channel warns against cutting everything all at once. Probably if I cut off all I can, and then start burning out, I'd be more likely to ruin the game and erotic streaks. So I'll cut/reduce most things but leave some guilty pleasures. Except for the big two, big time wasters/dopamine pumps are movies, books, news, podcasts, learning things. Movies go for sure. Maybe one movie per week, no series or seconds, will see. Books... anything that is not the one most important book I need for my career goes (second one optional if strongly related to career, for while traveling). News - five minutes of website news daily, for headlines, plus the economist at part time work and while traveling. Podcasts only at the pt work, and will need to be moderated mainly for good work. Learning things... need to figure this one out, needs to be very constrained to work related stuff. About the habit tracker: Level 2 was 2x increase in negative points (6pt per procrastination thing, 20 for work procrastination). From now starting to double any other negative as well. Up points stay same as originally. "Super day": +50 extra points. To do a super day all needs to be done: Procrastination list to be empty, on track for bed by 00:45, good breakfast, contrast shower (to coldest 30+ sec), meditation (10 minutes), exercise (park or 30 minutes, stretch, plank, rice, shadow), two+ hours of good work (for lvl 2), reflective journal, no slips on any of the limits. Need to add something more for discipline/discomfort. Habit Tracker (super day: no): Good habits: 381; Procrastination: -1271; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -41; Identity total: -1179 Super day misses in bold: Procrastination list to be empty, on track for bed by 00:45, good breakfast, contrast shower (to coldest 30+ sec), meditation (10 minutes), exercise (park or 30 minutes, stretch, plank, rice, shadow), two+ hours of good work (for lvl 2), reflective journal, no slips on any of the limits Edit / addon: The new counter is for no erotic stuff of any kind, pmo as per the nofap site, games, so, no epmog. Will leave out the +78 days of no games even though it still applies. It will be 90 days for games on Thu 19 Sep. Need to keep track of the main goal, so it needs to be in the result every day. Due to the superday thing, it makes sense to post every day for a while. Better superday definition: Empty procrastination list (current -38p/d) + up at 08:45, down by 01:00 + soild breakfast and lunch + meditation (10m) + exercise (park or >30m stretch, plank, rice, shadowbox) + contrast shower (coldest >30s) + kegels + stamina exercise + [off pt work day: >two hours of good work (lvl 2), ride bike] + reflective journal, no slips on any of the limits (movies, podcasts, books, news, "learning" crap)
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    90 days

    Thanks @DaBest, I just have to come to terms that I need to sort out another recurring addiction - Erotica/porn. Day 78 (sat): Lost sight ot the general idea to normalise my dopamine levels and somehow went back to just no games. So far 78 days without games, with the exception of the ~15 min of visual novel game at some point. I wasn't sure whether I'd play after the 90 day. Still not sure about long term, but now the plan is to start 90 day on nofap, during which time the nogame will continue. Found some good stuff about it on youtube - Universal Man channel. Will go for sorting out things one by one as all at once didn't work yet again. Games I consider normalised/sorted, now it's turn for sorting out sexual stimulation. The habit tracker went to level 2: Increase the procrastination points per day to 2x from 1 September, to 38 per day. Habit Tracker: Good habits: 358; Procrastination: -1233; Addictions: -248; Other bad habits: -39; Identity total: -1162
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    90 days

    Day 64-68 (tue): Running still. Got a bit confusing with the tracker, but roughly there. I played about 15 minutes a visual novel before I thought about it as a game, which it was. Also, I quickly checked a game news website a couple of times. All together about 20 minutes in these five days. Not great, but other than that, no games. A lot more erotic stuff. A waste of so much energy. An interesting thought: I've been avoiding a few things for a while now, and the counter is wrecked, but actually I've been like this for years now, for so many things. If I were to count them they would be thousands and thousands in the minus. What it is, though, not what it was. Why the hell am I so reluctant to do those little things, the avoidance of which so drag me down? Learning to fear doing them is one thing, the habit of delaying them is another. Need to sort this better. Habit Tracker: Good habits: 255; Procrastination: -905; Addictions: -145; Other bad habits: -26; Identity total: -821
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