Ikar

7 Apr - 15 Apr: I had the last two days of the lecturer course. One of the days, we had an activity to write something nice about the other attendees. I can say that was touching and not something I'm used to 😄 Stark contrast to that was the Saturday with my father and brother in the grandma's kitchen. It was needlessly emotional and exhausting. I'm happy to say that really 95% of the work is done, the new kitchen is operational and that there are just a few things left to be done, something I can do with my friend. I at least had a nice trip with my girlfriend on Sunday to recover. The next few weeks are going to be shorter because of two holidays my girlfriend and I planned. Looking forward to those.

31 Mar - 6 Apr: I managed to go to the sauna three times the past week. I expect to have no time for it this week though, as my schedule got busy due to the lecturer course on Thursday/Friday. I worked on the new website again. Regardless, there were some nice things happening this week. I met my girlfriend's long-time friend who lives in another city and had a meeting with the local FIRE community. I find this system of journaling once a week and having a separate extra reminder for planning the next few days helps me be more organized.

We actually don't do that much cardio with the weighs, but the muscles do get sore afterwards. There's little reason to push it to the absolute limit, just to be completely sore for the next four days 😄 If I wanted to fully load the weights, they'd both have 10 kilograms, though there's currently no need for that. Anyhow, I'm fairly happy to be with a sporty girlfriend, it definitely helps me to keep in a better shape.

Don't worry, it's OK to vent. Sorry to hear your father has a bad influence on you.

22 Mar - 30 Mar: Nothing much happened this past week. Spent some time with my girlfriend, attended some seminars/talks with her and watched some films too. Did a good job exercising with her, as I bought weights last weekend too. Visited my family too.

16 Mar - 21 Mar: I've been busy this week, as I managed my usual of about 20 lessons while also going to two full days of 8 hours lecturer training. I had little time to do much else, but I feel good, as it was all quite useful. Spent some time now planning ahead and reflecting on the weeks to come. I have a lot of ideas in my head, but I need to start implementing them, so that there's actual positive change.

