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  1. Day 43 -- 06/20/19 FOG 106 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOP 136 Days (Free Of Porn) NT 11 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) FOF 1 Days (Free Of Fapping) Had a fairly lazy day. Watched a lot of tv, but also spent some time thinking about my journey thus far. I've realized that although I've come quite a way, I haven't really addressed the needs that gaming fulfilled. Answering those four needs going into summer is something that I really want to try. I've outlined a rough daily structure to test out tomorrow and in the coming days. We'll see where it goes from there.
  2. Day 38 through day 42 -- 06/15/19 through 06/19/19 FOG 105 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOP 135 Days (Free Of Porn) NT 10 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) FOF 0 Days (Free Of Fapping) Working back into habits slowly. Had a hard depressed stretch. Doing good now. Read Bill Browder's "Red Notice" over the weekend. It was interesting.
  3. Day 37 -- 06/14/19 FOG 100 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 0 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 130 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 0 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 0 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 0 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 0 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 5 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 5 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 0 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) NTV 0 Days (No Television) What happened today Woke up at 5:50. Read Red Notice for 35 minutes. Had some chai green tea, worked on a sudoku and then walked to school. I feel confident about my french exam which took about two and a half hours. Walked home after and had lunch, worked on some sudokus and then proceeded to go on a TV binge. My dad knocked me out this long enough to go for a 30 minute 5k run, later go on a drive up to Costco and even helping him reorganize the fridge, but I always returned to the TV and now I'm up late. It's obviously being triggered by something that is weighing on my mind. I spent a lot of my day escaping. It could be that I'm worried about my exam on Monday (didn't touch my math all day). I also think that the realization that I'm almost done high school and have developed very little is freaking me out. I'm looking around me and seeing people who have built their lives through hard work and have actual goals. I, on the other hand, have always been a piece of dissociation, I just wouldn't admit it. I would judge myself really hard and tell myself that I could do better ; that I could do incredible things. That I was an incredibly competent person. I would fantasize. But when it comes down to it, I have always been lazy and afraid. I don't really know how to face that. I know that not delving into escapism is the first step, but every time I take a step forward I feel like I take two steps back. I just reached 100 days without gaming and I don't even feel like celebrating. I feel like I'm letting myself down and not doing as well as I should. This might stem from last weekend, which was difficult, or this week which hasn't been much better, but I just feel like I don't know where I'm heading. I know that this is part of embracing the uncertainty of life and that overcoming this is important, but I feel like it's an endless slog. And it's not as though I don't do well at school. I'm one of the top students. But that just makes it harder, because I know that I'm not developing important study and disciplinary habits that I'll need in the future and there are certain expectations and assumptions people make about me because of my grades. It's also the end of the school year and Monday is my last exam (calculus). After that, the training wheels are off and I have to get through the summer. Having that much time on my hands is a scary prospect. Last summer, I played video games all day every day during the summer. I don't want to be that person but I'm afraid that I'll become like that again. I'm just feeling the pressure. Got to get my thoughts together and figure out a game plan and accept that I can't control everything. It's late (11:35) and I'm calling it a night.
  4. Day 36 -- 06/13/19 FOG 99 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 0 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 129 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 0 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 0 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 0 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 0 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 4 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 4 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 4 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) What happened today Woke up at 6:20. Worked on a Sudoku and had some chai green tea. Studied biology for 10 minutes before walking to school to study until the test. Once people started to show up, we all quizzed each other. Went for a walk for about half an hour somewhere in the middle because I needed a break. Did the exam at 1 and it went well. Then chatted with some friends and then with Auriane for a while before walking home with my sister. After school, I ate some chicken pot pie (leftovers) and finished a sudoku. Then did some reading about yoga. Ran a sub 2 minute 600m and then ate supper. Drove my sister out to her riding lesson and spent an hour and a half just chilling with the horses. Drove her back after, spent a couple minutes on Duolingo working on my plural verbs, and now I'm planning to wash my face and go to bed. The plan for tomorrow Nail the french exam. Study math in the afternoon.