Thanks. There's a good chance I will, as I've been doing it for a few years 😄

I'm using the template I used the last time. 18/2/25 - 16/3/25 "L" will stand for the (last) plan/notes for this term. "T" will stand for done this term. I added "Future goals/direction" to better reflect on the things I am trying to do and to add specificity. I will copy it and stick it somewhere where I can see it to remind myself whenever I feel aimless. I will also use different colors: blue for newly added goals/habits, green for completed/successful, orange for ongoing/some progress and red for ones I haven't worked on in that period. Books/Reading articles/Learning: L: I finished "Outlive" by Attia. Rather than using any particular tips or knowledge from it, I used it to push myself into more exercise. Started a new book by Dawkins called "The Selfish Gene". Read on Reddit about finance and English teaching again. T: Reading the new book by Dawkins called "The Selfish Gene". I'm about halfway through. Read on Reddit about finance and English teaching again. Possible direction/goals: (Borrow) and read one book until the next monthly report. Family: L: Had some family visits. Also went to watch hockey with my parents and a family friend. Made two kitchen-related trips to my grandma with my friend. I had a small incident with my grandma yesterday. We talked for about five minutes over phone. She was worried about... my brother envying me an 8€ banknote that she gave me at the weekend. In front of the whole family, as my girlfriend rightfully pointed out. She said she was afraid he wouldn't talk to her anymore, so she asked me to write him. He said that he might consider not talking to her indeed, after she thought he might envy me an 8€ note (which I frankly think he didn't even remember, as our grandma gives us stuff regularly) 🙂 In relation, my brother told me a similar story about her thinking that our mother is an alcoholic. I also just remembered the time my grandma was low-key saying that she probably won't live much longer. I think it's a mix of fear of abandonment, overthinking and creating doom and gloom scenarios and being paranoid. I guess insanity can take many forms. From now on, I'll try to be more receptive towards my mom and take grandma's opinions for what they are; opinions. T: Nothing new, except we found out yesterday that the dimensions in the kitchen don't add up by a few centimeters, so we couldn't stick to the original plan. I guess there's always April... NOT: I don't want to get alienated from my family. Possible direction/goals: Work on getting the new kitchen for my grandma. Continue work on maintaining the relationships with my family. Business/English: L: My application to the course was successful! I've already had the first two training days, one about methodology and one about presentation skills. I'm hoping to learn and use a lot of stuff. I've also been working on an improved English table for my students. I've also been flustered by modifying my pricing in a reasonable way. Long story short, I need to charge my pricing in regard to my afternoon (and maybe later morning) F2F students. I currently charge nothing for traveling and I could have another lesson or do something else in that time. I also had a call with my CELTA colleagues. T: The first part of the course was engaging and interesting. The reworked online table is pretty much finished now. Pricing is worked out for now too. Worked on the website and I'm currently looking for someone to do front-end for me, perhaps along with SEO and marketing. NOT: I don't want to have a job that I don't enjoy. I don't want to have a job that is not well paid. Past projects: Copied to a Google Doc to keep this less cluttered. Current projects I'm working on: Website improvement project - since August 2024 English table update - since December 2024 lecturer trainings - ENG business February-May 2025 55 minutes F2F lessons (+ online reminder too); pricing updates Areas to work on continually: Keep classes at a stable 20-25 hours a week. Keep asking for reviews or recommendations from students. CELTA colleagues calls. Go through "lecturer academy" + CELTA materials + lecturer course. Exercise/Movement/Health: L: These days, I normally manage 1-2x exercise sessions (or runs) and 1-2x stretching sessions a week. All that along with some hikes at the weekend and regular walks once or twice a day. I had the last cardiology check at the end of January. As for health, I also started flossing more regularly. T: Did some heavier (lifting/cardio) exercise twice a week for the last month, on top of walks and yoga/stretching. The headaches haven't stopped; however it might be because of the altitude changes, so I'll test it the next time we'll go hiking. Perhaps biking is gonna be a better activity for me. I might go to the neurologist to check up on me. Flossing as usual. What I do enjoy is going to the sauna; and then to submerge in the cold water, it's fun 😄 NOT: I don't want to become fat. Possible direction/goals: Keep in shape by exercising at least twice a week for 30-60 minutes. --- My hobbies are: personal finance, graphs/projections/statistics, gunnery, reading/videos about (modern) history, English, working on my business, blogging/writing, geography. This month, I did these cool activities: having a board-game night with friends, visiting my girlfriend's family, reading about finance, reading about English, attending a FIRE meeting, meeting with friends, going to the shooting range, going to the sauna, going biking, going to an improvisation show. Got my car checked and everything is OK. Spent less time at the computer too. --- For thought: Maybe I should just learn to plan better, though just the thought of having some hours of my day scheduled makes me cringe. Oddly enough, I don't get this feeling while planning lessons of my students, normally in bigger blocks. Maybe I should rethink that belief to make me happier. I've had this recurring thought every now and then that I am often somehow prevented from what I want to do in my free time; basically whenever I am not with students or sleeping. No, I just need to stop reading and learning all the time and start doing things. Imperfect action yields results. Information alone is useless. --- Plans for 2025: Family: I don't have any specific plans for my family, besides finishing my grandma's kitchen. I also don't have any plans of starting my own, although I've always said I'm ready after finishing the uni. The main thing for the success of that would be to manage time and money correctly. Career: The last year was successful business-wise. I got the confirmation for the new lecturer course running from February to May. The main goal is to get the website finished, so I want to actively cooperate with the other freelancers. I'm not going to set any arbitrary goals, except keeping my lesson work-hours around 20-25, and to managing the other admin stuff (preparation, mails, trainings) in another 10 hours. That makes the total of 30-35 hours worked a week. Friends, community: I am part of more friend groups and communities. I don't have any big plans in mind regarding this area of my life. I expect to naturally drift towards more libertarian, financially educated and entrepreneurial/self-employed communities. I find the most inspiring people there. Relaxation, hobbies, creativity: I intend on continuing the hobbies I currently do, including writing, working out or going to the shooting range. I also want to remain curious about things and keep on traveling to break out of the cycle to unwind completely sometimes. Maybe I'll get around to blogging again. I think the line between work and relaxation is blurry for me. Physical health, fitness: Again working out (and stretching) and flossing. I think my diet is OK. I might start tracking some indicators of body fitness, but I don't think I'm quite there yet. Mental health, self-knowledge: Avoid overwork and burnout. Keep hours on roughly 20 lessons + 10 hours of ancillary work a week. Keep on doing things that feel right. Keep on planning/marking down things in my calendar. Habits that define you: family - keep in touch with my family at least once a month girlfriend - make time to talk every day and keep on working on strengthening our relationship via common activities career - work on my education continually, learning something new every week, even in unstructured ways; sources: CELTA, meeting other English lecturers/teachers, reading on their websites, lecturer course coming up in February, working on the business side of my work friends/community habits - meet with my best friend a few times a month, meet with my friend groups a few times a month too relaxation, hobbies, creativity habits - shooting range, writing, traveling, blogging, reading, being curious fitness habits - stretch every day, work out/run twice a week; floss daily mental health habits - keep my hobbies, work and other activities in balance, try new things every now and then a better tomorrow habits - provide great added value back for the money of my students ---