  5. Day 35 -- 06/12/19 FOG 98 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 3 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 128 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 0 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 0 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 0 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 0 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 3 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 3 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 3 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet) What happened today Woke up at 6:20. Worked on a Sudoku. Washed my face. Went to school. 1st Period : Worked on Integrals and chatted. 2nd Period : Studied Biology. 3rd Period : Free period. The whole class played just dance. I did 2 rounds. Not counting this as gaming because although it was a fun experience I don't plan on repeating it on a regular basis. Lunch : Went for a walk around the block and chatted with friends. Someone brought me a cookie! 4th Period : Scattegories and eating cake with the drama class (the show went well last night and they invited me to come celebrate). No PA. 5th Period : Chatting with friends, playing Rummy and doing class Kahoot games. After school, walked home and spent 45 minutes on Duolingo doing general review. Had some chai green tea and went for a 50 minute run (including warm up). Did a little biology. Washed my face. Went to bed at 10:40.
  6. Day 34 -- 06/11/19 FOG 97 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 2 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 127 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 0 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 0 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 2 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 0 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 2 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 2 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 2 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) What happened today Woke up at 6:20. Worked on a Sudoku, did some dishes, put away some other dishes and changed the milk and hemp seed bags. Washed my face. Walked to school. 1st Period : Worked on Integrals. 2nd Period : Studied Biology and worked on the formative pack. 3rd Period : Studied Biology and worked on Integrals. Lunch : Worked on Integrals, then chatted with friends. 4th Period : Kahoot + 5 minutes leg stretches. PA : 5 minutes jumping rope + Integrals + Biology study. 5th Period : Biology Study. In the last 10 minutes I mentally fell apart. Just kept my head down on my desk till the bell rang. After school, walked home with my sister (I didn't talk at all). Spent the next hour and a half alternating between crying and looking up google facts on depression. Not fun, but came to the conclusion that I am depressed. Had a conversation with my mom about it. She was very supportive. Ate some food and then drove over to do my volunteer work (lighting) for Mrs. Michelle's play (about 2 hours total). Afterwards, talked to a good friend a bit and drove home. Ate supper. Now I'm typing this (8:51). Going to shave and wash my face and then do a little bit of Biology. Then I'll go to bed. It's been a long day and I need some sleep. EDIT : Ended up making some herbal tea (peppermint and vanilla), reading 10 minutes of Anna Karenina, washing my face, trimming my nails and then going to bed at 10:10. The plan for tomorrow Wake up 6:20. Do a morning activity (exercise, meditation or stretching). Maybe do some reading and spanish. Have breakfast and try drinking some tea. Take a shower and wash my face. Walk to school. At school, study Biology for the test tomorrow. Definitely get in a workout before the end of the day (I mentally need it haha).
  7. Day 33 -- 06/10/19 FOG 96 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 1 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 126 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 0 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 0 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 1 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 0 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 1 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 1 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 1 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) What happened today Woke up at 6:20. Walked to school. 1st Period : Drew and zoned out in class. Our teacher handed out some new homework. 2nd Period : Handed in my biology project. I knew that it wasn't my best work, but I've come to terms with that. Then we received our review sheets for the test on Thursday. 3rd Period : Watched our Rube Goldberg project videos. Then had a free period. Spent it playing cards with Justin and Will. Lunch : Went for a walk and contemplated how to move forward. 4th Period : Went to an award presentation. It was fairly boring. PA : Spent half an hour stretching in the weight room. 5th Period : Went to finish the antacid experiment at the lab. Officially the last piece of chemistry work for the year. We are now done chemistry class. After school, I went to the theater and spent 3 hours doing lighting for Mrs. Michelle's student play. The show is tomorrow night. After that, I walked home and ate supper. Then I did the dishes, drove out to pick up my mom from the airport, had a good conversation with her about my ordeal with the biology project and then came home and ate some candy with her and my sister. Now I'm writing this (9:22) and afterwards I plan to shave and wash my face before going to bed. EDIT : Ended up watching some of the raptors game with my mom, then washed and shaved my face and went to bed at 10:50. I've also made a plan for moving forward. I am going to go with my tried and true method of slowly building habits. However, I will be focusing more on my schoolwork and acquiring some responsibility. This means doing more housework and generally doing the right thing when presented with the option to work or quit. I've identified one of my biggest weaknesses as being the fact that for all my life I have had things handed to me and rarely have to do much work myself. I believe that this is what led to me gaming, developing a multitude of bad habits and being generally lazy. In order to overcome this, I think that housework and responsible daily study will be the key. My goal at this point is to develop responsibility, getting back into my good habits, trying new things and generally doing the thing that I think is the right one. This means that when presented with the choice between working and escaping that I will pick the work, because the escape doesn't get me anywhere. I noticed that tonight, that I am presented with various choices through out the day and that I usually take the path of least resistance. It really is important that I develop the responsibility and discipline required to make the decision that is best for me. I don't expect this change to happen overnight. It really does come down to the little things. But in the end, they are what matter most.
  8. You're 100% right Ikar. I spiraled in the aftermath of this ordeal and it took me some time to get my mind together and formulate a game plan. Time management and responsibility are domains that I need to work at in order to prevent these situations in the future (because they are really, really not fun or good in any way...). I've put together a game plan that I will implement soon and will post with my next journal entry. I really appreciate your response! Thank you ?
  9. Thanks fawn. I was really out of it last night. Gonna take some time to evaluate how I approach this before diving in but I agree that being aggressive and extreme is not the way. Frankly I think I was still in shock last night at how the last couple days went down and I was focusing on the negative instead of being reasonable. There were some plusses to what happened. I managed to not relapse into gaming or porn, which is massive! I think I was under the illusion that I had somehow magically transformed all these things when in reality it's going to take a lot longer and a lot more work to do it. That said, this is obviously an improvement over what has happened previously with projects like these pre game quitting. I'm still tired as hell and kind of out of it, will put some thought into this.
  10. Days 30 through 32 -- 06/07/19 through 06/09/19 FOG 95 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 0 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 125 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 0 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 0 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 0 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 0 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 0 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 0 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 0 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) What happened in the last couple days The last couple days have been complicated. Long story short, I was assigned a project a couple weeks back and hadn't started yet even though it was due on Monday. Friday we did almost nothing at school and in the evening I went to an International Night at my school, but I didn't work on my Biology project. Saturday, I broke down under the pressure and relapsed in almost all my bad habits. I had allowed the pressure to become to great by leaving a full project to the last minute. I got a little of the project done, but nothing that was really worth much. Still too scared to handle this situation. Went to work from 5 to midnight and that gave me some time to think. Sunday, I was still relapsing and freaking out. I knew that I could perform at the last minute and still come up with something exceptional, but I also knew that it would take a toll. I got the project done about half an hour ago and now I am just thinking about this whole ordeal. Report on where I currently stand I've been through a lot in the last couple days. I got out of my social bubble by going to the International Night, which was good. But the real important thing in all this was the Biology project and what it taught me. I learned that one of my triggers for my bad habits is leaving work to the last minute. This is something that I do a lot and is probably the leading reason that I have these bad habits in the first place. Most of them constitute escapism and allow me to hide from my problems. The issue with this is that I am allowing my obstacles to conquer me. I need to get a jump on my work from now on instead of leaving it to the last minute, because this brings out my biggest weaknesses. To move forward at this point, I need to callous my mind and start facing things head on. To start doing things that I don't want to do at all. And yeah, this sounds like an awful idea and a great way to relapse, but I also know that I won't be able to move forward as a person if I don't start facing the uncertainty and the unknown. And I'm scared shitless. But I know that bad habits don't just happen to you; they grow. They are the sum total of all your weaknesses and insecurities. By facing my insecurities, I aim to kill my bad habits at the root by killing off my weakness. Until now I have been fighting symptoms, and that's a good first step, but in order to win this war against myself I need to start going on the offensive. So I will. (I've been reading David Goggins and yeah, that stuff really sinks in man, I'm starting to think with a whole new mentality about how I have to move forward as a person and what my goal is. My goal isn't to be popular or the best or smart or comfortable. I want to work towards the dark kind of happiness that Goggins has, the kind that comes with overcoming everything that gets in your way, and when nothing's in your way you put something in your way and overcome that too.) Sorry this was quite a venting session and a bit dramatic but frankly it's where my head is at right now and writing this help has helped me ascertain my convictions before moving forward. This might go really poorly or it might go really well, but either way I have got to try it, because trying new things is all I've got at this point.