7 Mar - 12 Mar: It's been a fairly busy week. At the weekend, I had a board game evening, an all day hiking trip with my girlfriend and on Sunday we took the car to the service and combined it with a cycling trip with my girlfriend and had a nice evening in the sauna. Went for sushi with my brother on Monday. Brought my car back on Tuesday and went to an improv show in the evening too. Had some work with my new website yesterday and today as well. I managed to catch up on all the important stuff today.

27 Feb - 6 Mar: I had a few good meetings the last few days. I met with friends in a pub, played board games with others and went to a meeting with my financial friend group 🙂 I went to the mountains with my girlfriend and had some family meetings as well. Went to an event/discussion with her and also for a run with my friend. Apart from lessons with my students, I worked on the new online table and did some reading.

That's an interesting idea. Sometimes, at least in my case, navigating free time is harder than navigating work-time. It's easier to be there with the students at the moment, because I know the scope of options is more limited. Limiting stress on students is a part of my job, because stressed students can't learn. I need to give them a plan to work on in order to learn, but only a bit by bit and at their own pace. Plus streamlined and careful negotiation makes business go smoothly. I do agree that work overall blocks worries, because we actually do something and we don't sit and worry about what to do next. Action heals and beats overthinking. I think that's why I don't really have many fond memories of my childhood/teenage years. I didn't have a real say at school or at home. I could only wait until I was 18 to start living on my own terms and start being responsible for myself. I at least got the chance to stop chronically reacting to the outside world at 21 when I quit games. Learning how to be a helpless sheep is one of the worst things that school, family and society can teach an individual.

I've been doing that for a while. I think the easiest solution is to just use Ctrl+S and save the webpage on my computer locally. I have all 50+ pages of my diary saved. That way, I know my writing will not be lost 🙂 Thanks for fixing it!

Maybe that's the explanation. I went to the sauna and I went to the cool pool a few days ago before I got sick. Or maybe it was because I felt hot afterwards, didn't put my cap on after we went out and had wet hair. I have to say regular cold showers are probably a no-go for me. I enjoy spending time in the shower/bath and I have to say it's one of the few things that always bring me positive joy during the day 😄

21 Feb - 26 Feb: I managed to clear out many of my open browser tabs. I also had a call with my fellow CELTA colleague. Worked on my grandma's kitchen with my friend and it seems like we're really nearly done for our part. My girlfriend, her sister's boyfriend and I went to the mountains and I also went to the shooting range at the weekend. I also worked on updating my online table for my students and read up on some news on financial and English Reddit.

Oh yeah, I can normally trace it back to the origin, but I haven't this time. I felt sick for the next four or five days. I worked as usual, but limited exercise and also my stay outside. The temperature here hovers around 0 Celsius this time of the year, so a lot of people are sick. I feel good today though 🙂

18 Feb - 20 Feb: Nothing much has happened in the last few days, but I have the time to write a little, so I want to take advantage of it. I just started the lecturer training and went to the sauna with my girlfriend. I'm feeling a bit sick, but I have the rest of the evening free and just a few lessons tomorrow, so I hope to be OK before the weekend.