  11. Day 29 -- 06/06/19 FOG 92 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 92 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 122 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 69 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 37 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 37 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 37 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 17 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 6 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 5 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) Report on where I currently stand Had a good day at school. Did my Physics test and it went well. Also realized that I was WAY behind everyone else with the Biology project for Monday... Kind of freaking out about it. I procrastinated from getting started on it when I got home (watched 2 TV episodes). Then I realized that I was procrastinating and put out some reps to clear my mind before getting to work. While working on the project I realized that the people that admire who are punctual with their work aren't about quantity or tackling their work all at once. They really do break it down into pieces ahead of time and chip away at it. I know that in order to improve I need to begin to feel this sense of duty so that even when I don't want to work I do at least a little bit. I also need to take a step back from TV because I have now established that I don't feel comfortable going there yet. Living in another world and running from mine is the coward's way out and I don't want to be a damn coward any longer. I want to own up to what needs to be done and do it even if it taxes me. Because that's how I'm going to become the person I want to be. What I am grateful for today Today I am grateful that I have good role models that I can look up to. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 9:30pm 10:15 Reading Spent 30 minutes reading Can't Hurt Me in the morning. Workout 10 minutes jump rope PA 15 minutes ab exercises PA 25 minutes solo track (5 min warm up, 200m, 7x200 (all sub 45s)(30s rest), 5 min cooldown) 15 Push-Ups, 202 Squats, 60 Lunges (putting out reps before Biology Project) Meditation ❌ Spanish Spent 10 minutes on Duolingo in the evening working on (People 2). Outdoors time 55 minutes track (walking to the track, workout, walking back from the track) Homework Spent 45 minutes working on my Biology project. What happened today Read in the morning. Drove to school. 1st Period : Worked on Integrals. 2nd Period : Studied Physics and worked on Integrals. 3rd Period : Physics test. Lunch : Chatted with some friends and walked to an ice cream store with them. 4th Period : Written comprehension pack and worked on Integrals. PA : Went to get a yearbook photo taken. Then jumped rope for 10 minutes and did ab exercises for 15 minutes. 5th Period : Went to the lab. Experiment with antacids. After School : Walked home. Upon arriving home, I went to the track and did some sprints. Afterwards I went to the basement and watched 2 episodes of "Designated Survivor" (ate supper between them). This was some serious procrastination that had to be stopped in its tracks. When I realized that I was doing, I went and did 10 minutes of Duolingo and then realized that the reason that I wasn't feeling good and that I was procrastinating was that I am afraid that I won't get my Biology project done after seeing everyone else's coming together. After that, I got down and put out some reps before getting started on it. I haven't gotten very far yet but I'm confident now that, having taken the first step, I can get it done. Doesn't mean that it will be easy; but it's not an impossible task. It's currently 9:05 and I'm going to do the dishes and go to bed. I'm going to get more done with that project tomorrow. What I could have done better today Meditation. What I'm doing tomorrow Biology Project. International Night (school event). My Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling. Allowing myself to try new things and lightening up. Embracing the uncertainty. Weekly Goals - Going to bed before 9:30 and waking up at 6:20. - Doing some meditation. - Acing my Chemistry test. ✅ - Acing my Physics test. ✅ - Finishing my Biology Project - Doing something fun and spontaneous! Current Goals - Running a sub 3 minute kilometer before I leave for my trip in June. - Lightening up and trying new things. - Passing 11th grade with a 96% average or higher (our grades are crazy inflated and I currently have ~97% average).
  12. Day 28 -- 06/05/19 FOG 91 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 91 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 121 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 68 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 36 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 36 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 36 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 16 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 5 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 4 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) Report on where I currently stand Felt good today. My legs were tired from running and needed a rest day. Lifted weights and watched TV for the first time in a while. Wasn't sure whether I was ready for TV or if I would get sucked in and binge. Felt the urge after finishing the episode, but resisted it. Thought about doing yoga as cross training when my legs get tired instead of weights. What I am grateful for today Today I am grateful that I have good friends. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 9:30pm 9:40 Reading Spent 35 minutes reading Can't Hurt Me in the morning. Spent 25 minutes reading Can't Hurt Me in the evening. Workout 40 minutes lifting weights in the evening. Meditation ❌ Spanish Spent 30 minutes on Duolingo in the evening doing working on (School, Work) and some revision. Outdoors time Walking to and from school. Homework Spent 40 minutes studying Physics in the evening. What happened today Read in the morning. Walked to school. 1st Period : Worked on Integrals. 2nd Period : Organized some of my folders. Took some Biology notes and worked on Integrals. 3rd Period : Teacher was absent. Studied physics. Lunch : Chatted with some friends (tried being passive in conversation again). 4th Period : Went outside for the period. We were supposed to work on a written comprehension pack, but everyone just chatted. Was a nice social activity. No PA (Wednesday) 5th Period : Got to class. Our teacher was at the printer down the hall. Half the class hid in the closet (there's a big closet with a door that's adjacent to the class). Our teacher came back and didn't notice that they were gone. Everyone was giggling their butts off. When she figured it out, she suggested that the half of the class that wasn't in the closet hide down the hall (because the people in the closet didn't know that she'd realized). Hence, we hid down the hall and they came looking for us. It was hilarious hearing them coming out of the closet, wondering where we'd gone and freaking out. Eventually they found us. Then we all went back to class and got to work on a lab report discussion about antacids. After School : Walked home. Upon arriving home, I helped my dad put up the new TV for my parents bedroom. Answered some email. Spent some time on Duolingo. Called my mom (she's out of the country for work) and submitted and application to mentor new students next year. I also called the doctor's office about my bloodwork. Ate supper and then read for a time. Then I did some Physics and lifted weights while watching "Designated Survivor". I'm typing this at 9:22. What I could have done better today Meditation. What I'm doing tomorrow Studying Physics. My Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling. Allowing myself to try new things and lightening up. Embracing the uncertainty. Weekly Goals - Going to bed before 9:30 and waking up at 6:20. - Doing some meditation. - Acing my Chemistry test. ✅ - Acing my Physics test. - Doing something fun and spontaneous! Current Goals - Running a sub 3 minute kilometer before I leave for my trip in June. - Lightening up and trying new things. - Passing 11th grade with a 96% average or higher (our grades are crazy inflated and I currently have ~97% average).