I'm using the template I used the last time. 7/1/25 - 18/2/25 "L" will stand for the (last) plan/notes for this term. "T" will stand for done this term. I added "Future goals/direction" to better reflect on the things I am trying to do and to add specificity. I will copy it and stick it somewhere where I can see it to remind myself whenever I feel aimless. I will also use different colors: blue for newly added goals/habits, green for completed/successful, orange for ongoing/some progress and red for ones I haven't worked on in that period. Books/Reading articles/Learning: L: Spent some time reading on Reddit again, scanning for any relevant information. I'm almost finished with "Outlive" by Attia. I can say it sparked more interest about health, exercise and fitness in general. T: I finished "Outlive" by Attia. Rather than using any particular tips or knowledge from it, I used it to push myself into more exercise. Started a new book by Dawkins called "The Selfish Gene". Read on Reddit about finance and English teaching again. Possible direction/goals: (Borrow) and read one book until the next monthly report. Family: L: I went to the theater with my mom and made some family visits as usual. My father and my brother took turns to work on the grandma's kitchen and it seems like we're really nearing the end. T: Had some family visits. Also went to watch hockey with my parents and a family friend. Made two kitchen-related trips to my grandma with my friend. I had a small incident with my grandma yesterday. We talked for about five minutes over phone. She was worried about... my brother envying me an 8€ banknote that she gave me at the weekend. In front of the whole family, as my girlfriend rightfully pointed out. She said she was afraid he wouldn't talk to her anymore, so she asked me to write him. He said that he might consider not talking to her indeed, after she thought he might envy me an 8€ note (which I frankly think he didn't even remember, as our grandma gives us stuff regularly) 🙂 In relation, my brother told me a similar story about her thinking that our mother is an alcoholic. I also just remembered the time my grandma was low-key saying that she probably won't live much longer. I think it's a mix of fear of abandonment, overthinking and creating doom and gloom scenarios and being paranoid. I guess insanity can take many forms. From now on, I'll try to be more receptive towards my mom and take grandma's opinions for what they are; opinions. NOT: I don't want to get alienated from my family. Possible direction/goals: Work on getting the new kitchen for my grandma. Continue work on maintaining the relationships with my family. Business/English: L: Worked on the new website again with the web-designer. Sent out the bi-yearly questionnaires to my students. After sending out the questionnaires, I went for a holiday to Balearic Islands with my girlfriend. After coming back, I felt very excited to work with my students again! I contacted some of my old students and I signed up for a course organized and run by a coach I cooperated with in the past at the university and that paid for by the government. I hope the application goes through 🙂 T: My application to the course was successful! I've already had the first two training days, one about methodology and one about presentation skills. I'm hoping to learn and use a lot of stuff. I've also been working on an improved English table for my students. I've also been flustered by modifying my pricing in a reasonable way. Long story short, I need to charge my pricing in regard to my afternoon (and maybe later morning) F2F students. I currently charge nothing for traveling and I could have another lesson or do something else in that time. I also had a call with my CELTA colleagues. NOT: I don't want to have a job that I don't enjoy. I don't want to have a job that is not well paid. Past projects: Copied to a Google Doc to keep this less cluttered. Current projects I'm working on: Website improvement project - since August 2024 English table update - since December 2024 lecturer trainings - ENG business February-May 2025 55 minutes F2F lessons (+ online reminder too); pricing updates Areas to work on continually: Keep classes at a stable 20-25 hours a week. Keep asking for reviews or recommendations from students. CELTA colleagues calls. Go through "lecturer academy" + CELTA materials + lecturer course. Exercise/Movement: L: These days, I normally manage 1-2x exercise sessions (or runs) and 1-2x stretching sessions a week. All that along with some hikes at the weekend and regular walks once or twice a day. The appointment went alright, though I am going for another test later this month. Went to donate blood plasma twice as well, so I assume my health is alright, as they need to do checks. T: These days, I normally manage 1-2x exercise sessions (or runs) and 1-2x stretching sessions a week. All that along with some hikes at the weekend and regular walks once or twice a day. I had the last cardiology check at the end of January. As for health, I also started flossing more regularly. NOT: I don't want to become fat. Possible direction/goals: Keep in shape by exercising at least twice a week for 30-60 minutes. --- My hobbies are: personal finance, graphs/projections/statistics, gunnery, reading/videos about (modern) history, English, working on my business, blogging/writing, geography. This month, I did these cool activities: having a board-game night with friends, visiting my friends, reading about finance, reading about English, attending a FIRE meeting, meeting with friends. Spent less time at the computer too. --- For thought: Maybe I should just learn to plan better, though just the thought of having some hours of my day scheduled makes me cringe. Oddly enough, I don't get this feeling while planning lessons of my students, normally in bigger blocks. Maybe I should rethink that belief to make me happier. I've had this recurring thought every now and then that I am often somehow prevented from what I want to do in my free time; basically whenever I am not with students or sleeping. No, I just need to stop reading and learning all the time and start doing things. Imperfect action yields results. Information alone is useless. --- Plans for 2025: Family: I don't have any specific plans for my family, besides finishing my grandma's kitchen. I also don't have any plans of starting my own, although I've always said I'm ready after finishing the uni. The main thing for the success of that would be to manage time and money correctly. Career: The last year was successful business-wise. I got the confirmation for the new lecturer course running from February to May. The main goal is to get the website finished, so I want to actively cooperate with the other freelancers. I'm not going to set any arbitrary goals, except keeping my lesson work-hours around 20-25, and to managing the other admin stuff (preparation, mails, trainings) in another 10 hours. That makes the total of 30-35 hours worked a week. Friends, community: I am part of more friend groups and communities. I don't have any big plans in mind regarding this area of my life. I expect to naturally drift towards more libertarian, financially educated and entrepreneurial/self-employed communities. I find the most inspiring people there. Relaxation, hobbies, creativity: I intend on continuing the hobbies I currently do, including writing, working out or going to the shooting range. I also want to remain curious about things and keep on traveling to break out of the cycle to unwind completely sometimes. Maybe I'll get around to blogging again. I think the line between work and relaxation is blurry for me. Physical health, fitness: Again working out (and stretching) and flossing. I think my diet is OK. I might start tracking some indicators of body fitness, but I don't think I'm quite there yet. Mental health, self-knowledge: Avoid overwork and burnout. Keep hours on roughly 20 lessons + 10 hours of ancillary work a week. Keep on doing things that feel right. Keep on planning/marking down things in my calendar. Habits that define you: family - keep in touch with my family at least once a month girlfriend - make time to talk every day and keep on working on strengthening our relationship via common activities career - work on my education continually, learning something new every week, even in unstructured ways; sources: CELTA, meeting other English lecturers/teachers, reading on their websites, lecturer course coming up in February, working on the business side of my work friends/community habits - meet with my best friend a few times a month, meet with my friend groups a few times a month too relaxation, hobbies, creativity habits - shooting range, writing, traveling, blogging, reading, being curious fitness habits - stretch every day, work out/run twice a week; floss daily mental health habits - keep my hobbies, work and other activities in balance, try new things every now and then a better tomorrow habits - provide great added value back for the money of my students