  13. Day 27 -- 06/04/19 FOG 90 Days (Free Of Gaming) ? ? ? FOF 90 Days (Free Of Fapping) ? ? ? FOP 120 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 67 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 35 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 35 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 35 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 15 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) NT 4 Days (No Typing) (Not playing typing games) S30PIU 3 Days (Sub 30 minutes personal Internet use) (This excludes Duolingo, school work and any other truly purposeful use of the Internet, such as practicing origami) Report on where I currently stand We did it! 90 Days! I can't believe that it's been three months... I feel like a whole new person after all this time. I feel as though my mind is mine now and that no one can take that away from me. It feels great! I've enjoyed coming this far and I'm not going to let up. Gaming and fapping might not be my biggest obstacles any longer, but there are still loads of things that I can improve on as an individual. I'm ready to keep moving forward ?. What I am grateful for today Today I am grateful that I've gotten this far. I'm also grateful that I have the opportunity to keep going and to discover myself and my potential even further, as well as being able to enjoy the world more and help others. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 9:30pm 9:45 Reading Spent 20 minutes reading Can't Hurt Me in the morning. Workout 40 minutes running (Running to the track, 200m, 400m, 600m, 400m, 200m). 10 minutes stretching in the evening. 5 minutes volleying a volleyball with my sister. Meditation ❌ Spanish Spent 20 minutes on Duolingo in the evening doing working on (School, People). Outdoors time Walking to and from school. 40 minutes running. 20 minutes walking (walking back from the track). Homework ❌ What happened today Read in the morning. Went to the hospital for bloodwork. Walked to school. 1st Period : Worked on Integrals. Got my test back. 98% ?! 2nd Period : Studied chemistry and took some quick notes for bio class. 3rd Period : Teacher was absent. Studied chemistry. Lunch : Chatted with some friends (tried being passive in conversation again) and studied chemistry. 4th Period : Went to the theater and did the lighting for the drama class's practice (the play is next week). PA : Finished up at the theater and then went to chemistry class to study more. 5th Period : Chemistry test. I think it went well. Maybe 1 or 2 mistakes, nothing major. Walked home. Upon arriving home, I went up to the track for practice but no one was there, so I just did an interval workout. Walked home after. Went outside to play volleyball with my sister while my dad finished up supper. Ate and then went to my sister's concert. It started late, which gave us the opportunity to chat with people for half an hour in the antechamber. After the concert, I spent 10 minutes reading Anna Karenina while they cleaned up. Went home. Spent 20 minutes on Duolingo. Looked up some running nutrition. Now I'm typing this (9:04), going to have a snack after and then call it a night. What I could have done better today I could have gotten some homework done after school. What I'm doing tomorrow Studying Physics. My Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling. Allowing myself to try new things and lightening up. Embracing the uncertainty. Weekly Goals - Going to bed before 9:30 and waking up at 6:20. - Doing some meditation. - Acing my Chemistry test. ✅ - Acing my Physics test. - Doing something fun and spontaneous! Current Goals - Running a sub 3 minute kilometer before I leave for my trip in June. - Lightening up and trying new things. - Passing 11th grade with a 96% average or higher (our grades are crazy inflated and I currently have ~97% average).
  14. Glad to hear that you feel ready to try some new habits! It might be rough at the start, as you won't be used to them and will probably make some mistakes, but once you get going the experience is well worth it!
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