6 Feb - 12 Feb: I spent some time writing about finance, did my monthly financial report and sorted out taxes and pricing. Worked on the updated table for students; it's more or less ready, but I need to update the existing ones too, so that will probably take a few more hours. Met up with a friend on Friday and talked about everything. I also went to a sauna, played table games and went to a seminar - all with my girlfriend. I skipped a social evening today to write and focus on myself a little today.

I used the word "lucky" in the way that it's indeed a lottery, insofar as what activity gets us hooked and gives us satisfaction. We couldn't "choose" whether gaming interested us or not. We just fell for it. And we worked hard on it too. That's why I used the hockey sport analogy afterwards; had we been "luckier", maybe we'd fall for an activity that would be more useful for us and the society as well. I actually don't think there's a "predisposition to gaming", but rather a "predisposition to activities like gaming". We probably encountered gaming as the first complex activity that could fulfill us by chance; hence all the talk about luck and bad luck. I agree there's no reason in crying over spilt milk; what's done is done. It's necessary to be forward-looking. You're also correct that I'm lucky that gaming made me re-evaluate my life, values and activities. Maybe quitting gaming was the biggest opportunity for me. I don't think many people get that in their lives.

24 Jan - 5 Feb: My friend and I drilled holes and installed the doors for the upper kitchen cupboards. I had a great meeting last weekend with a bunch of inspiring people. The topic was financial independence and everybody shared their journey. Some topics still resonate in my head and the meeting also spurred my activity in related topics. Went to the cardiologist. He said my heart/blood pressure is nothing to worry about, as long as I exercise and eat well. I think I've been doing a good job exercising and flossing as well. My parents and I also went to a hockey match with our family friend. It was nice to experience the atmosphere of a hockey match again, especially since "our" team won 😄 We also had a couple more game nights with my girlfriend's sister and her boyfriend and my friend. It's generally a good time, although my girlfriend and I think her sister and boyfriend can be sometimes needlessly toxic during game-time for a variety of reasons. Looked after the car by taking it to the mechanic. Just a few small issues, nothing serious. Had a pub meeting with my girlfriend's office colleagues from work. I already knew most of them at least a little. We had good fun. - I probably have mild ADHD. I sometimes jump from one activity to another and forget to finish the previous one. My calendar helps me with that, as I can keep track of the important stuff.

Even part-time work is good. I've been self-employed for a few years. I took up more work quite naturally as I grew more efficient with using my time and got into basic habits. Hope the meds situation gets better. Honestly, it's possible that there are people in your life who try to usurp your independence (and boundaries). Ironically, when I was quitting, I think the fact I didn't know a lot of people and had really just a few connections helped me in fact. I didn't have to renegotiate so many relationships. I had more conflicts with my father after I quit gaming, rather than before. Parents in particular will still see you as their child if they pay for any of your needs. I think it's always a good idea to break that "financial" parental umbilical cord using any means necessary, apart from crime 😄

I can share what works for me, but always remember you're the boss of you. I think the first thing of importance is to become independent. How is the job hunt for you looking?

It does matter whether you get lucky or unlucky. I don't regret the fact that I didn't become a famous streamer, but the truth is I just got unlucky with the game selection. The game was just too small and there was never any real potential to make a living off of it. If I had a passion/addiction to a sport, for example hockey, maybe I'd make it to the national team. If 1) I liked the hobby, 2) had a good team, 3) met the right people, 4) had no injuries, 5) had the parents' support... the list goes on and on. But even with a successful hockey career, there's no guarantee that my life wouldn't come crashing down after finishing my career as a player, because I'd be useless in other areas of life. Hard work and determination can lead you to both being a gaming addict and being a famous person. It's still a lottery. I feel the same about the part I put in bold. I also feel better about growing into my potential. For "bottom line", I wrote: "Hard work does pay overall for most people, but it's not enough to be famous and you have to be careful with using it in the right way." I don't know if that translates to "it's not worth going through all this hard work because you might not get anything in the end so might aswell not try to begin with". I think work gives people meaning and that it's intrinsically valuable. The issue is you can't choose the activities you are passionate about or addicted to and therefore "hard work" can get you into unexpected or bad places as well. It reminded me of the "Gaming Addiction Superpower". Our determination and hard work on our gaming got us in the wrong place. I don't think it's possible to argue that, but feel free, I'll be happy to read the argument 🙂 I think a part of my "calling" is writing as well, maybe that's why I am writing these responses (and I mean it; writing improves verbal skills too and I have a blog) 😄 By "nothing in particular" I do indeed mean an activity of some sort. For me at this time, it's watching a video about finance (my hobby), helping my girlfriend assemble her 4000-piece puzzle or just getting the clothes off of the dryer. All of these are important in their own way, but they are hardly anything I'd write about in great detail. I put the part in bold, because that's a solid argument to think about from a purely mathematical perspective. If it works for you, it's great. It's just that I don't think it's possible to plan your "gaming rebellion" like that or to guarantee that you ever come back from it. Good job, be watchful 🙂

The thing is, I already do have a schedule for my work and I organize my life mostly around work. Maybe it's not ideal, but it works well enough for me. Organizing my life around other priorities (e.g. exercise every day at 7, eat, take a shower and start work every day at 9) could work too, but they'd inevitably clash. It always eventually comes down to the fact which activity I prefer. I really like/love spending time with my students AND getting paid for it. All the other things I do are "only" hobbies or second-rank priorities at best, except a few emergencies. Maybe it will change with time in the future. I know "trusting my present self" can be lottery-like, but at the given time I already know whether or not I already have done the "basics" for the day. It takes the pressure off of me to do something "productive". I can just do a hobby or something else. There are cases where "doing nothing in particular" is the right thing to do. I think having this stuff planned paradoxically reduces the effectiveness of relaxing activities. You're not a machine "down for temporary maintenance" when you relax. The only problem with these people is that you know them because they succeeded. Textbook survivorship bias. If only determination was enough, I'd have been a successful Twitch streamer for some 10 years now. I was persistent. I streamed daily. Maybe it would have worked if I played a bigger game like LoL, WoW, Hearthstone or something else. But there just weren't enough people watching the game I mainly played. And there are even people with a good plan, who work hard and still fail. We all know the people you mentioned thanks 1) to their habits but also 2) extreme luck and circumstances. Hard work does pay overall for most people, but it's not enough to be famous and you have to be careful with using it in the right way.

After my roughly six years of no gaming, I sometimes reminisce the time, but I think I would do that even if I I hadn't gamed. I don't miss games anymore though. It was important for me to accept the past and move on, not to regret it.